Galyna

TWO SHADES OF ONE ENIGMATIC EXPERIENCE Memories like piano’s key slowly come from far away. How could you ever try if it’s even possible to explain your feelings?! Always imprisoned and always lonely, one on one with emotional palette. And as your lips touch a rim of your coffee cup, emotions have already awoken, burning slowly in the soul’s furnace. Mental images, facial expressions, fragments of phrases recently said by the loved ones, are revolving in your head. Writing about feelings and emotions is challenging, as these are so delicate, subtle, and ever changing. How does it feel to carry something special in your heart for decades, wake up one morning and… realize that it will become real in a matter of hours? What kind of life mystery stands behind this event? Meeting your true Self that was thoroughly hidden in the “closet” of your soul for years. Anticipation is not even the correct word to describe everything that was resurrected in your soul within hours prior to this Enigma. This feeling is saturated with deep, indescribable, yet hard to comprehend need that is lying deeply, under thousands of vails of the your conscious mind. Something enclosed inside is breaking loose, building up the tension, like a snowball that is rolling down in the backyard of your psyche, getting bigger and bigger. This “something” has been patiently waiting and treated above and beyond all the manners and expectations. How blindfolded do you have to be to create the land of illusion and color it with all possible shades of “your” imagination? Thus, this illusion became so powerful and overwhelming that manipulates its own Creator. Admit the failure of your own will power; you are not in control, nor have ever been. Turned into romantic prisoner of your desires, you are waiting for something you cannot completely obliterate from the thoughts. Maybe some childish call within your core nature leads you to this meeting, something very dear to your heart. And the very fact of pampering this need empowered you through years, by giving you more strength and faith into rosy, yet always escaping future. You’re trying to analyze it with logic and every time you approach it a bit closer, it’s gone even further. “Your” reality is shrinking from years, days, months into hours, minutes, and seconds. You have a couple more moments for a sweet fatigue before the curtain will be lifted. One side of “yours” is frightened; it would rather be living in the cage of unknown, than be given away forever, breaking up this illusion like a mirror. But at the same time something subtle, delicate, and so precious gives you a complete confidence in this never-ending Infinite Fantasy (Maya).

@Thought Art thank you for a beautiful post. I agree people don't ever explore the nature of the insight.

You’re welcome.

Everyone and everything in its place. No judgements here.

To see integrity in others, you have to "be integral" yourself.

All right. But this is not my thread, and people get triggered with my writings. Why don't you create a thread so we could continue this discussion there, and be polite and respectful to other members of our community. Alex, good luck to you, my old Friend. Hope you will feel better.

I agree, lets finish this conversation. Sometimes it does not lead to anything. Better be loving and using other ways/mediums to convey the meaning to each other. Experience is the king! Words are nothing. Much Love.

Absolutely you are creating me. I do not have any perceptions. Please wake up, I am begging you. I am tired to argue with you for years!

Very simple....You are creating this "I" who thinks that everything is BS. There is no you at the first place, when "you" see it, it feels amazing.

Share, please....

"I" am constructing you as an interlocutor right at this second to only fall asleep again and create this woman who has a personal life story and a name. This is crazy and mind's game. and...in all honestly, I love it! hahahahahahah You are right, thanks for waking me up. Phew, no need to argue and prove any points. I am talking to myself all this time.

@Amit Sure, I will try hard to explain. There is only one perception real, only one, and this perception is YOURS. Look around, feel your body. Your perceptions are creating this chat, me, room. You think you are talking to a human being?

I know it hurts the identity, and mind tries to invent the universes and others, why do you think "people" go through an existential horror when awakening happens?

Conceptually, yes, there IS! Factually, no, there are no others. Period!

Perspective, levels, us, world - conceptual thinking. Period. Your mind creates is right now, you are just not aware of it. Right at this second. There is only ONE thing that exists, and this thing is YOU ( call it perception)

@Amit Of course, otherwise I wouldn’t write it, correct? You are just a pixels on my screen. There is no me or you, no others. Remember what we are doing here: deconstructing reality! I will post about my 1h 52 atma vichara I did yesterday. don’t switch the channel…

@vibv The problem here is that you think that words point to something in the real world, but there is no real world. There is no consciousness that exists and can be spoken of. Words only point to created concepts, to themselves! 😊❤️ There are two levels of understanding: conceptual and factual. There is nothing but perception that lies in your direct experience (this is a fact not a concept!), the rest is the conceptual understanding. In the context of the dual thinking we can say " there is a perception of (any) experience, and only this "thing" aka perception creates the illusory idea of reality. Unfortunately, I fail here to express it with the human language.

You can go to my profile and read about "my" perception of "myself". I write about it very often.

Then don't cry when your "fun" will be over, remember "the feature" and move on. Because people only want and desire the good things from "the feature" and they reject suffering. Suffering is a part of "the feature" and it is important to remember it.

Ignorance is the big issue.

please read carefully what I wrote as I've never mentioned the words "ending life".

The answer will depend on what you mean when you address to me as "you". Elaborate on that and I will answer your question.

if you say so....

@Rafael Thundercat can you please elaborate a bit more. what are you trying to tell me?