purerogue

Increasing your awareness would be good thing to do , it will help you to process information faster and clearer and stay away from blank states where you get thrown of by other people actions, and as someone wrote it might be with food allergy that cause brain fog, it is very long trial and error job to find which food it is , but if you feel constantly tired , problems focusing, it might be it. You can try not eating for 2-3 days, if you feel way better it might be your diet that causes problems.

I do not know about his karma, but he clearly has ego issues left.

At least you did not have experience where reality was trying to play tricks on you and make it look like you are only one who is real and as soon as you start to question their existence , everyone starts to act strange.

It is easy to go out of this state and there are many levels for it, you can go further within it, or you can just go out of it if it bothers you , what you should do , because it is not state to be in when you are negative and rather frustrating when you are not used to it,

Anyway I found answer for my question within me, thanks for giving me your time.

You just made your own assumption, some hate or something , story is just story , does not matter if purpose is to decrease suffering, it might as well be to increase it, it is still story, my question has nothing to do with purpose of it , but whatever it is written already, how much saying your ego has on its ending.

I did not say that story has no purpose, but it is still just as story that is already written, isn't it so , or what are you getting at?

Well my question was because I am confused about existence, does consciousness have any saying on how events will turn out to be, or it has all already happened so it can't be changed , I understand of possibility of infinite possibilities, but it still does not answer my question of whatever Consciousness can really do anything , because it has already done everything.

I am confused here, is Enlightenment delusion, just live your life best you can , without any effort or anything , be , enjoy the moment, without questioning anything, that sounds more like way of life , not finding of mechanic of this reality and existence as whole., because to find out that , you will have to be miserable for a long time, one could say this question has no answer, but how can you know if you do not try to find it.

Funny right, when you think you got away from ego , you still do not realize that you are stuck in ego!

If there is no time, does that mean that Consciousness is stuck in endless loop, or there is moment that is ever changing?

I do not want to go into this, it is like talking with wall , they will take everything they are told as granted from Enlightenment perspective, when it is nothing more then experience.

We are not talking about body ego,separation in order to see your true self , that you are not your body and ego , they are completely different things, I understand what you mean that none of us is real and we are just images that are following story so to say, but there are deeper mindfucks that can come from such state.

I like your explanations. they feel closer to my beliefs

That is very good question , but I do not have answer for it, I am sometimes wondering if we actually live in same reality space, or there is something I am missing on how things actually work, only thing I can tell you you are not alone who has experienced it , I have experienced it like 3 times and two of them were very scary and not because of idea itself and change in visual field, but fact that strange things were happening that made me question even more.

You can still enjoy work and not label it as misery, it is you who makes thous images of it taking away your happiness, as if you must be somewhere else to be happy, but I understand that it takes allot of time to actually implement it in your life and everyone has their own way,

It comes and go, thinking mind will find its sorrows.

Experience is still just a thought, belief.

You have to find cause of it, it is some kind of idea that bothers you , I do not know what it is, you have to find it and solve it.

Funny , I had my birthday yesterday and I did not even know it until I got incoming calls.

Wise words, what you get further is disappointment and you realize that none needs to know anything, now you have to unlearn.

You can do this with literally anything , music, people you interact with, things you see, etc, focus on what it is to you in relation, there is knowledge everywhere, you just do not see it, you ignore it. You can also have fun having it, like listen to this song I can put it in relation to me and my ego and it gets funny to me.

Have you tried to listen , listen to words, not focus on who is saying them,try to relate them to your current level of development, not to person.

I like my job, it gives me enough of physical activity, I like my colleagues and I have never really felt need for building something just to earn more money , I have considered it on purpose of making world better place for everyone, but even that did not feel like right thing for me.