Javfly33

Nice. I recently begun to experiment in lucid dreams. Do you think it´s possible to have an awakening inside a dream? Recently I became consciouss of IAMness inside a fucking dream! It was crazy and I think it catapulted the total mindfuck i´ve been in the last few months. Wondering if you have any techiques inside the dream to make yourself more in control in the dream? I get upto the point of knowing that is a dream, but my character from which i experience the dream "keeps doing its thing". Although the fact that I get consciouss inside the dream and the character keeps doing it´s thing is exactly the way I know that I am not the character hahaha Mindfucky stuff, definetely. For me dreams have a "wacky edge" that I can´t never quite get comfortable with them. Like they felt always "foreign". Like "I don´t want to go that far". Maybe because deep down I know that maybe this reality is also a dream. Like I had had some insights but I don´t want to bite the bullet yet.

So enlightenment at the end does depend on what state your brain is? (Let's use the model of the brain for the sake of the example, we could also says in the state of your conscioussness) I THOUGHT it was a realization, like for example when I had my first Awakening my overall concern with my personal problems substantially reduced because simply of what I've discovered. That reduced stress overall on my life regarding if my brain was feeling good or bad. My idea until know is that total Awakening is discovering the ultimate truth and knowing that truth basically dissipates all of your fears and so on, like it wouldn't have to depend on what state your brain is (again, you can change brain by conscioussness) Well fuck that, im out of here to pursue money, sex, and fame because is a more reliable way to put my neurotransmitters in a pleasurable mode LOL

That because your brain uses food as an addition. You need to change additions into one more healthy. Here's a timeline of my last 8 years of life and how have I been switching addictions - Addicted to videogames/internet (8years ago) - Quit videogames, starting smoking cigarettes (6years ago) - Quit smoking, started using porn as an addiction (2-3 years ago) - Quit porn use partially, started using Kratom (1 year ago) - Quit porn totally, started using Kratom only occasionally (just recently) - Started doing running and meditation more habitually to ease the mind, because since I no longer use porn, Kratom, or cigarettes to combat boredom or anxiety, there's an emptyness. This emptyness drives me to eat bad food sometimes, even if a I have a pretty good diet, but now I'm definitely switching to something healthy.

@Leo Gura Hehe!! But then YOU DO exist. But I agree you only exist in MY (conscioussness, not brain) imagination. Therefore since I imagine there is a Leo over there in USA teaching me about Awakening, there you go, YOU EXIST. "I think" I can wrap my mind about it. Luckily if I ever experience this in real experience i won't go totally nuts.

@Inliytened1 Ok... just one last question. When you read the post I replied to you, would you agree that in that moment you were imagining @Javfly33 and the post he wrote too?

what the actual fuck But then you guys are living in parallel universes of what? Is the only explanation to what leo and you is saying If total awakening is realizing the universe is your present moment, then while im typing this you don´t exist. How then have you been able to awaken then and tell me all of this? Because you have existed independently of me. If this is not true, and I can hope this is not solipsism, then the only way this could be possible is if each one of us is living in their own universe with its own "present moment". Anyway I know this only get solved with direct experience but it just blows my mind that you guys are being serious and literal in that all that exists is the present NOW and other persons are just projections LOL

Gotta let go of all concepts bro. Including the "it has no meaning". That´s an assumption about THIS. What if THIS has something more to reveal?

Today I became sending healing energy through all the body via sound. This might sound crazy but trust me when it is happening you know it is healing. I couldn´t stop, I was like 15 minutes doing sounds with my voice and sending this sound through all the body healing it. I think I can go very deep in this and If i take this serious I could become an energy healer. I am amazed this is actually real, but yeah is not like pressing a button. You have to put your heart on it and you can´t force shit, it doesnt depend on the ego at all. It just comes in total "authenticity of being". Now I get why this kind of habilitities remain unknown and can´t be proved in a normal scientific scenario.

Focus. Focus is power. Focus and... BECOME.

If you are not making this up you probably have some impressive mistic potential. Well, you´re already are mistic LOL. But the question is, what are you going to do with this potential?

This is only possible if we are living in multiple realities/universes. What I guess it's possible since quantum physics has already considered this.

Yesterday I experienced what I would call a breakthrough Insight. I had had an strong Awakening into no self before and what Eckhart Tolle calls "presence awareness" a couple of times. After this happened I still would say my understanding of other's and my self was intellectual, I would think: Since my thoughts are not me, and the space where I am aware of my thoughts seems neutral and empty, then other persons are also "me". Other persons are also this space where I am. But it didn't felt totally authentic. It felt when I was talking to someone I would have to think that they are not different than me, I would have to convince myself with "evidence". However yesterday a powerful insight hit me out of the blue. I got profoundly conscioss to WHAT I was referring whenever I have said I or ME all my life. When I had said I or ME I never have been referring to a mental concept or mental image of my person, No! LOL. I've been referring to the FEELING of being, to sense of being alive, let me repeat it, to the SUBTLE sense of being alive, that is what I refer when I say I or ME. After this, I realized that I or ME is literally being, the sense being, so other persons, obviously are experiencing absolutely this right now. When they say "I don't feel quite good", or they say "I feel amazing", they are not referring in that moment to a mental image of themselves!! They are "listening" to the present moment of feeling to tell themselves who they are. They are not consciouss of this, but they actually KNOW who they are, inside they know who they are is not their mental identity but the feeling of being in that precise moment, they are literally THE THING. THE "SUBTLE ENERGY". Don't believe me? If you can distinct emptyness let me know, I'm formless and thats why I'm able to be writing this while reading it at the same time in the other part of the world. It's "ME" in all POVs of reality haha

Well, Kundalini also feels a lot like fucking designer drugs sometimes, some stuff you do with your breathing defiently moves energ. I would be skeptic k of that information. The "energy" narrative it's yet another thing constructed onto their dogmas probably. There is definitely energy. But how do you know which tradicions are the one who really knows what they are talking about?

@Mo0ngrass It has been me all the time, isn't it

With Coronavirus I've discovered that I have a strongly urge to defy authority. In my country now is not that all business are closed, you can't go out in the street unless you are going shopping, not only that but you can't even go out running in nature-open spaces places, this is really fucked up because in most countries this is still permitted because they now some exercise at open air is not going to infect nobody but also will improve your well being and reduce isolation negative effects. Turns out that I've discovered is not that I care so much about going out running but about "proving myself" towards authority. I have this emotional wound it seems that I have to be "above" authority and I feel the ncessity to prove myself they cant control me, therefore I had gone out running in the forest already 4 times since the prohibition to go out , but I had already had 2 surprises because they almost caught me.. part of me don't want to go out again trying to make an strategy to how to bypass controls today but algo some of my brain is saying " you can't let this guys tell you what you can do, you can't be like everybody else like a sheep following the law, if not they win you" this seems like anti-social behavior diagnosis. Honestly is not that I want to put people in risk (where i go running is literally a rural zone and there's NOBODY ever) but I have this feeling that part of my self-worth is attached with how much I can prove myself above the law and society in general rules. I think this is a pretty accurate diagnosis of "anti-social behavior". Do you have this too or do you think this is not antisocial behavior? I think it is pretty accurate.

You sure what is happening here isn´t your ego trying to ground reality to maintain sanity?

I would be cautious about calling "idiots" to people that have been arrested. I´m sure for a lot of people it´s been justified but I live at Spain too and as you can see absolutely everything except groceries+pharma it´s closed so where are this "idiots" going? I am sure there are some of people to which the total confinment has been injustified. For example people that have some mental inestability and at least the posibility of walking out outdoors they almost "need it".

Judging by his recent posts it´s possible that Leo has outgrown some of his past declarations and the statement God experiencing all lives might have gotten "outdated" and maybe it´s not true anymore.

Fuck yeah! This is what I call authenticity and truth with no BS I am You

@Gnosis I honestly don't have any idea what is Vata. But it doesn't matter in regards with the statement of the effects on the body after using hallucinogenics. Those effects can happen with hallucinogens as well with other drugs. Check again what I reply to in regards to the quote.

If I got this correctly, this would mean that I am creating reality each second and imagining (or creating the hallucination) that reality has existed in the past. Well, I honestly can't imagine how you haven't gone totally mad by now hehe. Because I imagine experiencing this in direct experience and realizing is actually true could break most of the minds for good. And of course, right now I'm just talking to myself and creating a Leo and actualized.org this very second.

@Leo Gura Does this mean that the "dream of physical reality" started when I became conciouss? (I am referring to egoic-consciousness) Before it was just void? Not trying to believe your words as dogman though, just wondering how much deep have you gone now and prepare my mind for possible more mindfuckery in the future.

Well, isn´t that "enlightening". The guy is basically doctored in pharmacology, I suppose. That what I´m quoting is basically a Straw man fallacy. Those are effects that could arise usually from the abuse of the drugs. Which is more funny is that those effects have nothing to do with psychedelics in particular but a lot of drugs that doesn´t alter consciousness could easily cause those effects when used (or abused, usually). It doesn´t take a genius to see that your source is biased against psychedelics/hallucinogens. (Something that doesn´t surprise to me tbh. Gurus don´t like tools that can provide states and insights in one session vs sometimes years would take traditional methods). Having said that, I´m not saying one thing is best and other. Honestly I think the best path is using the best tools that resonate with you. I honestly have beneffited tremendously with Yoga, yet when I read certain Yoga gurus advising agains psychedelics, I can´t help but laugh since thanks to them I have been able to progress in the Yoga practice exponentially.

Check out Tantric techniques by Osho. Some deep stuff there.

It has served me up to to this point, although I'm sure some techniques "goals" will be outdated soon after his recent Awakenings