Sempiternity

Yeah...this is where I've got to disagree with you Leo. This seems to be stage Orange way of thinking about sex, as in 'it's all about me'. From my experience with the higher consciousness men in my life, cumming is not much of a factor in sex. It's about your partner and her experience. If the man doesn't cum, he could care less, as the experience itself, the connection is the reward. If I get hard, a woman does not owe me anything at any point to do anything about that. Even if we are mid-sex, she does not at any point owe me to continue, and if she chooses to stop, I honor and respect that, because it's not about me, and it's not about getting my rocks off, it's about connecting with your partner in whatever form that takes. You seem to have some immature and low-consciousness views on sex, at least in my opinion. Hopefully you're just iterating what stage Orange (or below) men may react like, and not spouting off your own opinions on sex. It may help you also state how higher consciousness people can react in the same scenarios, which can be vastly different. P.S, no man I have ever met has said that losing an erection is painful. Maybe when a young teenager can get blueballs, but not as a man in his mid 20s.

Become an active Lucid Dreamer, that can take control of a dream any time you choose to. When the reoccurring dream starts, take control of the dream and alter it at your will. As you alter the dream to be whatever you want, be it making it fun or silly or comforting, you will be dismantling the dreams significance to you. And once it loses it's meaning, it will no longer come back into existence when you dream. And even if it did, you could again Lucid Dream and take control and have fun with it.

Do you have any interest in Spiritual Awakening? This is dying and being able to come back, but with all the knowledge of who you really are, what is death, what is God, what is Love, what is Reality, etc. The cost of an Awakening is you have to have the courage to surrender to your *death. So in a way, being suicidal is a blessing for this. My loving of life prevents me from making this surrender to death. I guarantee you that if you had a full blown spiritual awakening experience, you would have a completely different view on life, and would have no desire whatsoever in comitting physical suicide. *To clarify, Death as in spiritual death when taking a high dose of a psychedelic like 5-MEO.

I have the opposite situation. I'm surrounded by the most amazing, caring, connected, creative, loving people you could imagine, and they adore me and want me to be around, but I lost the desire to socialize years ago. I tend to like being alone, and not having to deal with the complexities of human interactions. Alone, I can just be.

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Back in 2003 I got invited to a Landmark Education "graduation" night. I respected the person who invited me, so I went. I immediately got a creeped out vibe, with just about everyone there with a nametag on asking me if I signed up yet. The stories being told that night about what each person got out of one of their weekend events were quite inspiring, so I reluctantly signed up for around $600. The Landmark Forum weekend was pretty amazing. Being young and inexperienced, this type of self-help was revolutionary to me. At the end of the weekend, just about everyone there heavily pressured and shamed me to invite every single person in my life to come to the last night, so they could pressure them into signing up for the next Forum course. And I was also heavily pressured to sign up for the next course (there was always a next course). Which I did for $800. And so it went. Each course was pretty amazing, and I got lots out of them, but at the end of each course there was strong shaming and pressure to invite everyone you know, and for you to sign up for the next course (there's always a next course). So I ended up pressuring all of my friends and family to take the courses, at over $1400 each. They only did it because I asked them. They really didn't get much of anything out of them. Another thing about Landmark is they have most of their labor is unpaid. They had me clean bathrooms, stand at a door for all night so I can open doors for people, set up stages, do audio for the presenter, and so on. 5 days of working 16 hours a day, all for free x maybe two dozen people per each event (there are many many events per month). While they were charging 120 people at between $600 to $800 each = $72,000 to $96,000 for a 3 day presentation. And they say this is the bare minimum they can go to be able to stay in business. Load of bullshit. Each location, and there are hundreds of locations around the world, pull in over $300,000 per month = about $4 million per year, per location. I got brainwashed into doing this for 8 years before I wised up to being scammed. So if you want to get scammed out of thousands of dollars, and get shamed into getting everyone you know to getting scammed out of thousands of dollars, and get brainwashed into doing this for years, then landmark Education is the way to go. P.S. I'll spoil the entire Landmark forum for you. The entire 3 day forum is all building up to this nugget of revolutionary knowledge. Ready for it? "Life is empty meaningless, and it's empty and meaningless that it is empty and meaningless". That is it, that is the whole bit of knowledge that you pay $600 for. The same knowledge that you would find in about any meme with a pretty background on Facebook. P.P.S. This is my experience, yours may have differed.

I noticed you put down in your profile that you live in New Zealand. I hear that's a pretty cool place to live. If you're in to such things I might suggest trying some local love festivals. Those are usually populated with loving caring artistic peoples, who are big into community. Maybe could meet some new friends and get in with some great social circles. Here's a couple a really great festivals in NZ: One Love Festival in Tauranga https://www.onelovefestival.co.nz Kiwiburn, New Zealand's regional Burning Man event in the Rangitikei district. https://kiwiburn.com

Spiral Dynamics. Look up Leos videos on them, there are like a dozen of them. Very fascinating model that makes people, and societies, and yourself, make sense. Once you know where you place in the SD stages, you can find area of the world (or where you currently live) with people in the same stage, therefore same values.

Depends what Spiral Dynamics stage society one lives in. I live in a stage Green city, and I surround myself with stage Green/Yellow people. Everyone in my circles of friends are kind, caring (the men are just as loving and caring as the women), connected, all about contribution to others and community, creative, and are always there for you with love when you need them. That's my entire world, this bubble of amazing loving beings. And if someone wasn't up to that standard, they wouldn't be part of this vast community (in the hundreds) of awesomeness. So if you cannot find that in the area you live, well, move to an area with the type of peoples you want to be around, and start getting involved in the types of activities you like to do. Quickly you'll find the network of friends you can get in with.

Leo is not a leader of a community. Leo is a guy on his own journey, and is sharing his knowledge along the way. He's sharing tools that can help you self-realize. Whether you use these tools or not is the question.

Use government programs. Get on EBT, this will be about $230 a month for food, so that will be covered. Local food banks are another great source of free food and supplies. Once on that program, it opens up other options, like free cell phone and cell coverage, through Tracphone, so there's another big bill covered. You can also sign up for programs that help with housing, paying utility bills, moving costs, so on and so on. Once you get your bills down to the bare minimum, then you don't have to earn as much to survive. Moving in to a shared home can be a good way of living in a good home, for minimal expenses. Just be diligent about assessing your housemates, and if you can live harmoniously together. Depending on how far you are willing to go for your independence, you can also look into van living, or tiny home living. Good way to live off grid and no rent. As of self education, all you need is on the internet. You just need to get good at sifting through all the crap, but all the good stuff you'll need is there, and all for free. Once independent, and with little bills, and your survival needs taken care of, this frees you up to focus your time on your life purpose.

Sorry, that's what I meant by 'ceremony'. The act of serious spiritual work done with intention, which can be done anywhere, anytime, and with any spiritual tools.

Two words: Exposure Therapy. The issue I see with most people trying to use a strong substance as 5-MEO to have an Awakening, is the trying it once or twice and expecting the desired results. Of course you're going to be scared of something unfamiliar. As Leo has said, it can take 100 tries to reach an Awakening, and it can take 100 Awakenings to fully understand all aspects of God/Infinity/Nothingness/Infinite Love. So the best course is to have a schedule where you do ceremony with 5-MEO at least once a week. Each time you do this you are getting more and more desensitized to any fear, and closer and closer to the ability to fully surrender. After enough ceremonies with 5-MEO, you'll be so used to it, there will be no fear.

You (God) will do anything to distract you (ego) from awakening. That's part of the game. It's no fun if it's too easy. So you throw lots of distractions and deadends in your path. You are imagining voices to distract you from fully Awakening. To Awaken you must be unwavering in your dedication, and letting nothing stopping you.

Yes, that's it. When you have that feeling that you're dying, and if you go any further you will die and not come back, that is where, to Awaken, you must surrender to it, saying "fuck it, it was a good run, but I'm ready to go, and whatever comes next, I'm ready". Only in surrender to your death will you know who and what you really are and what reality really is. It is obviously the hardest thing one can do, which is why barely anyone is attempting it. But this is the price for eternal Love and to know Truth. How far are you willing to go for this? P.S. Happy first post, and welcome to the forum. P.P.S. Death is imaginary, so only thing you have to fear is fear itself.

There are many many threads covering this topic, just do a search for them. This is redundant thread.

Have a few dozen Awakenings to fully realize/remember yourself, and this will be known. Only you (God) can answer this for yourself, as anything anyone tells you is just yourself talking to yourself.

How is a peaceful setting not an option? If you mean you can't do it in your home, grab a $20 tent and sleeping bag and go camping and have at it. Be creative. I'm sure there are boundless options if you really think about it. To answer your question, it all depends on you. And it depends on what you consider to be "beneficial", and what is the intention of your use of the psychedelic. Depends if you can relax and surrender to the experience in a chaotic environment.

There are many many variables that effect a psychedelic trip. Environment it's done in, people around during the trip, dosage, intention, desired effect, fear level, surrendering ability, experience level with the substance, so on and so on. I bet many festival goer or Raver has done psychedelics hundreds of times and has zero idea what a mystical experience or Awakening is.

What are you doing to raise your levels of consciousness? Are you doing daily mediation, surrendering techniques, daily inquiry techniques, Kriya Yoga/breathwork? Are you using psychedelics to have an Awakening? If things are that dire for you, and there is really nothing left to do, I would be shooting for Awakenings as much as possible, to explore my infinite self. There are theories out there, that if you raise your consciousness enough, it could be possible to willfully change the rules of the dream, meaning you can become a lucid dreamer of reality, meaning you can heal yourself. So if there is really nothing left to lose, why not go down this path and see where it leads?

In 2009 I took about 5 gms of mushrooms on the beach of the Oregon Coast. I felt a pull from my chest, that I naturally resisted. But I had the thought, "lets see what happens if I stop resisting it?". Once I did I left reality and went to the place of white nothingness, and knew that it was all one. I knew that there was no separation of anything, and that it was inconsequential if I went back, as it didn't matter, as it is the same thing. This was my very first Spiritual/Mystical/Awakening experience, a decade before I learned what any of that meant. Weird thing was, that day, I could have an Awakening at will, meaning I could choose to leave my body and go to the place of white oneness, by choosing to do so. I did at least 5 times throughout the evening. Each time longer than the last. The last time I did, I was gone so long, hours, that it was night time by the time I came back. My legs were so numb, I had to rock back and forth, to get the feeling back in my legs, to be able to even walk. That night, my girlfriend and I were able to talk to each other through thought (telepathy). And I was able to manifest impossible things to happen at will. Such as, it was then nighttime and dark out. There was miles of dunes ahead of us. I said to my GF, telepathically through thought "we need to find your sandals", as she had taken them off somewhere on one of those thousands of sand dunes. At that moment, I stopped and looked down, and they were there in front of me. Crazy day for sure. It wasn't till a decade later did I learn about Spirituality and Nonduality. Now that day on the beach makes much more sense as to what happen. My question is, has anyone ever heard of someone being able to, on a psychedelic, be able to have numerous Awakenings at will, to be able to go back and forth by choice, and stay as long as you want? How common is it to have telepathy when on a psychedelic?

Mummification is considered an advanced form of bondage, where someone is wrapped up or “cocooned” and therefore completely immobilized, and submit to total sensory deprivation for extended periods of time. People like mummification because it is completely giving up control, or enjoy the feeling of helplessness, or they like the tight wrappings creating a womb-like environment where they feel safe and relaxed. But it takes a certain level of mental strength to be able to do this without succumbing to fear, claustrophobia, fear of being trapped, or panic. Now imagine doing this for hours. Could you do it? I think this could be an affective, yet unorthodox, spiritual practice. Training oneself to fully let go and surrender.

Obviously don't try something like this at home. It is a dangerous practice, that should only be done by professionals that know how to take every precaution to ensure the safety of the participant being wrapped.

Maybe there could be another section of the forum just for the most dedicated to the path? One for amateurs who are just starting out in their journey. A place where they can ask the basics, discuss things at that level, and get advice from more experienced peoples. And another for those who more advanced on the path, who can discuss the deepest depths of Nonduality/God-Consciousness/Love/Infinity with others at that same level. Think of it like school. Would you have people in grades 6 -12 in the same class, discussing the same subjects, with the peoples in Masters and Doctorate programs? Of course not. It neither benefits those at the 6-12 stage, nor the people at the Masters stage of education. The only way a University Masters class works, for the Professor to be able to teach topics at that level, is if everyone in that class has the same level of education and understanding. And those at the 6-12 stage of education can get confused and frustrated by the Masters class subject matter, potentially hindering their development at the stage that they are at. What if there was a Actualized.org Masters class forum, where people had to earn admittance, through their applied dedication to their spiritual path. And if they display tendencies that don't meet the standard set for that forum, instead of banning them, they simply get put back into the general audience forum. And, as they grow, if they so desire, they can apply again. Isn't Actualized.org an education of a subject matter, in this case Nonduality/God-Consciousness/Love/Infinity? Why shouldn't it operate like an education system, with tiers, instead of all lumped together? Any education system where all levels of education/understanding/knowledge are all lumped together, would run into major issues.