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@Rilles yeah, it was psychedelic induced. Why does matter though ? Truth is Truth, and I am it. @Leo Gura I´m done. If I accept the present moment then Truth is revealed always

I am dead baby! They are. The "story" of "your self" is the biggest one Definetely ? @OctagonOctopus

Interesting. What is this 'level' you are talking about?

I don't know. Let's settle first for being able to naturally express my energy, feelings and sexual attraction in an assertive and confidence manner to all the women I find atractive and want to interact with. And then we'll talk about getting laid ?

@Leo Gura Shit that's so cool! Now I'm really hyped up ? I'm going to put me out there and generate this kind of experiences as you. Fuck the ego and playing victim. I'm going to make happen those cool moments as Leo or more haha ? ? Cheers man.

@Inliytened1 Honestly I was going to do a topic today about that. I had some no-self states where "I" would be totally at peace and yet the ego (basically my mouth) will start like going crazy. Like saying this like "Well i guess this means Im not alive ...haha!. Well let me go to the kitchen and get a knife!" And several "disturbing" reactions of the ego. It NEVER happened anything bad. Because deep down the ego is always in survival mode so it won´t hurt itself unless something has really been damaged. But this kind of reactions are so disturbing its hard to believe. The irony is that meanwhile the ego is trying to produce fear or whatever, "I" am completely gone and untouchable. LOL!. The first time it happened to me was on Mdma and then I rationalize it thinking it was just because Mdma nulls your fear receptors (amigdala) and that was why I wasn´t experiencing fear while my ego was saying "disturbing things". But then it has happened my sober so I´m way past the rationalizing it

@bejapuskas Trust me, I ´ve tried all sorts of gimmicks and spiritual realizations to try to "trascend" this desires that are self-delusion and fake paths to happiness of the ego. And I have failed. Over and over. There´s no way I can´t beat sex. There´s no way I can surrender sex. You might as well ask me to surrender eating. I´m not in that level of realization yet. There´s no way I can trascend sexual desire and affection (ego karma) before burning it and burning it for some years. My theory is that I have to heal my ego by doing all of this, then I of course verify it was all my projection and an illusion, and I will let it go and become bored of it. And maybe then I can abide in my within happiness. But now? Na. I´m not in that level. Now the surrender is actually surrender the need for liberation and actually let the ego accomplish what he wants. The irony is that you are totally right, but I can´t see it now

When does he says it? Just 3:15 Look what he says in that minute mark. Doesn´t sound as God to me.

I love this guy but despite all his psychedelic adventures it seems he hasn´t realized yet he is literally God

I think there are several reasons. I basically want to know how it feels to have sex with a hot girl. Another "why" is that is literally avoiding the excruciating pain I feel like the one I said in this topic. I don´t even know anymore if its because of emotional trauma, or just because Im fucking horny, but I want it to end. For that I´m willing to approach thousands of women if its neccesary. Anything to end this emotions. And is not 100% because of sex. Because I could just pay for sex. I really want to feel worthy by seducing a hot women and sleeping with her. Its like im not willing to die before doing that Lol.

I I'm not sure if Logically I think she's better than me. I think it has to do with some deep down karma of my ego. It's just my hurted ego. Deep down I know I'm cool as fuck, thanks to Spirituality . But old conditionings keep doing this growth so freaking slow. As you said, the fact that I'm not approaching doesn't help either. Until I really approach I assume I won't really change do my conditionings will remain the same I guess. @ColeMC01 Im not sure I see myself below her because of looks. Some fucked up karma of my ego which honestly I haven't been able to know WHY have conditioned my life all my life. I lived all my life with a sense of "not worthy/enough" for no fucking reason. Luckily I've done A LOT of inner development this last year, my social anxiety has reduced like 50% over a year of the last 10 years. Socializing now with people it's so effortless for example. But on the other hand I still lack a lot of assertiveness. I have improved a lot, but i always go around carrying this sense of unworthiness which creates all sorts of neurosis and emotional fucked up states like the one I described yesterday in this topic . Kind of tired of it to be honest. I hope that next year going serious on pick up and doing more Psychedelics trips will end up once and for all this nonsense.

Is to have awakenings , see so clear who you are, swear that "this is it", to then go back to your state . Of course is not for anything, you take something with you. At least 0.1% your ego becomes less real and more purified. But still. It sucks. To the ones criticizing Psychedelics because "once the drug wears off, you are back in your old state": Today I had a beautiful powerful awakening SOBER, but it lasted one hour. I eventually came down to the ego. So guess what? Sober Awakening is not that different than Psychedelic induced ones, they are also temporary.

I have to disagree with all the people here praising the forum. I think Leo has done an amazing job by building this platform, and I think there are some high level quality people commenting here, especially the moderators, but 90% of the content is just a waste of time, people avoiding doing the real work, self delusion, of feeling that you are progressing or learning something...etc. The truth is the real growth and development comes from real world experiences, not getting an answer in a forum. Still, it could be very beneficial and useful if people could use it more consciously and less as an addiction. Not close it , but maybe Definetely moderate it way more and cut more BS topics. The problem with moderate it is that doing that cuts also a lot of possible traffic, which could make the forum to stagnate and "die" naturally by lack of sufficient user activity. So it's a delicate decision.

@LfcCharlie4 Speaking Truth!

Hehe... That´s a good story you got going on there. You want know the truth? The truth is you weren´t born from "your parents" and there is no such a thing as evolution. There´s no DNA ever, LOL! You even had grasped how radical this stuff is. It will end ALL of your stories.

@LfcCharlie4 Cheers mate, your messages are always so positive and clear, you surely "communicate the truth" via the detail and heart put in the messages. Straight to the chase, no BS! Love ya! ?

Thanks dude. I´ll bookmark this for the future

Very good question. I have questioned myself that several times. Since I dont find myself qualified to answer this question, here´s Shunyamurti have to say: So there it seems to say that the ego is kind of "intelligent" (is not just a dumb robotic system) and it will modify its behavious with the new understanding. It seems like the ego is neccesary for surviving (If you want to survive in a body, a selfish "I" thought is neccesary to know and interact with the world). But the ego can become self-aware (like it is connected with a ubs-cable to Consciousness Lol) and be less neurotic and have more concious behaviours aligned with the Truth of reality. (But of course, the ironic thing is, that if the ego would be really aligned with this Truth,he would just dissapear Lol). Ultimately of course there is no duality between ego and conciousness because it´s all Consciousness. But Consciousness is imagining this differences so Consciousness still lives the dream of being a human being I guess

Definetely. I´ve only had glimpses. Permament awakening seems something very difficult right?

That's very interesting. Although what you are saying basically implies being so consciouss that a low state of consciousness for "You" it's just a state, not reality. ? Congrats if you've reached that No! On point ? That's a great pointer I almost "got it" again. You are very good Sir ?

Thanks, that seems a pretty solid answer @aurum Thanks for the motivation

I don´t know man, I really don´t know. I just think the ego is free to do what it wants. And if it wants to create suffering, God will alow it.

How do I let go of that ? @Nahm It seems those concepts are like "floating in the air" of the room rather than just mere thoughts in my mind (I know of course they are just thoughts/ideas/projections, But they just seem like they are "fixed" into the walls of the dream so to speak)

Maybe ? @Nahm Not being identified with thought, being free, not being prisioned by temporary emotional states or thought stories. Being aware of whatever arises on experience, withouth attaching myself with anything on it.

I already lost it Do you really think is possible to abide in true nature or we are just victims of a random state of consciousness that God decides to be in? @Nahm