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@BreakingthewallYYou hit the nail ? completely agree. I Will follow that plan.

@Space Come to Barcelona, is cheaper than london we can rent a place and teach me Lol

Good advice, but if a begginner does that, she will practically call the police of how creepy the guy is being. Now, done by an experience PUA, the technique might be a whole different ballpark, as you said body energy, confidence, vocality...etc I dont doubt this technique can be powerful. It´s just one of those advanced "vibing" techniques, which requires state, embodyment...etc. It can take some time to get there. How much daygame have you done?

You woudlnt feel humiliated by being drained 90$ in 10 minutes? I´m trying to accept it but its hard. I envy/hate this hot girls so much? Why they take advantage of my horniness and the fact that i put them on a pedestal? Its soooo cruel. This would be illegal if done to women.

What job? I have also tripped sometimes, it has helped some what but generally I still am "blocked" and have social anxiety as always. Its just less intense now. I agree. LOL about the "I am about to die". Thanks for the advice and motivation buddy

??? If you already know what is true, when why you opened the post? I think subsconsciously you opened the thread because of actually "suspecting" something is not right in the sense that you are current state is not the actual truth

@kamwalker Wow how did you get there or you just have been like this always ?

Thanks buddy! To the grind we go!

Interesting. Can you explain some more on this?

But Leo, How come I've met typical normie guys that are average looking, don't have a high paying job (or company), yet they have a stunner of a girlfriend? When I see this examples in real life I find myself sometimes skeptic of all the PUA Theory and seduction. This guys doesn't have to have anything special. Could they be "naturals"? @Leo Gura

Is clear at this point That there is some kind of intense energy around my body, i Dont know if its because of beliefs, thoughts, energies, Chakras o karma or Who knows, But It just creates a Life which fundamentally revolves around self-neglect, shame, etc. Sometimes i sit myself in the middle of bed, and if i become very aware, i start to look at my hands/body and i become conscious my ego Absolutely hates this being. What a mothefucker. Ego can not fucking love uh. But..the ego is me, of course. I know i am creating It. The question is how do i stop creating It. I have no idea. I have spent some couple of years doing small doses of psychs for introspection, reading some books, and went to therapy some times. It was meh, particularly with the psychs i thought i was making progress But then you see to years forward the energy IS still there. So thats why i changed strategy and focused on ACTION. Currently Im focusing on making moves on my career which challenge me (like i accepted a manager role which helps me to view myself as leader role, which felt good, develops masculine side), and approaching Girls. Is obvious to say the latest doesnt go that well because i feel "that energy" around me most of the time. I am still working out in making It an habit also. No FAP/noporn helps But It doesnt solve the issue 100%. The possibility of going to a therapist IS there as an "add-on" (not as a Magic pill definetely) But i would like to "attack" the issue from all possible angles. I have Googled several keywords to try to research this stuff seriously. Nobody seems to know What really is self esteem (or the absence of It), love, hate, shame, etc. I find hard to believe as a society we still Dont have a manual to tackle this issues. Currently i am 26 years old and i feel this is a critical age. On one part i feel i am somehow moving towards healing, and other times i feel i am really going in circles, years pass, and i still feel the same way and behave the same.

@Terell Kirby ? @Nahm Yeah , definetely ? That clears things out for me ?

Because you Dont love yourself ?

Thx for the advices guys, relapsed today to findom after longest strike ever...was kinda of depressed because i didnt approached a Girl in over two weeks and horny and decided to relapse.. I Dont even like porn anymore anyways, got rinsed 90€ by a pseudo hottie in minutes, lol such ridiculous shit ?️?anyways tomorrow another day ?

How do i get the Love i am chasing through chasing success, women, respect, music, experiences...?¿? Not only its unsatisfaying, there It seems to be some challenges in survival Life which i dont end Up mastering/seems very difficult and this frustrates me therefore i Dont the get the Love. (Even if its a temporary one). Drugs are not an option because they are also temporary love and comes with high price not worth It. Yesterday i was meditating and i reached such a peaceful state...that would be allright to "retain It" in daily Life. What i Dont like about meditation is that the comparison with the "sober" non meditating sober Life is terrible so It frustrates you that the ego has you by the balls and creating suffering each second (It has me constantly chasing love i Dont even know ill ever get!!!!---> because its fucked Up thoughts creates neurosis , blockages, loosp, and self defeating beliefs ---> so i Dont even get the temporary love that sex or money can provide.... I HATE THE EGO) And by the way: Does the ego does even ever "have" the love? Because if its not a thing, But rather a truth or state, love can not be attributed then to self esteem! I Dont know, everything seems so pessimistic for me.

Yeah I know brain is imaginary i guess

I was meditating and suddenly become aware my thoughts were producing me discomfort, What i did was to Focus on Breath and let them go (one at a time) each time i was breathing out Suddenly I found myself in a strange position with my face against the table, just umovilized and focusing on Breath, letting go constantly of thoughts through Breath. Oh shit that was euphoric , i got high on the NOW. Afterwards It arised the insight that if i ever would do this each time thoughts arise, i would end Up with no self, because the self depends on attachment to thoughts. The Now is really then Now...woah. However (and this is One of the resons i quit meditation some years ago) i fast fall back into the ego state. Meditation gives you tremendous frustration, because It shows you What is possible yet due to brain genetics ego always comes back.

Yes, i can do it some times. Other times the emotions that prevents It is nihilism, cinic/black humor about the situation/subtle angryness

@something_else interesting tip...thanks for sharing

@Nahm its difficult because theres still a self in the Now because thoughts keep arising if Im not watchful Interesting, and why emotions responds? And to What? To thoughts?

@Nahm yeah. Any advice in how to "respond" to that emotions?

@The Lucid Dreamer oh thats such a great analogy! @Nahm ? nice But active noise cancellation doesnt work well for high pitch sounds/frecuencies

Have you ever tried the active noise cancellation features on the airpods pro or similar high-end buds? When you are in the middle of high traffic downtown and you turn in on and suddenly everything goes ... Puuuf ?️ I am having from time to time the same sensation when the feeling of SELF dissappears. I am very sensitive to sounds and i usually feel very threatening on my nervous system the high volume energy of walking downtown, yet when this "states" have happened, everything seems SO SILENT. Yet i am hearing the "same". Everything stops moving and becomes One Flow. Its so funny. And scary.

@Gregory1 Psychedelics have been useful for breakthroughs But Im kind of tired of them. They feel like a distraction from real work

Yes, thats exactly the energies i am vibrating recently... Also i am angry with the ego because of the loop of "anxiety then evasion then frustration" (because of havent done anything because of anxiety/overwhelmed). Both things are created by the ego. Ego is stupid AF. However i keep meditating and repeating myself to not fall into thought stories. I do not know Who Will win at the end of this Battle, But i am fighting It.