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@flowboy is complicated. On one hand they have their part of trauma and psychopathic tendencies to be taking advantage of someone on a vulnerable situation or mental health crisis. On the other hand, I do believe ultimately the responsibility is of the individual, at the end of the day no one puts a gun to my head to contact one of this girls to get humilated. So in summary I would say the responsibility is mine to change my attitude and behaviour, but it helps to explain the fact that this type of fetishes exist because there are also perpetrators on the other hand that are ready to take advantage of the situation. Is similar to other things as the drug world. No drug dealer puts a gun to the head of the drug user to go use fentanyl, but at the same time it must be recognized that for that situation to happen it needs also someone with very low morals to be selling fentanyl. It helps to explain, it doesn't mean that ultimately the responsibility is of the drug user.

Is normal, it happens to me too, especially with more stimulant-like psychedelics, LSD or similar. With DMT or mushrooms doesn't happen. What psychedelic did you take?

I feel that whole "masculinity" motto is being used for almost anything to justify exploiting one self. Masculinity doesn't have to do with suffering ...

After something with a girl I recently met didn't worked out, it came 6 days of utter hell and extreme suffering, Life showing me the darkness and lack of love there was inside me all my life. I had to go deep into the pain and realized I feel I do not deserve love and I'm not worthy of being alive. I had to drown myself in the pain of that belief, trying to look at it clearly. All my life I was running of this belief, of this energy. All of my schemas and goals for years and years were subconsciously desired in order to feel love, always from outside, the love I couldn't feel just being ME. I saw clearly the love and unconditional acceptance I was projecting to her, I was not giving it to me. Now is clear to me, I deserve Love, but not a love from others, but Love itself, from Life, because I'm Life. Because I'm Love itself. I completely love and accept myself. And 100% worthy of being alive, just being me, with no conditions.

Of course now you have to insult. Cool bro, cool. You are so better than me for never doing a mistake. Yuppy! Hurra to you. Go enjoy your cognitive perfectness. Guy that never mistaken anything. Lmao. You are being absolutely nonsensical.

Yes, is crazy, it seems we all in one way or another always trying to seek that lack of love is being felt inside, clouded by our mental strategies and thoughts. What is the core? I suspect is just memory, karma, it might not be even childhood stuff, it might be even karma from past generations. So not sure if is possible to heal it completely, maybe we just have to transcend it. Sadhguru have recently talked about it and said to completely clean that karmic memory takes incredible hardcore sadhana and most people won't be able to do that. And that trascending it or "making a distance" from it might be more doable for most people.

Don't worry, since you are not a girl, I'll just punch you in the face if you would laugh so hard and call me an austist In sure you wouldn't find it so fucking funny that way

@Leo Gura yeah, I think that's a good point. But I must say, this sucks, I thought when going on a date with a woman the point was connecting and having a good time. Not trying to have a strong frame and overpower her/lead her with your frame over hers. Aren't they women out there that you can just relax with and they just won't fuck with you? @Scholar ?¿ How is that a strange question ask? Literally I thought the brand of the shop was the same as the purse. Is literally as if I saw the Chanel Shop and their purse was a Chanel one. How the hell that is a "strange question"? Hello? @scholar0 @Scholar

When I have a date, my intention is not to go like I'm going to war. I feel nonsensical to play this games just because some people haven't healed some obscure aspects of themselves. Yes, this starts to feel like twitter in the era before Musk. Yeah I think I get the point. Unless I find an Unicorn women, dating is like a jungle. Constantly in fight or flight mode in order to defend myself and counterattack those "teasings". Like for me is just ridiculous. If you go on a date with me why the fuck you going in "teasing mode"? The whole point of dating someone is to have ONE PLACE, one place in life where you can relax and connect and trust. Not to be again in that jungle push-pull mode. Is fucking pathetic that women play this game and I can't wait to fuck some more women and get sick of it and never come back to this dick shitty game of superior-inferior games. I fucking hate humanity and so pathetic and unable to love is.

@Osaid If you were consciousness incarnated in an ant body, I wouldn't say anything. But being consciousness incarnated in a human body, then if you just think all there is to it is realizing X and calling it a day, well, I'm not saying that is bad, I'm saying is a waste of possibilities.

That's my point. Have you guys actually contemplated that's there might more to it than just realizing something and going back to watch TV as nothing happened ?

I guess we have different motivations then. In the past I was all about truth but then I realise nah I must be honest with myself, arising to a conclusion that feels like truth is nice but at the end of the day what seems that God or Reality cares is about feeling good within itself. Just look around, everyone is running around chasing a high, a freedom, an intense experience, entertainment, etc ... It seems for me that the point of Reality is experiencing itself as complete and and satisfactory as possible. Which it makes sense since people try to seek states of actual unity and completeness (careers goals, family, sex, success). I don't find that many people stopping at a conclusion or "truth" and being satisfied with it. I suspect that is because a conclusion is never the truth. Saying "Reality is a mind" sometimes doesn't mean you are actually experiencing a unitary mind. I get the sense division and separation is what is being experienced, no matter how much people want to tell themselves is all one. But I could be wrong. Speaking from personal experience. I've had it. But then what? I don't find myself screaming that all the time. Time passes and it seems reality being mind or not the ego is driven by the same attachments. (Speaking from direct experience, maybe for some of you guys realising that has actually made a difference?¿)

The question is does saying Reality is a dream changes anything? Because it hasn't changed much ime. That's a good one @Leo Gura

I know but is hard to do that. I wrote the OP of this topic after several days like in an existencial crisis. I can not be in that state all the time because if not I can't even hold a job.

@aclokay thanks for sharing. Good luck to your future. In My next project I will be doing devops mainly so I guess is good news is less code

I know, definitely next time I won't make the same mistake ?

Damn just give me one solution ?? I guess there's no substitute for going out more and meeting more receptive women ?

It's obvious. Psychedelics are chemicals and they twist something in your brain/consciousness in order for you to tap into those states. The fact that one can not get into those states naturally, is debatable, but I would say yes, is not possible. But in the other hand, by the same "logic", psychedelics are limited precisely because they put your chemistry in a certain state/way. If they wouldn't fix in a certain way your inner chemistry, then you yes, you *could tap into every state unimaginable, but since they have a certain chemistry design, they are limited to that design or certain way they twist your chemistry. When you have no chemical influence under, the inner chemistry is free and can be tweaked in any way. Also I do believe is possible to tweak your state of consciousness naturally as a psychedelic does, the only reason monks or yoguis or mystics don't do it is because psychedelic states have a certain anxiety and lack of energetic control that no one would produce if they had at one point the panel of control of their chemistry. Someone that can produce a high state of consciousness will produce the clarity, blissfulness and intensity, but will not produce any kind of negative effect such as over stimulation, energetic imbalances or twists in consciousness. Something that psychedelic do as a side effect of putting you in mystical states. Overall, when you taste explosive blissful and clear states of consciousness "naturally", you will see the psychedelic states as not so good and not so "perfect". Most people haven't touch this unfortunately so they think the psychedelic states are the peak of the peak. No, no. This is like all your life what most you have driven is a BMW and you think BMW is the best. Until you try a Maserati or a Ferrari. Then you'll realize how naive you were you thought you've seen it all.

@Schizophonia You tried it? Nah I was just kidding I guess. But I'm going to start hitting the gym hard. I probably just lack masculine raw power

I think I'm going to start injecting me testosterone, see if thay way this Latin bitches can wet their panties for me then

I just look and what I see is a belief or feeling that I am not worthy of existing. The mind, energy, karma or whatever is producing this, it will end up killing me if I don't find a way to eliminate it.

Take magnesium citrate. You are not taking opiates right? They cause constipation.

Fear, pain, Shame, dark energies, etc... That thing is the demon, it will ruin your life if you don't win it over. Either get high to numb ir or surrender /open yourself to it completely you don't perceive it as a negative thing. I recommend the second option. But either way, the point is don't let it dominate you.

Drink SPRITE. Tastes good and it looks as a Gin Tonic ?

Right? Like you can not say anything nowdays about women unless is about they are always right and perfect. Ok, fair enough. But understand that when I write all of this my point is not to feel victim out of it, is more kind of to be prepared when next time it happens, I'll just tell the girl to fuck off and leave her to pay the bill, instead of eating his bull shit laughing it off as she just always mean good and everything is just my imagination, as I've done in the past. I mean...you can't deny the reality that people do love to project their insecurities and judge people as a mechanism defense, to then when being called out, gaslight the other one saying is all their imagination. ( I wonder why I've never felt like that when my dearest friends. It might be because they actually don't have subconscious painful emotions they want to project to me like this women I've encountered) @Bazooka Jesus