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@EternalForest when you really realise that the atheist doesn't exist...you don't argue with him. Knowing is enough, especially when your trying to convince a dream character that he's in your dream. Ok I'm going to give you a few examples to show you the illusions that trap you. Alright, from *my* point of view, it seems as though others have consciousness. I believe they have consciousness, they're just like me in every other way so why would they not also have consciousness like me? Notice, this is STILL only a concept within MY CONSCIOUSNESS. And from your point of view, the idea that I am conscious is still only a concept within YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS. The most rational answer is still within your consciousness. And the idea that it is NOT within your consciousness, is a concept within your consciousness. The idea that consciousness does not exist occurs within your consciousness. Do you see the way this shit goes? You can't beat it. You can only see it. You must use wisdom and deep understanding. Trust the techniques

One of my insights... "Keep an eye out for nearby breakthroughs, things to look out for are; unusual, and *especially fluctuative* emotional and mental patterns, including difficulty to practise all of a sudden, sweeping depression...and apparently a dead giveaway is the natural intuitive sense that you are going to die." However it depends on a lot of things, you, your mental health, your technique, your social life, family life, stress, horemons etc. For example, the natural resting place of my mind is a place of irritation, which becomes torement when it gets worse (when I try to fight it) and if I was to forget to meditate for a day it would come back. In which case it's a good sign, but not a sign of a nearby breakthrough

5meo lol

It's hard to answer that...in short, nah we don't. But also, you don't exist. And also somehow I don't exist.

@OmniYoga once appropriately interpreted, Christianity and the Bible are some of the most powerful tools. Many lessons. God showed me many things from the Bible, but I'm only really tieing them all together now. I remember the first time he told me he was me ?

@Shaun I've had moments recently where I've felt completely and absolutely trapped in a fucking living nightmare mate...feeling like I was schizophrenic psychopath...in tears in front of my dad. Part of it is not knowing whether it's from the meditation (ego backlash), just my head (since my mental health past isint great, neither is my mum's) or a mixture of both. I think my most helpful insights regarding emotions and mental health is, I know we are taught to embrace suffering when it comes...but do not mistake this to mean "welcome suffering". You don't want to be actually creating energy that will cause the suffering to come back. We should embrace all of reality as is *naturally* is...including your nature to want to be happy. There is a difference between experiencing actual authentic transformation and denial of reality. This is a trap within Christianity, the Bible says the fruit of the Spirit is; love, joy, peace, patience, goodness faithfulness, kindness, gentleness and self control. But because Christian's don't know how to actually contact the spirit of God authentically, they need to force themselves to *act* as *though* they have love, joy, peace, patience, goodness...etc. true acceptance is not manipulating reality at all. This includes not minipulating yourself when you notice yourself about to manipulate reality. Allowing, *especially* these subtle meta realities. Go to the doctor is you feel like it. If you feel like you want to blast music and smoke pot to feel better, then embrace it. If you then think "oh I can't do that, it'll make me dependant on grass to feel better" ...accept this thought to. And accept the fact that you want to accept these thoughts also. In one sense god is not within reality, ...so this is a also a subtle lesson about the impossibility of the task of "reaching" god. Subtle. How can you reach for something, that isint something? Hahaha

@Cortex somehow "god" as my Christian religion raised me to call...him.....taught me how to "hear his voice" and he would tell me shit all the time. sometimes I'd know when something was just about to happen, moments where I knew what my lecturers were going to say...in detail. I've also had moments of incredible brain activity where I was able to figure out and entire situation and know exactly what I needed to do within one second. There's also a Christian prophetess I know called Danielle and she does this every other day for people. In Christianity she's know as a prophet but she is authentic, this ability is more rare than Christians realise. I've only seen it twice...but never seen it as accurate as Danielle. I remember overhearing her telling people what was going to happen in their future...one time she said to a guy "ok, well your in Spain and I can see you just standing there" then the guy said "well yes I'm going to spain next week." Then 2 times in particular that really really we're undeniable. The first one was a moment that I vividly remember...I was sitting on my bed in the spot I'm in right now and I was watching Leo, and this was back when I was just slightly interested in his vids, then I remember God impressed upon my heart, knowledge that was beyond me...and I said out loud "how can this guy have more spiritual knowledge than my Christian teachers?" And I just knew something was up. Then the voice came and said "ex marks the spot dig here." And I instantly knew that god was telling me to listen to leo. And this goice is always right... The second undeniable time was when I had just got properly into spirituality and phycs and I went to see Danielle and I told her that god was real and that I had come to discover that through meditation, the previous week I had done my first phyc, LSD and I had smoked grass a number of hours before I seen danielle. She didn't like a lot of the stuff I had to say about "ancient Buddhist meditation techniques." Her religious side was influencing her perhaps. But she turned around to me and said "I dunno I just feel like it's some hippie stuff and that you've taken LSD and your stoned." Now...this was 2 days after I took LSD for the first time ever...that......was an incredibly accurate word. My most influential Christian teachers was a man called Andrew wommack of colerado springs...a Christian spiritualist converted from religion to a more authentic version of Christian spirituality. Apparently god told him one day not to go on his flight to a different country one time and he did what he felt and the entire plane crashed on take off and killed everyone on board instantly. Now I know how rare shit like this *actually* is. Only people who I like to call the "chosen" have these actual authentic supernatural phenomenon. And I know how rare it is because THAT is very very VERY rare from my observation. And even the people who ARE lucky enough to discover these teachings ..I think a lot have a hard time perfecting their practises and getting any real spiritual progress. I think most paranormal stuff is BS tho...I'm sure I'll be proved wrong somehow though ? I know somehow it's all real, everything seems to end up being real when I dig deep enough into meditation

@Serotoninluv how do you get students? Do they have to apply to be your students? And you advertise in the news paper "enlightened guru, $10 an hour for teaching" Is there a place you go?

@martins name the word "god" is useful for a variety of things. For example, letting go. It's hard to give away your control when you don't know what it is your trying to give your control away to. I think the concept it ok when it's understood.

The IRA, Republican paramilitaries of northern ireland. Around my part we have the likes of the UDA, UVF, UFF, which are all protestant. I kind of like the idea of having power like those organisations do, something within me that really likes a bit of evil for some reason. But the top dogs of these gangs are rolling in tonnes of laundered drug cash. Wee northern Ireland gets most of her drug trade from imports and home grows via paramilitary organisations. But the fighting has eased quite a bit at the minute

@Wisebaxter I'm pretty sure everything is cause and effect. Would I be typing these words right now if you hadn't have replied?

It's your spiritual powers bro

Yeah yeah, both

No matter what decision you make, no matter how complex the systems that lead you to make the final decision, no matter how random you make your selection...it was always going to be like that and not any other way. From what I have seen. It is not my choice to be writing this right now. And if I decided to not write this, that's what has been predestined to. Also, I don't think you can "choose" to awaken...I think it's that you become aware that you are no the one who chooses

In my opinion, nobody has, is or will ever be "ready" for enlightenment. I think there needs to be a certain level of intelligence...or perhaps a certain "kind" of Intelligence. This is my observation also. It is also my motivation for it. But because of the nature of enlightenment, it doesn't matter how you get there...all that matters is, you get there.

I hope I get a really long long life so that when I've been meditating hard with 3 sits a day and phychdelic retreats and constant mindfulness practise for 50 years I'll be one heavily enlightened boi #Letstrythe5meo

@The Don big time...the more I delve into consciousness the more I realise how time is an illusion. Definitely grasping the magic of the "now" is important... especially with regards with building motivation for things like meditation and regular self enquiry. The more I understand reality experientially, the more I see how incredible my existence right NOW is. It's something like. I've never liked writing notes on things...my philosophy [with writing things down] is, if it's important enough I'll remember it. I trust my subconscious and conscious mind, they are very very powerful and I think academia definitely has it's limitations. Creativity and the ability to use your own intellect are, in my opinion, far superior methods of education than the likes of memorisation etc. However, I don't see anything wrong with writing it down. Leo says it helps you focus. Well...yeah I'd say that's accurate like I definitely have a form of neurosis...tendencies that flow similar to hypochondria. Minor mental illness. However, it seems as though this kind of "illness" is closely linked to a high level of natural, intellectual, intelligence that has not been learned in a classroom. Look at the great minds the past...a lot of them were a bit.....mentally strange. I do want to say one thing though, from what I have seen in my own experience you cannot cure this kind of thing. I find that because neurosis *IS* the mind...trying to use the mind to stop it would be like trying to stop a car by pushing the accelerator harder. I have tried many many ways to stop it, and i can't. The best thing you can do is learn how to really let go at a very deep level. Neurosis is the controlling of a situation... overthinking, control control control. Letting go of control is the only way trust me. Self enquiry is more powerful than meditation. Make sure you do it

Last night I took a large dose of ketamine (leo doesent recommend ketamine because it's addictive, but a vendor accidentally shipped me it so I thought I might aswell use it). Not gonna buy any more after anyway. The first time I used it I was just about to meditate when I took a line of it, and it felt sooooo connecting and deep. By the end of the meditation sit i had gone into a slight trance and my eyes were filled up with tears ? it was lovely like. But...*yesterday* I took a large portion of it and i actually remember somehow knowing that if I took one more line I was not gonna be the same person afterwards. I took the extra line and EVERYTHING started speaking to me. The whole of my surroundings was speaking directly to *me* at one point it *literally* spoke the words "enlighten me" twice. It's hard to describe how it felt. It felt like it was all there just for me lol ?? I have never had such a confirmation like that before. I had to just sit and stare at it. There was an incredible feeling of connectedness between me and everything else. At this point in my journey I'm experiencing some doubts and questions but it become sooooo transparent that this was because I was slowly getting ENLIGHTENED! It felt amazing. I got a huge insight. The insight that I need to LET GO. My whole life I'd been trying to control my spirituality, trying to closely monitor my emotions and everything...I realised that any mental illness or anything I had in the past was there because I still hadn't let go! During last night's experience I also had sensations of deep understanding, incredible clarity and major major simplicity. My surroundings also spoke to me "I just woke up and I'm here and that's all I know" haha it was AMAZING. Unfortunately it was also clear, near the end of it, that it wasnt enlightenment. But sure, it'll come eventually. This is DEFINITELY setting me up to take 5-MeO-DMT and stuff. I realise that letting go is a big big factor...I guess I didn't even know how to let go before this experience. It was like there was no space between me and what I was watching. In my opinion the most important thing I got from these experiences was the clarity to see that I am DEFINITELY on the right path. The path to end all paths. There was also a heavy sense of childishness to my experiences, it felt like all of the deep philosophical teachings of leo and mooji and all the enlightened boys were just so easy to see and so simple. I feel ready for 5meo now ? this was a lovely experience. I know that my confusion and disorientation will only grow now though...so there's that to look forward to ?

be sure your focusing on the sensation of the air passing through the nostrils and be careful that your not focusing on an image in your mind, of the air passing through the nostrils

its hard...cuz everything is an illusion somehow......im not gona pretend like i have this revelation in the bag (not yet) but i understand that you guys are all not real and that your all me lol. and that everything your saying is me

christianity is by far my favourite religion. I was raised christian and i had to break free from the ideology of it all...but now that i understand what it means, im going back to church and everything haha. Its strange how people can be 100% correct and accurate with truth, and yet be 100% wrong at the same time. jehova's witnesses are also a good one, i was taught that they were heretics haha. they believe "as god is, man can become and as man is God once was" which is of course completely correct. Then you have Mormons, those guys like fluffy undergarments

@Wisebaxter i, to, have a very very overactive mind...i get very irritated when something isint 100% PERFECT* and even though ive been meditating for 5 and a half months now, i still get very angry and stuff sometimes. Like you, also, i play the piano and thought it was pretty cool that you do to. You know i thought DMT was gona be all calming and relaxing when i went to smoke it but it was just very very very strong...i did ketamine while meditating yesterday and i just broke down into tears half way through my sit it was truly amazing. Im interested in learning about modafinil definitely gona check it out....i like drugs that calm you down and just make everything wavy, ket does this big time...but its also addictive and onlylasts an hour.

man there's nothing wrong with a little accuracy. Nothing at all...this has sped up my enlightenment process...quick time

@Peo "This is a question i have wondered for quite a time now. Some people spend 50 years chasing enlightenment and they dont achive it. While some people acchive enlightenment not knowing anything about it, just one day it just hit them out of nowhere. For example Eckhart tolle attain one of the deepest enlightenment. It just happend to him one night. He had no idea what happend to him before he looked it up. He went from stage 1 in the oxherding pictures to picture 5 or 6. Do anyone have a answer to why some people attain enlightenment faster then other people?" - (didn't let me quote you for some reason) ...dawg I think it's a pity I'm not automatically enlightened ffs, tell me about it. But I can tell you more me thing, you need to be adaptive and fucking *intelligent and very clever and flexible when your dealing with your mind......constantly adjusting your techniques listening to the voice of God for guidance. It's like regular workouts, you could achieve more doing 10 reps once with correct form than you would if you did 40 reps with incorrect form. Form is just as important in spirituality and just like in body workouts, the form relaxes, becomes lazy. Someone who will get enlightened is someone who can be creative as fuck na' mean. You've got to think outside the box...and then you've got to fucking transcend the box and realise that the box is your fabrication. I don't wantknow what the word for this would be... cunning? Intuitive? Sorry for the spelling mistakes fs

@clouffy the way I see it...you can go to school, work your ass off and even get a good job to sit for 20-40 years at the end of your life enjoying ice cream and grandchildren and then die and cease to exist for all of eternity and NEVER...........E.V.E.R come back. Ever. And that's it. Or you can spend this ONE, SINGLE chance to pursue transcension of all of these things. Becoming the knower of all truth, becoming one with the universe, becoming COMPLETELY aware of life's purpose and experiencing a life, fully enlightened...literally, as God himself. People throw their life away...the very fact we are even aware of this stuff is INCREDIBLY lucky. Definitely suffer from what you would call mental illness. I think it is what drives is partly...or what drives me at least. But I like it, I'd rather have it if it means becoming enlightened. I know I more than likely wouldn't be as devoted if it wernt for it. Plus I'm finding that the mechanics of how my mental illness functions are starting to decrease in strength. Great strength usually births from great pain. But yo mate...you really have to say fuck you to all the rules and be super creative with your practises and stuff. In my opinion, anyone who doesn't say "fuck the world and all of its rules" at some point in their life...isint the smartest. I feel like the one and only way to truly enjoy life to the fullest, is to FULLY accept Jesus and realise that EVEN IF YOU DONT GET ENLIGHTENED, doing the spiritual practises will have a profoundly positive impact on your human life. In my opinion, this is the only logical path. Infact, I think it's the only path...death comes to us all. That is what this is, the path of death. Rember! You need to say "fuck everything" including all the advice you get from this community of seekers. To experience fast and authentic growth you need to become independent, don't believe me or anyone else. For God's sake, take life by the balls...mental illness and all and don't stop squeezing until your sorted out.