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I heard people saying LOA works, but it still doesn't convince me. I believe more on working happily than LOA.

Yes, I felt it a lot too. The discourse of the sheeps, wolves and sheepdogs also brought out a lot of family values in me.

I haven't read all of your post, but I took a grasp of it, @AceTrainerGreen. If you work more than 40 hours a day and are happy, it's okay to do that. The problem happens when the job makes you miserable. Working more than 40 hours a week at a miserable job isn't worthy (unless you really need it). I read somewhere that you're not made to work more than 2 years at a miserable job because your body starts to get sick and illnesses start to appear.

My life is kind like a mess. It’s not a huge mess, but it’s still a mess. If I don’t stop eating sweets and candies, I’ll probably have diabetes. If I don’t start consistently doing physical exercises, I’ll probably get fat. If I don’t start messaging my friends, I’ll probably lose them. If I don’t stop with this forum and other internet forums, I’ll probably be wasting useful time. If I don’t start reading every day, I’ll probably never read more than 100 books in my entire life. It seems I need to get really and very very sad and depressed in order to start doing things. I don’t think it’s a proper way of doing stuff. How can I have emotional leverage without hitting rock bottom? How can I accomplish my dreams? Procrastination is a damn thing!

I just started with a tiny baby-step.

Thank you for your insight, @NoSelfSelf!

Interesting! There's a guy called Mario Sergio Cortella who talks about the difference between stress and tiredness. When you get stressed, you don't love what you do. When you get tired, you love what you do. Anyway, I still think some woo woo people think things will happen by doing nothing.

Insteresting! Why the fuck there are so many woo woo people telling the opposite? It's very common hearing things like "you don't have to suffer in your job" or "the universe will handle everything so you don't have to suffer". I personally heard it many times from woo woo people and I still can't get it. Are these people bullshiting me? Or I'm not as evolved as these people so LOA doensn't work properly with me? I never forget once I worked with a woo woo person who said me to relax and wait for the universe response. Nothing happened. Our work was a failure by the way.

I understand there is only now (I read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle). I'll take baby-steps anyway, despite of ego and negative thoughts. I don't think a sudden insight will just solve all my issues.

Thank you, @Nahm! Awesome post by the way! Just to make it clear, you mean that, instead of taking many things to improve (like the 5 I mentioned), I should just pick one? I'm thinking about it and maybe it's a good idea to challenge myself for 21 days to create a unique habit and then start another. Baby-steps. The post was really awesome! Thank you, @Dan Arnautu! My tears are not of excitement and joy, but I love releasing them. It's being a bit difficult to focus on presence while on neuroleptics, but I'm handling it. Thank you for your inspiring post, @rabbitat! I really appreaciate it :). Thank you, @Hellspeed! That's the whole point of my thread, that if I really need a desperation point to start evolving. I think my desperation point started when I was hospitalized and forced medications. Then after the hospitalization, I gained some weight, had back injuries and lost my best friend (suicide). Maybe those situations weren't challenging enough...

I really find RSD Nation's materials very good. If you'll use it to manipulate people is up to you. Maybe Sasha Day Game has great materials too. He seems to be transitioning from Orange paradigm to Green paradigm. There's a guy who did pick up without talking to girls. I watched his video here in the forum and found it very impressive.

I tried it many times. Should I try it harder (because it really seems it doesn't work)? Wacthed some of David Goggins' videos. He is very tough. I can't understand how to discover the helplessness of the ego, but I probably had glimpses of it when I was in college. Maybe it's very difficult to do it while on antipsychotics. Does it have to be a crying that has negative or positive motivations? I ask that because once I did a Steve Pavlina exercise that made me cry, but I thought it was more because I was depressed, then I didn't give it too much attention. Thank you, @Nahm

Maybe you should go to a psychiatrist. It sucks because most psychiatrists are very Orange oriented and, depending where you live, they may hospitalize you and force medications. It's okay taking antipsychotics if you feel too much out of reality, but I heard antipsychotics strengthen the bond with the ego, so you may want to be overly careful with it.

If things doesn't work the way I want, solipcism doesn't exist. The external factors would not have an effect on me, because solipcism considers that just me exists.

Thanks @winterknight and @seeking_brilliance! I read that vampires could me reach me during astral projections. I'll take a look at this information again. Edit: just found an article about astral vampires in Brazilian Portuguese. https://www.google.com/amp/s/hugolapa.wordpress.com/2014/06/19/vampiros-astrais/amp/

I heard some stuff that it could be something related to REM sleep, but I believe it's something else. I have some sleep paralysis since I was a teenager, but it's not always. It happens generally when I'm very negative or when I eat loads of junk food. These days I had sleep paralysis twice and I found it really scary. I wonder if my house has some paranormal activity. Can it hurt me? Sometimes I wake up out of breath due to these sleep paralysis. The dreams are scary sometimes. Edit: I heard it can be astral projection. Why the fuck is it so scary for me? I'm really afraid of opening my eyes during sleep paralysis. Sometimes I have "dreams" where I can move freely, but I'm really scary about such stuff. When I was teenager, I read that it could have been vampires during such astral projections (that's why I'm not very fond of it... yet).

Thank you! Leo just released a video about self-inquiry.

What's Akasha? Is it a name for one of the chakras?

I hope it comes to Brazil soon (but it won't probably happen during my lifetime).

I had a hard time learning social skills after my psychosis (I'm still learning and, God, I have a lot to learn and let go). Social skills are indeed crucial for your development. There is no formula for better social skills, but just getting out of your comfort zone to approach people. NoFap may also help you with social anxiety (if it's your case).

I had suicidal ideations a couple of times. I understand it like a mind trick, because suicide is out of question for me (if I have suicidal ideations, it's because something isn't working well). The first time I had suicidal ideations, I took antidepressants. No shame on that because I was probably physiologically screwed up. It's not just a matter of changing semantics. It's deeper than that.

Thank you, @Serotoninluv! It's kind like getting out of our comfort zones.

A guy told me he doesn't need to meditate anymore. Is it possible to reach enlightenment and then you don't need to meditate anymore? Are meditative states possible to achieve through music and art for example?

Thank you, @Serotoninluv! I really thought that being Green was more about open-mindedness and values. If a person is open-minded to embrace Green concepts, she's more about Green. I don't know how much effort it takes to become Green, but an Orange guy would need to put his efforts onto the right things in order to evolve to Green. Blind effort would teach him/her nothing. That's probably why there are many psychiatrists and doctors stuck in Orange mentality. They had put a lot of effort on their Orange paradigm that they can't open their minds to go to another level. Now I wonder if this effort idea is really true. Is it more about open-mindedness or more about effort and hard work? Interesting, right? Edit: Jordan Peterson is an example of a person who built his entire life around Blue and Orange concepts and still can't evolve to another level. Jim Carrey, on the other hand, achieved a deeper level of understanding about spirituality.

Sanshou is a fight competition (Kung Fu). Actually, I was one of the most skilled Sanshou fighters of my gym. I would beat the strongest guy of my gym who was heavier than me. I don't think social anxiety comes from being physically weak. It's more about a psychological issue. Owen Cook and Julien Blanc don't seem to be very strong and they still have low social anxiety.