EvilAngel

Having had an enlightenment experience today, I feel like I can say: 'Enlightenment is simple, yet not easy'. Would you agree with this statement winterknight?

Like I said, the ego will come back to haunt me, but yes I have had an enlightening experience thanks to Leo's video and the insight I have gained will not leave me. I will still wake up in the morning with an ego that is worried about what people think of it etc. but I can now see it for what it is.

Sounds like an amazing experience. Just take it for what it is. Dreams can give you pointers towards the working of your own psyche, and if you analyse them you can draw some pretty insightful conclusions. Great that you can see the ego for what it is, it seems you had an experience of 'no-self' whilst in the dream state.

Great!

Thankyou! I'm sure Emperor Leo cares about everyone, however, even lowly scum like myself. ?

I don't know how to do it... In another thread when I try to quote someone, I can't delete previous quotes...

Leo, I'd like it if you could explore this topic and delve into what these experiences can tell us about Death, God, and Reality. Thank you. ??

There are no 'enlightened members', just enlightenment itself. ?

There has to be reference to past and future in temporal existence.

Question for winterknight. Are you Leo Gura in disguise?

Why keep searching when the truth is evident?

When I used to smoke salvia I saw everything as ONE... it was beautiful. Is this enlightenment? And if this is enlightenment is it possible that I regressed and subsequently became un-enlightened?

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Am I?

Am I you?

I've learned how to act 'normally' although I can't help but express my 'unusual' ideas sometimes. Unlike most , I went into my madness fully conscious of the fact that I was doing it. It was a challenge for me to see if I could come out stronger on the other side. I'm still getting there.

If you lose your ego without spiritual practice it can cause major problems. Because you have no ego, your sense of self becomes entangled with everything else in awareness. This is what leads to paranoia e.g. the sense that the TV is talking about you. Paranoid schizophrenia is basically a super inflated yet extremely fragile ego.

I am diagnosed schizophrenic. I am slowly coming off my medication. No one really understands how I came to be the way I am, but I understand internally. Like, my inner and outer world often merge and I can't tell the difference between the real world and my dreams. I have no set personality, it chops and changes through time. The mental health professionals seem to think there's a chemical imbalance, but if they knew the work I've done on myself they would think differently. It's a very outdated way of looking at things to diagnose and medicate enlightened people, I completely agree.

Brilliant. Thanks for this.

OMG you don't even blink... Are you fully human?

I have been meditating nearly every day for the past six months. I've been doing 'strong determination sitting' combined with 'do nothing' combined with mindfulness. When I go to the park, and sit for half an hour or so, I become quite peaceful and aware. I even manage to 'enjoy' the discomfort from my sitting position, because I'm so present it doesn't bother me. However, when I try meditating alone in my flat, I don't get the same result. I get bored with this and although I can stay present for long periods of time, I often feel a deep pain inside, which I have identified as loneliness. I feel compelled to share something which just happened as I write this. I am lying on my sofa and in my field of vision I can see my phone charger which is plugged in and has a white light on it. As I typed the word 'loneliness' in the last paragraph, it started flashing... Not in an even tempo, but, like two flashes then a flicker then one flash, etc... As if it was morse code or something but I wouldn't be able to decipher it as I don't know morse code. In fact it's just happened again and I recorded it on my phone. I've just uploaded it to YouTube. The funny thing is I prayed to God earlier this evening to show me a sign! Wow!

That's really kind of you. I am seeing a psychologist, but he's mainly just teaching me CBT. We don't really speak about what goes on in the depths of my psyche. You hit the nail on the head with the guilt thing and wanting something 'out there'. Leo says that we have to face up to our loneliness and that if you are advanced enough you will look forward to solitude. This is what I am aiming for, but everyone needs company, right?

If I had a brain that could decipher what you mean by all that, it would probably be very helpful ?

I live alone and I miss having company. Also I haven't felt safe for a long time. I want to go back home, and by 'home' I mean heaven, which I believe in. I am looking forward to death when I can go back to the Source and then I will never be alone. I don't feel like I can go on much longer on this planet.

A stupid man once said "people who don't think are wise"