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sweet and short answer: absolute infinity - God - as you said in your other topic, God is absolutely complete, total and perfect all of the possibilities are actualized for God and since it's all God and there is no separation.. it is all ONE you asking the "why" and me answering that why is also part of ALL THAT IS / ALL THAT CAN BE . so it just IS. i haven't had the direct understanding/experieince of the nothing is everything and everything is nothing... but that is what you must grasp to understand your WHY deeply so. this is me trying to define the flavor of a fruit you and I both have not tasted... words cannot describe the flavor... flavor itself is the best experience for it. because it is IT.

Whatever you ultimately decide upon will be the authentic personality... But you don't control what you decide so there's that.

@Leo Gura / anyone else can you confirm if i had an enlightenment experience? (dropping of the self) something you have said just clicked for me... that nothing changes but there's an extremely radical shift in perception on enlightenment and this can be seen as absolute bliss or absolute hell for me it was absolute hell... this was prior to me knowing anything about spirtuliaty / ego death / enlightenment... i was just a regular guy... now i did not get the "there is no me" but everything in my room, including myself in the mirror all became WTF. normal life objects such as my perfume, a glass of water, my own "ears", "nose" anything i looked at... i would have to rememebr what we normally call it and then question/wonder... WTF is this.. this was after a mild synthetic weed doseage... i rememeber saying to myself "please god, please let this be okay again, let everything be normal again this lasted about 20-30 mins... and then i slept praying to God when i wake up everything will be normal again.. (i thought i had gotten too high... but there was a part of me which was saying... HOW CAN I UNSEE THIS!? ) thank goddness for homeostatic i woke up "normal" but still rememrbered what i had seen my question is.. did i see the terryfying side of enlightement? is that why i did not get the no-self? leo has said, enlightement both shocks you and makes you extremely blissfull.. but either / or can happen as well.. so was this an enligthenment experinece for me? seeing the ox? seeing all without meaning? or does it go much much deeper? i still had a sense of being in my room and all... maybe that was too broad to question... but i did question every single thing about myself, how we live. my job.. everything was WTF i saw us/me as what we are... called us "mammals" it was literally like.. i am this animal who is wearing these clothes n shit.. and it was all of a sudden. one moment i was chillin being high n about to watch a movie on laptop and then next moment all the meaning of normal day stuff went away i have previously asked about this experieince of mine on the forum, but i thought it was a spontanoues dark night of the soul... but maybe this was seeing of the ox. but again.. i call it an experience.. and enligthement is usually supposed to be a "non-experieince" just wanna know what that was.. enligtenment expereiince but the shocking side of it (as i was unaware of this part of our existence at the time, did not know what to do except ask God for help)...

@inFlow trying to get this with your mind is impossible you are the flashlight shining down onto the mind. all the flashlight is doing is illuminating the contents of the mind the contents of the mind might be seeking, thinking about life, enjoying, fun thoughts, happy thoughts you are just illuminating them you are not THEM (the thoughts)

@Preetom LOLOL

Sorry. Didn't find any post by leo about no.video today . Was it delayed?

@Tony 845 lol yup. Sure there is no brain but that doesn't give you much

Sure... But what he is asking about the brain which does exist Expand your understanding to inlcude this also @TheAvatarState

Ultimately. Look within because there will come a point in your journey where you must travel alone. Nobody else will be with you. Not bad to discuss with others but if you can manage without, then better not to add that to your list of things which you will eventually need to let go of.

IT'S HERE GUYS!

@Bluebird wow Beautiful Something about the way your post was written made me realize something amazing! The strange loop part! Wow. That's so amazing. But it also isnt amazing! thanks! I am gonna watch Leo's video now about it and this time actually understand what he is talking about! The part about there being no lesson and then that itself being a lesson was a nice one. Thanks.

@Annoynymous habits/activities which you were trying to change/avoid returning... and returning with a vengeance - that's what I believe it is. Now, the important thing to note is that if/when it happens... know that there is nothing wrong with it. Just be aware that it is occurring... what else can YOU do anyways. YOU do not control your actions/thoughts... only watch them. So, watch this play which is just another step on the path. It's all part of the natural spontaneous unfolding of life - out of anyone's control. Find peace in that.

So... part is contained within the whole - simple and logical. But what exactly does it mean that the whole is contained in the part? "Copies" or the actual whole of everything is contained within it's much much smaller parts? What exactly does that imply/mean? Is that just simply the fractal structure of reality? in some fractals, almost identical top layer of whole can be found when zoomed in and seen as well...

@WindInTheLeaf wow. beautifully said... and in the essence of your username as well <3 bless

@Sven hmmmmm yolo thanks

@Sven hmmmm. yes. this unreachable, unattainable, always here yet so far EXPERIENCE... also, i guess I am looking for a metaphorical/intellectual answer to this what does it mean for a hologram then to contain the whole in a part? could you explain that?

@winterknight hi could you advise me about how to overcome a few drawbacks that i find myself facing... i have a thought about going to the gym or trying to meditate longer for example and then, i go... maybe for a week or so... and then back to square one. stop going. it can be my laziness or lack of interest that i now seem to attribute to worrying about how i look (accepting how i am and not in a bad shape... but not trying to improve it) but how do i reconcile the "traps" which are often talked about i observe these recurring thoughts about many aspects of my life and they are all ego based viewed but I KNOW that they are true i will think to myself that well this is all unfolding as it should and is out of my control anyways. so if i am sitting here now thinking about why i am not working out or meditating.. well. that's just what IS... when i finally will realize that i have been holding myself back blaming the natural unfolding of this life leading to me being lazy or not working out... i will then start working out.. whenever that happens... so, even though this seems like such an egoic trap.. it is what it is... because from the aboslute point of view, there is no do-er... there is no anything really.. but focusing on the human life POV.. there is no chooser not choosing to go to gym etc. how do i overcome this egoic reasoning (which is correct from the no free will prespective) i dont find myself suffering from this... as i was writing this. i just had a thought occur also that this is my ego just finding something to complaint/question/worry about and now the thought about that even this is a natural unfolding out of my control... it keeps playing tennis with itself going between a complain thought and then getting hit by the relax, no free will / chooser thought ..

@Paul5480 yes. the ego fights hard to cling onto it's illusory existence if your deeply mindful and aware, you will be able to remain grounded and observe the craziness/feeling of dying which appears and allow it to occur

@Leo Gura when the absolute is seen during 5meo Is that still considered the glimpse?

good post. thanks

NOTHING has these ideas NOTHING sees things that way NOTHING is aware of the construct, memories etc NOTHING and I are exchangeable as it's all ONE.

@Leo Gura thanks. I get it deeply so Kinda like the entire Construct of the room Including all of this, the phone i am holding to type this message, the people around me Everything. Reality is it's own subject/object as ONE.

@winterknight thank you. and with that, I close yet another door of ignorance

wow powerful. thank you. also have a question @winterknight is it possible, that in the world of the manifest, there exists a projection of the SELF which is inside of this manifest world but also unlike anything inside of it? i am talking about LIGHT / PHOTONS photons are massless. from light/photon's point of view it experieinces no time. for it to get from point A to point B (billions of light years apart ) it will be as if it arrived in no time. it's the fastest thing there is. it's almost like shining a light into a pre-built strcture the light of awareness if you will? the white light that is pointed to at death or in some religions it is said GOD is LIGHT. everywhere, unbounded etc sure this "story" around it can be spun in various ways in this illusioary world but the physicalaity of it's being in our universie/manifestation cannot be denied. it is certainly beyond and "outside" of the materical world... would this be accurate?

sure all of that is how plus, if there was none of that. then asking of this question. wanting to know the answer. all of that is how you would be drawn in