Galyna

Ok, never mind then.

It is not going to happen in the nearest future. Propaganda is so bad, russians do not have any choice, literally, very close-minded, choices are made for them, they do not have question these choices. They do not know what is like to have president other than Putin! They grew up with Putin, please think about it. Even people on this forum, (I mean russians) I have been reading their posts for years, we talked about consciousness and self-development. I cannot believe they support invasion. So, everything we work on here, flies out of the window when it comes to putinism. Russia only understands the language of violence. They do not give a shit about democracy. I think when they'll start to wipe their assholes with old newspaper, maybe then.... they would ponder that something definitely is not right. How do I know? My dad lives in Moscow, he supports people who are killing his family in Mariupol now. Technically he proclaims the violence. My half-sister, also in Moscow, thinks all the videos I send her is fabrication made by Ukrainians. What kind of democracy are we talking about?

@vladorion My grandmother lives in Mariupol right now, (I am originally from there) that is occupied by Orсs, (that is how we call russians). So, they had a steady minus Celsius all this month, only in a daytime, the temperature went up to 5C. I know and talked to people on the phone who fled the city. Some people froze to death. We have the same situation in Kharkov. You can check the weather, for God's sake. Please stop misleading people on our forum. It wont be tolerated here. Your country is going to fall, just accept the fact and take a responsibility for it. Sorry for the hatred. I am trying hard to remain as conscious as I can. It is hard.

@hello1234 yes, you know what is shocking to me? that my sister, real sister who lives in Moscow is so brainwashed with putinism I could not persuade her to think that we have a war, she truly believes that putin saves our people. My dad who is from Moscow thinks the same. my uncle right now is in Mariupol, I haven’t heard from my grandparents, not sure if they are alive…and the most shocking thing that my immediate family doesn’t give a damn. What do we even expect from people on this forum we have never seen…

This is not true, Russians do not understand Ukrainian language, please stop.... Because of this thinking that you do promote here, my people are killed. You are saying a fucking non-sense and I see that you do not study our history in Russia. - YouTube Fast forward where he says how putin declared himself that he could only understand 30% of our language.

Thanks so much for explaining, I don’t think ppl on this forum understand how dirty corruption is in there…

I am sincerely sorry to what has happened to our country. I was born in Russia and my dad lives in Moscow, but I spent my life in Mariupol, then in Kharkiv. My grandparents are in Ukraine now. Pls understand ppl on this forum, including Leo have no fucking clue how big mafia works in russia. The concept that russia is so powerful is just a concept. Nobody knows how Lavrov and Sechenov came into power. Anatoly Serdyukov, for instance, was a director of furniture store in russia, pls think, that person was assigned to be a minister of Defense, really? These people had no clue about martial business, some of them were forces to take control over different sectors of russian military. Foreigners on this forum do not know this. They don’t know how russian mafia made money by selling some of their military objects making two percent sales. @Leo GuraLeo doesn’t know this either since his russian is pretty bad and he doesn’t have access to read the chronics. russia is a gang formation, corrupted. Foreigners on this forum have no fucking clue how they fucked under the blankets with each other. A lot of money involved. Poor people just suffer in my country today. I don’t support our government either but I am proud to be Ukrainian. Have you seen putin’s army ammunition? The food that expired in 2015. It is laughable how world believes that russian army is great. It is all a sham. They just have nucs. Don’t spend your precious time to help people understand the real situation in russia. They have to be from there to know all the details. Leo even stated that putin js right for russia. The silliest statement so far. Leo, do you have any relatives or friends there? They are all frightened by him. putin lost his respect long time ago. Why would they stop YouTube and Facebook there, pls think. If there is nothing to hide, why “eco of Moscow “ and Dozhd” was banned? I have friends and family in both countries. My perspective is not narrow. I can’t stomach when people on this forum with zero understanding about our history trying to comment on this war. Where is this knowledge come from? Their tv and radios and maybe internet articles? But this knowledge is a bit perverted and biased. Great analogy would be a straight guy says he loves to fuck women. But at night he sucks men’s dick. This is the situation right now in russia. Too much ado about nothing. This masquerade is going to end. russia is not that powerful as you think, simple bc their mafia doesn’t care about their people either. Maybe Zelensky could have been more diplomatic with putin, I agree, he shouldn’t bark at him, knowing that putin won’t stop. I don’t defend Ukrainian government, also very corrupted. But at least our people are free, we don’t ban websites, we don’t put ppl in prisons. i pray and hope Ukraine will stand. maybe putin will take over half of my country, but politically he will lose 10000%. His regime is going to fall. He is not a good leader, @Leo Gura read about Beslan, Chechnya and Nord Ost. Read how he came into power, he killed his own ppl.

Also, here, they have an amazing return policy. You can return everything you bought within 30 or sometimes 90 days of the purchase. ?

You are your own synchronicities, every single reflection of them.

Every day, and yes, everything is connected and it is so obvious right now. Sometimes my synchronicities are subtle, sometimes it is even scary. also when you concentrate on some issue, your psyche uses a selective perception and all you are about to see will be linked to your issue/topic. But I do absolutely agree that synchronicities are not random. Universe talks to itself this way.

Guys, please help. Lately I have been doing pretty bad. It feels as I hit the wall of my life. I have apathy and cannot construct meaning to move on in life as I used to. I was hit by terrible depression. Sometime reality feels unbearable. I have zero energy to go and conquer the world. Everything is falling apart: personal life – will face divorce, most likely this year, education: no power or interest to work/continue my master’s, work: started a new job in a new company, have no clue if they keep me there for a long time. Am I facing a dark night? I have so much fear, fear of unknown. Every achievement in life feels empty. I cannot enjoy things. Sometimes, I want to fall asleep and not face existence. I do not have anything to lean on, feeling very insecure. One day could cry from divine bliss, another day suicidal thoughts. One day awareness is so high, another day I turn into ignorant bitch, everything flies out the window, all my wisdom. I cannot recognize myself anymore. My identity or illusion of it feels very strange. Guys, how did you keep your jobs during this period of your life. I have to support myself somehow financially, but I am not sure if I can concentrate on my job duties when falling apart like this. I have zero energy. Sometimes, it feels that I am falling into a dark whole of my life, to the lowest.

Thanks, college, yes, I am taking a break this semester. I do have two bachelors, but they do not cost a thing, I guess. Maybe the only meaning is to serve others, but I do not have a special degree to be in that situation and can only do office jobs, which is a bit depressive. Hard to live when your ego cannot invent a story for the future, and you realize that all your future is in your head, right at this second as a thought.

@NoSelfSelf Right, a good sign, LOL, I hope I will have a place to live.

how to survive during the storm to keep your mortgage and pay the bills?

@Nahm after meditation I cried today. I don’t understand the feeling of sadness either. Tried to inspect, only one thought came into mind: existential loneliness. felt so pity for my little ego trying to find Truth since it remembers itself ?.

? bravo, well said

You can observe the mirror on your wall as well. Right?

"Animals" are a part of "your" first order reality (pristine perception) and "you" (or call it "your mind", (both statements are wrong)) automatically assign meaning to it, calling perception "an animal", second order reality. Are they separate from you? by which means do you know this? have you ever had a direct experience of it?

What if you couldn’t speak human language? What would you be left with?

This can not be communicated with a language. I wrote about it about six months ago. The basics of Reality - Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality - Actualized.org Forum\\ "Without language, we could not describe and construct plausible reality. All there is just a Raw Reality, which is predicated upon Awareness and is manifested in the form of perception, a.k.a. the five senses. These five senses travel through your perception, call it a "stencil". When these perceptions are collected and converged onto the focal point, we have an emergence, call it a human being. The mind interprets raw experience and creates identity. How? By the means of language. What is language? It is a sound. We assign the meaning to any shape by the means of the sound. When we give any linguistic load to the object, we mean the perceptive experience, but not the object. It is just a label, right? Because objects do not exist separately from the perception, which includes the five senses. So, we decode the material reality by the means of the five senses and convert them into plausible reality. Again, you are not a human being! Here is how you emerge: 1. Awareness 2. Perception decoded into the five senses: 3. Vibration creates sound (which is hearing), sound is encoded into language. 4. Then by grouping the various noises, you create words. 5. Language is a tool by which you assign the meaning to the objects=semantic load. Remove language and you will not be able to describe reality. Duality will collapse. All you’d have would be the raw reality which is Oneness: awareness and five senses allow this raw reality to be. You are the “stencil” (attaching the picture below). The stencil is just a collection of your beliefs, manifesting in the form of the human language, behavior, conscious and unconscious reactions. Your ego is a stencil. Your ego is highly influenced by the external reality; therefore, it does not have free will and acts according to reactions and impulses. That is how you construct your identity. Yesterday I re-watched Leo’s video (below), and finally, it clicked. I watched it thousands of times six years ago, and could not get rid of the linguistic labels. Finally, I was able to dis-attach and see the reality without the stencil. I've acquired a deeper understanding. I am sorry if I couldn't relay my message in a more plausible way. It is very hard. I have understanding, but not enough scientific knowledge to pass it to other people. Much Love. "

@RMQualtrough I disagree.

@Adodd sure. please read my post, I answered this question a year ago.

Seems like everyone here is an expert about God consciousness, I think it is Bc my consciousness evolves, therefore this forum evolves, since I make it this way as the only thing in existence… ?

I have noticed that the forum is evolving. When we started in 2016, the topics were far less advanced.

I just want to see the following: body awareness no thoughts experience difficulties with retain some short memory no emotional response relation to the 3D thanks ?