Javfly33

? This thread is a gold mine ? Neat...

??? i came here to write this too

2 months ago I started this coding bootcamp because I felt even though I have a nice portfolio and a wide knowledge of coding skills, at least in my country, companies are very reluctant to hire if you don't have the damn college degree or trade school degree. (Even 3-6 months Bootcamps seem to work for companies, they just doesn't seem to want to hire people self-taught. My country is not like USA. Land of Freedom and "everyone can make it if they want"). So I took 3 months off my current job and got into this Bootcamp which you don't have to pay to do it and they select you with job offers from their associated companies, you pay only if after taking benefit of the bootcamp (for several months) an external company hires you. I thought, well, taking into account that I've been applying a lot the last 1-2 years and never got hired, I guess the risk is worth taking it. I won't have that bad luck that once I sign this twisted contract an external company will want to hire me, right? 2 months after starting it, turns out, a company is interested in me. They want to hire me. I received a job offer yesterday. Now I have to pay the bootcamp 5K I feel betrayed because the 95% of knowledge and skills I got hired for this job I already HAD BEFORE THE BOOTCAMP. The bootcamp actually was pretty crap. I learned little. Very little this 2 months. It has served to me to motivate myself, to re-do my portfolio and CV and get back to coding. But that's it. At much the bootcamp helped in: - Giving the company trust by saying I am doing a coding bootcamp (not sure if that helped) - Applying for the job offer because I probably wouldn't´have applied because it's a technology I learned (very little) in the bootcamp. Do you guys think those 2 things are WORTH 5000€??? These 2 days I've been happy since I'm quitting my stage blue job and going to stage orange but quite fucking shocked that next year my bank account will almost go -50% down YES OR YES (I plan to pay them monthly, so it will take me one year to pay. I have around 11K now). I even contemplated to reject the job offer but then I thought that would be ego-based (I don't want to accept that they "got me") so I will accept. But fuck. It hurts to lose this amount of money. And all because employers are dumb-asses and they trust having a fucking degree. No bitch, I learned very little in the bootcamp. It was all of my struggle before. ? (And even I don't know if Human Resources gave importance to it. I hope so Lol)

Na, I Contact the company myself. I just think that the fact that i was Able to put in my CV that i was doing a coding Bootcamp give me points to be hired by the company that Saw It. Since apart from the Bootcamp i didnt have any sort of degree related to tech. But again, its literally paying 5K to be Able to put in your CV "X Bootcamp, 2021 September - 2021 December" LOL Im definetely pretty Happy with the job. So ill Dodge the bullet and Pay them Happy. Yeah exactly... .

Questioning and not taking for granted each shitty thought-belief-projection that doesnt feel at all like What we want to feel, would be such a Game changer. Sometimes I hit my head against the wall (metaphorically speaking) when I realize how so many fucking years Ive taken for granted shitty perspectives, beliefs, and thoughts about myself. Which were far far from anything that feels good. Wasted so much time. Created quite a drama show. Just because i thought drama was Who i was. Fuck that. I choose to create What i want. Now i have to remind myself each damn day to live like a motherfucking King and Dont accept anything less, "listen" very carefully to my highest wants and aligning my whole Life on those ones, (no Matter What limiting beliefs or "projections" i have about those wants.) be all blessed with your inner love and creation power. ?? Peace ?

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Even hot girls can get nervous when approached unexpectedly by a newbie... well not nervous like physically but I saw clearly today that when I approached this very attractive girl today she had some of those kinda "phrases" that you say when you are nervous /Not in social state, like saying 'thank you' at the end of the interaction even though it didn't make any sense. Of course it's normal if she's approach out of the blue by a stranger, but still, it gives me the impression she's just a human like any other LoL. Going to stop putting hot girls on a pedestal for real I liked this interaction, makes me think that nobody here is super human, we all got our flaws and today's reflection on this interaction got me thinking I really going to stop judging myself for not being 'perfect' when socializing/approaching because nobody is really ?

There's so much pain in my soul that the moment I Focus some awareness on It, the body breaks in tears when feeling that much level of "perceived hate" towards hymself (the person/ego), But its meaningless to escape or try to distract oneself anymore. I need to get even more closer. Closer to the nucleus, the more time i can handle that place, the more I can feel the great discrepancy (which is, Pain) between my soul, and the hate, the more ill be Closer to the light. If my soul is really good, if i am really Good, then It must come a time when i say this is enough. There must come a time where i stop believing i am fundamentally a bad human being.

Seems you are focused AF, love it

Yeap...crazy, yet at the same time "totally coherent". Almost as crazy as now imagining there is this Guy called inliytened1 in another country telling me What is Infinity. Its only me.

Are u a profesional writer? Fuck that Life seems so cool.

Yeah of course the stopping of the pedestilazion is still in progress Mmm a little toxic the last phrase, At their knees sure, but I wouldn't call them weak for being at my knees man , just intelligent

How to Love yourself? Not conceptually like 'Yeahh now I really love myself. Like, I value myself, blabla". Fuck that BS ?! I mean actually FEELING yourself in this love/acceptance/goodness vibration wherever you are going, especially when you are in social situations. I am lately putting more work into socialize more+feeling and I just can't help to feel this hate, in form of thoughts/projection/gloomy belief when I look at myself of literally hate. Sometimes at night, when I open myself to feeling, much of the times I start crying because I feel this awful-feeling thoughts ( That I was not conscious through the day) Something tells me, If I don't start creating/Vibrating in Love just because (because to be honest, it's the same way I do the hate: " just because"...Since I don't really have a reason to hate myself so much you know) then nothing will really really change.

Its true, my father was around 46 I think, went to canary islands and this young hot Girl (she probably was around 20, not more) just wanted to go with him to his hotel. You have take into consideration Girls find usually attractive experience, older guys, etc

@itachi uchiha Im definetely doing daily work and Im feeling much better. Like my mind is changing. I Guess now i have to have patience

What kinda snacks does your brother have? Because most snacks have sugar or carbs and I cant be washing my teeth each 2-3 hours LoL

Most of my Life I have lived in a small town where the Air quality is at "Good" levels, But since 7-8 months ago i moved to a Big city, here most of the days the Air quality is "moderate" , with some days like Mondays/Fridays goes straightly to "not good" (there are still two more levels of "bad Air quality" though on the chart though). According to this web, the last 30 days on my location, the amount of 2.5PM particles have been superior to the "recommended" level of OMS each day. Not even one day was below the limit. Furthermore, the monthly amount levels of 2.5PM particles in my location is superior to the ANNUAL recommended amount of OMS!! This really makes me mad But the reality is that my Life purpose and self development would be greatly affected and slowled if i move again to my town (or other small city). Please Tell me its not so bad...

@Thought Art And What route did you go if may i Ask ?

Im.not sure they are Happy. They are ok. Like in a mild dose of anestesia. Living a Life with those habits that Leo has said, its imposible to have a Life of Joy and profoundness.

Trust me, getting good at music or art wont heal this Monster i have inside me ? But i know What u mean. Like some kind of motivation and shit. Its definetely important and i got it, its helping me to move my ass and each day i try to become more and more excited with it

I agree But I Dont even need such Big love. I am Happy with at least a nice vibratory áurea of Love around me ? The Love u Talk about its quite difficult to achieve (even though its the real nature of Reality)

what is duh? Please reply with some kind of education or don't reply please.

extremely high value and good looking men are in Tinder ? ?

To not feel so alone. So there is an ocean, imaginary, or not ?

Can you explain more on that? I have read it quite a few times and wonder what you really mean with it ?