Javfly33

Is this an allowed topic to post about in the forum? Maybe one of the moderators can let me know and then I'll edit the topic and explain my idea of retreat. Thank you

Is there any good high Conscious resources (don't want to fall into red pill/stage red ideology) when starting the path to go from being insecure and not confident to secure and confident? Music to listen, books to read, activities to do, meditations/mantras to repeat, actions to do. By now I'm planning; 1. - eat more and build muscle (habits) 2. - start doing pick up and dating seriously (actions) 3 - be less in my head and feel more and be honest when I feeling I'm being dominated like a beta instead of projecting guilt to other people (meditations)

So...Covid has stop taking its toll on my country. People are relaxing now. It's time for me to take action. I'm sick of feeling frustrated, a loser around girls and a victim. I am going to change this. How much approaches is REALISTIC to accomplish if I want to skyrocket my development as fast as I can just going out once a week. Since My current job doesn't allow me to go out every day, and i work Sunday to Thursday, I need to take a whole day off of everything at Friday, and Sunday I have to go to work already. So this leaves me Saturday solely for practicing my dating skills. Just give me the highest realitic possible number for this Saturday and I will do that. I want to push my self. Let's go!

Right ? so I should welcome them. I should take a deep dive to them and open myself with love to them

I just don't want more suffering. Why you keep creating it? To move myself to from hate to Love? It was that?

ITS GOD @Space I see what you saying. Yes in my insight there was definitely ego. I think it was something as 25mg. I didn't have an infinity direct Consciousness realization yet with 5-meo then. I'll have to keep trying. However I think where you are trying to "point me out" To the realization that I'm God and I imagined ABSOLUTELY everything? Including the concept of "other" person, "other" place, and "other" time? To make the illusion absolutely believable and congruent? ☺️?

So I don't want awakening? I thought I wanted.

I IMAGINED EVERYTHING LEO I IMAGINED OTHER BEINGS I IMAGINED OTHER PLACES I IMAGINED OTHER "TIMES", I IMAGINED OTHER SENSATIONSI I IMAGINED NON DUALITY AFTERWARDS IN THE DREAM TO START TO "REMEMBER" (a breadcrumb) A COMPLEX TWISTED ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT HALLUCINATION TO END WITH ME REALIZING I AM ABSOLUTELY ONE . i imagined EVERY THING of the dream

@Leo Gura In my perspective, what your saying is that Consciousness, my crushe's Life, 5-meo-dmt is basically a delusion too. The only real shit is the truth absolute perspective then. But with that perspective you can't have an understanding of reality or a model or nothing basically Because that's not even a proper reality. That's just nothing.

Yeah and fuck the little guy which God has created right? Since God it's the witness it doesn't suffer, so it can keep creating this drama how many time it wants. Yeah God, you are so considerate and nice. Thank you for the "love".

I have a question God is infinite. He could literally just fix his mind in an instant and the ego would follow along. A breadcrumb is unnecessary and you know it. For example let's say I have anxiety/self doubt/confidence issues. When you take a drug that eliminates anxiety you will instantly stop having anxiety thoughts. Duh. If God wants me to expand and let go of my ego identity, why the hell God doesn't just imagines a different brain chemistry where I am not having thoughts of self-doubt and hate and just confidence and love? No, instead of that God has to put up a complex imagination of drama, which produces in me a deep painful introspection to make me finally surrender and change. What the fuck?? Is it really necessary to do things like this? Wouldnt be more easy and fast to just change my brain chemistry instantly?

What are your music references?

Blessings ?? let's go vibrate higher ??

Man you keep reading my mind haha. Too neat What you said there. If only had known that i would have saved 2 or 3 years. But at the other Hand now i have a solid ground of spirituality at a Young age so thats always nice.

@EnlightenmentBlog @Podie45 ? Truth man. I'm happy to see your development. Additionally, remember that all of our life story, the character that we have been playing that has social anxiety, it's an act we have been playing over and over. We have been identified with that character Because we thought that that character was not a simple acting character who was born out of pure conditioning, genetics and family education, but because we thought that that was US. When you realize you are not the character you can start letting go certain behaviours such as people pleasing Because you know it's NOT YOU, it was just AN ACT. Our character developed a certain survival strategy and identity and we have maintining that, but we have realized is not that good survival strategy and also it doesn't make us happy. So we are FREE to choose to act in any way we want. We are free and we can build the future we want for us ??

@cookiemonster thanks thats a brilliant description of the terms. I never liked the terms anyway But i thought It was practical for the topic

@JJfromSwitzerland i have approached bro. Just 10 times or so in the past. Yeah its exhausting as fuck you are very right. Im just going to make an exception this weekend just because i'm very motivated hhaha Will let you guys know how It went

Isn't the contrary tho'? You can feel pain and don't suffer about it. I remember sadghuru writing something about this in of his books.

Exactly Lol

Except when you are in deep suffering. In those moments some people seriously contemplate it because they have tried to get out of that state and it keeps repeating. Therefore in a deep state of frustration they contemplate resourcing to the only way they now it would solve it.

I think I can do 40-50 each week. That's doable. With some breaks here and there that should put me at around ~1500 approaches a year. Which guiding myself from Leo advice, in a couple of years of doing this I would have done 3000 approaches which combined with self development should make that I have mastered pick up and stage red completely ? I'll start with 50 this weekend. I'm ready for to crush my ego baby!

I just become conscious that I am never going to reach my idea of Enlightment. Because the one who wants to get enlightened is the illusory self. And Enlightment would be to stop being the illusory self As a self all of my life depends on the illusion of being me! Trying to become Enlightened is like trying to be dead while alive. It's totally contrary to the survival mechanism. For God, it's possible to awaken in this lifetime (and it has done already some times), but God comes and goes. It awakens to then sleep again. But for the human avatar which has constructed a self, for that Enlightment is not possible, Because precisely Enlightment is contrary to it. It's precisely the opposite. So stop trying to get enlightened it's impossible. I have surrender that I will never posses God state of consciousness. Because I as an ego I am literally ego/illusion state of consciousness. If I want God state, I have to stop.being me. But by that point, I don't gain anything because I already "gone" by that point. So the ego can't ever possess Enlightment. Can't win this prize. Seek Truth and God. But don't pursue anything Spiritual for your possession because that wanting is precisely the problem. Just my thoughts, thank you for reading.

And that is still attachment to other people not suffering ?

Or he just got tired of material reality ? Don't understand why people are so dogmatic with suicide. He maybe was happy and have achieved enough emotional freedom and non-attachment. We will never know . Pd: of course I'm not doing apology of suicide. I'm just we don't was happening through his mind

Cool, so going once a week I can expect to get those results in 3-4 years instead of one. Ok good to know. That where you go do what you see.