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  1. I've struggled throughout my whole childhood with that and right now aswell, this weird, and sometimes, heck most of the times pretty shit thing called me and life. What kept me going was remembering that at least death is inevitable, I would ask - why am I not dead yet? And the answer I get is 'not yet', or 'wait for it'.
  2. This sounds like some sith-level dark side of the force kind of stuff. Powerful stuff indeed, can confirm this works, although it takes time. I'm not sure but 5MeO might have given an insight or a 'nudge' into how to do it 'right'. Basically found my inner guru so-to-speak, or intuition I guess is another word for that. I'm into spooky territory now and well, integration and ego-backlash take their time and attention. I think SantataGamanas books helped me aswell unwind any bad feelings I had about not having success with kriya because of confusion about the technique. I took my focus off of the technique and started to feel more-so I guess. Its more about the intention, and well, the nuts and bolts of kriya pranayama is breathing in-breathing out slowly basically while taking your attention along the spine. Any specificities about the technique might be superficial, and may work because you 'like' it more than others. Ofc when starting out doing it by the book (ofc dunno which book is the best, might be any book is good) is probably the best way for months, maybe even a year, or even longer, dunno. I think along the line confusion hits in and you do not know whether to perfect tehnique by the book or follow your intuition.
  3. @Preety_India In Theradavada Buddhism tradition they basically have a map of meditation progression, A&P or arising and passing away is the feel-good stage so-to-speak, effortless attention/awareness.
  4. Have you read Daniel Ingram's book? He has lots of material on it and advice aswell. Other Theradavada Buddhism have descriptions of dark night (would be called dukkha or knowledges of suffering). But basically as I recall: keep at your practice, don't do anything rash and stupid (like quit your job fly to India and find a cozy cave or smth). Alone time, at peace doing nothing helps to take your attention to whatever you're going to and do its thing. As for whatever meditation practice it is mentioned that your awareness and attention tends to be very vague and peripheral. If you have noticed a weird switch in your awareness aswell then it might be further confirmation that you are at dark night.
  5. @levani what are your goals? lose weight? look good? How good? ripped? or just a healthy bw (health reasons). What kind of diet/lifestyle/looks would you like? How much are you willing to work towards these goals? Ask specific questions and you get the best answers to them as far as your fitness goals and achieving them go for. What might be effective or optimal might not be practical for you (if you dont enjoy your workouts or routines for example, even though they are optimal, or interference with other life factors like how much time you have in the week/day, injuries aswell). Also it depends on what your 'training age' and training proficiency is at. Have you done other sports or lifting (I'm guessing yeah since you love squats)?. What do you do right now in terms of training, and diet aswell. but generally I agree with @The0Self rep range doesnt matter as long as you are going near to failure with like 1-3 reps in reserve. Key parametre to muscle building is volume, which can be broken down differently, but the simplest and prob most effective way is to measure how many hard sets (at or near to failure) per muscle group are you working each week? doing 10+ sets per major muscle group per week is a threshold. Training split, frequency, exercise selection stem more from how much time you have, and what exercises you prefer, also your training age (start slow and ramp up sustainably and when need to - have long term in mind)
  6. as was mentioned you can distinguish between healthy and unhealthy vegan diet. whole foods, b12 and iodine, rest is less important. Heck you can include some processed food if it makes you like whole foods more (and adherence to diet easier), also vegetable oils are not great, not even olive oil (unless you have a hard time getting enough calories in and lose weight by default, then oil is fine) whole food plant based - nutritionfacts.org is fine for learning, just dont become a diet zealot (veganism or omnivore can both be healthy if avoiding saturated far i feel) you can check other things like 21day vegan challenge etc
  7. make sure that intense bouts of exercise are followed by 2-3 days of rest for the given body part. You can do an intense leg workout on one day, next day for upper body, ad third day is a lighter workout for legs mb running idk, etc. If you notice any stress, injuries, not recovering (recovery as in can you perform exercises as good or better than before) then you need to dumb down the intensity or volume (less exercise per day) that being said usually abs, buceps, triceps etc smaller muscles recover faster, bigger muscles (chest, hamstrings etc) slower just keep that also in mind.
  8. Kriya Secrets Revealed by Stevens for beginners is nice. Nice descriptions for practice. Ennio Nimis Synthesis of a personal experience (freely available online) is also supposed to be great, but I haven't read it. SantataGamanas Kriya Exposed and Kriya Secrets revealed were really influencial for me. I think you could do good by beginning with the first book and then looking into the others aswell, and especially SantataGamanas books, to get some more perspective on kriya yoga. Also, check out kriya yoga megathread here on the forum (meditation,consciousness etc section) As to how to do it properly might be challenging and take some time.
  9. @Pernani I would lump Kriya yoga as a practice focusing on energy, one-pointedness concentration, and rapture (peak states). You can get into some wild territory if you have a true intention and do it with passion so-to-speak (detached passion ofc). Those states of high energy seep into daily life and it seemed to be working for you, but if you want the transformation that I think you are looking for then you could complement kriya with an investigative, self-inquiry, or the sort technique. Vipassana/mindfulness/self-inquiry. The simplest way is to just rest in that high energy state for as long as you can after the practice (for me it's like doing self-inquiry 24/7, or awareness-on-awareness). Essentially, both TMI, and Hardcore Buddha Book propose exactly this sequence of focus - at first get your concentration right (one-pointedness, which Kriya can do super effectively) - and then investigate. Then again I don't know, for me I did 5meo and my practice got supercharged after I got in touch with my 'Inner guru' (intuition) so-to-speak. Peak states have seeped into daily life and a sudden ability to effortlessly rest on awareness itself. Awareness-on-awareness. Lots of purging and up-downing - getting used to flipping from a passionate feel-good-about-life state to darknighting to equanimous super-accepting-of-reality-and-myself do-nothing states (less common peak states). The highest peak was ego-death at the cinema, lol it was beatuiful and comical to see myself in the cinema (self-inquiry and mindfulness turn into one). I truly don't know what will work for you, but if I'd give any advice it is to brute-force it - everything at once - psychedelics, classic meditation, kriya, 24/7 baseline focus. If kriya then I def recommend SantataGamanas books (Kriya Exposed and Secret Power of Kriya) and for psychedelics ramp your tolerance for self-acceptance and openmindedness up smartly (start with mushrooms or acid, and weh nyou feel ready, or have reached a plateau, then 5meo). And remember that you are an individual and general guidelines might not work for you exactly - experiment with what works for you. You seem to be resonating a lot with classic meditation, which is cool. I don't thing with kriya and meditation its and this-or-that thing but more about how to do both, more of a complementary relationship, lots of potential for integrating them together. So manny books recommended to you lol. I hope you find the time to go through them
  10. Just how the current state of society works. Survival values is rooted deeply in the unconscious need to view oneself as inadeuqate, unworthy, and unlovable. Survival values are destroyed when you apply conscious self-love to yourself. It is the biggest threat to survival values and behaviour, therefore anything that promotes self-love (perfect as you are) rather than self-improvement (being better than you already are) is seen as dangerous, wrong, and stupid. It is hard, there is so much inertia keeping us grounded in a deficiency mindset, which I sruggle with, but I'm growing a lot atm. Being ungrounded is scary, it is why there is a huge resistance towards green and beyond (self-expression values as opposed to survival values)
  11. @integral Ah, gut issues, not as familiar as I'd like to be (I'm not a professional nutritionist, a professional youtube nutrition enthusiast lol, as related to plant-based and exercise-nutrition). Have you checked out gojiman? Or Vegetable Police? They seemed to have similar issues.
  12. @integral I meant your perpective on nutrition / health, rather than specifically Y/T. Also 10 years veganism, you can elaborate more if you like.
  13. @Tarzan The description given is reason not to eat animals for people stuck at orange, its a very different matter at the yellow and turquoise level. This is not a moral debate. We all love animals past green, but yellow recognize that we are carnivores and understands the circle of life, beyond yellow accepts its self, green is very much in denial of human biology. Explain the yellow and turqoise perspective and why it leads to killing and eating animals. If your argument is that a well planned vegan diet is not sustainable for your health then you are wrong, there is no conclusive proof of that. Key word: well planned. What does it mean to be a carnivore? If you mean that you need to eat meat to sustain yourself then that is wrong, there are examples that show this is not the case - people can live just as good or even better not eating meat (or eggs, dairy). If by circle of life by the traditional, or 'natural' way that we used to sustain ourselves - by killing and eating animals - then that doesn't prove we have to continue that way, especially if we find alternatives that work just as well. The circle of life is not a constant, it can change. There are differences between how to make an omnivore diet work vs a vegan diet work, as long as they are well planned both are healthy. I'm not saying you have to go vegan, but stop trying to convince others that veganism doesn't work and they should revert back. If you want to prove to yourself that a vegan diet can work then it won't be simple, you have to put it to the test for yourself, and no half-ass it because that's how you revert back to thinking it doesn't work. I probably do 10 times more work and research on nutrition than you do. The reason why I've chosen vegan is that it is one of the only diets that includes a more wider perspecitve than other diets - most diets just focus on eating healthy and getting lean. You can do that just as well on a vegan diet, but you now include an environmental and ethical perspective. When I do my research my agenda is on practicality and living a conscious lifestyle. By practicality I mean eating the foods I like and produce results with muscle building (no dif between plant-based protein and animal protein as long as protein intake is equated), and a healthy diet (prioritize whole foods, minimize processed, calorie-dense, saturated fatty, and toxin-dense foods (fatty meats concentrate toxins through bioaccumulation)). By a conscious lifestyle I mean knowing the impact my lifestyle has - my purchasing habits - what state of society do I support by buying meat vs plants for example - environmental concerns (animal agriculture loses), ethical concerns - animal agricultures loses again, biiiig time (and I think you or someone else mentioned about plant agriculture killing small ruminants that wander onto the fields, regrettably this is so, but according to studies the 'sum of suffering' is reduced signifacntly with no animal agriculture at all - because to feed the animals themselves we have to raise more crops, by a significant margin (there are billions of farm-raised animals, don't remember exact number but far more animals than there are humans, so no shit we need to raise more crops) By reducing animal farming we also reduce the need for plant agriculture - therefore reducing suffering to wild ruminants wandering in the fields in sum, not to mention not allowing cows, pigs, chicken to suffer for our pleasure and convenience. If you want to present the argument that because we eliminate animal farming, we need to produce more crops to sustain ourselves, then consider that studies show that if we didn't feed animals the food crops produce, we could feed 11 billion people with amount we produce today, so we would still reduce the amount of crops. I suppose you would now think that veganism is even more wrong, because it isn't healthy. That's not true. If you compare different varieties of cancer, heart disease, hypertension etc, then you would not find a significant difference when calories and other confounding factors are accounted for, or even find that no animal food seems to work better for some cases - heart disease for example, since plant foods contain far less saturated fat, usually. I don't know what else to say. I could ask your own perspective - what do you eat and why? If you eat meat because you like the taste of it and don't want to give that up then that's fine. But if you say that eating meat is healthier, and no difference ethically/environmentally, then I just have to disagree with you and will stop arguing with you at this point.
  14. Kriya yoga needs time, just like any other tehnique. I read from Daniel Ingram's book that the first mystical experience usually leads one to believe that whatever technique one used to achieve the mystical state, is the right one for him. My inuition tells me there's not a whole lot of difference, but then again I haven't tried everything. It might not be about any speicific technique but just your own feeling guiding you. and telling you this is right for you.