Galyna

What was the most scary thing? To disappear?

Bravo to this choice of mine, as a God, to keep this illusion. I love it. ?

Right... because I, as God, want to sustain this common sense, keep sanity, therefore,the illusory identity is there.

"I" dies every second as illusion ofc, because it does not exist in the first place. Interesting that you have mentioned schizophrenia, because I came across this explanation a day ago, heard it from my Master.

Important thing to remember is that reality appears for Itself as is, no more, no less. Take yourself = your mind out of this equation. Your mind puts interpretations and develops a story. This is how you arise . Infinity unfolds… but we see and have access to only one side of It, because other variations are hidden from us, we truly do not know what's there, and read everything according to a lot of factors within us (situational and historical). Today I’ve caught myself on the thought that I, for myself, is the most interesting never-ending puzzle, deep ocean with so-called “others” who unwrap this “I” as a candy. I am always new, fresh side of the Existence. Every moment is always unfamiliar, wild, and untamed. However, we are blindfolded and cannot see this because our attention span is so brief and superficial, we cannot notice the change. Each moment offers itself as a tasty desert, some are sweet, some are tart, but even the excruciating pain has an amazing taste. So funny, I do not have a center. This is clearly seen now. Present moment is hard to express with dualistic terminology. Because when you look at the external objects your mind always appoints meaning. Thus, you do not have a direct experience of the objects, you are always dealing with your mind. And this mind devalues experience, thinking it has already seen it and a lot of things go to unconscious. Enlightenment is a freedom from the mind, not from the intellect. Identity is a projection of your mind with the description of the reality through the stencil of personality. However, the Reality itself is just a simple plane.

Actually, I used the phrase in a wrong way, maybe I wanted to say: I regret you are feeling this way. I agree... this would have been more honest. I do not really know what emotional load the phrase: I am sorry means to native speakers. Looks like it is way more serios than I take it. I am not a jerk, I do not react to this phrase, you can call me a bitch, cu**, or anything, I would care less. It does not trigger me anymore. He did construct the meaning, indeed. What is wrong with saying that I was regretting he felt this way? Actually, the guys' ego might be injured, wounded, traumatized, and he needs some love. He might have personal life issues we do not know or not aware. I do not think/see a being like that, through the prism of drama. In fact, it made me smile. I see him as a being who suffers and ignorant. People like this need more love. My biggest wish is to carry love to others and help people heal. Because they do not know, and they suffer. I do it deliberately, I am perfectly aware of what I write here and how I behave, because I want to show the person that I am not a threat to them. And they can relax. Once their ego is relaxed, they will be more open to see the Light. Fear causes all the drama and name calling. I am truly sorry for all the people on this forum who suffer. And they act the way they do because they are not happy! It is so simple. Your approach is masculine, you would rather hurt feelings but protect your stance and win the verbal battle. My approach is feminine, I would rather drop my stance/point but connect to people in a lovely way, so they feel happy. But why reacting out of fear? I would rather react out of Love. I love PEOPLE!

So happy to read posts like this, thanks for sharing. Keep up with a good work. it has become the central scheme of my life for the past three months. I am quitting everything: occasional alcohol, friends with silly convo (maybe will do couple times a month with friends), shopping. All I want now is to train my body which is gym and my mind (which is my candle meditation 2h a day) I will get there no matter what. I am so tired of hurt and pain from my unrealized desires. At this point of my life, I am ready to leave everything behind, I want to be free from all the egoic drama.

Thank you, Dear

It is awakening but not Enlightenment. Important thing to remember if any teacher/guru/master tries to explain this phenomenon using language, they are not even near! It is an experience. I have been dealing with masters these past ten years, and finally I found one who told me just do the practice and the Truth will expose itself to you. I am doing concentration right now, 2h total per day. People in my group who truly got it, said there is no way to relay it. Also, they said that as me, they did masturbate their minds for years, but nobody got there intellectually. Only practice will get you there, not a contemplation. What we have achieved is some level of awareness so far....but it is a great thing. I do experience the same thing as you do, however it is not Enlightenment. But congratulations, a lot of people won't even get where you are.

I am sorry you feel this way, because I love when people stopping by and spend their time in my thread. I do appreciate your participation; I am sorry if I was not accommodating to understand you better. Let's not take it personally and maybe next time we can understand each other better. Have a wonderful day!

Explain your take then, because maybe I misunderstood you? Then stay where you are and nothing wrong about that either. But I haven't had some experience you did; therefore, I want to experience it myself, going into madness as you call it, how about that?

Hi Alex, thanks for stopping by, my old friend! Hope life treats you well Has my post triggered you as well? Oh...guys on the forum, I love you all, please do not be triggered by my text. Why am I so passionate about this Reality? I cannot answer this question in all honesty. I have no idea where this passion comes from, it is with this body since I remember myself. I always wanted to know what runs the world behind the scenes. There is no doubt that it does not bring the food on the table, I am with you on this. Therefore, I work from 7 to 4 M-F. Then I get back home and Reality is simple again, hahahahahah. Have you ever had in your life a direct experience of being a neuron? Have you ever had a direct experience of this connectivity that you are talking about?

Not even close to the Truth because it is a mind game again. Time does not exist, your enigma that you have to decipher is in YOU right at this moment. All you need to decipher is YOU! GUYS, lets talk about something that we know for sure, which is in our direct experience! Thousands of years is a second order knowledge. It is a thought!

Human reality is no better than a bird's one. The only reason between these two is human mind and the level of intelligence at which consciousness expresses itself right at this moment. It is like a nob; you turn it right or left, by adding a bit more complexity to what you are perceiving. DREAM DREAM DREAM

it is amazing, I was thinking about it before people start even commenting here. So... there is one unit in infinity, it splits into two (let's pretend for a better description here) and somehow Infinity is at work by reconciling this difference it creates. It is a funny game. Variety is there for reason of growth, expansion, exploration and ultimate evolution. However, it is impossible for infinity to reconcile these differences between units, because each unit is right at its space and time (situational approach). It is the One. Therefore, there is no universal Truth, otherwise it would deny the notion of Absolute. So... these guys on forum are also right. Reality is complex for them at the moment, their moment. Once infinity is ready to expend it will simplify itself allowing the person to see the simplicity in everything. HAHAHA, what a big joke, and I love it!

It means you are still triggered, LOL, no offense.... As much as you allow Do you see how your mind lies to itself? Bc if you truly think (reading is better than forum) but still logged in here, you are not being honest Let's put it this way: Language is complex, yes. Reality is not. Contemplate it. Do not fall into trap by calling a language Reality Reality has nothing to do with language. Look at my post this way. I am into a workshop with a real enlightened master. She wants us to do a practice: every day at least 1h concentrating on a candle flame. While doing so I am deconstructing meaning and language. I see how mind creates labels and goes into the maze of deception (words). I wrote about it. It triggered you because you can only see one slice of Infinity. You truly do not see my slice of infinity, and by default you think I am messing on forum with definitions. Would you be my close relative and know about my life and about my practice, you'd give me totally different feedback. Please be aware how you constantly conversing with your mind, which is your default state, no blames here, I do the same. So.... you are triggering you! It is not me, but your thoughts trigger you and create reaction. It is a bitter pill to swallow for the mind, because mind wants to masturbate on meaning. Otherwise, boredom and lack of purpose.

@JuliusCaesar Maybe ?

I only took 2 grams...so I would not know.

More like a shroomer's discussion thread

I did not mean to trigger you, I am writing for myself, to deepen my understanding, it is all mind games . Yes, because Infinite wants to self-explore, so it expands and creates meaning.

Yup, for the mind Mind game, again Your mind right now constructs reality using language (code + meaning). Notice it. Life seems complex- deconstruct every word here. What is life? what is seems? what is complex? Now...look around yourself, right at this moment...do you see any life here, do you see any complex here? What you will notice is your five senses, some space you are in and your thoughts. This is all there is. My main point is that reality is utterly simple and meaningless. Thanks for stopping by .

To turn you inward...otherwise no chance for awakening. Pain was brilliantly designed to wake you up. Golden Sword.

yep, I had this insight this year and wrote this on our forum: All there is just a Raw Reality, which is predicated upon Awareness and is manifested in the form of perception, a.k.a. the five senses. These five senses travel through your perception, call it a “stencil”. When these perceptions are collected and converged onto the focal point, we have an emergence, call it a human being. The mind interprets raw experience and creates identity. How? By the means of language. What is language? It is a sound. We assign meaning to any shape/or abstract notion by the means of the sound. When we give any linguistic load to the object, we mean the perceptive experience, but not the object. It is just a label, right? Because objects do not exist separately from the perception, which includes the five senses. So, we decode the material reality by the means of the five senses and convert them into plausible reality. Again, you are not a human being! Here is how you emerge: 1. Awareness 2. Perception decoded into the five senses: 3. Vibration creates sound (which is hearing), sound is encoded into language. 4. Then by grouping the various noises, you create words. 5. Language is a tool by which you assign the meaning to the objects=semantic load. Remove language and you will not be able to describe reality. Duality will collapse. All you’d have would be the raw reality which is Oneness: awareness and five senses allow this raw reality to be.

There is nothing to return to, that is the point. Nothing renders this phenomenal field of perceptions. Good analogy is your dream at night, it does not have any substance, same happens with the so-called "physical" reality. It is a very scary realization I am contemplating right now as well.

Study sleep yoga, and raising the basic level of awareness in a daily life is increasing a chance of a lucid dreaming. Speaking out of my own experience.