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@Gnosis I honestly don't have any idea what is Vata. But it doesn't matter in regards with the statement of the effects on the body after using hallucinogenics. Those effects can happen with hallucinogens as well with other drugs. Check again what I reply to in regards to the quote.

If I got this correctly, this would mean that I am creating reality each second and imagining (or creating the hallucination) that reality has existed in the past. Well, I honestly can't imagine how you haven't gone totally mad by now hehe. Because I imagine experiencing this in direct experience and realizing is actually true could break most of the minds for good. And of course, right now I'm just talking to myself and creating a Leo and actualized.org this very second.

@Leo Gura Does this mean that the "dream of physical reality" started when I became conciouss? (I am referring to egoic-consciousness) Before it was just void? Not trying to believe your words as dogman though, just wondering how much deep have you gone now and prepare my mind for possible more mindfuckery in the future.

Well, isn´t that "enlightening". The guy is basically doctored in pharmacology, I suppose. That what I´m quoting is basically a Straw man fallacy. Those are effects that could arise usually from the abuse of the drugs. Which is more funny is that those effects have nothing to do with psychedelics in particular but a lot of drugs that doesn´t alter consciousness could easily cause those effects when used (or abused, usually). It doesn´t take a genius to see that your source is biased against psychedelics/hallucinogens. (Something that doesn´t surprise to me tbh. Gurus don´t like tools that can provide states and insights in one session vs sometimes years would take traditional methods). Having said that, I´m not saying one thing is best and other. Honestly I think the best path is using the best tools that resonate with you. I honestly have beneffited tremendously with Yoga, yet when I read certain Yoga gurus advising agains psychedelics, I can´t help but laugh since thanks to them I have been able to progress in the Yoga practice exponentially.

Check out Tantric techniques by Osho. Some deep stuff there.

It has served me up to to this point, although I'm sure some techniques "goals" will be outdated soon after his recent Awakenings

@Apparition of Jack I know LOL . Change "collective" by "natural flow of life" and yeah you got exactly how ego feels each time it has to change

@LfcCharlie4 That web seems a true gem

@pluto Well said. This is literally infinity.

Some people worry about death but I'm actually pretty excited. Don't get me wrong, I want to live, for sure. But sometimes I'm actually "hyped" for what life will be after the physical transportation (body) in this reality dies. Will everything become a void? Will I be born again into a different body? The "I" can't be other than "I" so we aren't going anywhere, but this doesn't resolve many mysteries and one of them is this one.

@OBEler What is really what is scary about the concept "imaginary"? Notice that the one who is scared is the ego who has a lot of at stake. Really how mindfuck reality is is not a problem as long as Ego is not trying to make it "his way". I honestly haven´t experienced in my direct experience that "is all imagination" but I am not denying it could. I would have to go way deeper to reach such place. But I do know one thing for sure and is that any notion of how reality is is only risky for the ego. You should be skeptic of emotional reactions or thoughts like "This can´t really be true, why Leo says this. He shouldn´t really be saying this". This is the ego showing signs of being scared for reality being a certain way. At the end reality will be what it has to be. Either ego submits to truth or keep living in delusion. But all I want to say is that is only ego the one who is making a problem out of this. It´s really no problem even if my parents wouldn´t exist aslong as an ego i dont have an agenda of why my parents must exist. Because obviously my agenda includes my grounding in physical reality, which is a basic pillar for my life as entity/individual.

@VeganAwake ¿isn´t there "something" here? I get that There´s nobody here. Just some thoughts that some time give themselves the illusion of being a separate self. It never was anyone here! However there is "fenomena" here, I am asking in what will this "fenomena" change into ?

@Sucuk Ekmek I haven't understood almost a word haha

So I've been all morning aware of certain repetitive thoughts. This thoughts are related to "what she/he/they are going to think of me". Thoughts that do not feel good, yet I struggle to let them go. Is not that I have a problem in letting go of thoughts. It just that in a sense I feel some thoughts might be accurate. If my mind works for my survival, and it has learn to be very concerned to certain thoughts about being concerned with social Image, then how can I know if the thoughts are useful or not? Or material reality just don't exist and if all thoughts that "feel bad" I should let them go?

I just ask this because today I was finding myself daydreaming about the past and about the stories of my ego. In a sense deep inside there was an intuition that was like saying "here we go again, into dreamland. See? See? I told you. How I am going to be enlightened if I (ego) keep coming back to this stories. God already realized itself, but you are just not following along.". With this internal dialogue there was guilt. With this guilt I have the sense that I should be doing consciouss practices like all the time because this attitude of the ego is wrong. I actually don´t see normal at all to God shining light into what is false (ego) and ego just keeps behaving as he is real LOL. Ego keeps behaving as he exists LOL. Just want to make sure if it is normal in you guys to this "duality" to exist. Because that would be difference between relaxing a little bit or keep forcing the practices which tbh i dont a have a problem because its like exercise. Sometimes you just have to push yourself and maybe in an ego-backlash is the best thing to do. Maybe guilt is a sign that i should be meditating more?

That confirms my suspicions, I've been deceived by those fast, entertaining thoughts, that I forgot where I am. It looks I don't need to ask thought where I am, I just have to look at the center to see things clearly??The unfolding is happening ???

I´ve noticed that most of my interviews I´m completely "fake". I am starting to consider if this is the reason of my bad results. Basically 90% of the questions they ask me I had to "invent" an answer because if i would be honest i would say just "i dont care", "no", "i didnt do nothing", etc. Questions like: "What is your passion"? ... I would answer "I don´t know" if i had been honest. Instead a make a complete fictional history on the go. "How did you improve x things in your past job?"... I would anser "I didnt really, i didnt care much about last job" if i had been honest. Instead a make a complete fictional history on the go. I have the feeling I´m over invested in interviews, I have been inspecting my beliefs and I have this belief that one should "sell oneself" in the interview, an stupid professor told us that a time ago and since then I think i have been making myself a fool on interviews following this advice. Maybe I should be more honest and not-invested and results will start to come? Could interviewing be similar to dating? Lol

@Nahm My heart is corrupted then because I seriously sometimes think negativity is what I am (that´s because i probably belief the thought and I keep feeding it) (althought have to confess now after just having wrote that, that belief seems pretty ridiculous haha) pd: But I will probably forget of the absurdity and will come back to belief negativity as a normality / aspect of me.

@Mikael89 What if ego is a concept you are projecting into your body/mind and there´s actually nobody there? Suffering does exist but as an illusion. This should motivate you to break out of the illusion

I find it exaggerated to jump straight to the conclusion that his problem is depression. I actually identify myself with much with OP says and I don´t consider myself to be depressed, at all. I´m actually pretty excited for the future.

OMG! That inspired me completely. Awesome post

LOL You´re in for a rude awakening then. That´s exactly how you are supposed to understand women! Btw I´m not saying this as a critique to women. Actually I consider myself to have a lot of "feminine energy"- I´m just saying as a neutral fact.

@Roy What do you mean by "consciouss survival" exactly?

Are you sure your empathy towards animal cruelty comes from honesty?

Some years ago before having any moments of altered consciousness but I already had meditated for a while and listened some Leo´s videos of questioning beliefs/spirituality...etc, I was with my father in a village near my city and we were looking at a roman bridge, and I suddenly got this intuition/insight downloaded inside my mind, and I said to him "Do you realize that we actually haven´t been in the roman empire/we only have lived since x years, so we really haven´t had in real proof that romans existed?" "Yes, the proof it´s astronomically but it just feels from our experience there´s also 0% proof that they existed". Do they? If time is non-existent, reality exists since "I" was born. So my consciousness has created a story about a "past", which created the culture I live in (which also a creation of consciousness) Romans existed but only in my hallucination, didn´t they? In the moment consciousness stosp creating a story about romans and an historical past, there are no romans anymore, right?