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  1. Thanks for sharing. Even though it's not the full version, (the full version is 8 hours long), still listening this is great.
  2. Thank you for the replies. It's been one month and I'm still practicing what you've suggested to me. I'm trying not to cling on (not to care) my thoughts. What I've found is that, this is another 'self' related problem. This goes too deep, to where 'others and me' dualism exist.
  3. Thank you, this video has nice metaphors and great explanation.
  4. One of the facet of awakening is realized when one realize that self is not that it's ego/mind. So in that sense one have not always have to run with its ego/mind. It just serves for survival. At some point one can learn the relationship of it's ego/mind with self. Even when one learn or realize this and become that, it still have to work with it's mind. What is relative is that sometimes it will run fast, sometimes it will walk. That always depends on one's life. It's always possible for one to fall back to it's ego/mind. Once and forever idea is all up to you.
  5. Hello all, I would like to share a few things, hoping to find solutions to my problems with fitting in society. I live in a (mostly) blue / orange society. I have no claim as to where I am in the spectrum. Whenever possible, I try to keep my ego under observation, and if I have a problem with my relationships, I question whether the source of this is a reflection of my thoughts. I observe that my relationship with people constantly changes inconsistently as long as I try to be myself. One of the reasons I have experience this, is that as my sharing with people progresses, they realize that I am contrary to the structure and thoughts accepted by the society. This is not a matter of life and death for me, but I can see that people are constantly drawing boundaries and acting, and after their expectations are not met, they drop their masks and wear new masks. It makes me sad that people wear new masks after dropping their masks. I can only see the real faces of people in that short time. In order to get along well with people, I don't want to act according to program and satisfy their ego. I don't want to discuss with them the claims about what is right and what is wrong, it doesn't change anything about the truth. Others' thoughts don't bother me, but people always want to argue which seems to me a little robotic. People seem to be creatures marketing their minds to each other. I wish people could be more free from their minds. - In order to have a good relationship with people, I don't want to be a manipulator that constantly looks for what lies beneath their mask and solves what lies in their subconscious mind. I do not want to participate in the race of minds. It doesn't concern me who is the most perfect and who is the worst person. Some think I'm stupid, some think I'm crazy, some think I'm smart and different. And I feel like a madman living amongst mad people. - It is impossible to break with society and it is also difficult not to be under the influence of other minds while living in society. Not caring also brings problems in itself. - Sorry if I didn't explain myself clearly. English is not my native language. What is your advice? Is it all reflections of my thoughts? Am I being narcissistic? I don't want to blame anyone, just looking for an answer to whether these are normal and a sign showing the middle path.
  6. Music is the perfect tool for meditating and observing emotions every day. - The more people who take Spiral Dynamics seriously, the more people will look ahead in the long run. - The problem is not that you're not smart, the problem is that this world was built before you came here.
  7. This is a nice topic. I don't have any resource to share but I can share what I'm experiencing. What I can see is that our breath is constantly changing. It works in the dynamic system and it is connected with the other things in this dynamic system, for example: with our psychological condition. The important thing is: we should constantly be aware of the truth, that is, our breath is simultaneously shaping itself with the other things like our state of mind and body. One can understand effects of breath by observing its 'breath, body, and mind' trio while some situation happening or while being in a state. There, you can explore and find lots of different states, and understand them. You can see how emotions and breath is connected together. I think that breathing rhythms, patterns, and states of mind can differ from person to person. Therefore I don't think that there is a specific information that works for everyone. This is what led me to learn from my observations.
  8. Thank you. This book clarified everything to me a little more. But I'm not exactly sure what to do with the schemas in the book. Is it normal to notice lots of details and gather lots of information while observing the one? It makes me a little anxious. When I see that I have no control on this machine, I feel like things can happen out of my control. And while I'm in that state I see that actually lots of things happening out of my control. I'm afraid. I can't be sure if that is a delusion, psychosis, derealiziation, awakening, or something else. (In depth, I find labeling things is just escaping the truth.) After these experiences I ask myself "Was that my mind or did I actually see what's already there?". However, the last time, I forced myself to observe things in order to understand what is actually happening. For instance: I recognized the details of my breath, the differences between the patterns of breath. But that experience was not like "Man, that's cool.". Instead it was serious and neutral, and maybe it was a little cold or unknown to me. IMO, I'd call it as a mystical experience, rather than calling hippy woo-woo stuff as a mystical experience. To sum up, these are all unknown and new things to me. I'm overanalyzing. - Thank you for all of the replies.
  9. @Serotoninluv That's very clear. Thank you for the reply. - Now I genuinely see that how knowledge and experience are two different things.
  10. By deluded I mean it feels very different. I can't describe. I know and see that words are not enough to describe consciousness at all. While it's happening I feel like I'm watching everything from above. Or with another definition: before, I was trying to see everything from above; now, I'm. Imagine you're watching your mind, emotions etc. continously. But freely. But in every aspect. I can't be sure if it comes from my mind / ego. I think by forcing myself I can't have freewill. So I should ask myself "Is there any freewill?" And I realized that again, I fear of doing wrong. Thanks for the reply.
  11. From time to time I see myself like a machine and when that is happening, in the middle of my experience, I'm being aware of my body totally with some psychologically or consciously neutral place. (Catching these type psychological - physical relationships is very awkward.) After following this path, my perspective or experience becomes very sharp, like I'm still, here and now. At the moment it becomes a choice to stay thoughtless and mindfully. But from another kind of perspective that feels totally wrong / deluded because it's not happening continously. I wanted to share this to understand that if is there anything wrong with this feeling? Do you ever feel like this?
  12. Control of the breath is unimaginably important. The more you observe the more you become.
  13. Early realization before transcending yourself may cause you to commit suicide. Know your limit.
  14. I'm watching the city at the moment and thinking about why humanity still loves fear, pain, and suffering. I see that humans took their survival guaranteed for a long time ago. We're here, serving to world and life, consciously or unconsciously. Everything is so clear to see and simple to recognize, but humankind still lives like they have to survive in a wild forest. We love to hate, kill, win, fear, give pain to others. We love to feel pain and suffer. But this only creates an infinite loop in our daily lives. Humanity lives in everyday panic mode. Our minds became a wild forest which we have to survive inside of it every day. We're free, but our minds are telling us what's true and false as if it's our parents. We live like a child who secretly fears everything around him, but which actually in its heart wants to explore everything. We fear from our unlimited selves. We want unconditional love, but then ask why to love. We're the one that creates everything and then acts like we never created anything. We forgot so we started to search for an answer, reason, and meaning. We lost ourselves in our creativity. We fear to love, but love to fear.
  15. Spiritual ego could be hardest thing to surrender.