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How can i achieve a balance between my individualistic side and my collective side if the only thing that my ego cares about is survival? My mind tends to force me to be more individualistic, and this is where things get really tricky because as far as i can tell the reason it does this is because society is very unconscious and inauthentic or so this is my reasoning for it.

I think this is mostly not your fault but the fault of your mind and unconscious programming that took place over the years. My suggestion would be to continue with your spiritual practices and the problem will resolve over time. If not that i would suggest maybe doing a psychedelic trip to get a good solid dose of pure direct consciousness inside your head but be prepared to face some nasty shit. And please do your research, psychedelics are no joke and can cause a lot of harm if misused.

@Aakash Nice! Thank you for the very much for the answer!!! Much appreciated

Anybody in here studied Game theory? I am especially interested in finite games versus infinite games. Would appreciate any insight on this topic. Is this something that i should seriously study or is this just more ego survival dynamics?

It is a simple question but i have been getting a lot of shit from people on the fact that i am being too serious or that i put too much importance on certain topics. So my questions is as follows: How do i know when i am being too serious? I do generally consider myself a serious person but how can i know when its is going to the point of a neurosis.

Hi everyone, I am constantly confronted with this interesting dilemma and i was wondering if anybody could help. Been watching Leos videos for almost 2 years now and i was really inspired by his Spiral dynamics mini series so much so that right now i am trying to move away from Stage Orange (that being me) to Stage Green (next stage after orange). One problem that keep constantly arising for me is that i don get where people get the motivation to socialise with people. To me being by myself just seems way better, as difficult as that is to believe. Its like I have the desire to socialise, but the majority of the time the desire is very weak for me. Anybody else have a similar problem and is there any way around it?

@Mu_ So i have contemplated this a bit. And basically what i have derived at is that if i dont trust a person i believe that the entire interaction with him will be very controly, manipulativy, very tence, not authentic and try-hard (thats the way i can put it atleast). Whereas if i trust a person then that the entire interaction is fluid, fun, authentic, has flow, good vibes and chemistry. Second question i would answer that its very difficult to be yourself when others are untrustworthy. Its like i know i cant vibe with them, so that makes it kinda difficult to be myself for me.

I was very strongly inspired by Leos Spiral Dynamics Mini Series so much so that right now i am trying to move out from my very strong Orange mentality (stage Orange Dad (zero emotions basically) and stage Blue Mother (very fond of judging) ). One problem that i keep constantly faceing at the current moment is trust. I find it very difficult to trust or too relate to people. As of now i can only name one person that i can truly trust (my best friend, thank God there is at least one, if not i would probably go crazy). To me other people just seem to controllish (if that is a word) and manipulative and it makes if kinda difficult to relate. My parents fall into that same camp, still cant figure out how i lived with them all those years (right now i am 26 and i live alone for almost 2 years + also 6 years of university i didnt live with them, only occasionally visited). Basically what i am trying to say is that i am trying to be more emotional and more vulnerable and its kinda difficult because i dont feel like i can trust people. Can someone provide any help or guidance. I think my ego need a shift of perspective or smtg

In my experience affirmation dont do much, because they create a conflict in your mind. One part says this, then the other part says that and this doesnt lead you anywhere. What helped me a bit is to realise that people are ever changing and confused creatures. One day the say this, the other day they say that, the third day they say smtg entirely new and that basically makes me think that it is all meaningless

@Mu_ Been meditating for almost 1,5 years right now. Definitely a good habit to have, will continue to go further. As in regards to yours questions i would say that i dont know, as silly as that might sound. I have difficulties understanding my emotions. I will try to contemplate what you said, maybe smtg will come up for me.

@dorg Yeah, there is definitely some truth to that. Will try to keep that in mind as much as possible. Thank you!

Been trying to transition to higher stages of the spiral after watching Leos spiral dynamics mini series. I am a very strong orange person and i think i was that basically my entire life (dad was strong orange person and mom was strongly blue). At the current moment i am exploring Green and one very weird thing that i noticed is that the majority of Women are stuck in Green and the majority of Men are stuck in Orange (even tho i live in Germany now, most guys seem to lean towards orange still). It is very difficult to shake things up a bit. I think this whole Green Women and Orange Men dynamic is self sustaining and its difficult to break it in social situation. Can someone provide any tips. Should i forget about mastering green maybe

I somehow managed to connect with women through silence, at least from my point of view i think i did. I also realized that i have a very strong love for enduring, which was a very weird realization for me. I think that is what gave me a very strong Peace of Mind. This is the only way i can frame it atleast. Does anybody had something similar? Am i normal? Seems normal to me

Yeah, but they dont seem to respond to that

I’ll ball with that Thanks!

We need to get Leo on this...I agree with what you are saying but i also agree with my statement. How do you describe freedom of action? Once your extremely conscious your ego dissolves fully and you become consciousness itself, aka the whole and not a part of the whole. The Whole is the Absolute Infinite Chain Reaction where there is no doing, just being. The chain reaction will be being/happening till the end of infinity

I started having very funky lucid dreaming experiences once i started meditating (doing the Do Nothing Technique) . One time i was strongly fighting something, cant quite tell you what it was, everything looked and was very dark, but after one point i understood that i couldnt fight it anymore and i surrendered to it. Once i surrendered a giant beam of light came from within me and teleported me somewhere else. Looked like my room but was full of giant plants and spiders... I runed away from it but once i understood that i couldnt run anymore i surrendered. Once i surrendered eveything disappeared and i realized i was in a dream. Once i realized it, strange wind sounds appeared and i follow them. Once i came closer to the sounds, a fing portal manifested and 3 hands appeared from it, and each was holding some kind of book. At this point a freaked out and yelled that i wanted it to stop and then i woked up...Very strange experience. One weird thing tho that i noised once i woked up is that i was lieing in symmetrical position. My left side was perfectly symmetrical to my right side. Normaly when i sleep i ussualy lie on the right or left side and also in a very twisted like way, where my legs and arms are crossed... Maybe this helped my enter a lucid dream like state... Dont know exactly. That was my experience. Maybe it will help you.

If you commit to being extremely conscious for like a week or so you should be able to get glimpses of the No-Self, where you are not doing anything and everything is happening for you on its own as a Perfect Infinite Chain Reaction without the ego ruining it.

Identifying with your Ego/Thoughts/Perspective = Hell:)

My opinion and experience told me that doesn't matter much. Just practice the Do Nothing technique and you will be fine. Your ego will become Nothingness and you will start to see Nothingness everywhere. Whereas previously you saw Ego which then intern created more Ego. Ego loves to cling to a certain perspective and then projects that perspective into reality. Try to meditate and not to cling to a certain perspective so that you will become every perspective and neither perspective at the same time.

Hey, I know that i am new here, but i need somebody or someone to provide some comment on my situation, because its very strange. I have went on a Hero's Journey, or i guess i should say that it left me with no choice. The journey was very long and mystical, i wont write it all down, that will take very long, but right now i am in a very weird position in which i dont know where to go. Maybe someone can help if they can. I understand that my questions are going to sound very weird, but a still feel like i need to ask. I dont understand whatever i should use my bleeding hands or if i should milk the cow that is on the back? Both seem bad because they create duality's. The answer seems to be to Do Nothing, but that on itself seems strange, because as far as i can tell my very existence seems to be a duality. There cannot be any pain without pleasure and any pleasure without pain, both are opposites, they collapse into Nothing. Similar to If there is no Me than there is no Other. I have good intentions but it seems like a need someone to be bad, or the precise moment i have a good intention than immediately someone will have a bad one. What do you do here? This feels very freeing and all but at the same time very scary. I am all about the non-dual approach but that means that nothing will exist...

Thanks for the answer. Been contemplating a lot about what i wrote and i think i get it. The conclusion is ''There is no way to justify anything'' . That makes my feel very Empty but in a very good way. Its like if see if Emptiness i become Emptiness. Whereas if i see Evil i create more Evil.