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@lostmedstudent I can say from my own path that you will go a crazy road which will seem as non real etc., but in the end you will come back to reality, but you will merge both the unreal and the real into one.

@lostmedstudent I drew a graph representing an idea how it works, the line which curves is your level of consciousness. The peak experience you went through were when you were on ayahuasca the fat line in the middle is the level of consciousness that you get awakenings etc. Hope this helps.

Consciousness fell down to your base line (a little higher than it was) and you are not able to see what you seen in that peak Consciousness trip. The only key to these realizations is CONSCIOUSNESS. That's why Leo always talks about increasing your consciousness. Ahh the game realization is so deep, but it's one of the first realizations of many that you had to awake to. There is so much more.. I could only advise you to start doing Kriya Yoga, it will not only increase your levels of consciousness that you could be in a permanent non-dual state of awareness, but it also will heal your body through your energy centers (chakras).

@Mada_ The idea is great, but once it comes to the mega-thread IMO it's just shit. You ask questions there and no one answers, you put it up on the forum with a new thread about your problem boom you get responses. It's great for the initial hype when it's new, later it just dies out.

@barcos Notice that other people don't affect you anymore, they are just like butterflies flying everywhere. You don't notice them so much, but they are still there in the background

Take your money situation into your own hands. For now this spiritual path is just a distraction. You could argue that you don't give a shit about work or money, but I can guarantee that you have fears about changing your profession, learning new skills getting a better job etc. If you have enough money in your pocket you could easily just fly off to India once a year for a few weeks and continue your spiritual growth. Don't be a poor man that fears dedication on work, whats the point being enlightened when you have money problems, believe me you wont be able to let go fully when you have money problems in your mind (it's not like you are broke, but you understand me). Yes pursue the path to enlightenment, but once you complete it you go full-circle which ends up right where you begun. Spend your youth years figuring out how to improve your life financially. Go back to the basics like Maslow's triangle model, you can't jump ahead, you will suffer in the end and YOU KNOW IT.

Way too often. Read rollsafe.org , the safe way is going once every 3 months. And yes I do feel some negative effects after the MDMA trip that's why I don't fuck with it, every person that I talk to who has tried said the same - It's not that healthy for your body/mind.

@ElvisN lol I've seen this one, I assumed it was gonna be a great explanation, but yet it wasn't.

I did MDMA with my wife and it helped a lot in our relationship. Also I could use it alone and just heal myself to the fullest with love that MDMA brings. Hell of a tool, but needs the right setting, being at home, all alone or with a really good friend who wont burst into dancing and distracting your ass

In this work ego is great. The bigger or the worst it is, the better the letting-go of it will be. The better the transformation, more tears and joy. And after that you will still use ego elements in the daily life. But there's a catch to this. You might not get enlightened in one swoop, it may take you dozen of years and in those dozen of years you will get so many ego backlashes that it will make you sick of all of the enlightenment work. Also I read that you can get deep insights and yet still not lose the ego that you are attached, that can be horrific experiences. You will want to lose it, but the ego resists. All in all you have to have something in order to lose it. Have a big ego so it could impact you more. Have you ever seen criminals going spiritual? That's a big transformation

@jj40 I have it too, some fear just pops up out of nowhere. It's like I'm doing yoga and an idea hits me "Is my wife okey? Did I lock the door? The oven might be burning now" etc. Do not move an inch when you get scared. Stay in it. Also move when you are really in danger like you smell smoke or someone is breaking in your house. But if the fear is internal just surrender, if you gonna die now - die. Surrender to your death.

All of your chakras are open. If some of them would be fully closed you would be dead.

@Raptorsin7 When you strive for "peak experience" you never obtain it.

It's a process, you have to be willing to die over and over again.

@petar8p You are literally God, you just haven't realized it yet. You still keep "thinking" that you are this human (well you are a "human", but this human is a mini version of a God, God in limited form (you will realize this when you awake). After my several awakenings to God consciousness I can say that you can be conscious as a God, you just haven't reached that level yet. Often times when I end my yoga session when I open my eyes it feels as if God was looking, not my fake ego identity. It comes and goes, my over-all consciousness is not that high to continue to be in that God consciousness state 24/7. Brief moments are enough for now, helps not to forget and not to fall down the rabbit hole of illusions of a self.

@The Don "Depression" is just a sign that MAYBE you are not in-line with your lifes purpose. Maybe you are slacking off with something that distracts you from your true goal in this life. Deep down you know whats causing this, maybe you just need some time off from everything, maybe you are tired, maybe your MANLY core values are not met. Only YOU can know whats wrong.

It's scary for the ego, not for your true self. If you are scared and resisting the experience that means you are in the ego mind.

@Yannik If shit goes down, remember - everything is gonna be all right.

Patreon is a collective donation support, when you see other people supporting it encourages others to be more generous, loving and pay some amount of money to their creators, single donations are shit, I always hated them. When it's a mob of conscious people supporting it feels way way different, it feels like you are giving back, even if it's 5 dollars.

Your consciousness might be low. Having higher consciousness and overall awareness (body, emotions, etc.) will make you feel really subtle effects to any substances. Example - When I smoked weed I always wanted to get super high, so I smoked a lot. Once I started to meditate and do Yoga I started to get super high from very low amounts of weed, which made me realize that I have a more subtle awareness when I'm on substances. I feel it way way more, I'm not that numb anymore. If that's the case for you - take in 200 and have a friend who can spot you. A GOOD friend who knows what hes doing. Also - surrender fully.

@CreamCat That's what you get when the ego tries to KNOW everything.

God is doing you right now, he is creating/imagining you right now at this very moment, but you need to become conscious of what "infinite intelligence" is. Then you will understand what matter is. It's all imagined into existence - into matter - into YOU.

@Mezanti The slower you breathe the less the mind is active. Try it yourself, breathe as slow as you can that it's comfortable for you. The mind responds to breathing, the faster you breathe the more anxious the mind becomes and vice-versa. When doing my Kriya I can inhale about 2-3 times a minute, which shuts down the mind drastically. There is still some chatter, but it's way better than it was.

@The Don At this time of the year I also feel some depression symptoms which came out of nowhere, also my wife feels it. Wait for winter (which is far away from now, lol) and things will be better believe me. Just go through it, you are not alone in this one <3

@Swagala Go deeper. There are dozens of enlightenment experiences, there is no SINGLE one, there are many. Infinity, love, nothing, God etc. Everything comes one by one in no particular order. Never seek them, just continue your consciousness practice and these insights will come when they come.