now is forever

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  1. no she’s if anything a dualcorn... hehe.
  2. hope you came to support me.... i won‘t change my mind anyways - it always was the plan.
  3. hey you see i still sit here with all the fruits i never left the fruit house - we had strawberries, lemons, apples, bananas and recently we talked about melons... you are the women with the fruits wasn’t it like that... see i really try to make an effort to leave now.
  4. yes i know tsuki - thats why it’s maybe good to delete them anyways... they where never ment for data mining.
  5. tsuki some day we have to let the past go. i‘m not gona do it right now because it’s heartbreaking for me, too. memories are memories not manuscripts. how often did you go back and read them anyways? it‘s even hard with the konmari method - only becoming a black box again can make us open for new realities to enter. you can’t take these memories with you anyways, but as long as you live who can take them from you tsuki. just don’t cling to it like it was the only truth. our happiness/friendship is more important than the prove of it.
  6. yes and no - everything is survival everything is one in oneness. let the soul have a space, too. and you‘ll have a trinity ?
  7. a self is not just data, it is data gathered by a sensitive living instrument it’s not even gathered, it’s all recreated within.
  8. because people like to maintain their ego by feeling better, smarter, more beautiful than you, they simulate status like that. they impose power over you by showing you how small you are through displaying their status. they think they are better than you. the problem is, it’s the power you give them by knowing that this behavior is an aggression and meant like it. it is also that you know you are not buying into the scheme but have dreams that seem to be threatened through their behavior. if you go deeper into it - what dream is it that got threatened and how deep is it running? is it only your peace that got threatened by a threat or is it something you try to skip to work on for yourself? or is it maybe because it’s a threat not only towards you but towards your family, too? contemplate what your status in your family would have been some thousand years ago, also think about how your family structure might prepare you for this position since you where born.
  9. left some content to delete later, the ones that contain more of a memory than others. it’s especially difficult to delete content of conversations with zweistein.
  10. you talked about layers, and yes there is something like a survival pyramid of lower survival reasons and higher survival reasons and you could say two entities that want to survive in you - the self and the higher self. creation is usually the higher self that wants to express itself. creation entails disconstruction and construction, creation is in you as a source energy of the higher self but it can be made a slave to the ego.
  11. hahaha - i don’t care what i leave behind, their karma. no it really sounds that easy, how do you leave people without giving them more suffering while leaving them behind? will you leave them without telling them why you leave? without telling them that it’s not ok? will you keep the peace thats not a peace or will you say something and bring some movement into it. and if so, how. that’s really tough. how can people ever learn if no one tells them what’s not ok? question is: can they learn, or will it make the situation really bad, as you open wounds and disturb the peace that’s not a peace. will the disruption change them, will it make them say sorry? probably you won’t hear it. forgiveness for how they hurt you is on your side - not for them but for yourself, forgiving yourself you ever listened to them because you listened unconditionally.
  12. you know that no one has the right to tell another person about how much worth they are! there is no worth to a person because every human being is priceless. but if you realize a person really thinks of you that way - run. you are allowed to treat yourself to this kind of selfworth/love. under any circumstances. it’s universal law no law above that.
  13. @Wekz apsolutely you should talk him into it.
  14. you can only talk to him about it. you could even try to turn it around and pressure him, that you won’t do anything like going swimming with him until he starts to work on the issue. it’s horrible if family doesn’t want to change. you can’t take responsibility for it your whole life though. your mom and dad are grown ups, if they won’t manage to work on themaelves you can only spent some time with them once in a while and accept the situation, same with your brother, he will have to make his own decisions, you can only talk to him about how you see the situation. i know it’s tough to leave your mom behind, but she can only liberate herself if anything. don‘t know what convincing arguments could be. people from older generations sometimes have the feeling you can only go to psychologists if you are ill - they don’t get that it’s also a possibility to see it as coaching and support to get more healthy.
  15. particular in systems. particular in this system. what am i talking about? i‘m talking about why i want to leave and why i came here in the first place - i thought there was some dream congruency, but politically i can’t stand behind it anymore. saying „nothing is random“ even, no of course not, it’s all ego.
  16. we are all hypocrites, but it’s a difference to be a hypocrite without power or with power.
  17. no i‘m not killing buddha. i just can’t stand the hypocracy anymore. if hypocracy had something to do with hypocratic vows, it would be nice - but this is about arbitrariness and hypocrites. by the way the buddha only leaves hour flowers - lotuses leave no traces except in your heart.
  18. don’t regret in the future you couldn’t let go of the past fast enough. @Leo Gura
  19. i need to put a fork into this forum. i don’t like the politics here.
  20. i want to bring my heart back home. too. ganesh is an elephant. this was about freedom all along. jan delay - forever and foryou i sing for you and i write for you i burn and i snow for you and i forget myself remind me/myself and that, only for you forever and foryou forever and foryou i smile for you and i cry for you i rain and i shine for you and i relocate the whole world for you and everything just for you. for ever and for you forever and i. and i, and i say „for you“. and ever/always foryou it doesn’t matter how you call me it doesn’t matter where you crash tonight i have lied so often for you and i bow the rainbow for you and ever/always for you forever and i. i see for you and i feel for you i lie and i swear for you and i, and i catch the blue moon for you everything for you all of this is for you forever and for you and i, and i say „for you“ and ever/always for you it doesn’t matter how you call me it doesn’t matter where you crash tonight because i lied so often for you and i bow another rainbow for you just for you it‘s forever and i it‘s for forever and i it‘s for forever and for you.
  21. @Leo Gura
  22. you already gave the answer, yes and no. why shouldn’t your ego have free will? even if will is conditional/predetermined it can still reach a state of maximal freedom within boundaries and create momentum. just be sure that the boundaries are set by the higher self, not the other way round.
  23. @jbram2002 the comparisons you make to warefare and territory are really interesting. although it is a very brutal spotlight. and if we are talking about this space - i‘d prefer to vanish in peace. never came for warfare.
  24. i can hide this whole journal with one button click did you listen to alt-j the journal will not be the problem, the problem is the mycelium in the forum threads.