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Oh and when I was riding my bike I realized that I was so much inFlow ?

Raise your consciousness as it will melt away all knots. Having high levels of consciousness is very powerful.

"If i knew then what i know now." If I knew that my trash would smell like this now I would of threw it out yesterday.

@ShugendoRa Drop the full tab and get a trip sitter which you can trust 100%. Taking not enough is always a problem, you have to leave this reality for good when you are tripping. If you are one foot in the trip and the other still in your reality, well then I noticed it can go bad. But if you do not have any experience with psychedelics then be careful, you don't know where it could take you.

Beautiful. Thank you!

Well it actually is. But that doesn't mean it's a bad thing. Nihilists just can't put nihilism on nihilism itself, which would eat itself. This is also true. This is true, but you have to accept suffering to walk this earth, to play here. When you realize who you are suffering still happens, but you just no longer attach that much. The suffering seems so small compared to the scope of the entire universe that it just becomes funny. Ego is suffering, not the Self.

You need to awake to the beauty of reality. When I cry over a heartbreak I see it as absolute beauty, I never ever feel so alive when being is such "hard" emotions. It's utter BEAUTY. It's just a matter of perspective.

Stop poisoning yourself with other peoples negativity.

@Someone here Using physical force to move your body one can perceive as suffering. Have you ever been so lazy that you suffered getting up?

@Megan Alecia either you are tired and need rest or you don't have enough will power. Some time ago I was so lazy that I had tough times to even check if I locked the door before I was going to sleep, I felt like aghhhhhh inside always. By growing my willpower things became easy.

Orange business - low wage. Green business - ok wage. Now you can see how Orange is not sustainable in the long run. As more Green businesses arise people will demand a Green workplace and a Green CEO to run it. Its happening everywhere, simple evolution.

@actualizing25 With my last mystical experience on psychedelics it totally showed whats possible. It also showed a way of living the Good life, the Enlightened life. It is a very powerful tool, but it alone probably won't do it. This work needs a mix of techniques. But psyches sure do help A LOT.

@Dario1995 It just takes one breath to be there.

@Espaim Weed gives you anxiety, stop mixing it with other substances. Ive been there candy flipping, you do not know where it could take you

@Hsinav @Moon @James123 @black_math49 Thank you all. It even feels like this awakening is maturing as time goes by. Things happen to me, but I no longer attach to them anymore as it is so miniscule compared to the grand theme of life

I was on a solo retreat for a week, it was the first one I ever done. I did a lot of kriya yoga, meditation, physical yoga, reading and just sitting with the sound of the forest. On the last day I dropped 170~ug lsd. And oh boy did I awake to my true self. I just sat on the grass looking at a flower field just observing life as it was. It was very beautiful. Then I noticed that I could concentrate not on one spot, but to kinda look at the whole thing without focusing on anything but focusing on everything at the same time. And it was very weird and unusual to do this for some reason so I did it for some time observing what it is as it got weirder and weirder. On the back of my mind I got a little taste that somehow a feedback-loop is happening, but I didn't understand what it was, so I just observed it sitting very still of focused, and after like a minute or so I realized that I'am Consciousness. As soon as that realization happened the ego died. It shut down for about a half an hour leaving me time to explore what I actually am. There was a clear separation from my true self and the ego(the mind). And I felt so empty inside. Just a total nothing, empty nothingness, but there I was. And as soon as I saw that, I saw that in other people, the exact same emptiness. Also I felt like I could go inside my head and reach myself so I just laid on the grass and went inside myself like in self-inquiry and I saw a lot of visuals, a something! So I tried to understand what that it, what consciousness is, but as soon as I started to look what it is it always was one step ahead of me. It was like catching my own tail. And so I realized that I cannot grasp myself because that would take infinity and yet I wouldn't be able to catch me as consciousness is a STRANGE LOOP, I can only BE Myself. So that was the best BEING moment in my entire life. Consciousness is so beautiful. Also the possibility of death to consciousness doesn't exist. It's eternal with no beginning and no end, forever just being. This realization just awe-struck me. I was in complete shock to find my true self with a very clear separation from the ego me. And in that ego-death state I understood that I still have to have some kind of ego and it has to come back eventually in order for the bodies survival. As being in such a consciousness state you no longer care what ever happens to you. Then slowly my ego creeped back in, but I could tell from that awakening I was no longer the same anymore. So what changed after this? I completely realized all of my bad habits which I had. Meditation, Yoga, physical exercise is a MUST now in my life. Also I completely dropped smoking cigarettes and weed. I instantly had a higher motivation to be a better human being to this planet. My sense of Self expanded as I understand that I'am everyone more than ever. So I wouldn't ever litter in my city as I understand that I'am everything and I will still be alive when this body dies out, so this body as an ego has to not shit on this planet as it shits to myself in the future. I re-thought my entire life and got a new sense of direction and passion in life filled with Love and Understanding. Also it was my first breakthrough trip, as my earlier ones were very fear based as I even though that psychedelics weren't for me. I learned how to work with them, what it does and how to come down easily from them without getting tangled in fear. Psychedelics sure do change a person. In the future I no longer will be using weed for spiritual purposes as it comes with tons of baggage and very unhealthy for the mind and over-all motivation in life. But psychedelics sure are dangerous, so take care and do them slowly and work yourself up little by little. Also doing psychedelics requires a lot of self-awareness which I didn't have earlier. Also I missed some points, but I just wanted to share my changes which I'am very happy about.

And only the need to share this to everyone arises. But it's hard to share such beauty.

I find myself being in this state a lot, just pure bliss. Even when I'm Doing I recognize the Being inside Doing.

@cobalto there are alcoholics which alcohol companies are surelly aware of. There are fat people which food companies are aware of. And then theres also weed, drugs and othet stuff. Beings get hooked on anything and I do mean ANYTHING. Its very nice to hear you are being honest about your own product which means you are Conscious about the negative impact which it might have. Im also talking to my friends who are smokers and they give me same negative feedback about it. But they are still addicted to it so they still use it to better their sleep which still is a problem. You can always grow CBD weed! I would like to try it out and see what effect does it produce over-all, does it change anything and is it significant. Smoking hash is way different compared to weed, it doesnt give so much anxiety cause of the higher CBD levels.

@Pouya @Nahm So much Love.

@Adamq8 thank you, im glad to be at service to myself now

@SoonHei oh wow this qoute is soo beautiful!! Thank you <3

@OBEler oh I went through like 5 bad consecutive trips, frustrated and being sad about it this time I felt ok to try it again, also I did a trip, about 100ug, one week prior to the retreat. I actually just sat at home and observed everything, how I was feeling, what the mind was saying and how does the trip affect me in all sorts of way. I wanted to ACTUALLY understand what the fuck is going on, the intention was that. And I actually was able to have a good trip, my first one! I had no mystical experiences on that trip, because the intention was to see how strong the stuff was and if I still can handle it or I shouldnt fuck with it, so I just observed it, filmed myself talking about how I felt, what was going on, what thoughts come up etc. Like 10 short videos in an hour during the come up. But the best change for me was that I could handle the come down of the trip, which for my previous trips were horrible. The changing back to sober consciousness felt so uncomfortable filled with anxiety and fear. I poo-pooed psichedelics after my unsuccesful attempts, but still knew in the back of my mind that they are a powerful tool, because bad trips still taught me something, I had tons of insights, but the over-all trip was bad. You have to learn how to use them, and also have the intention for using them, not just doing them random.

YES YES YES! Sober is the new high! Oh well im probably gonna clean out my system for the coming month or so, but yeah now that I'am awake, that I know what I'am on the grand scale life is way way more fun now!