Galyna

❤️???????

I am still your friend, even when have to say some unpleasant things.

Thanks, I needed these words right now! Thanks for support...?

Guys, pls tell me if my wish come true? just send me your spontaneous answers. What comes first in mind.

Maybe we should talk about synchronicities?

Mama Mia, guys, what are you talking about here, like seriously ??????

If the person does not feel the same, then they are not your twin flame. That's the point if you read what I've sent you. It should be reciprocal because it enriches both people mentally and physically, when it is only one way, the potential will never be fully realized. But you are right, maybe she does not realize it yet, who knows, you will see in the future. Good luck and hope you feel better.

@zeroISinfinity seems more like a "personal thingy" to me, otherwise, as you always tell me: "I do not give a ..." You ain't gonna fool me, my friend...I know ppl in my thread.

sure...please...the door is always open.... just wanted to know what stands behind the motive to write something down, and then erase it. Self-doubt, maybe ? (just saying it out loud)

@Nahm, @Amit and @DrewNows Collective "killing" of my ego

will reply you back with the words of my favorite song: "But those who speak know nothing And find out to their cost Like those who curse their luck in too many places And those who fear are lost" "Shape Of My Heart"- Sting

Well too bad for me, coz I was developing the train of thoughts to address your "speech" and now I lost it. I guess the insight is not ready yet... You made a good point, thank you. Wish all our convo with you, guys, would be for insights, not just about pots and pans.

I know, you want me to drop the idea that there is a special person for me there in this universe, aka my twin flame, and switch my attention inward. How can I drop something that is so dear to for my identity (my long-term belief which I stated above)...so how can I drop it since I have never been on that side of the river? another side of the river here is Enlightenment and the realization of my true nature. of course ego wants to hold it tight, since it does not know any better.

I love this article, just read it. "18 Signs You’ve Found Your Soulmate" https://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/18-signs-youve-found-your-soulmate.html or this one: https://astroglide.com/blog/15-soulmate-signs-how-to-know-when-you-ve-met-the-one

No, I am not putting anyone in the box. Was just referring to my own perception of what it is when it hurts. but it is a very long concept to decipher. Might talk one day about Sedona and how useful they described there the mechanism of dissolving any emotion, even the most intense one. Might post here the page from that book. This stuff works, checked already! By the way when you called me the "butterfly", I did not get it at first, therefore asked to clarify. In my culture "social butterfly" is not a relationship stable woman, sometimes slutty. Like she flits from person to person for an enjoyment or fun. Anyway, thank you for the clarification. Language barrier, LOL yea, golden words....sometimes you need years for the profound insight to be ready. True, and I know it. But sometimes I need words to describe this reality. The realization has slowly dawned upon me, the emotion was somewhat unique and unusual.

@zeroISinfinity why have you on Earth removed your comment? I saw it but you did not give me the chance to respond. I actually appreciate your help.

Your twin flame won't allow your suffering, won't call you mad. The connection is magical, there is no ego on the way, only compassion and deep love. IF you wanna go very far, call @Nahm, he will tell you there is no such concept as soulmate or twin flame. Good news, this is not your woman and I am sorry I do not have time to elaborate. Bad news: illusion hurts, I know...it is hard to drop what you think is so awesome.

hurt is not even a word compared how strong you get.....

My main mistake here is that I do not trust the external force, does not seem like it is bliss to me, would be fair to say unknown.... Not new to me, been there, down that Surrender is my prayer I only want what is best for me, even though I do not see the bigger picture yet. Peace can be established immediately. yes, otherwise the slap on the face hurts a lot.

It takes so much courage to realize God within you. If someone ever asked me what I wanted the most, to realize my true nature and become a philosopher OR to live in the life of illusion and enjoy simple things, I would probably go with the second choice. Like truly, I do not have this courage yet. Truth hurts, it is bitter, ego hates it. Every single moment life challenges me, it is a constant fight between life and myself. I get what it is there for me, but I still hold so tight, like a stubborn child. To "drop" every single desire, emotion and feeling, to "drop" everyone who became so dear to my heart, to realize there is no "others". There is no choice, I am not in control, nor ever been....just a puppet in the hand of God. What can I do? Just observe silently whatever life throws at me. Enlightenment is the only salvation, all the pointers to open that door. Even though the illusion is so sweet and wonderful, but the pain is greater! I will probably lose the fight, drown in pain, and will be forced to open the door to the unknown. I will never win the battle, because my enemy has a weapon that eventually will put me down on my knee. I will beg for Enlightenment to not lose myself and become insane. And the funniest thing is that on the deeper level, I want it from all my heart, but it comes with package full of pain, I am not sure if I am strong enough to withstand. Anyway, there is only the exist, one way ticket without any ability to return back. The force is pulling me, and too late to turn around.

which places,here and where else?

@DrewNows My name spells with an "i", like Galina, due to Ukrainian language they put it as Galyna in my passport. Another synchronicity, which is awesome. Have you ever met anyone with this name before. You are so welcome, my friend. @Amit Today, I just burst out crying, I have never ever in my life felt so much love, this drives me crazy, love of the Creation. It lasted like ten minutes, now it is gone. I want to go so so so deep. It was intense feeling and I want to die in it! Like all the negativity or self-image just disappeared. I wanted but I could not reach this or come closer to the God. I felt this crazy energy is in my heart chakra. I started to cry so hard. I can not describe it. I will start writing about it in my essay. There is so much more to it. I fail here to describe the feeling, I need to contemplate. This is going to heal me. @zeroISinfinity you can not imagine how much loved you are by this Creation. I doubt people understand what love is. It starts with a human being, it collapses with God, where there is no you and Him/Her anymore. This is the craziest, the most dear and the most desirable thing we all crave. The whole complete Transformation.

If I really do it, my world would be very solipsistic....I mean it. It feel like I am the center of my universe. This is my direct experience. I do not have physical universe in my experience as well. It is just a thought.

Finally I've found a friend who can express in a word format my thoughts, well done! yep. thank you for reminding me.... You are just my best. Love how you put it. I would disagree with this little part as you can not kill the ego, in a way, you are it! But thank your for the wonderful insights. Deep...as usual