Javfly33

Read the entry about the table fork. That was very good

why you want to do sports in a retreat?

I suggest you to drop all identities, just see with who you want to actually fuck. Porn and fantasy is different than reality.

lots of fruits, vegs, honey, and some pistachios for fun probably sports? maybe trekking I shower before I do any type of spiritual practice (it helps opening up the energy body) the other questions seem a bit unnecessary, drink water and sleep in the same way when you are not in a retreat ? Ideally do not talk to people Also, try to not use your phone...maybe lock it or leave it at home while the retreat

run

For me it was all about energetic release. When I cum to femdom and humiliation darkness crap, I want to kill myself afterwards of how bad it feels, when I cum to normal - loving - vanilla porn, in 20 minutes I´m back at baseline...sometimes I even feel better if my imagination was really pure. Next time try summing to a tantra session video, see if you really have a crash like usual...

I am imagining you right now @Leo Gura You are just a part of my mind trying to guide me into Truth. ?

Another advice, avoid tripping if you share a flat or house (even if it's separated into different apartments). Two times I've done this, two times I repent myself.. although the trips were fine.

Death does not exist, is all a dream of only One Being.

Music can influence deeply a trip, so choose wisely what kind of music you will put because it will influence the thoughts, emotions, etc... it might make your trip revolve around something psychological, and not let you fully liberate. Ime, the best is tripping in silence, or if one is feeling like listening to something, spiritual or neutral sounds like sounding bowls or similar stuff, it would the best.

really? ?‍? I will have to build an insane courage to want to go through that come up again. But OK, ? I open my mind...definetely the degree of intensity of yesterday was x10 compared to my other trips...which I thought were the 'ultimate' and 'final' too Lmao. yeah.

there is nothing outside that will solve it. Only You. You must choose Light over darkness. High vibration thoughts vs low vibration. Your 'trauma' is not yours really. You just need to stop picking it up. Don't think you need to heal anything.

Yeah I agree that's another way to put it

You are God learning to control the game. It is possible but you must reject thoughts

@SQAAD Any thought you have about reality is not it. Surrendering, being in the present moment...that is God surrendering itself, and being alone...accepting it...why you think this fucking game is about feeling Good in the present moment? Because the goal is to let fade all thought stories...

Wise words there ??

Definitely do not recommend doing this such a large dose. My max before was 35mg or so, and I wanted to push it because something told me I could go deeper and more clarity with 5-MeO. I had luck that I didn't do nothing stupid, at some peak moments the intensity is so much you can easily damage yourself. But at the same time, when you are in the trip and all barriers fall down death does not exist. But anyways If doing heavy dose best with a trip sitter. Epic shit for sure ??

I'm fucking done with this western society. In going to India or Bolivia or some society that is not this sick. It seems it has gotten to such a point that women are even sexualising/objectifying their feet. How twisted this is? Honestly .

IN THOUGHT, POWER CAN NOT BE FOUND Channeled today that message while doing my daily Kriya process. This message came from a feminine energy/deity, (of course it’s an imagination of Consciousness, a part of my Mind). So yeah, that is the message. In thought you will never truly win. Any feeling or sensation that you have ‘something’ of value via conceptualisation, identification, grasping, memory, it’s a complete delusion, and you should abandon that immediately if you want to really feel as the KING that you are (God-Being-Truth-Light-Infinity). Of course, no one is stopping you if you want to keep the rest of your life in the ego chains, in the demonic forces, in delusion, in confusion, in shadows. But, I’m just delivering this message, so you know there is a possibility. Remember, in the NOW there in an infinite amount of Power to reclaim and activate. You can not ever be defeated if you activate yourself NOW (Awakening, Power, etc…). No matter what the mind says, there are no rules or limits. If you activate yourself NOW, memory is disabled, karma is disabled, identification is gone. Absolute Power, Being, Mastery of the KINGDOM is at your disposal. Go get your jewels, King.

Any conclusion, belief, or mental idea you have about WHAT reality is or WHO you are is something that you should let go of if you are interested in going beyond the endless labyrinth. If you want endlessly to be lost in the labyrinth, go ahead. Fix yourself to something, feel safe within yourself, in your beliefs, in the mental reference. Any conclusion, any thought, as elegant, profound or 'inter dimensional' you think it is, iS BONDAGE, DELUSION, and more KNOTS ANY conclusion (and that includes 'I am God') ultimately, does not feel completely right to who you are. Why is that? Well, because who you are, is something so much beyond limits, that any idea or thought, feels LIMITED and Bondage-like. Even if that thought seems to be 'super conscious' like 'I am God', 'I am Infinity'. 'Life is a dream', 'I am dreaming'. Do not fall in the game of concepts. This is not a game you are interested. Summary: DO NOT settle for any thought, conclusion, belief about Reality, no matter how 'final', 'profound' or 'complex' it seems to be. IS NOT IT! ? Respect yourself, do not settle for any conceptual limitation or understanding. No thought can't tell you who you are or what reality is. Don't allow that attack from the ego. Do not succumb to the limitation, to darkness. Untie yourself from hell. Activate Heaven.

God is Bliss, you deny it because you are a devil. Bliss is a facet of God/Reality/Awakening. Only the ego and darkness can deny the right of God to reclaim one of this most fundamental attributes and rights. So much darkness in this forum unfortunately. I will be leaving this place soon if people don't start to open their hearts more and actually purify themselves. If you are in the path of Awakening, careful with getting poisoned with messages of devils that defend darkness and reject Light and Goodness.

Oh, there are things to do. There are things to do such as Blissing myself out in the pool listening to Wizkid all day... watching the sky, the birds doing 'their thing', and maybe we can some Fine First grade Kombucha from that Flax & Kale you recommended me (which I´m becoming addicted to), and when dawn comes let's throw a good cigar. Let me tell you, you can not become tired of the good life. No one having the time of their life started praying to God to say 'please god! Let me have some suffering at last!! A bit of anxiety! A bit of boredom at least! Please!!" That has never happened in existence to this day Although...if that is what you like, I won't be there to stop you from dancing that "eternal dance of duality" of course ?‍?

@Leo Gura If the Truth can be spoken, good luck thinking your way into Infinity buddy.

This is why I say calling yourself God is limiting yourself: When you call yourself GOD, it is a word, and in your mind it has certain MEANING, if not, you would call yourself a chair then. Unless the word GOD is totally empty for you, totally unlimited, totally free, then what is the point? You already are identifying, limiting yourself to whatever attributes the word God has on your mind.

It is not a conclusion, is an observation...if tomorrow I observe some other thing more clear, then I will try edit this 'conclusion' or add that other 'new thing' I saw. Exactly