purerogue

I am pretty sure you were no less immersed in him when you had good days.

That's really weak explanation.

But you do not need all mind suffering to make you lost in character.

Only thing that left me with question after video was where does mind come in in all of this design, why people have to be so deluded.

Just practice both of them, each is for different purpose and purpose changes depending on where you are at your path.

You don't have to, being bored implies searching for something in you , but not being able to find it, so see that searching sensation in you and let it go , thats it.

How about instead of talking about religion, or becoming religious fanatic you make topic about what was good about video, because there were some things that most of you could really appreciate!

does not act, only ego acts and has capability to act out on its assumptions, personality.

5-meo-dmt is probably good for insights, to make mediation go deeper, but I do not see how it will help you to attain awakening, as it is something that you reach and keep with you on daily bases and I am not talking about some knowledge, but more of a state.

I actually liked his video, did not disappoint me.

Probably everyone gets to experience some of it, but the thing is that most of it is made by mind making some assumptions out of experience, and thinking that he has to following in them in some awkward way.

I have my own theory how it works, but it is rather complicated to make use of it , so best answer would be keep living as if you have free will, but keep in mind not everything is up to you, It does't have to be.

it is not about just mind, it's about everything you see , hear basically construct of everything.

Exactly what I thought, someone who has not perfected , but has at least got far enough would not make such claims, someone who has only changed his ego and still is identified as mind would.

Well you can't believe or understand what it even means before you get this insight.

Stop taking awakening serious and stop building concepts around it from what you read here, stop looking for how you should behave, or feel, you do not have to give it away , or change it, you do not have to change anything , probably makes no sense now, but you do not have to give away your sanity.

You are normal!

What is happening is completely normal , you enter state where there is almost no mind and ego , then after sleep, you lose hold of it , probably happens not just after sleep, but you feel most negative effect after sleep. Why it happens should be obvious for you, as of suggestion I would say to slow down and do some self inquiry, or just simply slow down and get used to both mind and no mind states, but if you really want to move further, which again i would not advise to rush , you should focus on how you got to that state in first place, so it becomes as your second nature to get there and with time you should be able to go deeper in it, have it trough all of your day and night. Good luck , just do not rush it , as it gets rather strange further.

I will ask question so people do not become infuriated as I did every time you said this. Why is your direct experience misleading & unhelpful?

Maybe because people try to use word Love in every place they can, here is your answer, if you do not use word Love as some holy grail and rephrase your question you will find answer. It is like using word planet to describe certain planet.

Going back to mind games will be struggle and suffering, my guess you are somewhere in the middle of ego and non-dual state, or just no-dual state, anyway all the same, as you are still effected by thoughts. As Nahm said , thoughts do not have power if you do not cling to them.

Do you really not understand, or you only think that you don't understand?

Thought is telling you understand, but do you really understand?

Exactly, it is not about wanting something and it is about wanting something, funny thing is that we often attract opposite of what we think we want without even noticing that we are actually making opposite to attract.

I think problem here is that you think that Enlightenment must come with some certain Personality, which is not the case, change will be there, as our personality changes constantly, separation from mind would be closer statement, but it does not mean that you do not have personality with "flaws", at that point really it does not matter, as you are not attached to it. So even though from your point of view it might look like person is attached to mind,ego, it might as well not be the case, that is why you will never know for sure, you can have person with your "perfect" traits who is attached to his personality and one with not so great who is not, if that makes any sense to you.