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@Manjushri spiritual work does not require you to neglect any aspect of your physical human life. The ying and the yang need one another and to neglect either would be foolish, the physical and the spiritual. I actually had a bad LSD trip recently and i looked like a fuckin meth adict for 12 hours and i felt like my life was going to shit because of how disconnected i had become as a result of my meditation...but then i realised that enlightenment does not take you away from a human life... in fact it is the ONLY way to experience a truely normal human life. What im trying to say is, if you are losing a grip on your physical life then know that you dont have to. Enlightenment will not destroy your life, it will create it. Try this, start spending time meditating on new areas of life that you wish to embark on...new activities, ways to make money, develop your physical body and your relationship with your family. when i miss a day of meditation i feel it strongly knocking at the door. Enlightenment is my only hope, and i like it that way. I like the fact that i am weak without meditation and spirituality...it keeps me focused as FUCK. 2 practical tips for you, dont do psychedelics if you have a predisposition to any mental disorders and also, when you feel an "attack" coming (if you do experience this) just force yourself to question it over and over again saying "who is the one who observes this thing?" (allowing yourself to actually become aware of who it is that is actually observing, not just giving a mental answer). Remember, dont just try to "do" new things. you must allow yourself to enter into the new place *in your consciousness* and allow it to saturate your vibrational frequency so it can conceive in your mind...otherwise the growth will be hollow. Learn how to plant seeds of growth deep within your being.

@Charlotte ok...I know when someone wants to talk to me before I see them. Theres all kinds of weird shit....I can predict things INCREDIBLY accurately now Also, I've started doing this thing where I can change things about my life by focusing really hard.

@Nahm well...it's mostly confusion still I'll be completely honest. Definitely lots and lots of confusion. I can feel it pulling me though. It's hard though, it feels like I'm completely in the dark in spite of the incredible clarity that I have seen. It's also a little bit scary...I have no idea wtf is going on haha. Trust is still an instrumental component for now...

@Nahm yeah man, I've been hitting it hard every day...not Gona stop until something gives

@Shadowraix @Leo Gura @Space Good shit gentlemen, good shit. This has saved me unnecessary time and effort. Thank you

I'm just being 100% sure this is the right stuff. I need to test LSD, DMT and 5meo. Ain't no way in fuck I'm doing 5meo before testing it. This eBay add says this "reagent multipack" is for MDMA but it doesent matter does it? The reagents will still work won't they? Also, does 5-MeO-DMT HCL react differently to freebase? (I'm looking for serious answers on this one boys...I value this body very much, it's handy)

Do 5-MeO-DMT HCL, 5-MeO-DMT Freebase and NN-DMT react the same?@Shadowraix

@GabeN im very very very excited to experience the universe eventually. Exit this stupid dream and enter the "real". Its always been my dream to see the stars. I know I can't see them ATM. I'll be able to see them when I disappear tho

@VictorB02 im not sure what insight meditation is. Self enquiry is where the party is, I'm getting into kryia to. If you don't use self enquiry, you'll waste time (in my humble opinion). I have had...good, results from just doing 40 minutes self enquiry followed directly by 20 minutes of breath focus. TIME. time is like a female, needs to be treated with a certain degree of respect...and you have to have enough attention on it or else lol. Couple interesting aspects about time, the longer you go in one meditation session the better. The time nearing the end of a meditation is the most powerful, most focused. Knowing how to use time to your advantage can double or triple your results (assuming your doing the right practises in the right way). If you meditated for 10 minutes 4 times a day, it would be significantly less potent than meditation for 40 minutes once a day...the effects are exponential. A good example of exponential growth is a snowball rolling down a hill, the bigger the snowball gets, the faster it gets bigger. It's multiplied as opposed to added. Use self enquiry mate

Religious words like "god" or "lord" I find (for me) I need to restrain myself from thinking about old ideology that I created. I like the word "energy" it is the same energy form that I use when I lift my hand. Life energy, I guess. You really need to paint your words colourfully to convey what is unspeakable

I honestly hate the projections of my mind. I can't really stand it. There is nothing that compares to the presence of presence itself

@Patok remember, you are here for truth. The authority must eventually come back to God

It'll throw your sense of reality, so if you want to keep that then dont aim for enlightenment. What I'm trying you is...you don't want to keep it.... Does truth taste bitter? My answer? I don't give a shite...I'm after it because it's truth. Your ego will use this against you, but If you honestly feel like spiritual practises are fuckin Ur head up (like seriously)... probably best to leave it. But be sober and discerning between truth and deception. This goes either way... However, how could a question so simple as "who am I" harm your health. In a way, if you do it right...it will reveal who it is that is observing "your" health and also who is observing your concern, and observing your thoughts on the matter and the one who is observing everything else about you. This it points to..

Yes, fuck everything else ..it's shite anyway

I dont get this yet. How tf is everything identical to truth? It feels like I'm separating truth from these things. I know leo talks about the 2nd process of merging everything back together to make it one. But I seriously haven't seen this whole "oneness" thing yet. I have a feeling tho..that it has something to do with the realisation that this "person" are just more experiences the same as regular external stuff... And then I think that leads to the solidification of the understanding that consciousness is the only thing that exists (which of course is one thing). Doesent feel like this for me yet tho...

Also I have found that meditating, makes you want to meditate...so failing to meditate for a day (at least I find) can be dangerous because you lose the desire.

Hmmm...genuine curiousity? ....... I would sayyyyyyyy, psychedelics. Listen to the voice that speaks to you. Learn how to hear it while not high

@theking00 if your talking about boredom during a meditation retreat, I would recommend staying completely silent the whole time to amplify the boredom significantly. (This will help your results) If you mean in general, I duno just get a gf or some class B drugs.... Just make sure you do your days meditation. Dealing with boredom is a distraction from enlightenment

You are Jesus. Read what he did. He died the most painful death and suffered for ages so he could be resurrected in newness of life. And he went to sit in heaven beside god as his enlightened son. The prophecy of jesus' return will occur when you are enlightened. God will destroy this world and you will reign as a ressurected god for the remainder of your life. And you'll have received the revelation that you will reign for millenia after the body in which you dwell, dies

@Freakrik ok...it feels like you are only one person of manyyyyyyyy people all experiencing this thing "life" doesent it? Wrong, this is an illusion created within *your* consciousness. Your direct experience is the only thing that has ever existed. "Past", "future" and "other people's perceptions" are all perceptions within *your consciousness* Your perception is all that exists. But DO NOT believe this. Do not look for this, your ego will trick you into thinking you have found the answer. It will be clearer that a sledgehammer to the face when you properly get this. Until that sledgehammer hits you, assume I'm neither right nor wrong. This work is meant to get you out of assumptions and beliefs not further into them.

Jesus had to experience hell before he experienced enlightenment. Evil is only a bad thing when you abuse it. Everything has its place. Accept yourself (all parts of yourself, including the evil parts) and you won't need to try to accept others

@Bluebird Best thing for me concerning love was learning how to work with evil. Evil is only an interpretation of different kinds of existence..but it turns out "moral" people have deep 'self-issues' because they're repressing their desires because they've labelled them "evil." Think of it like this, the best way a government can deal with something "bad" like drugs (lol) is legalising the drugs. Instead of outright banning the drugs, when they legalise it they gain power of control over it. It's much better to work with evil than it is to deny it. Especially when this "evil" is within you. When you hold a firm belief about your own morals, you form subliminal judgements against other people if they fail to meet your (self-repressive) moral code. Notice how hobos and poor people are the most kind and generous? People who have given in to the evil desires of slothfulness and ended up poverty stricken are the most kind and generous?... understanding.....and the rich man with a suit doesent care.

Haha you'll be dead

@Maya_0 I felt the coolest thing lately, when I ask "who is the one who observes" it nearly feels like it's not me...like it's something else is watching it...something that is everywhere, that's is always everywhere..

As of late I have (very clearly and obviously) observed that the more I do this work the more I feel a strong wave of utter non-interest with absolutely EVERYTHING around me. I'm not Gona lie, while one part of me wants it...one part of me wants to have it back Is it healthy to detach like this? Its not like I'm forcing it. The number of friends I have dwindle because I'm uninterested, loss of interest in social life and things like family and education. Has anyone else experienced this? And is it harmful or helpful? Cheers