purerogue

How about instead of talking about religion, or becoming religious fanatic you make topic about what was good about video, because there were some things that most of you could really appreciate!

does not act, only ego acts and has capability to act out on its assumptions, personality.

5-meo-dmt is probably good for insights, to make mediation go deeper, but I do not see how it will help you to attain awakening, as it is something that you reach and keep with you on daily bases and I am not talking about some knowledge, but more of a state.

I actually liked his video, did not disappoint me.

Probably everyone gets to experience some of it, but the thing is that most of it is made by mind making some assumptions out of experience, and thinking that he has to following in them in some awkward way.

I have my own theory how it works, but it is rather complicated to make use of it , so best answer would be keep living as if you have free will, but keep in mind not everything is up to you, It does't have to be.

it is not about just mind, it's about everything you see , hear basically construct of everything.

Exactly what I thought, someone who has not perfected , but has at least got far enough would not make such claims, someone who has only changed his ego and still is identified as mind would.

Well you can't believe or understand what it even means before you get this insight.

Stop taking awakening serious and stop building concepts around it from what you read here, stop looking for how you should behave, or feel, you do not have to give it away , or change it, you do not have to change anything , probably makes no sense now, but you do not have to give away your sanity.

You are normal!

What is happening is completely normal , you enter state where there is almost no mind and ego , then after sleep, you lose hold of it , probably happens not just after sleep, but you feel most negative effect after sleep. Why it happens should be obvious for you, as of suggestion I would say to slow down and do some self inquiry, or just simply slow down and get used to both mind and no mind states, but if you really want to move further, which again i would not advise to rush , you should focus on how you got to that state in first place, so it becomes as your second nature to get there and with time you should be able to go deeper in it, have it trough all of your day and night. Good luck , just do not rush it , as it gets rather strange further.

I will ask question so people do not become infuriated as I did every time you said this. Why is your direct experience misleading & unhelpful?

Maybe because people try to use word Love in every place they can, here is your answer, if you do not use word Love as some holy grail and rephrase your question you will find answer. It is like using word planet to describe certain planet.

Going back to mind games will be struggle and suffering, my guess you are somewhere in the middle of ego and non-dual state, or just no-dual state, anyway all the same, as you are still effected by thoughts. As Nahm said , thoughts do not have power if you do not cling to them.

Do you really not understand, or you only think that you don't understand?

Thought is telling you understand, but do you really understand?

Exactly, it is not about wanting something and it is about wanting something, funny thing is that we often attract opposite of what we think we want without even noticing that we are actually making opposite to attract.

I think problem here is that you think that Enlightenment must come with some certain Personality, which is not the case, change will be there, as our personality changes constantly, separation from mind would be closer statement, but it does not mean that you do not have personality with "flaws", at that point really it does not matter, as you are not attached to it. So even though from your point of view it might look like person is attached to mind,ego, it might as well not be the case, that is why you will never know for sure, you can have person with your "perfect" traits who is attached to his personality and one with not so great who is not, if that makes any sense to you.

Are you trying to make me die?

It is indeed.

your character has no free will, you have all the free will you need, stop confusing something that you are not with who you really are.

It is not really something you must control, it is always there, I would not even say that you must hold to it, it is more of a you must not let ego control you, it is there at all states of mind, unchanging, maybe try to see that which is always there in every situation, state of mind,, not thinking would be very helpful, will be less obstacles that get in your way, give it some time, experiment.

Only thing I can tell you is that when you can experience true being, everything will come , it does not come like thunder and strike you with everything it got right away, answers will come them self. Experience of nothingness could be helpful to know your true self better I guess, to find I you are looking for to tap into being, but I do not think that there is any need for it, when I first got to know nothingness I had no clue what it is about , except the fact that it is the place where everything comes from and it was from mediation, not non dual state , or anything like that, besides non dual state is still not what you are looking for if you can no locate your true self, some people might think that non dual state is just being, but you might as well still not know who you are in all of that mess, making it in completely something else.

I was just trying to give you some logical explanation, what we are talking about here goes way beyond logic. Source is not absolute infinity , just as you imagining rock does not make rock part of you. With one I mean it is created , comes from same place.