Galyna

@Someone here I am free from my desires.

there is no real opposite to what is, therefore, everything is perfect.

When I had my first satori, I have realized that mind cannot control awareness being on itself. Fast forward to min 2:58

Just came across this man, he is new to me.

@Jannes Interesting, just came across this an hour ago. Synchronicity....

Other is your perfect mirror. When you do not trust yourself, others will reflect this back at you. OTHERS ARE YOU. Any relationship you have with the other is a relationship you are having with yourself. Here is the greatest example ever: When you want to prove your point to the other, convincing them that they are wrong. When you “scream” with all your power, trying to change others, trying to teach them, going beyond and above to explain yourself to them. Then ask yourself, why are you in relationship that do not serve you? And why don’t you trust your best judgement and intuition to leave this relationship. Why are you clinging to something that is not working? This is my biggest mistake in life, instead of leaving people, I try so hard to be heard and understood. I give people chances over and over and because I do not want to let go (out of fear). Today I’ve seen my self-doubt for real, and I truly looked at it, probably for the first time after all these years. I do not trust myself enough to just walk away from people. I spent years, my personal lifetime on something that I believed could work. My spiritual ego really thinks that by leading others with Love and Light I can awaken their ego and "show them the way". This part of me is so confident and delusional. Reality will test you till you learn. It is like check and balances, you might think that you got something, you have learned something deeply. But if your emotional state says otherwise, you have not learned anything. If the other can still trigger you, you are lying to yourself through your teeth. Other people are your mind conversing with Itself through imaginary experience of the Self. You are creating others right at this second. I came to the realization how this mirror thing works. Thanks to all my forum friends, who helped me with this. I have only one question in mind, should I lead others by my own example, or should I let them stay asleep? Should I stay awake all the time or play this game that there are others, and I can teach them something, so funny...

There is no one to take responsibility. don’t be too hard on your self ? Just look inward. You need to come to a realization how mind construct ego. When you have a slight clue, I promise things will get better.

Feels like I wrote this for myself to remind myself to not fall asleep. Yes, beautifully said. Vulnerability requires not only courage but a clear mind, like a hawk who watches the pray. Resistance to let go and cast the layers of ego. It is so hard. Ego wants to preserve itself and have compromise at the same time. But compromise is impossible. You either die or stay alive, there is no middle.

Think about it, if others do not exist, it is NOT them who pretends. You are the only one who is pretending. Go inwards.

Remember 0 is nothing; 1 is everything! 01010101 Everything around you is information which is represented by: shapes colors sounds And also information is represented by the internal feelings, thoughts and sensations. Thoughts, feelings and sensations don’t belong to anybody. There is no agent behind who can claim this phenomenon. However your mind(a mind is a bundle: information plus memory) binds them together ( internal and external information) and creates the illusion of so called separated entity. However everything that you are perceiving, swims on it’s own in the ocean of encoded information. As soon as this information is captured and converged onto body, it is recognized and being claimed. That is how your ego is being born every single second. Everything that is claimed as “yours” belongs to your ego mind mechanism. In fact everything is ego, bc there is no objective reality. Now ego is necessary because if the information is unclaimed, it can not be KNOWN! You need a projector and the screen. So yeah, raw sensory data can be claimed as ego, without ego they wouldn’t be recognized and claimed and perceived. Someone has to perceive to make them “alive”. Ego is information that is captured by the mind, converted and claimed as yours. There is no such thing as external and internal world. Notice it. Illusion of the ego is a must, otherwise the world, as you know it, wouldn’t be possible! it is a big discovery I have recently made. I want to create a thread about it. So…why do you buy into idea that there is an objective and subjective world? Notice, there is only information and this information is the Mind! However, the way this information is represented is the most crucial. Because this representation creates the boundary and illusion of the internal and external reality.

There are no other people. With all my respect. But for you, right at this second is just a story. Admit you don’t truly know. It is a second order knowledge, who is primal then? YOU.

By no means I claim that I am any kind of a teacher. I am sharing with people of what I have discovered. You are your own teacher. I just want to be of service to others!

I don’t have any questions to ask. Do you?

Sure, who do you want to be a teacher or a student? You pick.

But a statement that you can kill your ego is wrong. There is nothing there to kill in the first place. You think you have an ego and it is some kind autonomous entity. Look around your room right now, everything is information in your current visual field. You are the whole entire field, everything, absolutely EVERYTHING you are perceiving right at this second. But to create an illusion of the separate self, there are thoughts (mental sensual images, auditory labels) on top of what you are perceiving right at this second. Thoughts are needed for a purpose of the explanation and orientation in this visual field, you call “reality”. Otherwise, you would go insane and can not orient yourself, even could not locate or understand what you are. Now, you are the whole entire picture. What you call ego is the perception (sounds, feelings, smells, tactile sensations and visual images + plus thoughts) that come and go and form the idea of the separate subjective experience. Who are you going to kill there? If you mean “the voice” inside of your head, then sure, give it a try, it is impossible to kill it, however. @Gabith

Because suffering is the best teacher. You suffer for a reason, it is a wake up call. You won’t grow otherwise. Committing suicide is not an option. What will happen is that you will transit from one dream into another dream. Do you truly think you will die? ? It is all a dream. Consciousness is just dreaming.

You think your body and ego are separate from this present moment. It is a naive statement. Go and explore what truly your ego is along with body and physical reality.

This guy has the whole serious about suicide and what follows it. Do not kill your body, your suffering won't end. Also study Bardo. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bardo In some schools of Buddhism, bardo (Classical Tibetan: བར་དོ་ Wylie: bar do) or antarābhava (Sanskrit, Chinese and Japanese: 中有, romanized in Chinese as zhōng yǒu and in Japanese as chū'u)[1] is an intermediate, transitional, or liminal state between death and rebirth. Man, I need to create a thread about it. So many people struggle with these thoughts.

I would avoid using social media in this state. Stay away from Insta

Because to want to escape from what IS... I used to daydream all the time. It is a form of denial of the present moment. Start slowly by putting your attention on your body and physical space around you.

That is my best meditation to put awareness on itself. No practice really makes sense till you developed this ability to see your mind independently from what you are.

Thoughts can appear in the form of sensual images and auditory labels, so I wouldn't just say that only verbal chatter in your head can relate to thinking. Thinking is way trickier than just hearing the voice. I do not have this crazy verbal chatter all the time in my head, it became very mind, quiet, and rather scattered with prolongated stops. However, I still see visuals as memories in my mind. These are all thoughts, guys, with regards to semantic load. @inFlow but to answer your question, yes, there is only one voice, and it is not even "the voice", since it is not autonomous, so these are just random thoughts formed into logical sentences. The best practice to shut off the mental chatter completely is to merge into the experience. Today I was training my colleague. I was so preoccupied with the process, I literally forgot myself and just became what was: the person and myself. I used the logical function of my mind to explain them a process, however this filter, personal ego has completely gone. I "remembered" myself again when came back to my desk. I caught myself on the idea that I just forgot myself (Galyna with her personal life story, pain, suffering, happiness). But this happens so spontaneously, unfortunately, I cannot control this state.

@BipolarGrowth Thank you, I am reading Ralston now, cannot finish his trilogy. But I will check into that one later. I appreciate your feedback.

What is the best way to explain others how you intimately feel Reality? It is so frustrating, even this question is very silly, but I want to explain others how I see and feel reality and I cannot do it. I want to help people and I do not know how to point them in the right direction. I am not talking about mediocre but rather about serious spiritual seekers.

@Leo Gura Thank you, Leo.