Aakash

@cetus56 yeah lol thats pretty much exactly what happened - precisely. thats the whole picture right there, the jackpot. that is the state i was talking about. that letting everything be and having no control that right there is crazy talk and death isn't the word to describe it. thats like someone said give up your life and i'll take control of everything and we'll see where we go. all you have to do is remain in this state i can't believe how well that picture encapsulates it, seriously thats dead accurate lol

@cetus56 i'm not gonna lie, my body became light as a feather, because it was just awareness. is that one lol

like who would i be, definately not human. i'd be some sage or something loooool! its just outright crazy, the last couple of days ive been thinking am i crazy, this is like the cherry on top. because this so called true reality is completely crazy.

@ajasatya i guess this is the best dualistic image it can relate too, theres literally nothing but awareness i feel like i'm just overeacting to delay now to be honest, i've seen it so i can't go back. Theres like 0 control at all! just viewing everything as awareness. and then going deeper and deeper into it and then you'll end up where- infinity

@ajasatya @Shin I can't there is no image, its all imaginary aswell. i know, it is. its still me making distinctions, maybe i'm just scared because its going to radically change my life. ^^ having said all this, i've just gone back into identification. A life without judgement sounds scarier than i initially thought it was. freeing yes, i wouldn't have control , i won't be in the same reality as others in speech and thinking wise, hardly have as many thoughts, i think the thing i'm most scared about is that it will be like a trance like state (bliss) as kaorke says missing a piece of the puzzle and being locked in a trance like false state

@ajasatya the root of lonlieness is fear @Shin no you couldn't feel lonely

@purerogue but seriously any identification/ judgement /analysis you make about the true reality is false, your creating a distinction of a seperate self to the awareness itself and that process is automatic, its just how it is. so it is the formation of initial ego. but i on second thought, i don't think i understood what you meant properly, could you re-explain.

@ajasatya do you not get lonely like this?

@Shin Its actually so scary man! it doesn't feel okay at all to be like this for the rest of your life, i see my parents and they're only awarness the same as me. I take a dump and its me coming out my own ass, i feel so alone whilst in this consciousness

@ajasatya its just awareness breathing in awareness and exhaling, the action of breathing wasn't even performed. it only seems like it :'(

why is awareness feel like a whole different world! i feel like i've gone totally transrational, i don't even feel like i'm in my body anything i think of myself i ate a burger i went shopping its just awareness the clothes i bought at shopping which just awareness? it feels like a totally seperate reality to what i normally have known.

should have realised that the self (awareness) is non dual,created by awareness refers to a creation and a creator, which is also linked to the notion of a timeframe, or in other words- which came first the chicken or the egg. these are all just delusions, the truth of the matter is awareness is playing with awareness, meaning the words i speak/ the images only have relativity. all of mind is relative. i am the words, images, voice, respondant, sayer, the total. the person who thinks they are mind/ word in the first place by identification is technically ego, but in the larger sense is non duality A TOTAL PERFECT MINDFUCK , ALL answers are god! hurray

is the words /images we visualise in our minds, created by awareness because that would mean, no matter what way my story (the story that is me) is only a story. and i'm trying to resist. which i don't see the point in. so which is it?

it really does! OMG! the funniest thing is that you know everyone has it in the first place, and your ego still corrupts it to make it seems magnificiant and special and exclusive to you. how funny is that?

when was this said? i think there are many people out there who see the value of logic and rationality, its just they are probably trans-rationale only for a slight proportion of their lives now and just don't give as much weight to it as other people do it terms of importance. remember you can't even enter the spritual path without logic and ration at the beggining, so i think once people get more clear at higher stages, they'll reunderstand the importance of logic in their journey. also yes its possible logically to prove the theory of other realities, but in the end ultimately it collapses to realise there is only the truth of reality at different degrees, and even that is slightly false from my perspective because its one unified movement.

@Jack River a figment of its own imagination , it arrives at its destination and claims ground to its findings, like a flagbarer climbing a mountain! Its not trendy if everyone's it, thats called "the untrendy buddah"

@tecladocasio I knew you were going to ask that lol, to be honest, i don't even like the word enlightenment anymore, i don't understand what it means- so no i am not. I'm just answering from my highest wisdom the answer to the question. ps i'ma take that as a compliment! shows that i'm making things sounds spiritual by using metaphors

yep thats why i don't think of it like a desire, because its my whole body moving towards it. The desire has underlying psychological factors as a need to find it. The desire itself is something you have to get rid of and not lose at the same time, like a snake, who knows the right time to shed it its skin for the desire to go somewhere else, leads you to a destination that is where it is not. The seeker who seeked too much.

the belief that you need to become enlightened to live a good life is a belief in itself, it's not actually neccessary for awareness, awareness will still play out awareness. (from a higher perspective that is) so for me personally its like returning home, from my individual lower perspective plus you don't actually gain anything out of enlightenment, its actually quite funny. we make it sound like some amazing big thing, but really its just realising that you are awareness. you aren't even doing it, its doing you! (from a higher perspective)

hell nahh, i think of it like returning back home, nothing to do with desire or anything. but the flip side of it , is that it doesn't matter if you become enlightened or not, awareness still plays out.

found a great video of where i am at; understood what god is; and had some experience but never a full realisation. adyashanti explains it very well. anyone else feel like they're here?

felt alot peace and somewhat bliss this whole week because i was being, but i've felt more disconnected as if i'm knowing reality but i wasn't knowing i was just being. even though i was being, i wasn't able to sustain highest consciousness level and going deeper into being (unknowing) so ironic, that i feel like its an ego backlash or should i say blissful backlash- what i'm trying to say was i felt closer to reality not knowing and with constant change, than having routine and knowing. has anybody else ever felt this after a week of peacefulness?

Yeah i'm pretty much where you are aswell, my senses go back into duality and then i realise i'm not grounded in the present moment and monitoring thoughts in the present. remaining as awareness and not thought and experience.

@ thesmileyone aka self -realisation ? i guess this was blissful back lash just when i thought i was done! or could relax and chill theres more work to go to reach infinity!

someone should do this for all episodes, help out the others who don't have time to make notes for themselves.