James123

I definitely understood your point. Increased love = higher consciousness = less ego. Thats why i feel i am in the trip for days. Because i am sure i am not here. I feel like every moment of my life j am in trip. Are we in the trip? Lol. I feel like i am tripping non stop, seriously life is fading away.

Do you mean by mentioning heaven, days and nights are too long, you are aware of the moment a lot thats why time passes slowly, your body and environment is moving Together and all action process is happening as you as love. Additionally, i feel my body, but, it is so identical with my room. I think i am so aware or i just cant think anymore because searching demonstrated perfectly that only way is not to think, words are not enough. Additionally, staying in the moment created timeless thats why i feel i will never die, body will die (but it is just a word that we put meaning on it like just peeing). As a consciousness i will experience just a different feeling then the body ( thats how people will realize so called death). Like peeing and next second sneezing they are just a different actions. Thats why i will be here all the time, will never die but i am not here too. Because i am here as nothing. I feel these feelings. Am i deluding myself? Because i have been contemplation non stop, maybe i am deluding myself. Because i see love everywhere. It is like invisible shield that covered infinity.

I have become a wolf. Seriously, i was looking for rabbit, i just want to eat a fresh rabbit and was so tirsty for fresh blood (like i have never drink water as human in my life) I completely forgot my personality . My nostril was receiving with so much detail with different senses and i could separate each other from smell. I was with my ex gf, whoever was going to attack her i felt i will eat them. My legs and arms were super strong i could never felt that power before ( i have been doing mma for 13 years) i could never able to use my legs like my arms. But i did during the experience. And i was growling, voice was coming from my down chest, all the way down. Even my gf was very scared. She told me she thought that i was possessed. It is not a joke. Lol

Because, you can never die, you are keep transforming form to form, but you are aware all the time. You are nothing (your ground) thats why you are everything (human, will experience cat, chair to infinite). Ground of everything is nothing. Thats why you wont die, body will die. You are the ENTIRE PROCESS. thats the reason why you are already enlightened, you are just having a confused version of infinite. Whatever you do is perfect. Every second you are transforming. Your hair, personality, thoughts, relations. Even body dies, it transformed into grass, air or ashes. But whatever you do you take infinite form of infinite. Thats why your true nature is nothing. Because your true nature is your manifestation of all forms thats includes everything. You will experience nothingness and take form again. Non stop. Till infinity.

@traveler i cant control the satori, it comes and goes. When i am too focus on moment i get satoris just now, the moment thats it. I completely agree. My ego is writing this i am just the awareness itself. But i am gonna miss this personal feeling with even communicating with you. Do you know what i mean? There will be nothing personal. Because there is nothing here or i am nothing in here. I am just seeing it but not from the eyes or from the body. I am all here whatever i see at the moment i have become as nothing.i am just the witness of the movie, and entire movie. When i know there is no me is here and believe it, i hit satori (maybe in a day, hour or weeks). Because i cant think, and become infinite. I think i am going crazy loosing my fucking mind. Thats what it is. Going insane. I dont know what i am doing or thinking. I am here and not here, infinite and nothing, exist and not exist, god and human at the same time. I am just dine with thinking, because there is no way to get it, it is already it. There is no me to think thoughts, i will just let go of everything. This is it. I dont and cant think anymore. Because every experience is me. There is no one here to experience anything. No name just this is.

Hello my friends. Last 4 days i am having crazy satori moments. Days and nights are becoming too long. I am being so aware normally even during the day. 4 nights ago i was meditating and become giant mind, which is my room. Because it was right in front of me. I close my eyes i was nothing, because it was right in front of me. I was the moment thats it. My brain transformed to infinite mind, i can see why i dont die. Because, i am my room, eyes dont see. Every molecule of my room or whatever i am aware of me otherwise it doesn’t exist. No time, life, nothing exist here. It is so quite. Just me happens here thats why i watch the body. People are human because they just believe they are human and body (born, can see, die) thats it. I believed i am god i have become. Thats why i am infinite whatever I believe iam. Because of that i am nothing. I am aware of you guys but life exist as me. Death can not happen because every process is me. This so called world or us is nothing, or whatever we do it doesn’t change anything , because it happens within nothingness , so nothingness can never change. I am exist as nothing but aware and everything but aware. I cant see as human anymore, whatever i see is me, my thoughts are me thats why i cant think and i am aware of just me. I am not living now, last 2-3 days. Life is not happening, just me. Even table moves or my arm all process is me it doesn’t change anything. This is so effortless, i can see why thinking makes you so tired, you spend more effort to become enlightened (with thoughts) than they are supposed to be thats why people cant get it. It is right here the moment. What am i going to do now? Used the body will it is so called dies or just be witness? I feel if I meditate more, i will just continue to meditate. There is no effort that you even sleeping you have to breathe, that you is just being. Because of just being, it doesn’t need anything. Last 4 days everytime I meditate i just stop. I dont know how can i explain that but everything is stopped. There is no time here or death or thought or sound. I cant see anything just me. What do you guy think? Life is not fading away, meanings are fading away that why life is not happening. Additionally, I explained these because i dont even want to write, I didn’t need it. I forced myself to write. Additionally, i know it is permanent, because it is in me like an ego. Stays with me. Cant get rid of it anymore. “The moment “. Right in front of you.

Lol i will be so superhuman that there will no me left, just the moment. Lol

Of course i play games because I wrote these messages as me or ego now. But i am not here. Believe me i become the godhead in those moments. My mind got so wide, i was immortal, out of life and was the moment. But it fades away, i have no idea why. I have no needs, desire or becoming enlightened those moments. I cant even talk. Because there is nothing to talk. Do you think arising thoughts brings me back human mind? Or surrendering completely even desiring the truth? I think i am fucking loosing my mind. Going insane. I don’t know what i am doing or thinking. I am here and not here, infinite and nothing, exist and not exist, god and human at the same time. I Am just done with thinking because there is no way to get it, it is already it. There is no me to think thoughts, i will just let go of everything. This is it. I dont or cant know anything anymore. There is no one to experience anything. No name just this is. I know. So you are telling me stay as in satori all the time? Because there is no me to write these messages or you can say there no me to desire anything. I am already it. Thats why i cant talk as personal now, i will just talk as nothing if i need to.

Thanks a lot man. I definitely got drunk on emptiness. Because it is timeless.

@Gili Trawangan giant empty and nothing awareness opened up behind my ego. Thats why i am not alive. I dont listen the ego. I am fine, i knew it. But it is too powerful. Lol

The truth is person maybe can be levitate. I am not telling you that you are lying, but it has no differences then you eat your food. Can you imagine you have hands to eat, digest and have beautiful satisfaction feeling (which is you cant even see as a human) with being full you are the magic.

Lol. Levitating has no differences then breathing, both are words, and magical. Dont look outside, look in. Dont waste your time

Nope. I come as a different person. Stage blue to turquoise. In 1 night

@herghly you cant but duality wont be exist, so you cant overdose but at the same time you cant come back. You will never die, but maybe we wont come back

You are damn right brother. Lol @herghly That mean is fasten your seatbelts.

@Inliytened1 love you brother.

@Inliytened1 definitely. Nothing else.

@Inliytened1 thats what i become. Just the moment. Only the differences between Mahasamadhi and my experiences, when i had Mahasamadhi I didn’t feel the body, forget everything and it was just pure me. However, only the differences with my last experiences i feel body, know the life, or meanings, however, i have not even 1 desire to talk. All is me as nothing. I know you are exist as me or i al exist as you. But i am just the moment.

@Inliytened1 i am conscious of it. But more of it, makes me unconscious about here or you. Because i am fully awake those moments. Body is just moving, at least i feel the body. But i am at the position, which is full nothingness or everything is too much me. I cant move, but body does with the environment, i am just the watcher, but not here.

Is that state permanent? How will i be able to function or will i need to do anything? I ll be just the witness

It happened to me 3 times in this month. Everyday i am more aware and witness. I am still in the body, but just too aware. In that moment i dont need anything, but when i come down i get so emotional. Do you know why? I think, My ego gets traumatized from the experience and makes me more humble or emotional (like i am an ego, and dying now). Lol Additionally, what is that stage? Actually no stage, i cant even talk at that moment. Thank you.

Did you ever experience a breakthrough that (no psychedelics) took you out completely, full free, timeless and infinite, you are aware, (you dont need any teacher or anyone or anything, except water or eating some food) of the duality and body but everything is too much me, there is no desire, no goal, nothing just me. I love it at the moment but when i come back to duality ego breaks down, my bonds are broken now, because 1 part of my ego has still desire to talk to you guys. Thats why i am sad now, in that moment i dont need anything .

@Inliytened1 Love you man. At least we got some duality to even right each other. If i think less, i will miss you guys.

@Inliytened1 this is just me everything as nothing. I have no eyes, just i am. When i use mind, i get still stuck in duality. Only way to stay infinite for me is i am @JayG84 you are not alive. Whatever you see at the moment is you. Eyes dont see, you are here as nothing.

@Inliytened1 are you the witnesser of the body? What is imaginary, here? Or you?