Galyna

Yep, I agree, this time concept is the most confusing thing ever. Throw this time concept and you”ll get closer to the truth.

Happy New Year to my favorite forum in the world. ❤️❤️❤️

Guys, I want to share with you what has happened the other day. Because I was chasing the understanding for about five years, now I got it! In order to understand Oneness, one has to receive the experience of being Nothing. As soon as you pass through the experience of being nothing, this thought about others vs. me would never occur in your mind. The only difficulties on my way to understanding and grasping that everything is one was in fact the belief in the so-called POV. Once you become raw experience - literally become a raw experience where "being" (hearing, seeing, feeling, and perceiving) just happens - you would not experience such a thing as POV. At that particular time, you will lose the sense of self and you will become nothing. When you become nothing you would not have any registration whatsoever of the particular moment of time. You literally become a raw experience. When this happens, you can only recognize that when experience has already taken place, but not when you are fully in it, because there is no one to register that experience. When you retrospect about losing yourself, you see that you literally became nothing - there was no one behind the scenes, just raw experience. Raw experience does not hold ownership, therefore there is no such things as others or me. There is only this experience. Which feels like never happened when you think about it. Call it a dream if you want. But it never happened. So, in order to understand if others exist or not, get rid of your current POV. And the way to do it is to become awareness that is not aware of itself and relax and go with the flow. Once you pass through this experience and you literally become nothing, the question about "me vs. other" will resolve on its own. All you need to do is to change the paradigm, not in your mind, but rather, you're getting rid of your POV here, which is on your way to a bigger understanding. Being aware of being aware is the first, initial, and important step to become nothing. The second step will be full relaxation where you are not aware anymore of the observer, you just become what you are observing. Once you're there, it will lead you to the experience of becoming nothing. When you become nothing, you would understand that there is no such thing as others. The topic about solipsism will be closed forever. Please don't be too strict about my works -- I'm using a linguistic language to frame this concept.

@Onecirrus From a spiritual point of view, it works as a contrast. How can you fathom your own nature without others? You need others to mirror you, to challenge you, and to improve you (indirectly). Of course, you can spend all your life in the mountain being a monk, meditating all day, and being in the highest states of consciousness. I am talking about mediocre. Relationships are fun, it is a creation...no purpose, just pure joy.

realistically speaking what other intentions would it be? Pure friendships or a hobby...

Rule of thumb, what helps me: every emotional state is kinda malleable, the good news is that impermanence is your salvage. Nothing lasts forever: excitement, hurt, pain....understanding this is your road to freedom. Suffering ends but high emotional states also have tendency to cease. But you never know what comes next.

I agree with this statement as well. Too naive to think that awakening is going to fix everything, in fact a lot of things will come out from under the rug. Shadow work is inevitable.

Hello my Princess The self is a concept, therefore does not exist, it is an emergence of thoughts, feelings and perceptions. You do not make your thoughts, but your thoughts comprise your identity. Meditation is the best way to notice how the thoughts make your identity and how you are NOT in control of your thoughts. Everything is just an appearance, including self, time, space and distance. Hugs.

Hello Princess, thanks for the warm words. I am doing fine...was busy a little bit with my job search. Can't keep up with the forum and my peeps, a lot of things are going on. What is the news with you? Sorry, I do not have to read everything. Lots of hugs.

@Preety_India Beautiful picture.

Recently I’ve been experiencing a breakthrough regarding Time and its implication. I am not in a state of clarity all the time but rather is pushed into it when suffering occurs. !!!!For starters, human language is incapable to relay the feeling or inner perception. But I will try as hard as I can. Please do not be too hard on me, I will be using words like "me", "I", "yours", "mine". Nothing here is mine or yours and it is shocking. Shortly after becoming “nothingness” in my direct experience on September 12th, I fell into the conceptual abyss of time. It became clear to me that if nothing has happened but only appeared as it has, there is only a present moment, time is not real. You carry this body in the 3D space (it is also an illusion, btw), it’s moving but on the background of “your” awareness, there is always stillness. It literally feels like I hit the wall and the motion of time in my thoughts has come to an end. The only representation my mind can create is this: ------>| Where the vector (------>) is thought about “my personal history” aka identity and its past and the wall ( | ) is this present moment. For the ego it is terrifying. Quite frankly I am not sure how to process this. This realization creates anxiety, the desire to hold still and do nothing. It disrupts my ability to plan ahead, dream, hope, and make any kind predictions. When thinking about the future it becomes blank/nothing. As of right now, I have this perception of the body in the 3D space and my thoughts. I am disoriented because my ego used to identify itself with a future/past when making any plans and creating hopes. It is scary because when nitpicking a thought there is no ego really, just a present moment that catches these thoughts’ frequencies (including the thought about “me”) as radio waves. I don’t believe in the thought story anymore. It is shocking. Because I clearly see how this illusion, call it ego, creates a time continuum and a personal story to function normally, to survive. When ego cannot cling to the time, it’s slowly dying, there is no story for it to hold on. Any thought that arises about the future is rejected automatically because I see that it is just a thought and the so-called future will never happen the way thoughts present it. Now…try to really grasp it and see what will happen. You'll be in panic. I’m experiencing this horrific fear. Of what? Of ambiguity and uncertainly, for the major part because I am very confused about this experience. The best word to describe my mental state would be confusion or disorientation. Also, the feeling that I am going slightly insane. However, this present moment is THE ONLY SAFE PLACE to be to avoid the suffering that is caused by the thought about the illusory future. This is my only escape. Appearance, call it "reality", is a quicksand of thoughts that create ego and time. There is only appearance, nothing really happens, and impossible by default. I do not claim anything here, just sharing. I am still confused and can not wrap my mind around it.

Touche!

The truth is there is no space, no objects, no colors. Yep, kinda like space exists in a relation to what? Does it really? Then how? What is it stipulated by? and so on and so forth......thought, thought and another thought.

Sorry had to remove my last comment with emoticon, but i know you read it. Anyway, thank you very much.

Lol, there is no flux either. Seems like it is but not really, just an illusion.

@Amit I mean as God I am already creating. God=I. We can’t separate them. So God/me manifests through me/God. The circle is complete. ?

Literally, since there is no one to make a choice, being happens without any choices and without anyone to make them. Agree, but that’s already the case. ? no need to do anything, no effort is needed. Just go with a flow. Who are we?

@Someone here I am always in the present moment ?

@Amit would it be proper to say to completely surrender in relaxation and the choice will make “me”? Illusory purpose will create the being on its own and “I am eleven miles away from the window of paradise. “

Well said, thank you for your feedback.

Had anxiety out of nowhere in the morning today, I believe according to some data about Kundalini, this anxiety is a necessary step of the purification process. Confusion is about how to execute, plan and organize if there is no one there behind the scene, and because I am not the raw experience all the time, feels like confusion as I can not make a choice now, no control right? but the illusion of the ego is still there. Surrender, right... I guess it has nothing personal but more like existential or absolute fear. Like “ who am I and what is happening?” These type of crazy thoughts. This kind of fear that happens prior to total surrendering. In all honesty, it is not up to this "illusory ego" of what will be adopted or abandoned. All forecasts are false. Deconstruction is hard. Prepare for unexpected!

I would argue that because shift implies time! and there is no motion and change but rather the appearance of it! It is all Singularity which means there is no point A and point B. You understand that there is no distance between the objects, right? Think about how motion is possible in these instances. Can not agree more! I believe I do not identify myself with the body anymore. There is an appearance of the body, and perception along with feeling and thought, these all comprise Galyna. Yep, but we all know that the process itself is painful with regards who claims it. If there is no time, there can NOT be any steps, my friend. We can not anticipate awakening in the future. See how we can create thoughts. Like there are so steps for me in the future that i need to move forward to achieve something. Is it really? But in a relative sense, I understand very well what you are talking about. God damn it, the awakening has already happened and hasn't happened at the same time, lol. Thank you!

Everything I posted on this forum in the past month happened due to an enormous amount of suffering. Call it my DMT. Not just one thing has happened, every step in my life was designed for this realization. "Knowing" is not the right word. The correct way would be to say that I have just noticed the blind spot or "some glitch happened in the system for me to notice it." Bear in mind, there is no one here/there to see, notice, or know. There is no time, nothing has happened, just seems as it has. There is no such thing as enlightenment bc there is no one to gain it and bc there is no timeline where it can happen. Fluke luck but this experience has always "been" there. Everything is a dream, dream does not have any quality. Everything I write here is a total BS.

Lol, another synchronicity, the universe gives me the info that I need the most! Thanks, my friend.