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what about you are sick? It's not only thoughts, its like your whole energy-body system has taken control and won't produce "normal neurochemistry" so you won´t feel good/Ok. Lately I've been stopping taking so much a leaf I become kinda physical dependent to it and it has wd symptoms (they are mild but still) now I have a more humble view on "natural happiness". Until in the morning I don't take a little bit of leaf again I don't feel fine. If your brain chemistry is messed up, you will feel bad even though there are no apparent bad thoughts. Or if they are the cause, they are impossible to control/Not believe them.

Mostly miserable but in comparison to latest years I am very "grateful" of where I am. I would say I am happy being miserable if that makes sense . I touch some moments of hope and joy some seconds through the day also. I think 2022 life will get so much better!

I havent tried Ketamine, thats true. I cant really compare. As a side note, even though i havent tried DCK, I've also tried What i think its called "mxpri ". Worst-dumbest trip of my life. Gave me the 4 hour most meaningless nostalgic strangest headspace ever, all i basically did is changing rooms and cry in every corner constantly in desesperation of the confusion and losing constantly memory of What I was doing 5 minutes before. Holy shit that was as close as being mentally poisoned and impaired as I can imagine.

I have clear what is going to be my Number 1 and only focus for this year and the following to come, it is it's clearing up my traumas totally, developing my groundedness, self-love-self power, and overall my masculine energy which is highly deficient. If I overcome this/conquer this project, I intuit the possibilities of what I can create in my life are amazing and give me goosebumps just feeling them. However , apart from those "moments", much of the rest of the day, its a grueling challenge. Each day after work, I save 2-3 hours to work on this life project. But some days just seem so difficult and draining, that sometimes I don't see the point in so much struggle. Because I start to think, "nothing gives happiness, its just an illusion, all this struggle won't make you fulfilled, maybe you won't ever "get there, etc" I feel this thoughts and beliefs set me back a lot and make me do a lot less that I could do to grow in my progress.

Well I Dont agree. I've tried so far 5-meo-dmt, Dmt (changa), Lsd , and shrooms, all those several times and most trips with the intention of awakening/spirituality. However, It was with a couple of not too fat lines of 2-fdck (flourodeschloroketamine) that I had by far the most intense non duality experience of my Life. Just because its "not the original one" doesnt mean It can be as powerful. Im sure there are differences and ketamine might better in some aspects, But make no mistake the one i Talk about can destroy your world completely. So careful ?

@Karmadhi Its different because if you are actually a 'loser' or a virgin, you want to own It as something you still are confident/love It about It, not secretly hide It because you need her validation. If you are trying to make her think something about you, you Dont hold the frame, she does It be because you are looking for her validation

What is shadow work? I thought It was a generalization of ego cleansing/trauma healing? Is a specific technique?

Woah well you pumped or something like that if you are able to keep up those high numbers for some time your progress will be ridiculously high. Truly remarkable if its true. Thanks for sharing

You havent understood it. Its not about her thinking or giving her the impression that you are the exact opposite. Its about owning your frame.

Dont make the mistsake of being "Absolutely honest" in dating. Or, do It But only if you know how to "own It" . ??

What is wrong with objectifying? Not always women are looking for a formal intimate relationship . Maybe she is in the mood of "Objectifying" too , if know What i mean...?

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I agree. Some Girls are Absolutely hooked on Instagram and Twitter. Da fuck? 99% of Girls just go out LoL. There's plenty of Girls that go out to clubs and have boyfriends. They just like to have fun dude

I think you are right and also your message is good news, sometimes going to socialize i wonder "am i disturbing the person? Maybe he/she is 'in that mood' and Dont want to Talk to anyone now'". But with women theres more chances then they Will be open to socialize, i just think they enjoy It more.

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I appreaciate also those kind of videos! Having said that, i Dont know if he dresses very bad or very good LoL. He has a homeless Alexander McQueen vibe. Not sure if that is good or bad for vegas ?

I think one of the reasons people are not enlightened its because of trauma of SEPARATION. In the path of healing my ego shadows of hate/shame/unworthiness, etc, I have started to become Conscious that I AM PART OF REALITY. I would start touching my Hand trying to become Conscious " Here i am! This is me! I am in reality". And then It becomes mindfucky, because you start to realize your hand is not separated from the wall or the table. It was just separated in your mind LoL. Wondering if i end Up being enlightened By healing my deepest ego trauma ??

Does 2 times a month really affect you that much tho'? I've done nofap in the past and i havent noticed benefit from fapping 2 times a month to not fapping at all.

Well its obvious. I have shame because I believe "I am less than Reality". If I realize I am as reality as any other human being, I'll stop feeling "as an special individual" (the basis on which the ego is created. ). The other day i was walking on a shopping mall fully conscious Im just a piece of flesh moving around like any other. Truly blissful walk. I think for the first time i Didnt experience any kind of social akwardness in a shopping mall fully crowded of Young people ?

An easy to stop feeling shame, just brutally Love yourself as you can each second. Not intellectually, but actually. Now! When you are with whoever you think "triggers" your shame. Ha! It´s you who is hating yourself. Turn up the Love valve Shame can´t survive in Love ?

I am not sure I understand you. Did you heal completely or you are still in the process?

Well it's dramatic to say over the course of 3 years but you could have done those hundreds in months, not years.

There isn't a magic pill. But the most similar thing is daily drill / grind, and love every part of the process. As they have said above, ultimately it's you who is doing the judging/awkardness. Keep doing until you stop shooting yourself in the foot.

Thanks for sharing, I´m happy for you. I can relate, but in my experience psychotherapy is not working so well for me, can I DM for a short question?

Great video! Btw I didn´t know you had a channel. Suscribed! In my personal, what has helped me the most, is realizing ALL has been a chain of casualities, from being 0 years old to now. That makes me feel the same with everybody, it heals me a lot.