Galyna

@Applegarden you are right 100% about your observation. let’s see what future will bring us. Transformation was in my cards, no joke, I mean it.

@traveler I want to be God, of course ?

@zeroISinfinity Thanks, I really need these words now. What would I do without this forum and people here? Much appreciated.

@traveler Of course it is not about me, who am I in the first place? I was questioning something I am still contemplating about, something that is truly bugging me. But I guess my answer is still baking in the oven.

@zeroISinfinity Oh Dear..... ...one step at a time...I would be happy with any states listed above. Not even dreaming about Enlightenment yet. It is a long walk....

yep-yep....that is what I am trying to do, to observe this inner void, space, emptiness, call it any word you want, the most important to understand what I am referring to. So when you focus attention and observe this space long enough, what is going to happen? depersonalization, right? Cant wait for the day X come to my life and I receive this wonderful experience of Being! without this self....

Ofc I am. I am aware of that space Tolle is talking about it. I just can not understand what's the catch here and why so much ado about it. I have a different opinion about it.

I am sitting like a damn cat pretty often, on the porch of my house, looking at the forest, butterflies, different animals and birds, no shift in perception....even when manage to shut the "mind machine" for some period of time. (it's hard ) could not do more than 45 min today, mind gets crazy. I was swept away with my inner feeling (wow, was so compelling) that I was able to spot while meditation. I followed Spira's advice and came close to it. It was "somewhere" on the background. While observing the feeling mind got wild and started to assess it. Could not calm it down, dropped the meditation and went inside the house. I must confess that it's cool to look at your persona from a distant angle. The ego like an inner demon, tries to hinder the "dawn" of consciousness and this "space" that it carries around.

@zeroISinfinity I wonder if I could do self-inquiry having some melody on the background, not very loud though.

This is a vogue statement ? (Sorry if I am being rude, but this is the nature of the beast. (beast=forum)) Anyway, I need to go and try my new meditation from Spira for one hour. I am excited. @abrakamowse have you tried that other meditation we discussed in other thread. Let me know... I have only manged to read ten pages last night of PR's book. Love ya guys, ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Gotta run. Talk to you soon.

Well, I am sorry, I don't sit here and reading every line you wrote. This place gets interesting. You mean co-creation, I got it now. Sorry about that, I did not understand from the first time. Hope my dream board is going to work soon. I wrote so many things there. However, if I am creating everything at this moment how can I wish for something that is not totally up to me but from other people? I know I can not do it.

@zeroISinfinity are you talking about your personal relations (Well first time ever faced such responsability /accountability )? Sorry...hate forums for this....therefore not a big fan of them, this is the only one....

@abrakamowse Okay, I have and?

Can you pls share what traps ( but for God sake talk normal to me) without this schizophrenic phrases, meaning of which is only known to you. Are you experiencing the "dark night"? Imo, you should have passed it long time ago.

@zeroISinfinity Okay, I got who you were talking about. I agree, he is precious, the most unique and one of a kind. _________________________________________ I do not understand your depressed moods on the forum lately. Talking about death and waiting for another new life. Maybe it is because opportunities are tight right now, virus and sitting at home all the time. All of my friends are depressed, all of my trips are cancelled. My infinite vector has stopped and I do not see the future any more.

@zeroISinfinity I do not understand your slang, sorry. you call him "red"? Is it suppose to be offensive? Does it have something to do with a hair color? I am confused. Who are you even talking about?

So, I looked at the forum. There is no way it's Jed. Guaranteed. You know how I know? Look how he welcomes every member, this is silly. He would not have time to acknowledge every member like this, unless he is siting in front on his computer all day long. Read: "Hi Guy: Welcome to the forum. Yes, it's not something that a 'Guy' usually 'ponders'. Glad to be of service. Love ya and stay healthy. Jed." If they sell a course there for 3000k that's make a perfect sense to me now.

@zeroISinfinity I am the only person on this forum you were talking normally without riddles, the other day. Otherwise, when you write somethings here, man....no logic whatsoever you made our members angry.

@zeroISinfinity Are you trying to make me guess?

Who is that “best man” you are always taking about?

@abrakamowse oh no worries ? I am not going to mingle on other forums, I never did, this forum is my favorite. I might read something but not interested to spend my time posting for others. At least on our forum I know some people and it feels like community being here for four years. ?Plus 3000$ Lol ? I would rather spend this money on a nice vacation. This is not even realistic, who on earth spend that much money on some course?

@abrakamowse I started to read this book "Spiritual Enlightenment, the Damnedest Thing" and almost read a half of it, it was like three years ago or something, then I dropped it because something happened. I do remember that after Tolle, Ramana, Maharaj and Ramesh Balsekar, I found Jed very harsh. I remember that feeling that I did not like what I was reading, I am on page 205 for PR and it is a perfect time for me to go and read now. Cant wait to read about "feelings" part. But I must confess, PR is a bit boring, but I still like it. I read it as a textbook. Quite frankly this book is a textbook for enlightenment. P.S. I even had this idea in my mind to read Bible, I have never done this in my life, but I just want to do and compare it with other teachings. I need so much time for my readings, feels like all life is not long enough. I just really crave for the wisdom now. Forum, sure, send it over pls.

Yup, Jed, what you've already read this one as well ?

Currently I know only one person in my surrounding who tried MDMA, so no luck with 5-Meo.

@dimitri hahaha The music is so pretty on the background, wow, I love it, it is an hour long.