Aakash

i thought i had it , then i never, i thought i had it , then i never, i thought i had it, then i never the cycle continuing far and wide the ego i tried to get rid of, until it subsides the ego i tried not to get rid of, incase it was right an endless battle and trap i fought until i had- re arrived where did i rearrive? i rearrived at ego because thats where i started :')

@winterknight mind i don't really know how to put my experience is words so ill just say it like this: is the realization of pure awareness or what i am, enlightenment? i feel like i know exactly what i am with no hesistation in my direct experience. I just have no words i can put it in that will represent it besides pure awareness.

@tedens that it can, life is a school afterwards as one of the moderators said

all is [enter word here] thats fine embodiment is a lifestyle therefore enlightenment = lifestyle the 8 noble paths are development via lifestyle map = right X,Y,Z continuous development = lifestyle choice doing nothing = life style choice seeking = lifestyle choice good or bad choice = lifestyle choice lifestyle choice does not equal lifestyle lifestyle is and enlightenment is lifestyle = enlightenment = is And "all is [enter word here]" doesn't change in any regards and never will

@ajasatya yup i've exceeded my daily limit PLUS it was just to provide others with some mental noise for their self inquiry ahah. I thought i did quite well in explaining it. No more though

to finish off ill say this pure awareness[ is] pure silence or true silence and bathing in it is truth.

(2) thought is not egoic

You are not your thoughts you are not creating your thoughts thoughts are being driven in 1 or two ways 1) derived thoughts from self (reactive- egocentric) 2) derived thoughts from SELF (active- lifestylecentric) awareness is detached from everything including thoughts = you are not your thoughts they are reactive deriving thoughts from self (1) awareness is detached from everything including thoughts = you are aware you are not your thoughts but awareness deriving thoughts from SELF (2) lifestyle choice = thinking with mind And "all is [enter word here]" doesn't change in any regards and never will

Finally, lifestyle choice does not equal ego ego is only ego to ego that is ego (an illusion created by an illusion for the purpose of defining an illusion to an illusion) lifestyle has no opposite enlightenment has no opposite enlightenment is lifestyle = enlightenment = is therefore lifestyle is

you are the awareness itself and nothing but the awarness having an experience, the experiencer is you and the experience is also you you are aware of yourself at all times , whether you are conscious of it or not is a different story

consciousness is aware of itself when consciousness is aware = you are is/consciousness and awareness to all degrees

@Ecocotton everyone has different reasons for pursuing enlightenment, however deciding its going to be good or bad before you've experienced it in your direct experience is a fear that won't benefit you in any way. If i told you yes, you would persuit it if i told you no, you wouldn't you still wouldn't know for yourself if it was yes or no. so the answer to you is still not helpful itself. you have to experience it yourself

psycho - induced numbers to remember to ^^ wake up now

@ajasatya wise words, thinking about being enlightened doesn't make sense in the first place !

Thinking about it again, the delusion created is inheritantly narcassistic no matter which way you dissect it. words like "doing it on behalf of the greater good" or " it is what needs to be done" creating your own heros journey yourself is therefore something that doesn't need to be done in the first place normally the choice is out of hands, because the person runs across an obsticle that he needs to overturned but all obsticles are not external in this matter they are internal to the being so all enemies fought out there are delusions created by the self battling the self , overcoming the self and becoming a better person or (hero) in the grand scheme of things then coming to the place you started (yourself) at a surface level and then as a master of the self , helping others but this again itself is inherant narcassism because it is not what needs to be done so the master waits until his skills are one day needed by someone else he doesn't seek to help because he has mastered his self so by definition, you can only seek to show others the TRUE heros journey, if they wish to follow the persuit Help me with my contemplation, i feel like there are many things missing here

@TheAvatarState okay i see what your saying. thank you

@TheAvatarState i see, yeah i can feel my ego attaching to it and making a bigger deal out of it then it actually is. i didn't quite understand what you mean by this though

The true hero's journey is mastery over the self (or the awareness which self currently resides in)

@Sockrattes you should read the document he posted first; its quite eye opening before he sends the videos

@Arhattobe this is interesting what you have written let me ask you a question, the first ever question i asked leo 3 weeks ago when i decided to start using this forum. it was along the lines of if i want to know what i am in its entirety do i need to read the religious text , because it seemed to me that nomatter what enlightenment experience or awakenings you have had, it is only someone who has gone the full way who can tell you whether what you have experienced is the full thing. the next thing i asked was, most people who interpret the texts after give false narratives of what the original text hold, you have to read the original scripts in its original manuscript. so does this mean i need to learn the language to understand the scripts correct to know who i am in its entirety. This is the reason i asked

@Shin another question, when you guys are meditating- in your presence of awareness do you hold onto your body. meaning are you awareness (after you've found it) out there or are you awareness within the frame of your body or the last option is are you the totality of awareness the body (being felt as being) + out of body awareness? i feel more complete when i have adopted a sense of being through the body aswell because then i think i've driven it through direct experience. But i'm not sure if what i'm doing is correct.

@Arhattobe what are these limitations ? as well as this?

@Shin can the presence of awarness, also be called being? so just being as awarness

over contemplation indeed have got over my need for social injustice, now i look back, theres an irony of laughter ahah. however, my problem has still not been solved. yes causing the division between whats good and bad was subconscious and incorrect, so was deciding universally what was right or wrong. However, there were only hints of green in that mix and of other colours in the spiral. My main focus was to create an understanding of the differences shared by people and an overall foundation of what exsist in systems in our world today for children. i have the idea or purpose lets say in my head, however, i want to purify my subconscious thinking before moving further. I would still only relate halocratic / haluistic and big thinking to a yellow mode of thinking because turquoise is ultimately illusive by its own nature. or it would be more accurate to say its illusive to myself. so i'm here to ask what schools of turquoise teaching in mainstream education would look like. i'm not looking for answers direct to non duality although i know its an encorporation of its essence. However i'm looking for any specific examples like i would say being able to monitor your emotions is kind of a turqoise thinking and being aware of your thoughts in a sense. However, i'm probably wrong. Any example would be good for me to contemplate. Since i haven't reached a level of embodiment so per say. I can only really create distinctions from a yellow perspective so i would like to hear from you guys about non duality teaching in normal education systems. i guess you could say its the non dual perspective (yours) of non dual teachings in mainstream education systems rather than an idividual who understands other peoples perspectives that are themselves limited (mine)