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You've been doing this stuff for 5 years and you are asking this question ?

?¿ That doesnt make sense. Dont they go get groceries like everybody else? Lol Most hot spectacular Girl i Saw was at my local supermarket on a little town i was living some months ago ?. ( I actually made a topic about It )

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@Podie45 Don't you dare trying to use Enlightment to "trascend" your need to heal and actualize your social skills. It will only makes thing worse and waste you time and energy. I did the same mistake. The only solution is to keep suffering so much that at one point the pain it's so unbearable that you will end up forcing yourself to socialize and be confident no matter how weird, cringe, or difficult it feels. You will do it again and again until you feel you get to place you want to get. This is actually what happened to Owen (RSD Dynamics) and tbh what is happening with me too.

Will God dream another universe again? I mean I suppose this assumption is pretty safe to make since God won't be in Infinite Consciousness for ever. God will dream again for sure. So the questions arise such as: 1. On what basis God will dream the next universe? 2. Will it be a universe in which living beings (of they are) will live more peacefully and happy?

It's all Infinite Love ??

@gettoefl so each time you think you "lose yourself"? That's a shitty way to live. Are you sure you have realized the Self? @Mason Riggle

I don't know about the whole dopamine / brain / porn thing. I've been using porn since 13 years old almost daily and I will go absolutely mental at the touch of a hottie in bed. @Daniel Lopez Couldn't it be that you are making a big deal of this, and therefore your biggest "fear" is being actualized? Like yeah I kind have that fetish too but it's in ADDITION to normal sex. It's just a bonus I have . Also i don't have that fetish when I'm having normal sex. Only if I'm fantasizing in a kind of "loser mode" (femdom)

I just woke up from one of my most terrifying sleep paralysis experience, which happened after a bad trip dream (just to make things more fun might have thought my brain). The level of self-awareness I reached on this sleep paralysis was way, way, way, beyond anything I had experienced yet. Basically I couldn't move but I was conscious (honestly I DON'T KNOW anymore if I do get true sleep paralysis or I DREAM THEM. In anyway I basically think it's the same or there is not much difference). So yeah, I couldn't move and I was conscious. I basically was this absolute nothingness in an empty black void space, and I was absolutely conscious. There was NO EGO. I could just focus on the breathing. And I actually I wondered if I was going to die of respiratory supression in that moment right there (because the sleep paralysis it just completely vanishes your sense of body, it gives you this feeling, like the breathing is your only "anchor" you better not lose it). So I focus on the breathing and surrender. I couldn't do anything else. Thankfully after some "seconds" it passed. Fuck that was intense. That was God? Why that was SO SCARY? There wasn't NO hallucinations whatsoever. It was just pure raw Consciousness with No ego, yet this was a level of being aware so Intense and radical it went beyond the typical peaceful of meditation to basically terryfing of so real this nothingness was.

Of course! ? I' don't even have to try it my fucking night shift job already puts me some kind of sleep deprivation almost every day Lol. (But I guess you mean more sleep deprivation than just sleeping some hours less than usual) Anyways even sleeping the whole 8 hour stuff it's not the same rest sleeping it through day light so...

Ok let's put it this way better... If you see life as absurd that's because Life it's like that. You might say "No, it's my personal view of Life". But your personal view is happening within Universal Life!

You created this shit so you tell me. ?

God has a wide range of states. Being raped is ALSO GOD yet it fucking sucks. The motto of "if it's God it must be loving and peaceful" it's so ridiculous and hunky dory thinking lmao. I'm telling you...I couldn't think!!! Just pure fear!

I don't know man, I'm kind of tired I think of all this thing. I mean I appreciate you guys response always and love this community, but I think it's time for me soon to go seek the truth on my own, Because this forum ain't really helping me.

Ugh, Here we go again wiith Solipsism thing. I'm so tired of it

Yes of course you can definitely have a bad drug experience on 33ug. But the consensus of bad trip is much much worse than just a weird bad experience

33ug is not enough to have a bad trip on your own but DEFINITELY enough to have a very uncomfortable moment if you socialize with certain people at certain setting on it.

Exactly

@Mason Riggle I get that, non duality and such. But even if I contemple the possibility of being the present moment completely with no referent "I", which I had those moments, I can't intere from that I created the whole universe. See this is what I don't get. If you realize you are God, then you are God. How could it be different levels of deepness? I can understand they can be levels regarding understanding reality. But being God it's seems a 1+1 thing. Either you are it or Not. ?

And even then your state unfortunately falls down after a while. And by the way Leo do you actually think you can realize you are God just by doing self inquiry? I mean I personally had a great awakening doing self inquiry a year ago but there wasn't even close to realising I am God. It was just a peaceful, quiet, no-mind, higher state of awareness..I mean great and all but I wasn't able to concur that I am God from that state. ?

You were NEVER BORN lmao ? You can't imagine how deep this goes man ? You are the universe how are you going to be 'born'? To be born there must be a duality between that which gets born (sorry for my english I don't know how to use born in past tense Lol), and to the place where you get born. But since you are the universe/One (non duality) you can not be born. You can only divide yourself to make the appearance that you get born. And you do that by imagining a human being and a an apparent 'physical reality'. Then yeah, the imaginary human being does get born. But of pure imagination of yourself.

The problem is this just more stories of the you who is depressed..e.tc you are not going to do it. And instead you will keep suffering. Instead try closing your eyes, focus on your breath and surrender your life. That's the only true "suicide" worth to do.

Remember that you are imagining Us and what you are right now is the whole universe. When your personal life ends, another life will start going on. And you will be conscious of that life too.. Because you are God (Yes, I'm parroting Leo )

@Someone here And inside each eye, I'm sure there's more room for division and separation. Yet you call it an "eye" as a whole. What if you are doing the same with reality?

That's all I need it to know thanks ? ?