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Hello everyone I just want to share something that happened to me that maybe some of you can benefit from. So yesterday I was in an ego backlash after having a mushroom trip the day before and telling the truth to my parents about everything I do and my consumption of psychedelic compounds.(Another story) It was not that big of a backlash. I feel a lot more present today and I think part of what helped me get out of that is the very fact that I did not try to resist any of the "unconscious" behaviour. I ate terrible food all day and I did not guilt myself for it. What happened instead of me just going down that spiral is that I became very conscious of the effect that it had on my body. I felt terrible to be honest and I still do to a certain extend today while I am writing this. By this point I have absolutely no interest in eating junk food anymore. I did yesterday and I didn't like it. The little rush of pleasure from the taste I can get is just not worth it. I am way more at ease and happy when eating my regular whole food vegan diet. I remembre the video where leo talks about real vs fake growth and where he explains the difference and I understand now. I could just build an environnement for myself where I would have very limited contact to those kind of foods. For exemple, by not going out and hangout with my friends anymore(Because let's be honest restaurant food is generally garbage). By doing that I would probably eat a quite healty diet but it wouldn't solve anything internaly. I feel like I could go out right now, surrounded by junk food and alcool and not even want any of that. Just the joy of being with friends would be more than enough. For a long time I did the whole diet thing out of a sens of "Should" because it's somehow the "right" thing to do. That's terrible way to go about it ahah. Now I just want to be healthy and conscious. That's want I want not what I think I should do to become "better" or to aggrandize myself.

I'm 19 years old and I probably read 30 books in the last 2 years.(Excluding the obligatory books that I read in high school) I think it had a pretty significant impact on my life overall.

My advice would be to read Mastery by George Leonard and to start to apply the Mastery process in you own life. It's incredibility fulfilling to learn something for real. You can also have in mind that learning is fun. The more you learn, the more you can make new connections and the more you are able to create what you really want in life. Also real learning doesn't come from someone telling you something and then you taking that as the truth. Real learning happens when you can focus your awareness on a thing with a genuine desire to understand.(Not to say that the information coming from other people isn't valuable. It is.)

@rnd I have never heard of it being injected but you can vape, snort or plug it. Just make sure you have the HCl version for snorting and plugging. Google is your friend here do some research. Also you could check out the 5-MeO mega tread.

If you think that smoking DMT is your life purpose then what will you do once you have done that?

It's all french but if I had to translate it would be something like that I think: *Just doing anything sometimes and not taking yourself so seriously sometimes because sometimes we take ourselves too seriously sometimes and sometimes that's it* A king lives under the ground He was living in you A cross that is lying on the ground They were fearing me Why do we break our heads? Against moons to see Your turn to melt the hand Under that silky shirt *Wooah I almost fell to the ground! And now I am blowing my nose on my shirt... Everything fonctions perfectly every where everything works!* It's a lot better in french, it ryhmes? Funny note: almost all the video is a montage of a river flowing that I filmed a couple days ago at night under a bridge.

What is ignorance? I don't know I guess.

I don't fit in the poll! I'm 19

I don't think it's a wise way to go. Live up to what you want and if that means leaving your parents so be it... Follow your intuition, you seem interested in reality and truth and my advice would be to follow that. I know there's no easy way to go about this but I wish you all the best!?

There's no evil conspiracy just ignorance.

I don't know how to help you practically but I hope you find your way. Keep digging it's there.<3 I second @ivankiss on that: Passion is the way.

@Shaun how is it that you can not?

My mind: Welcome to paradox land

Every time you have a thought about how "unconscious" you think they are. Ask yourself how you are doing said "unconscious" behavior yourself. Judgment make it seem like there's a problem out there that you are well above but it's just a smokescreen to mask one's own bullshit. I hope you'll find the light within all of this turmoil<3

Happy to hear that thank you? ear-say feels so real sometimes! lol

How do you know that an object is "physical"?

Watch how your mind tries to cling to a process in order to surrender. There is only awareness. Be that❤️ "Can total surrender only come from this awareness?" This awareness is not separate from you

He is funny?

fear love<3

This won't be very useful if you don't have a strong strategic plan but if you know what to do then this is an amazing boost!

I don't know if I am confused or not. I don't understand what confusion mean. I feel like in the midst of an ego backlash yet I see that as happening with no substance to it. Everything seems groundless. I have no clue what to do or where to go next and I don't feel like it's a problem at all. I see a lot of assomptions and truth claims within myself. I know they are false and I don't feel a need to change that. I am tired yet wide awake. I am filled with the most insane _________ (I don't know the word for it) standing there in awe before the total absurdity of what is going on. Wow I am breaking down? No I am not tripping

Energie coming from this thread is amazing?❤️

Embrace the confusion man isn't that amazing that reality so is rich, so complex and so diverse that you can't put the truth in a simple statement?!❤️ Unanswered questions are amazing! Wish you all the best

Actually grass fed is more damagable for the environment. Not talking about health here. It demands more land, and more ressources overall. Given the number of people on earth today it's a sure way to increase global warming.

I guess we are all a little schizophrenic?❤️