Javfly33

Well, sometime It will come the time you have to Accept exactly what you did ?

Its not late to start building a business. Why you want waste time and energy in dumb soul crushing Jobs anyways

Having said that, I admit I did spirituality because of personal development. Maybe 2% was because of Truth´s sake. But still. I made the mistake of doing spirituality intensely the last years, trying to "trascend" survival. I was just such an naive fool. Had some awakenings, some great realizations. Some important healings of the psyche of my ego. Hell I even realized I am not the body or the mind. Yet 2 months ago I started a job ( I was living with my parents until then) and everything that I "learned" of spirituality went through the window. Not only that, but also my baseline level of consciousness suffered a deep regression. Right now 99% of my day consist of getting stressed out to do my job and the rest of the day trying to get a new job. So now basically I literally spend 100% of my cognitive energy of my day on survival stuff! Before I had no job so I could spent maybe 30% in studying so the 70% left I could contemplate, meditate...etc. Not even psychedelics work it seems. Did some DMT last friday. Had the most amazing afterglow of my life, yet when monday comes, my job kills my back. And no consciousness can help with that. Ego will help me to try to find a better thing and more conscious job. My advice is, make sure you got basic things sorted out, before you try to do stuff of high level ego development as Leo talks about in his last video .

What if this is just another story of the ego to keep itself Alive?

Of course that does make perfect sense. Nirvana only seems very attractive from the point of view of separation and fear, but I imagine once I am in that nondual love for some Infinity years It makes perfect sense to imagine a reality again with its pleasures and suferings

Stop existing. Being the moment. Realizing you were never born. You were never a person. He, quite a surrender you got to do to reach nirvana. But hey, it´s a decision. Nobody is putting a gun to your head to constantly create a self Yet you keep doing it.

@Leo Gura Yeah but you have to "close" afterwards. The real interaction afterwards is a whole other game. Getting the foot in the door doesn´t guarantee the sale as you said haha. Which is why the whole incel movement is so fucking ridiculous. pd: Of course im not saying im not fortunate to have that advantage tho, just saying.

Very, very little. Ive been probably a 8.5/10 on looks most of my Life. Yet since my personality has been totally beta male i have gotten NOTHING. Although its true that Girls do look at me and i can see im being looked in an attraction manner . But once they got to know me im fucked Lol ahahha

Oh that´s funny. I actually find very "amusing" to watch some JRE episodes because Joe clearly is still so attached to the materialist paradigm that it´s interesting to see how all experiences they talk about are filtered down behind that paradigm. Having said that precisely because of dmt experiences Joe sometimes have an "intuition" that the materialism might not be as accurate as society thinks. Will give it a watch to day to have a laugh haha

I mean when the imaginary body stop being imagined. What will happen then. Of course I know this are questions of the ego and God don´t really care. I assume the dream of being in the body of @Javfly33 will end. I think it´s a pretty good assumption I don´t assume death as non-existence since I can´t even imagine non-existence.

I used to do it, I didnt grow a lot of muscle but it was pretty fun. Let me know if you ever are able to do a front-lever and I´ll send you a medal Lol.

You/Infinity Why reality would need a "where"? Why reality would need a "how"?

@zeroISinfinity wtf? You mean you "replay" your life over and over again? No no way lol I must be misunderstanding something

@zeroISinfinity You don´t pass into the next life?

We 'are' . No doubt ?

Of course, magical is just a label of the mind. But we use labels to "entertain" ourselves. The whole point of the forum is using labels and words.

Of course is magical! Reality is magical.

I am Feeling itself ? Love what a woo woo world. I would like to call it Infinity or just Me ?

Awareness it's not a property of Nothing, it is Nothing!

Congrats for taking that dose like a champ! Keep doing deeper

How do you know there wasn't an ego? If there was the understanding of loneliness, then the ego was there.

@Nahm Glad to know I'm doing my homework well ? PD: @Nahm just tried what you said... Time got frozen a little bit... It wasn't silly dude... think i did it right ??

Yesterday I took some 5-meo (not breakthrough dose since the batch i have is pure shit and it Seems i can't breakthrough on it no matter how much I take). Still i thought it was better than doing nothing on Sunday and since it still gives noticeable effects, I decided to took it a couple of times back to back and put myself to contemplate the whole morning 1. First i started to become aware of the internal dialogue of my mind. There was a space that opened up. In this space the voice of my mind started to become misterious. My whole life i have been assuming the voice in my head is Me and that the voice is the human mind. However I started contemplating that i actually do not know that. A possibility opened up that maybe the voice in my mind might be the voice of the Universe. Maybe the mystics when they say to ask yourself "who i am" is to actually realize the voice becoming Conscious is not an individual human but something else. Or maybe not. The possibility just opened up. 2. Second i started to look at objects and become contemplating how i know if I am actually not there. One of my biggest assumptions too has also been assuming that the Internal voice is happening inside the head behind the eyes (in the "brain") however it strucked me that i have no proof of this. I looked at my heater, and i wondered if the heater could actually be the one thinking the thoughts and the internal voice. Since the internal dialogue might not be happening in any place in particular. 3. A little glimpse of Infinity. I became aware that maybe this present moment is completely empty of substance and i have projected substance on to it. But no breakthrough . It's just a possibility. 4. This is the BIG ONE. I actually got a little mindfucked and shocked and how clear i saw this one. I was looking at the syringe on the floor which I used to plug the substance 20 minutes ago. Then IT HIT ME. I am also ASSUMING that that is actually the syringe that i used. It was clear to me that I have no proof that is the syringe i used. Because it felt very clear that syringe i was looking was existing and being put into existence right now in that precise angle. So when I was looking to it in another angle, it was not the same syringe. And that's it. A pretty good session and straightforward to contemplate reality. I probably won't get Enlightened with sub breakthrough doses but it really felt 5-meo facilititated opening my mind during the contemplation. There were some assumptions (like the forth one) which I can't imagine having sober. The mind is just too closed to start questioning those solid assumptions. Like the one about physicality. There's no doubt Psychedelics help with that. And 5-meo plugged is quite straight to the chase and with very little wacky or side effects as other psychs then to do..(5-meo inhaled is another story though) Thanks for reading!

I do. I struggle sometimes with a daily practice due to work. But you can practice through the whole day! In the form of being more focused, practicising concentration, surrender to the moment...etc + regular retreats. Doesnt need to be meditation particularly.