Javfly33

What I mean, is, it's THERE OMG

Why submitting to THIS feels scary?

So you are telling me that consciousness is awakening in his experience constantly everytime he loses his memory?

Are mental illness labeled as "low self-esteem" in the modern age, just a result of the mind working in a perspective very far from the Truth? I think so: If I see things as they are, which is just being, then the "mental illness" low self-esteem can´t no longer be maintained. Even before recognising that "superior" or "inferior" might be social labels and not absolutes, I can recognise that the projections/emotions "superior" and "inferior" are happening within being. If i go deeper, i see that they are both literally being! Differences just collapsed totally under the careful observation of the NOW. However there are people who have normal self-esteem. They might haven´t projected "superiority" and "inferiority" labels through their life as much as me. In that sense, the social sense, they are more aligned with Truth than I am and they don´t even know it. They are more automatically consciouss by seeing reality more close to what it is as I have done. Funny isn´t it? Do we all aligne with Truth the more we heal and see things as they are? Or is it more complex than this?

Good for you. Definetely it looks choosing the right psychotherapist is the key. I probably could benefit from going to one but I feel I need to trust the psychotherapist and so far (2 times I've tried) I haven't have found that luck yet.

By knowing you do not need to let go. Allow with an open heart you not letting go. Here's why, If you are not ready to let go, do not force yourself to let go. Rather, when you notice a movement in form or thought of you judging or not letting go, instead of categorising that as "bad", or as "that need to change", see it as what it is. See if you can see that movement (thought, emotion etc) without judging it. You are asking how to stop hating, disliking or critizising, well the first step is actually to not judge this hating, disliking or critizising in the first place. Maybe, just maybe, this hating has the same 'taste' as love. But do not believe me, actually do this anti-judgement practice and see what you discover.

THIS is the same as 'Being' right? Isn't beatiful that even this phrase and the above one are the SAME under the correct observation of THIS? Both happening within THIS, both THIS themselves

@Nahm Good. Straight to the point

For example, this forum separates between those. I totally understand it, however on the other hand i can sense there has to come a point where you have to actually recognise you can´t separate them. What do I accomplish if i separate the Spiritual truths that i discover, with career/work/dating...etc? Is it career/work/dating OUTSIDE the laws of non-duality and fakeness of all identities? Is it really wise to first realize for example that your desires are a way that your ego keeps the illusion alive, and then go rationalize why you should take yourself your career this x seriously or have this materialitic approach to dating, because "things work a certain way"? Are they? Or are we telling ourselves that to keep the illusion alive?

What to do when this type of thought arises? "This is amazing, but, if i let go completely, then how i am going to control my plans for the future, I need to get a job, self-actualize this and that ...etc" If i let go, then fear arises. I want the fear to be gone, so I start believing my "story" again. Maybe i should wait to "mature" my life more before enlightment? It seems I have more or less a good tune with what to do to become effortless, but there´s doubt in this effortless into what to do once I am there (or more precisely, when i´m "nowhere")

Can a high state of consciousness answer the question of why, at least, it seems that existence is localized somewhere? I´ve heard the analogy of Leo saying consciousness is divided into "virtual partitions" like a hard drive. Ok, make sense to me, but two questions regarding this: Is a virtual partition the result of a low state of consciousness? With a high state of consciousness, awareness would become all there is, therefore it wouldn´t be anymore a virtual partition but just One absolute? If the second point is true, could we say that awareness is not being fully itself right now in this experience (because i´m at a low state of consciousness right now) therefore i´m maintaining the "virtual partition"?

If not it can´t be enlightment. Don´t say that "even you become enlightened" your ego might still victim of emotional triggers and similar traps of the mind. Isn´t enlightment actually trascending the traps of the mind? Because today I got emotionally triggered and I realized wow, I´ve been doing this all my life. Creating thought stories. Then I got the opportunity to actually drop them. I could have done it today. Today could have been the end of stories within stories within stories. Ha. I could have just bite the bullet and accept that I projected Everything of what i´ve lived. But i couldn´t. It´s so radical. It implies such a step into absolute loneliness of your decision. Again back into the delusion. It´s really dishearting that in this forum you guys said enlightment doesn´t deconstruct all the stories of the mind. Because if it doesn´t then there is no much difference between this and enlightment.

@universe I agree although the counselor just ask the right questions. He has to be the one who answers.

Funny how this "social anxiety" works, and what proves this "illnesses" are just relative labels and it's CRUCIAL that you do your own instrospective work on your own. I consider myself I would match many of the social anxiety symptoms, however I am totally fine with being in crowd places, but for example I wouldn't go to a counselor (even if I know it could be beneficial to me) because I judge myself if I would go it. See? There's a hint. Maybe for you social anxiety comes from other place, but for me it's all about JUDGEMENT. If I don't judge myself I have 0 social anxiety. Self inquiry about that.

Most of the people end up doing self-inquiry too just a result of any of other practices lol. (I did at least, and I was never interested in doing self-inquiry) You'll also trascend self-inquiry at one point it will become useless after it was useful to get you to the next stage

Make sense, but if you are consciousness, why can't you explain to me why , for example, did you veil yourself to experience a mind? And still this doesn't answer the why of why consciousness right now is veiled under my mind and not yours. Because as far as I'm concerned you are only a concept. I can believe you as a person exist, but I can't never have direct experience of you having consciousness too. I can only attest that consciousness is here. So my question is, why consciousness is here.

That's a dangerous game, isn't it ? It's paradise when the mind creates "beauty" (what you project as good) but it can become hell if the mind creates horrror and suffering. If you engage and enjoy your mind creations you are for a rude awakening. When you trascend the mind there's little difference between a 'positive' thought and a negative one. If you are trapped in duality, well, that's basically it, you are trapped in duality.

@Serotoninluv that's nice to hear. Make sense! Haha

I want to try Vegan diet but my problema is I really don´t like how Legumes impact my stomach. Rice and bread I can tolerate them although I´d be way more happy withouth them, problema is I feel I can never eat enough veggies / fruits so i always end up eating fu**** bread or pasta. For the vegans out there, do you think the body adapts and can give you the same energy with way less calories? I don´t like either almonds and nuts how they impact my stomach, although Macadamia Nuts I do think I digest them very nicely so I could get some calories from that

Has anyone thought of this? I know it sounds stupid, but I've been very intrigued since a weird experience I had a couple of weeks ago, about why consciousness is focusing in this body/mind and not in other. Then I thought, maybe it's because I'm the only one who is not Awake yet. After all how do you really really know somebody is not Awake? Because ego can still behave like a process, ego can delude himself in that he has to "awake" but God/consciousness might be very conscious about what it's happening. After all, a lot of people have said that they are awake however ego as a process can continue behaving like stupid. Could it be that I'm the only one not awake ? Leo said you have to be extremely skeptical so I am being like that right now. I want to go to the root of what is happening in this experience (isness is happening, but why I keep taking ownership of this isness)

I imagine that not because usually they say enlightenement is a very very radical thing. What about a very conscious person that for example, you could say he hasn't transcended survival conditioning? Today I saw my father. He is quite sad/depressed now. He had been sober for 4-5 months off heroin, I say this because like 6-7 years ago my father got clean for over a year almost two, and it was the year that he discovered Yoga (kundalini) and I remember he was CRAZY about it. Like I imagine he had to really experienced some crazy things at Yoga because he didn't have an spiritual background at all and I remember in the span of a year he talk a lot of similar things that Leo or in this forum talk about regarding spirituality. I remember my mother and father having discussions about materialistic/pro science (my mother) and my spiritual/non materialistic approach (my father) Lol It didn't seem he was talking from belief, but rather than he got to experience some interesting high consciousness state during long-term and he was able to actually imagine a life without drugs. However he went back to heroin and afterwards came 6-7 years again of hell from him. Anyway, I know my father was far from being really awake in order to transcend the identification with the mind therefore he was still vulnerable to emotions/trigger therefore he went back to the old life. But could this happen to anyone??? I don't mean doing drugs but if you develop a conscious life but who knows why (idk, because the mind is too strong still) and you GO BACK to delusion, neurosis etc...? . I guess in the long term you are always growing, but ego-backlashes (i guess you could call it that, or maybe that this a path is a mountain and not just an upwards straight line) are scary.

@Name Probably this is not what you want to hear, but I'll tell it to you anyway because it's coming from love: Why do you want to quit porn? With this question I don't intent to actually say that porn can not be prejudicial, I'm just saying the most accurate can you answer this question, the more close you will be to actually transcending your porn addiction. Be very cautious how you are answering this question. Seriously question yourself your beliefs and what porn means to you in your life. This is not philosophy, I have been trying to quit porn until I recently realized I was bullshitting myself. Is only by this that I've actually started to free myself with porn. Not with force hardmode abstaining s with 0 retrospection and total projection of "porn is the thing to eliminate in my life and the rest is fine". If you want to success in this you need to be smart.

If THIS is all there is, where I am?

@7thero I'm telling you that way that I have transcended my "porn addiction" is mainly through questioning my beliefs about porn addiction, my relationship life, social life, and etc. By not isolating the concept 'porn addiction' into the thing that I have to eliminate completely to my life, but rather observing what really porn addiction can tell me about my life, I've started discovering things I didn't know about me, between others lack of self love and a disfunctional perspective of seeing other people and socializing. By fixing this, "porn addiction" have started to erode effortlessly. Contrary to the 2 years before which was just "abstaining from it". Now, of course in your case could be different, im just telling for the sake of your good being that you should consider taking a lot at this approach. This doesn't mean that you stop using porn blockers if you consider you need them now, but rather that you take into account other perspectives to this problem (like mine) which maybe could be beneficial to you. Good luck.

You sure? Ok going to check it out, thanks!!