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Also...I have to say, do not believe what I said (trap)

I just keep a loose understanding of spirituality...I actually like it when I'm confused about "spiritual" stuff. Just your phrase "filling my mind with spirituallity" raised a little bit of worry for me because spirituallity cannot be known in the mind...I find that I need to surrender to not knowing and just trust that I will start to realise that I existed before knowledge. What I am is always here, so all I have to do is observe what can be removed from me without causing me to be removed. All spirituallity is a lie, and enlightenment is this realisation. There is no seeker. These are my insights.

All I know is, enlightenment is the realisations that enlightenment doesn't exist, but also that nothing else exists. And the only thing that matters is finding myself. It's true that you can't achieve enlightenment, but this realisation *IS* enlightenment. I don't care for doctrine or dogma, the proof of tht pudding is in the eating...and leo has done plenty of eating from the fruit on the tree of life

The kryia book says that the seeker can obtain control over the elements when they reach a certain point

Step four in "Om Japa" for kryia yoga says "repeat step 3 for the second third 4th and 5th chakras and medulla. Pauae...once for Chakra duration at medulla..." What does it mean "[pause] once for chakra duration" What does "chakra duration" mean here?

@NoSelfSelf but it also says to pause before you chant as you go back down the chakras after medualla

@GabrielWallace "She claims that these days she only ever feels love, and no other emotion (although she's contradicted this a few times without realizing it). She completely lights up when talking about meditation and the 'wellspring' she goes into when she is there, and she says that her only life purpose is to be there. She says that before she learned to meditate and found her 'peaceful wellspring', every day of her life was torture. She's never seen any meaning in life, and still doesn't, but the meditation takes her away from the torture and into love." - this is classic. Exactly the same thing happened with me. Every day was torture for me, every single day. Meditating takes it away and it becomes the love of your life. When you experience that much pain and something just takes it away, you become obsessed with it. And your saying how she can act strange sometimes, it's because a lot of the pain is still there. Exact same with me. " I asked her to talk more about what she meant, and she told me about how she has "always felt trapped in the body" " - yeah it's probably some kind of mental illness like anxiety or depression or both. (Turned out I had both) Ok to me it sounds like there is some deep pain stemming from somewhere. This was, once again, the exact same for me. This kind of pain is very very confusing and disorienting indeed. You could try to get her to open up to a doctor. Explain to her that if she is feeling these negative things it could be that there is anxiety or depression at the root. Very very common, especially now a days. Explain that sometimes people experience very extreme mental and emotional pain and that, if it's reoccurring, then she can get help. I remember for ages I only had meditation and that was the only thing that took the pain away, until I explored medical and professional help. The medication kicked in and I started speaking to counsellors. Now it's much much better. It's probably something like that. Especially anxiety. the nature of anxiety makes a person believe that there are all kinds of things wrong with them, everywhere they look within themselves day she suffering because they are looking through the lens of anxiety. Severe anxiety time lead to extreme discontentment, suffering and u explainable Pain. And it remains hidden. This may be the case, as it was also the case for me

I'm starting to feel extremely depressed with anxiety thrown in there to. Is this a sign of awakening or a real problem. I am consultating my doctor and I'm getting help. But I need some enlightened people to just give their God's honest truth...it feels like I'm tripping without being high, and my emotions are constantly prone to negativity except when I smoke grass...when I smoke it all eases. What you guys think?

For a while now my routine has been; 5 minutes locating chakras, 10 or so mins kryia yoga, 30 mins self enquiry, 10 mins do nothing. However I'm worried that I need to do some concentration work like vepaasana or something. I find the "do nothing" at the end of a sit extremely insightful, but would you guys say something like vepaasana is just as important? I haven't been doing any

@Pacific Sage hey dude. Yeah things are a lot better now. One thing that I'm really holding on to...I'm observing myself becoming a hell of a lot more mature, much less opinionated and just a bit better. I took a break for like, 3 days and got straight back onto the path. I want to integrate more kryia yoga, phychdelic retreats and Kundalini yoga (at this cool yoga studio in Belfast I've spotted). I've got some medication for anxiety and depression. I'm going to start exercising because I've noticed I'm not using my body physically anywhere near as much as before I started heavily meditating. And just yesterday I started talking to this nice girl who I really vibe with, hopefully that works. I'm also moving towards a managerial position in my workplace as well. Just this evening I really felt the joy of the presence of God for the first time while not meditating. I felt him speak happiness into my heart. I know that enlightenment is still the only thing that matters to me. I've started to directly experience reality in a new way, and I'm starting to see certain things line up. I'm motivated now more than ever

@Mu_ if a seeker is doing powerful techniques correctly (regular phyc's retreats included) is it true that it's just a matter of time.before he is enlightened?

I'm Irish, so we usually like to drink. I actually find that alcohol really exposes consciousness effectively sometimes depending on what I'm drinking etc. There's been sometimes where I have big insights while drunk

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I know reality is a fucking dream, and I am determined to experience this directly...even if it fucking kills me. And I want it to

Consciousness creates the brain, the brain does not create consciousness. Also, do not believe this. Belief is not what you are aiming for at all. It must be experienced. Also...everything is consciousness. The thought "everything isint consciousness," is an idea occurring, also, within consciousness. Allow yourself to think ideologically. Your not removing anything, your just recognising what is you.

Ok...I would be careful. Because you can get very very discouraged by seeking enlightenment for something like that. Enlightenment is hard to achieve...you need to be very dynamic and adaptable and clever. Your meditation needs to be on point, powerful, consistent. However, I will say this... spiritual practises took away all of my depression and anxiety for a full year. I'm having to deal with all the repressed emotions now, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that hardcore spiritual practises are effective at transforming your life. BUT this can become very very lonely and isolated if not understood correctly. You must appreciate the present moment. And there are things that can help you right now. Counselling, clubs and groups (with common interests...video games club for example, or sports). One thing I highly recommend is anti anxiety and anti depression medication. There are many simple simple ways that you can help yourself. Anxiety tends to lead someone to overthink...focus on simplicity and remember, you don't need to be normal, you just need to be confident. I know what it's like to be an outcast, to not fit in anywhere. But then I started working on my physical appearance and stuff...you can do the same. If your finding it hard to interact with girls, I recommend dropping 90% of all of your tactics and theories. Bring it back to 2 steps, simple conversation (with compliments) and smoothness/some confidence. One of the hardest things with anxiety is remembering that it's quite simple. So continue the spiritual stuff, but get the rest of the help you need

@herghly why not continue the spiritual practise? You don't need to be in a state of mindfulness throughout the entire day, just do a sit every morning

Ok, I'm gonna level with you. You are God. Whether you realise it or not, you are. Also, do not believe this. To do so would be to fall into a major trap. Also, do not disbelieve this, also a trap. Instead, neither believe me or disbelieve me, do the practises, make sure you do them right, listen to your heart(god) he will guide you, and then eventually you will realise the truth. Remember, don't believe or disbelieve me, shelf everything I say and walk the path of direct experience. Find the thing that your referring to when you say the word "me". Is it the heart? It can be replaced, while *you* are not replaced. You are not the heart. Lungs? Replaceable. Memory? Your memory can fall away, while you do not fall away. Your not your memory. Assume you don't know and keep looking, what are you? The brain? Which part [experientially]? The thoughts? Is that "you"? The thoughts rise and fall away, while you remain..they are not you either. What is it that does not move, or fall away. What watches everything as it moves and changes. Be clear, specific, aware. Are you the behavioral patterns? They can change...whole you remain. Your emotions rise and fall away, while you remain. What about if your intelligence fell away? Would you still be here? Yes. You are the one who observes the intelligence. For now, forget all the spiritual teachings and just focus on trying to find the thing that does not move...the thing that is "you" then you will see. Stop trying to find god. Find yourself...that's the only thing that you need to remember. Period. PERIOD. Anything more will destroy your path

HAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHA YES

Thanks guys

SO. A little background...I made a post on here a short while ago about how I was going through a craptonne of suffering for like a week solid. Turns out it was pure anxiety. I had been smoking marijuana basically every [other] day for like, at least a year and also I feel like there was a lot of repressed anxiety to. It was pretty severe during that week or two when it all came up out of me and while I meditated it got worse, but I kept pushing through it and I'm glad I did. Phyc's are a massive help for spiritual stuff...and that is something I don't want to miss out on. However, I'm worried for my anxiety. During my first trip it was amazing with no anxiety until the end, but my second trip was absolutely terrifying anxiety. I'm now on anti-anxiety meds, and I want to get my current dose doubled. Do you guys think this with counteract the effects of the anxiety during a phyc trip? I'm laying off the grass. I really really want to use phycs. What are you guys recommendations?

When I struggle to sleep I imagine a story happening. Like a visual story of a horse that escapes his field and runs and runs and bumps into things like lakes and other animals and maybe he falls and hurts his leg, then a kind farmer finds him and treats his wounds. Visualization really helps. That's where the stereotype of watching sheep jump over a fence to help to sleep, comes from.

God's lead me to kryia yoga, phychdelic's, self enquiry and I'm starting kundalini yoga soon. Be careful with phcy's, they can drastically amplify anxiety, can be overwhelming, and can be cut with shit. Mushrooms is safest, but let your heart lead you. Ultimately one foundational thing for me is the desire. I can only describe my desire for enli as something invisible, and yet incredibly strong...not tangible, but still leads me to meditate over 200 hours already. Also, if you can...do take phyc's. It's a big boost, but wait till you get some conceptual understand built up. Whatever it is that is "you" it cannot rise and fall away (like your thoughts for example, or a cold...these things fall away and yet you have not fallen away. Find the thing that cannot fall away. Is it your physical heart? No, it can be replaced whole you remain. Is it your happiness? You'll find it's also not you, because it can fall away...while you remain. Is it personality? Which personality atribute in particular? Your general behavioral patterns, how you act? If you no longer behaved that way would you still be here? Do not cross over into the realm of imagination. You are the one who sees the imagination. My words are true.

7:10 I thought he said "god is that which transcends FUCK." HAHA

@moon777light ok this is a good thing to consider...because it can happen. And that would be shit. I see my meditation practise like gym workouts, your form needs to be on point all the time or else you won't target the correct muscles and won't make any notifiable progress. In self enquiry it's about finding what it is that you mean when you say the word "me." Allow your imagination and direct experience to mix during this. One important rule, assume there is a "you" that is here...hold to that authentic feeling that there is a "you" and start to dig. Right now in the present moment would you still be here if you lost your memory? What about if your personality changed would you still be there? What doesn't come and go? Because logically that is you. What cannot leave? Your heart can be replaced, that's not you, your lungs can be replaced that's not you...where is this "you" exactly? Also, don't see self enquiry as something where you need to quiet your mind...not at all. If your mind is being busy, ask...who is the one who is having these thoughts? Is it a person? Ok, which aspect of the person is not removable? Where is the solid ground that cannot move? And don't leave it at so etching general like "my life" what *exactly* are you. Kryia yoga will get you into shape to. And phychdelic retreats every so often.