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Should I or should I not? I have tried But i am unable to do my job anxiousless. I want to quit my job because i believe i can land a better job with my studies. Rational advice/my mother advice says i Dont have to quit my job to heal and i should go to a therapist to cure my anxiety disorder. I believe i Dont have anxiety disorder Im just very sensitive to stuff and Life puts me thought certain scenarios to grow myself and etc. Intuition tells me It would be good to quit Job and enjoy some vacations since I have savings while looking for new job relaxed. Rational brain tells me i shouldnt do it. What pisses me off is that I feel ive been on this job since a lot time ago because i felt pressured from What my mom would think of me if i quit. I feel that if my mom wasnt here Alive (Dont want her to die Lol Im just saying) i would completely quit tomorrow with a Smile in my fucking face as Big as i couldnt believe. It also pisses me the fuck off that i told her that i tried to killed myself some months ago, and he knows that the job has influenced a lot in me having less energy and Focus to really heal, and she still pushes me to keep the job and she even recommended why not try some benzos. It fucking pissses me out that shit. To go do benzos to keep a fucking job It overwhelms me just because she has a bias of me having a job or some shit. Even though she knows just some months ago i tried to cut myself. What the fuck is this of a mom???

Went out tonight to approach sets with a couple of (relatively) newbies PUAS on a FULLY crowded street near pubs and bars. We maybe did in total 15-20 (probably Will get a beating from Leo Lol), i did like 5 or 6 solo and then joined after on some of the openings of my fellas. I am very sad because i felt completely awkard, weird, etc, (although when you bulld some momentum things started to feel. Bit better). Im kind of meh since I did some cold approaching 5-6 years ago, in all this time supposedly i had grown a lot, have done some therapy, quite a number of trips, introspection etc...But this feeling of not being able to flow / be myself truly in front of a Girl IS STILL THERE 100% as strong as 5 years ago. Honestly i have this feeling of not being able to relax/flow socially a lot of times when Im with groups (doesnt have to be Girls/approaches) although i tend to think its getting better there is still this Blockage that doesnt let me be myself ? How to break this Blockage for good?

Oh, its very usual, you clearly havent gone out a lot to nightclubs. You can get kicked out just because.

Sorry But the "super inteligent alien" was narcissistic ....

I started to wonder if a ROCK has A POV. And i have come to the conclusions, that there are only TWO POSSIBILITIES 1-. A rock has a POV on its own (its Alive in its own way). Consciousness is emanating/creating the Rock and experiencing therefore the personal POV of the Rock. 2-. The Rock does NOT have a pov. In that case (attention here), then the rock does NOT even exist. Why? Because if the rock existed, It would have to be "existing" constantly (aka: having a POV on its own) Not just when you look at It! if It ONLY exists when you look at It, (aka, It doesnt have a Pov on its own) then it doesnt exist. You are creating It with your Consciousness... I mean Choose your poison: 1) or 2) ??‍♂️ i Dont know What IS true of them But its clear to me that either all possible POVs exist (option 1) or either only 1 POV exist. (Option 2) If solipsism IS not true , then its clear the 1) option must be the truth. ?

Of course, But as an IDEA!!!!

@Karmadhi @Karmadhi personally alcohol never worked for me very well. Yeah It got me out my head a little bit But It would make me very letargic/lazy/i Dont give a crap. My least favorite drug lol.

Right. Yeah i do It sober because i want real change in my baseline sober state and once i get to flow i know It Will be amazing. How much have you done of this stuff bro?

You calling God an idiot? ??

The more Deep i go, the more sure i am ? ?️ hello you, its only me and the screen ?

@Bando thanks ??

Well said

No. I one time hit my toe while i was having an awakening and i become conscious suffering was the thought saying "this is really bad" to the physical sensation. That instant high conscious observation made that i didnt experience suffering, just Pain.

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@Leo Gura Thanks , I wont be so hard with myself then ? you might have a point. Good news i took action and i plan to go out regularly from now on ? instead of just doing a couple of times and quit It like i did in the past. Btw. What do you mean with delusional levels of self confidence? Feeling like a human embodied God around them?

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How so? @Inliytened1 Different point of Views mean separation even though all of them might be "emanating" or being created from pure Consciousness.

A friend has suggested me to try one last time 5-meo breakthrough IS supposed to break the final barrier of this silly joke I've been playing so much time (the ego) @Nahm What ya think? @Breakingthewall

So how you are on Life @SQAAD now? No much resistance? Flowing? My biggesr shadow is social anxiety/lack of self love etc and i have realized that It all would go away if i could just flow, let go, apply Desire first rule, in the Now. But for that i have to become enlightened lol as long as i believe myself to be tbe ego i Will keep resisting love

@SQAAD so psilocibin has been the 'key' for you?

I agree. Psychedelics can help a lot and can be crucial for healing some deep problems or addictions But you have to do them regularly until you clean all your shadows. And usually the ego always avoids this. I Dont think either with 1-3 trips you are good to go. This heroin or meth addicts Who apparently quit the drug after one 5-meo breakthrough dose for example, we Dont know if they have relapsed after 1 year ??‍♂️

Please, stop saying nonsense. "Delude themselves" as if being not good looking would make you kneel in front of the woman or something ? (and i say this already being a 7). The fact that you said you are an 8 already just tells me you are not making sense with all this "rating" thing.

Woah your post shows a lot of bitterness and hate xDD ?

Fair enough, But i still think your proportion is too low. You might want to approach less mechanically and more focusing on feeling and Desire . Quality > quantity

Trying to unquote But i can't from phone sorry. This message goes to the OP @AdamR95 Not to brag, because Im an insecure low self esteem Virgin, But i had THREE DATES from just ~10-15 cold approaches some years ago, I you had 8 Dates from 200, you must be doing something really bad! Im also not that handsome. Im a 7 i think. Im not even muscular. Skinny!