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@VeganAwake How do you realize the prison is not real?

@Someone here Right! Missed that

All of this insights will stop being true once you realize you are not the individual self with whom the Universe plays with. You are just playing alone imagining you are somebody or something else that is not already the Universe.

@Eren Eeager Me too. I´m making again a 100day no fap! I didnt get much improvements when I did it though since I peaked a lot of times in porn sites. But at least you DO NOT FEEL the crush of after masturbating during 100 days not a single moment

I was just cleaning my room and I become aware that my mind might be tricking me again. During all my life my mind was constantly proyecting thoughts of being inside the brain and being the perceiver. This is where what most humans are in regards to beliefs. But what I just realized now is that After some "awakenings" the mind has started proyecting that it is "that" (the world of forms). Yeah, like the Nissardagatta "I am That" Book. I am The chair, the wall, the floor etc. Or at least that's what the mind says I was convinced this was Awakening that but this are just thoughts that the mind is protecting, again. I am actually deluded. I have not woken up. So far the truth is in non dual states what happens is that the sense of self disappears. The additional "meaning" of saying " I am that" is probably something that the ego proyects under the hood to keep himself alive. As long as you are something (doesn't matter if it's not the body) you are safe. So the ego changes being a body to being a chair, a wall, a form. The ego tells himself he has died but actually he just changed identity. He is still totally alive In reality, i do not know who I am. just my two cents of observation. Let me know if I am missing something here.

I read it yeah! It was sort of an inteview book right? What do you want to mean with that btw?

So how come is called "non duality"? I am in Non-duality but in my own dream. But deeply separated between your appearance and my appearece. Each one is his own dream it seems. Pd: And now you will say: "my" and "your" is just a thought/label ?

@Nahm So Nahm doesn't really exist. It's just appearances happening. This appearances write a message, and I use the label (thought) "Nahm" to describe the illusory self that has written the message. So basically I'm just writing to myself when Nahm replies to a post. Is there any kind of free will in your experience?

No. Everybody knows that when you reach 5000 messages you receive a rasa transmission from each moderator to get enlightened

@AdamDiC but arnold was profesionallly dedicated to it.

nonsense advice to hurt his body

@Lyubov meeeh i dont know. Seems to magical thinking to me. What do exactly do after you see a hot girl if you dont approach her?

Maybe shapes , colours and forms are also NOTHING

@James123 I had a experience of being nothing. Or at least I completely dissapeared for some seconds. But there were still forms and colours appearing. So my question is if I am nothing who was creating that forms and shapes?? How can nothing create something? Even colour? If its nothing

So I am nothing Lol

Heheh... Because IT'S ONE! There isn't a subject brushing their teeth. The sense of self will also be gone if you want to really kill the illusion. It's not enough to realize there isn't a self, you need to go much DEEPER. The 'sense' must also dissappear.

I don't think The universe is not tougher on anybody. I think the only thing that punishes its our own judgement of our minds. Reality allows and accepts anybody. It seems that is what they call "God's love".

Should I search for something (like self inquiry/contemplating) while I am in darkness and silence or should I just "be" as in meditatng?

Thanks for sharing. Spending 2 years meditating 3 hours in darkness each day seems like a hell of a tough task thought

When I had that trip I didn´t know anything about spirituality, so I wasn´t able to contextualize it as a spiritual awakening, but I think that´s what happened. Only thing that I know is that the next morning all of my problems were put into perspective, because I saw that my problems were only "relative" problems of the person, and the trip showed my that there was things beyond the person. I was literally that beyond. So the person was just a perspective. So I stopped giving importance to the person and the problems of the person. Honestly if psychs don´t work for you, my guess is that your ego is not prepared yet to surrender to them. If that is the case, you should do all kind of sober practices and then when you are ready trip again and it should be more profound. You should strive for ego death since all kind of emotions are still part of the story of the character you believe to be, so at first it feels like healing but imo is just re-inforcing the illusion. True healing will come from realizing you were never a person.

I have a theory, and that is, that psychedelics help and raise baseline level of awareness and ego development, yeah, but you must be in a minimal point of these two for the psychedelic to start helping you. What I think happens for a lot of people that take psychedelics and dont go anywhere is because they still are not open to the experience really, to be really changed by the trip/shown things, and have a change in their awareness or development. It might be because the user doesn´t have a genuine curiosity or achieve to develop himself, or might be because the user is fine with his life and doesn´t want to go to deeper places. The only solution is, to keep doing trips, and doing all kind of integration and sober healing work, meditation introspection, contemplation, therapy, you nanme it, eventally it must happen to you come to a place of development where the trips will start to be very profound. A single acid trip, which was my first, completely changed me from being suicidal and deeply neurotic to the point of doing crazy things, to the next morning being as a someone who has done a meditaation 90 day retreat, instant new "neurochemistry" you could say, there wasn´t any change after the trip, I literally was another person. The suicidal and neurotic persona had died in those 6-7 hours of trip Lol. Of course that neurochemistry WILL COME BACK if you stop doing work, or really changing yourself. Psychedelics are a great aid but you can´t expect to trip and get your problems solved. No, they are a great help but its not a lazy route.

But you are not in the body even in the "state of consciousness of being in the body " (story of the ego) ?

Oh, no, you are not in the body. Thats the illusion of the ego. I had several 'awakenings', after wards the ego starts with stories of states, physical, illusion, funcional. But that's actually not true. Is how the ego keeps himself alive. You have never been in a body. You just imagine so

Neat ??

Exercise, it will clear your mind of BS.