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@actualizing25 With my last mystical experience on psychedelics it totally showed whats possible. It also showed a way of living the Good life, the Enlightened life. It is a very powerful tool, but it alone probably won't do it. This work needs a mix of techniques. But psyches sure do help A LOT.

@Dario1995 It just takes one breath to be there.

@Espaim Weed gives you anxiety, stop mixing it with other substances. Ive been there candy flipping, you do not know where it could take you

@Hsinav @Moon @James123 @black_math49 Thank you all. It even feels like this awakening is maturing as time goes by. Things happen to me, but I no longer attach to them anymore as it is so miniscule compared to the grand theme of life

I was on a solo retreat for a week, it was the first one I ever done. I did a lot of kriya yoga, meditation, physical yoga, reading and just sitting with the sound of the forest. On the last day I dropped 170~ug lsd. And oh boy did I awake to my true self. I just sat on the grass looking at a flower field just observing life as it was. It was very beautiful. Then I noticed that I could concentrate not on one spot, but to kinda look at the whole thing without focusing on anything but focusing on everything at the same time. And it was very weird and unusual to do this for some reason so I did it for some time observing what it is as it got weirder and weirder. On the back of my mind I got a little taste that somehow a feedback-loop is happening, but I didn't understand what it was, so I just observed it sitting very still of focused, and after like a minute or so I realized that I'am Consciousness. As soon as that realization happened the ego died. It shut down for about a half an hour leaving me time to explore what I actually am. There was a clear separation from my true self and the ego(the mind). And I felt so empty inside. Just a total nothing, empty nothingness, but there I was. And as soon as I saw that, I saw that in other people, the exact same emptiness. Also I felt like I could go inside my head and reach myself so I just laid on the grass and went inside myself like in self-inquiry and I saw a lot of visuals, a something! So I tried to understand what that it, what consciousness is, but as soon as I started to look what it is it always was one step ahead of me. It was like catching my own tail. And so I realized that I cannot grasp myself because that would take infinity and yet I wouldn't be able to catch me as consciousness is a STRANGE LOOP, I can only BE Myself. So that was the best BEING moment in my entire life. Consciousness is so beautiful. Also the possibility of death to consciousness doesn't exist. It's eternal with no beginning and no end, forever just being. This realization just awe-struck me. I was in complete shock to find my true self with a very clear separation from the ego me. And in that ego-death state I understood that I still have to have some kind of ego and it has to come back eventually in order for the bodies survival. As being in such a consciousness state you no longer care what ever happens to you. Then slowly my ego creeped back in, but I could tell from that awakening I was no longer the same anymore. So what changed after this? I completely realized all of my bad habits which I had. Meditation, Yoga, physical exercise is a MUST now in my life. Also I completely dropped smoking cigarettes and weed. I instantly had a higher motivation to be a better human being to this planet. My sense of Self expanded as I understand that I'am everyone more than ever. So I wouldn't ever litter in my city as I understand that I'am everything and I will still be alive when this body dies out, so this body as an ego has to not shit on this planet as it shits to myself in the future. I re-thought my entire life and got a new sense of direction and passion in life filled with Love and Understanding. Also it was my first breakthrough trip, as my earlier ones were very fear based as I even though that psychedelics weren't for me. I learned how to work with them, what it does and how to come down easily from them without getting tangled in fear. Psychedelics sure do change a person. In the future I no longer will be using weed for spiritual purposes as it comes with tons of baggage and very unhealthy for the mind and over-all motivation in life. But psychedelics sure are dangerous, so take care and do them slowly and work yourself up little by little. Also doing psychedelics requires a lot of self-awareness which I didn't have earlier. Also I missed some points, but I just wanted to share my changes which I'am very happy about.

And only the need to share this to everyone arises. But it's hard to share such beauty.

I find myself being in this state a lot, just pure bliss. Even when I'm Doing I recognize the Being inside Doing.

@cobalto there are alcoholics which alcohol companies are surelly aware of. There are fat people which food companies are aware of. And then theres also weed, drugs and othet stuff. Beings get hooked on anything and I do mean ANYTHING. Its very nice to hear you are being honest about your own product which means you are Conscious about the negative impact which it might have. Im also talking to my friends who are smokers and they give me same negative feedback about it. But they are still addicted to it so they still use it to better their sleep which still is a problem. You can always grow CBD weed! I would like to try it out and see what effect does it produce over-all, does it change anything and is it significant. Smoking hash is way different compared to weed, it doesnt give so much anxiety cause of the higher CBD levels.

@Pouya @Nahm So much Love.

@Adamq8 thank you, im glad to be at service to myself now

@SoonHei oh wow this qoute is soo beautiful!! Thank you <3

@OBEler oh I went through like 5 bad consecutive trips, frustrated and being sad about it this time I felt ok to try it again, also I did a trip, about 100ug, one week prior to the retreat. I actually just sat at home and observed everything, how I was feeling, what the mind was saying and how does the trip affect me in all sorts of way. I wanted to ACTUALLY understand what the fuck is going on, the intention was that. And I actually was able to have a good trip, my first one! I had no mystical experiences on that trip, because the intention was to see how strong the stuff was and if I still can handle it or I shouldnt fuck with it, so I just observed it, filmed myself talking about how I felt, what was going on, what thoughts come up etc. Like 10 short videos in an hour during the come up. But the best change for me was that I could handle the come down of the trip, which for my previous trips were horrible. The changing back to sober consciousness felt so uncomfortable filled with anxiety and fear. I poo-pooed psichedelics after my unsuccesful attempts, but still knew in the back of my mind that they are a powerful tool, because bad trips still taught me something, I had tons of insights, but the over-all trip was bad. You have to learn how to use them, and also have the intention for using them, not just doing them random.

YES YES YES! Sober is the new high! Oh well im probably gonna clean out my system for the coming month or so, but yeah now that I'am awake, that I know what I'am on the grand scale life is way way more fun now!

First awakenings were nothing compared to what I experienced now. Thank you for the work that you do, I learned so much from you, wouldn't be able to reach such levels of consciousness with my own research. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU.

I just noticed that my two front teeth split in halves after my deep awakening. That was some powerful shit.

I just observed flowers and I became directly conscious of the true self. The Consciousness. Key insights. * the I just AM Also the best shot to try to grasp what is myself: Consciousness is infinte, it goes on forever with no beggining and no end, forever being it-Self, nature of consciousness is void, everything, itself, it is the one creating and being the ONE experiencing that which loopsssss again and again and foreverrrrr. Just pure nothing.

Joy to your soul.

@J J There still is a higher part of God's Infinite intelligence. It is what creates everything into being. When you look at a wall you are actually seeing infinite intelligence or consciousness as they say. It is so infinitely intelligent that it can manifest anything, so it is manifesting this whole infinite reality, the cosmos and beyond. It's a giant mind being inside of itself imagining everything for itself, thus making life/reality which "We" are in, a game for God to play for a lot of perspectives (beings) which is the same - God/infinite intelligence. This needs a deep awakening to understand. When I awoke to this, it, as Leo mentioned in his video, was the most biggest mindfucks of my life. This will eventually answer you how life exists and what is Matter. Also it comes with a deep recontextualization.

My friends parents have a summer house in the woods that they go to every weekend, so they will let me be there for the week and it wont cost me anything. And yeah it's expensive to find anything good that would be free of other people, that you could be all alone there.

So it's summer and it's retreat season for self-developers. I will be doing a solo 6 day retreat. It's gonna be the first solo retreat for me. I would be happy if some of you shared some tips on how to retreat, thanks.

When you realize that nobody will understand you fully, ever.

These things happen because our parents actually trade off their bad Karma on ourselves. We are like a sponge, what we feel and see becomes us, become mindful about how much of your parents habits you have yourself. Do this some time when you have time - observe dogs and their owners. Notice how dogs actually act as their owners. If they are somewhat stupid and unconscious so is the Dog, it's frightful, not conscious etc. And notice when you see a chill person walking with their pet, the Dog is actually chill as well. Now you can understand how some of these imprints from your parents drop down to you. I have a ton of these things from my parents which fucks me up a lot, but being mindful can help fix these things. A lot of gurus talks about this, when parents transfer some bad karma to their children. You have to do some work on yourself to detach from their karmic in-prints on you, so you can become free and uniquely YOU. Kriya yoga helps in these situations, but so does other spiritual practices, such as meditation, but it can take way longer compared to stronger practices. Notice that you had negative self-talk about your habits, this is Stage Blue SD. Now here you are somewhat transitioning from Stage Blue moral thinking to Stage Yellow systemic thinking, you don't shame yourself, but you understand the negative effects that occurs of gaming too much. If you don't happen to have a good understanding of this model I highly recommend it to watch all the videos, learn it in depth. This will help you to understand how developed you are and where you need to go, what you need to fix. Give it a shot, this model changed me A LOT. When Leo mentioned that it speeds up your consciousness development by x10 times, he wasn't kidding, the model, when learned in-depth can be a massive game changer.

@SvanteTheBeast You need the J.C. Stevens book to learn from the basic Kriya exercises. Ask for the book a lot of times, when your birthday comes ask for the book, keep on talking about it from time to time until eventually they will buy you the book. I think almost every person 40y/o and above finds meditation/consciousness stuff bullshit, my mom does that too, hell even my friends laugh at me always.

As a regular user of cannabis and with a lot of mystical experiences on it my tip would be just to silence the mind when you are high. This will be your most difficult task to do. So be sure to meditate always before you smoke and always clean your room of distractions, phone on silence, maybe put on some ambient meditation music on. Only when the mind is silent you might fall into deep contemplation and weed is potent for it very much if you are in-line with how it works on you. And also don't smoke frequently, do it on a Saturday evening, be well rested, and do your practices, a some kind of physical exercise, hatha yoga or something like that it doesn't have to be specific. The way you prepare your body is very crucial when smoking, make it into a ritual, this will deepen your over-all smoking sessions. Also it's good that you vape, it gives more of a mental high, this I noticed myself. Also it gives you a lot of control of how much you wanna get high.