Galyna

Too bad we are so far away, I mean it! There is not a big chance to find a lot of nice girls from my culture here, and on top of that you are my lovely Sagittarius. So today we had baked chicken and salad again. Soup for dinner with mushrooms. I got my spouse a dark chocolate, buckwheat and bubliki from Russian store , and российский сыр, he loves it. Tomorrow a reveal party for my girl friend from Ukraine. Looking forward, hope she will have a girl. Maybe will be my future daughter-in-law, who knows.

Galyna is going to look for a job in two weeks, coz I my done with my university. I really will not have time now. I need to find myself a good company to work for.

Being an egocentric myself, this quality (to listen and observe) was the highest value for me in other people. I try to listen and observe too. So well done, my friend. I also think that the whole world is evolving around me. We share some qualities for sure.

@DrewNows @Amit That is right Drew, if we can talk about pee here in this thread....then for sure we can say everything we want to

@Natasha You are my Darling! @zeroISinfinity We love you, Milosh, but we are going to be tough with you, our drama man! Please do! Show me the "Real man inside you!" @Amit You are Leo, you should be able to understand me better than anyone in this thread!

Drew, I am serious..... I dated a lot of zodiac signs (except Aquarius, Cancer, Virgo, Leo and Aries) Can not say anything about them. The real mature man I had in my life was a Capricorn guy, like real knight, the person I could trust more than myself. And my spouse, Taurus! That is it. Other zodiacs are not stable, freaking emotional drama queens. I love Gemini, but they never commit! I left one, we dated for two years, he was scared to commit. I left Libra because I met my spouse, I fell in love and we broke up with Libra. I dated another Gemini too, loved him for 5 years, but his case was a bit unusual, wont share why we did not get married. Otherwise, he would be my spouse. Btw, Pisces was my first serious relations, dated for 2 years too, still good friends.

I thought you were a part of this thread! Feel yourself like a home. Please. Join the party. We love you. @Natasha, Natasha, my dear, have not heard from you for a while. Super busy, do not have time to post a lot. Was running like crazy.

If I had to choose again, I would only choose Taurus and Capricorn for the partnership/marriage The most stable and reliable people in the universe, would not change this for Gemini's sense of humor, Scorpio's passion or Libra's intelligence. I want my partner to be loyal and stable. If he has these two qualities, I am willing to forgive any other flaws. The rest is irrelevant for me.

@Amit No my dear, I can not even compare myself to them and I am not even near as advanced. I just say how I feel, not a guru, a regular person. _____________________________________________ All right my friends @zeroISinfinity, @DrewNows, the romantic stage where we were just getting to know each other has gone. Now,....as my elliptical machine trainer says: " Come with me, we are going on adventure!" I am not going to beat the bushes and sugar coat anyone. I suppose here we can be honest with each other, unlike in real life where we have to be formal with others. If you guys do not understand or like something I am saying I am deeply sorry about it. I know sometimes it is not for everybody. Believe me, people hate when I say my honest opinion. I do not want to offend anyone. I love you all, my little online friends!

@zeroISinfinity Remember how hard you were on Raptorsin. ? Now I am going to be Zeroisinfinity and you are going to be Raptorsin. The roles have been switched. Plus you love honesty, I am going to be as honest with you as I can. Nothing personal....we are here to grow. Get ready. It is a challenge!

@zeroISinfinity Not even from love, but from illusion. I actually thought I was the only one who does it, but apparently every single person creates image of another person in his head, and falls in love with that darn image.

@DrewNows yes, I know this 100% because my spouse is Taurus. So I remembered this. but his Venus was in Scorpio, that is why he falls in love so hard. @zeroISinfinity You need a good shake, my friend. If I could order a shake, I would Someone need to make you sober from love.

I am sorry, but I've once heard how one person said: "Stop blaming your childhood and take fully responsibility." I have issues too, sometimes, it is very convenient to blame our parents. Well acknowledge this and move on. Like really move on. You can not change your past, it's gone, do not dwell on it. Esther Hicks says that you can start a brand new life every second. How does it help you to dwell in the past memories and pout about your parents and their mistakes? It really does NOT.... Past is just a thought! It is not here anymore, do not cling to it or its memories.

I really start to doubt if you really achieved mahasamadhi. You are absolutely drowning in emotions. Sorry if I am being rude but you are almost 35!!! and where is this mature guy? Loosing your mind, well you are not a teenager anymore, right? You had so many women and you still losing your mind, over what? Over a cute face? You realize that you do not know this woman? Nobody is perfect, if you think if she is perfect, you deeply drowning in infatuation. Absolutely lost ability to think straight, all your statement sound like a teen boy at the age of 15 who just had a first sex with a girl! yeah I get this, you can fall in love and lose your mind. I was in love 1000 of times in my life, but never to a point to absolutely think that the person was perfect. I treat it as a game till 100% sure there is a serious commitment. But hell you've lost it completely, to a point where you idealize a human being. This is a little bit overboard. All the work we do here with Leo or Nahm flies out in the window. Really. Where is your conscious observer? If some beautiful girl can drive you crazy like this, Milosh, you are too far behind. A lot of work needs to be done on self-improvement! Sorry, my friend! Much love.

@zeroISinfinity I am super busy today, I will get back to our conversation tomorrow. I am sorry, just hang in there....

@zeroISinfinity Mine got this today for lunch, LOL Never complains

@zeroISinfinity maybe your ideal girl is your best friend, with benefit ofc? Maybe you do not need to date?

I was on page 280, so I'm near. My perception always changes, this is so weird.

Reading your post and realizing myself how different we are (I mean all people on Earth) First of, do not identify with your emotions. Secondly, womanizer, hah? Isn't just a belief? You are NOT a womanizer! Period. You just like women and sex! And...it is hard for you to commit because you can not be fixed. You probably look for some changes from time to time. There is something there which makes commitment harder for you. You are a mutable. Something has happened to you in your childhood or in your family, because you are having emotional roller coasters all the time. One day you love everybody in this forum, another day is a whole bunch of curse and negative reinforcements. Please tell me what is it that you can not find this golden middle?

There is nothing to be upset about, my drama man friend . Why don't you talk to the lady in a soft voice and tell her everything, including your fear of intimacy and fear of marriage. Literally, what are you mad with? just because all the girls want to get married and wear a princess dress on their wedding day. Well, this is the reality of this dream which we call "life". You are healthy, have something to eat, your family is safe, the rest is just relative. Nothing bad has happened yet. Everything is great. Why nervousing like this because some lady wants to be serious with you? Some guys really dream to have sex or even a date. Consider yourself a lucky guy. You have a nice woman, regular sex, regular job. Life is wonderful! It really is. if you don't learn this time, you will be going through the same issue over and over again. I promise. You will find another one who will desperately want to get married and what? Cut off again? Maybe you are doing something that leads them to think in such a way. Set up your boundaries, keep some distance. Maybe you need to reconsider your "lady market". Get someone with a child and who is not in marriage or who just came out of relations and not seeking any serious commitment, what do you think?

@zeroISinfinity wait, don’t do it... emotion will go away soon! I will be back in a few, we will talk about it.

Zero respect to other people? I am not sure I understand....please explain Can you please tell me about it, I want to know, really...from the beginning. It is always interesting to hear other people's experiences about awakening. Have you ever shared this with your gf?

Oh I see, so you are a drama queen then

If you are just joking, then pls lets talk about something else, like consciousness or books we read! otherwise, I spend some time and energy to help you. I take it seriously.

Sorry if I may sound rude....so..... Why haven't you established that personal space and limits at the beginning of your relations. I think you guys rushed and let me explain why. I remember once I read a very good book where the author advised young people that they should take time to develop some romance. He even proposed that there are 4 main stages of relations. And! for girls especially it is not good to jump over the stages because each stage helps her to develop deep feeling of trust and respect to her man. Think about it, if one day you get married she will have the whole entire life on this kitchen cooking you soups. I promise. I've been in marriage for eight years. I am sick of cooking already. You do not know each other, why jumping in each other's lives so quickly by playing hubby and wife. Believe me, you will have this and it will get old pretty soon! Boring!. At your stage of relations I would enjoy going out, traveling, visiting some friends. Even nice walks together, yes without sex. Just talking and building connection. Girls needs time to develop that deep sexual desire for guys. I get that it is super sexy for you when she jumps in your bed on your first date. But! In my opinion great sex and pleasure are built on emotional connection. It is like a dish, the more you cook it, the better it is going to be. And! the more you wait, the greatest the pleasure. Passion has to be built on, slowly. I do not say to wait like months, but still it is so romantic to wait a little bit. So stage one is for roses, candies, dates, romantic dinners, restaurants, walks, coffee conversation, gifts, simple things. Plus, she needs to give you some chance to flight for her, and miss her going crazy when she is not there with you. Maybe being unavailable sometimes, maybe going out with girls, maybe doing her own stuff. Also, imo, some intrigue between you could build more passion. Otherwise, why jumping onto stage 4 and become a wife for a guy that has not proposed you yet. Girls from my culture do the same mistake. I think it is wrong. This stage should be obligation free, should be more like: we are great friends first and for most. It has to be effortless, stress free and both of you need to respect each other boundaries. Not hanging out with each other for days. Why do you think people in old Russia had separate rooms with their spouses? To keep that fire....Osho said the same thing. Routine really kills all the passion, unless you are an enlightened person, I am sure for them it is a bit different. Also, by giving her a key from your place, it is like hinting a woman that that territory is hers already. Now you have to face the consequences of your actions. I know you are confused and pissed off. It is a bit late for that. According to what I've learnt from you, it is not a first time when you are doing it, inviting people to your house right away, without taking time to get to know them better. Now, if you start to back off, she might take it personally. Remember " Men from Mars, Women from Venus" book, "men are like a rubber, you pull them, then they freak out of intimacy and they stretch like a rubber far away from you to claim their freedom back. Rule of life! I think if you do not feel comfortable with a pace, be honest and tell her about this. Tell her that you need your kitchen, space, bathroom /whatever/ back and you need to take some time to develop your relations. You do not want to be rushed. At the end, what are you losing by being authentic, if she is not ready or willing to except you, then...she might not be the One. If she is truly into you, she will back off by giving you more freedom. In my opinion it was too fast. If you are really happy and lost your mind about that woman, then pls, for God sake, forget everything I wrote you. But!!! if for some reason you feel that it is too soon for you, you feel any discomfort, then it really is too fast. Follow your true feeling and heart. And do not be intimidated by being misunderstood or losing her. If it meant to be, it will be!