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Don't worry, when you see what's actually going on, you'll have someone even more hot than that Jon guy. You'll have the creator. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! Yeah I had to deny lots of feminine aspects of me too and I'm a guy. These days I'm like fuck it. In work I get called too compassionate, a pussy, don't fire people enough, a push over. And I say fuck it if I want to be compassionate I'll fucken be compassionate go fuck yourself. They even tell me I'm not being assertive enough. Its got nothing to do with assertiveness its got to do with being fair and doing what's right in God's eye. The true assertive one is the one who stands up to people who tell ya you're not assertive enough. I got bullied for all of the above in high school, then I went through a phase of being a cu**. Now I'm like fuck you this is who i am. And while I've lost my job a couple of times, never been happier. Its great.

Of course this is obvious. Hello what is porn?? Its not physical its pure imagination! Lol the dream of most guys! If only it was that simple. I would be curious to know more about that too, whether Leo found a 'real' way to have sex via text or not. Yeah I agree. Sex without the love and intimacy is like mcdonalds. With the intimacy its like a highly expensive restaurant. But unfortunately I don't know many guys who agree with me. They have their heart chakra totally closed. Which society's appraisal of masculinity playes a huge role with that. Getting your bf to cry and open up and be vulnerable can trigger his desire for emotional intimacy. But you need to go against decades of social conditioning.

I agree. I think it will just make you die physically.

This heading is hilarious! hahahahahahaha Is this what its like for you at home: "Son why you so down?" "Oh, nothing mum. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with NPCs" "NPCs? You mean that minecraft game you play with you friends?" "No mum, I mean people, they are all NPCs, like the ones in minecraft" "ummmmm ok...." "I came to the realization this morning. Some people just don't think. Some people are just NPCs" "Oh son, everything will be alright. Did you take datura again?"

I'm insulting, and yet you didn't insult me back. You didn't call me names, you stood your ground which most women would not. I think that's beautiful. And no I'm not being sarcastic with this one. I understand you believe this is how men should act. But try, not saying you can, but try to see that imposing how a man should be is not nice. Just like how society imposes rules on how women should be, imposing rules on how men should be is just as hurtful. We all deserve to be allowed to have the space to unfold in our authentic ways, and for us to be accepted and loved by whatever that way is. Jon Butcher has a very different personality to me and most people, and it would be deeply inauthentic and hurtful to try and replicate it. I've seen what its like to have balanced feminine and masculine energy as a man, and while I'm not that amazing, other women really appreciate it.

I'm a passionate feminist and proud of it EDIT: don't worry I'm not trying to take away your autonomy of picking what guys you like, and even if I was, that's impossible because you're the one interpreting everything I say, you're the gatekeeper. I can't touch or change anything about you. Thinking otherwise is a trick you are playing on yourself. Really? Get outta here Without building intimacy?

I didn't watch the whole video, but from my understanding of feminine vs masculine(based on meditation and some books) the masculine does not harbour love, that comes primarily from the feminine. Go read up on chakra work, and the masculine area(root chakra) is super effective for power, energy, direction, etc. Feminine is where loves come from. If you want a guy to authentically love you(again I could be wrong) its going to be because he has opened up to and has integrated his feminine side. A guy's genuine love for you will come from his feminine side. That's definitely the case for me. And all I'm saying is, out of all 50 of my high school class mates, I don't remember a single one that had as much feminine energy needed to authentically satisfy a woman(and I don't remember a girl horny enough enough to satisfy my guy friends). If you find one, awesome! But its not weird for a guy to not want intimacy, rather its weird for them to WANT intimacy! Infact less than 1/50 chance! The world isn't fucked up, this is how it works, what you want is a weird guy, you need to accept that. And you can get a weird guy. I'm not sure how because im not a woman. This comment could suggest you're a passionate feminist. Go look for guy feminists, they tend to be what you're looking for. Also the guys that clean up shit on the ground in green earth day. Also the guys who protest for liberal rights. Also the guys who vote for the greens. And the guys who listen to ralph smart from infinite waters LOL( lol you'll find lots of what you're looking for there, maybe too much hahahahahahahaha)

My take is, our culture has indoctrinated us with the idea that rationality is superior to feeling, because feeling has cognitive biases. The theory says to reverse that. All thoughts steam from a feeling. The thoughts are the leaves and the feeling is the stem. Thoughts tell you something is wrong, and so we try and fix that, but actually what the thoughts say is wrong is not actually what's wrong. That's a cover story. The real thing that's wrong is hidden under the thought in feeling. And that problem is totally different, so different that it makes you laugh you actually believed what the thought told you instead of the feeling. And all world problems, stem from feeling, not thought. People are dying in ethiopia because of something happening within you. And this was great for my breakup, loss of job, and destruction of family relations... Because all suffering was not coming from those things when looking at feeling. And that was a huge insight that help get over these apparent problems. << I'm now officially a pirate because I just stole Phil's IP >> To be honest, its stuff Leo has been hinting about for years, but for some reason Nahm telling it to me gave me a radical shift. Maybe its his presence that gave it. Maybe its being in the presence of his Leo looking face. Something about these Leo looking faces that have this ability to make you a buddha by just staring at them.

You need to understand that there is a very real difference between feminine and masculine energy. Getting confused as to why men don't have the same feminine needs as you is really silly. I'm not criticising, but this is kindergarten level mistakes. Of course guys are into movie scenes more than real intimacy, and if they aren't they have a mental disorder. Now I'm not being dysfunctional, I'm being honest. You think guys mean it when they get all romantic and lovely and cute and chick flickish? God no, they are doing that because they know if they don't, you're going to dump them. They only get deeply intimate with you to settle your intimacy needs, not because they actually like it LOL. If they did, they would love chick flicks instead of fight club and rambo. Hu? Why do they like rambo and not chick flicks? Duh... Its a bit like women with sex. The average girl(I.E. Not horny and isn't terribly int sex) just has sex to keep the guy happy. Its not something that keeps them in the relationship. They are doing it because they know if they don't, they will get dumped. emotional intimacy = sex and physical attraction for a man. You cut out sex, its equivelant to a guy cutting emotional intimacy off of a woman. I know this because I'm a very atypical guy who has feminine cravings (40% emotional intimacy and 60% physical, where the average guy is like 5-10% emotional and 90-95% physical) but I got bullied bad for it in high school, unexpectedly so, because its not normal, its very weird. If I didn't have access to feminine energy I would never have known emotional intimacy was important - and most guys don't. Yeah they hear it on pickup channels that its what you gotta do, but they don't FEEL at the CORE why its important. They robotically do it to get laid. If this was a guy convo it would go something like this: "fuck my balls bro that's fucked, isn't it? I have never been with a girl like this, but I have been hearing story after story from pissed off men on this very issue - and they are rich, awesome duded - and the girl is more interested in talking about bullshit all day then having amazing sex. Does this girl have any hormones at all? Any sexual attraction for this guy? Or is she using him for money. It is becoming an epidemic. Just know that it is not you, women are becoming conditioned to having low sex drives from the birth pill... it fucks up their hormones bad."

I went through it earlier this year (along with other things at the same time like loosing my full time job and getting kicked out of the house by my parents) and the remedy was a skype session with Nahm, and he introduced me to his feeling sprinkler theory and I've never been happy. Gosh that gets me off the hook of writing something elaborate or wise

Because men dont realise its important, like how women don't realise keeping in shape and having sex is important.

Lol. Then the orgasm isn't coming from the text message.

That's interesting, I find it hard to have such an attitude knowing that all those projects are ultimately your bias.

this is epic m8 thanks!

In my country, guys don't openly let everyone know they've been with hookers

Try Australia:

okay... I've got absolutely no plans for how to get there, and cannot see a way. But I'll just desire it to come to me and hope for the best Lets hope this actually works

What you're dreaming of already exists: psychedelics. And when neural networks get to that stage, if ever, people will make them illegal saying it gives people schizophrenia and delusion and insanity.

blowfish didn't reply because he's too busy expanding

Is wanting only, enough? I've got some shit on my dream board, but I have absolutely no idea on how to get there especially in my circumstances. Thought about it for 3 days and just gave up because its too impossible. Should I spend more time trying to figure out a plan?

that's not what my dreamboard says

Hey, around the 30 minute mark of my meditation, my heart rate sky rockets. I have the sense that I'm going to have a heart attack and die. Not sure how to overcome this. My family has heart issues and so large heart rates tend to induce fear. Has anyone gotten a sky rocketing heart rate and fear of death and overcome it?

You mean if I'm not a billionaire lol? Otherwise losing a billion dollars would be horrible lol

@Preety_India Yes yes definitely I think that's what meditation should be about. For me personally, the fear actually comes from letting go too much. You let go so much that you forget how to get back into control, and that's when the panic happens. But in general I agree that forcing meditation is actually a trap because what you're doing is assuming you already know what you're looking for before you start! In meditation you need to drop everything even the idea of non duality because how do you know non duality is true? Or how do you know your awakenings in the past were non duality or something else? How do you know oneness is the same as non duality, etc. But I don't generally get panic attacks from forcing too hard, I get panic attacks from letting go too much hahaha. Because when the whole universe starts to fade and disappear, and you're starting to forget whether you're in control or not, that's when anything can happen. You can go insane

interesting because it really feels like I'm gonna die hahahahahahahahahahahahaha