Tarzan

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  1. Energy work thread
    Energy Work
    A place for discussions and experiments about energy work.
    Topics might include:
    developing the energy body channeling energy energy sensitivity yoga, chakras, kundalini  

  2. INFJ resources I might like
    Resources for INFJ's
    @SirVladimir Very well explained.
    An almost exhaustive description of INFJ type, compiled from all major sources:
    PART 1 - Introduction to functions, natural strengths, general traits  PART 2 - On INFJ Flaws, Weakness, Disadvantages, Struggles, Hardships, and Dark Side (1/2) PART 2 - On INFJ Flaws, Weakness, Disadvantages, Struggles, Hardships, and Dark Side (2/2) Some hidden gems I have found:
    Book recommendations on setting boundaries and overcoming common issues most INFJs face growing up: http://infj.com/InvaluableResources.htm Book recommendations on Type and Temperament http://infj.com/INFJ_dotcomRecommendedReading.htm I found reading Frances Vaughan's Awakening Intuition very helpful. Both in gaining a deeper ability to trust my own intuition and making finer distinctions between what is intuition and what is not. The way it is written goes very well with non-dual teachings.  
     
     
     
    The INFJ Handbook by Vicky Jo - Co-Active Life Coach  Invaluable stuff! Covers a lot from Time Management and Career to Symbols and Mythology.  If you are open to listening to a Rick-like figure (Rick & Morty anyone?) talk about an INFJs Self-Actualization journey:
     

  3. subliminal affirmations
    Using Subliminals for Manifestation (Guide)
    Subs (=subliminals) are affirmations that are not audible to the conscious mind, because the affirmations are either too silent, ultrasonic, too sped up or layered. Thus they bypass the critical/analytical mind and go straight to the subconscious.
    - Benefits over normal affirmations:
    bypasses critical mind affirmations can be sped up and layered like crazy, thus subs can be more powerful ultrasonic (silent) subs can be listened even while doing stuff like studying without distracting you  
    - 1.  My Results
    I got into subliminals around 6 weeks ago, and have been listening to them on average around 19 hours daily during the first 3 weeks, and around 10 hours daily during the past 3 weeks.
    Results so far:
    positive impact on my sleep yoga practice. (more detail in a future post) visualizations are slightly more vivid I had caught a cold. I felt like I was going to get ill in the evening. My head was a bit hot. I slept. In the morning I had this typical feeling of being ill. But I didn't have very strong cold symptoms. I listened for 1 hour to health subliminals. Then I felt slightly better, then I slept 3 hours. And then I was basically almost back to normal. I never had such a quick recovery. I also had been having a small itchy rash on my hand for around 2 weeks. When I woke up from these 3 hours of sleep (after the 1 h of listening to the health subliminals) it was almost fully gone. (btw the health subs were from "Absolute Power Subliminals" and "Ataraxy") Deeper non-dual baseline consciousness meditations are slightly deeper better dream recall dreams are slightly more vivid During the first week I saw very faint DMT imagery in the dark. Similiar to those I saw on day 2 on my dark room retreat. During the past weeks it has occured only rarely.  I feel physically stronger subconscious change. I feel like this has been the biggest benefit so far, but it's difficult to explain. So far I've been mostly listening to booster subs, in order to make more fundamental changes to my subconscious, and it works. It's of course difficult to pinpoint the exact cause for results, particularly if you do many different things at once. I listed only the results that I believe were due to the subliminals, or only to the extend that I guess is due to the sibliminals.
     
     
    - 2.  Factors for Success
    How quickly subs work, or whether they work at all is highly individual. It could literally be instant, or take several years. Here are the 3 biggest factors:
    baseline consciousness (in terms of awakening/non-duality) natural law of attraction living: faking/pretending as though you already live your dream reality. Not necessarily your actions, but beliefs, thoughts, emotions etc.  This should be like an underlying knowing energy that is always present, in the background (conscious or unconscuous). It takes a lot of practice and intuition to get this right. But it is probably the most powerful component of manifestation. For that, it is also useful to implant false memories. For example, visualize having nondual experiences in the past, and then implant them there. Repeat and try to convince yourself it actually happened. There is no metaphysical difference between the imagination of a 'real' memory and the imagination of a fake memory. If you manage to more or less BS yourself, this practice can be quite powerful. your suggestibility/receptivity and sensitivity - and more factors:
    law of attraction practices (visualizations, dream board, etc) subconscious resistance how strong your beliefs are your power How much booster subs you are currently listening to How much you have already been listening to subs. If you have already listened much to booster subs, these affirmations are already well ingrained in your subconscious and change is easier quality of your subs power/strength of the resistance/obstacle. For example, if you have an illness, this illness has a certain power.  other manifestation factors (intent of others ; help by spirits ; astrological influences ; genetics; karma and past lives ; ...) following the tips I'll mention later  
    Basically, manifestation works like that:
    If:
    The power of positive factors (subs + law of attraction + other factors + wordly actions like going to a doctor + ....)
    >
    The power of negative factors (blockages + negative habits + power of the obstacle (eg illness) + ....)

    Desired Manifestation
     
     
     
    - 3.  Levels of effective listening:
    Listening without paying conscious attention while doing other stuff like reading, cooking, etc. I guess listening during sleep is also in this category, but probably more effective Listening + consciously paying attention to it. Preferably sitting (or lying) and eyes closed. Put your attention on the sound you hear (from the subliminal). Conscious attention is power!! Several possibilities: Be conscious that the noise is not just some meaningless noise, but is made up of many many meaningful affirmations. Put your attention on the sound. And try to visualize or conceptualize how this is entering your body. How it permeates every cell, every atom of your body and makes permanent changes there. Permanently changing your DNA. Also try to visualize or conceptualize how it enters your subconscious and makes permanent changes there as well. Do the Manifestation visualization: visualize having your goal (it should match with the sub you are listening. If you listen to an ideal reality sub then you can obviously visualize anything). Try to kind of superimpose your goal onto your body. You can do that visually (perhaps finding one image that represents your goal) or conceptually or just by knowing. And intend it, actually will it, to permeate every cell, every atom of your body and that it makes permanent changes there. Permanently changing your DNA. Do the same for how it enters your subconscious and makes permanent changes there as well. This visualisation is a very powerful manifestation practice.  Try to do both of the above at once  
    -  4.  Tips
    Listen to subs by "Absolute Power Subliminals" (=APS). I believe they are the most powerful. They are sped up and layered like crazy.  bundle some of your subs you can also bundle your subs with 1 brainwave entrainment audio and most subs can be bundled with energetically programmed fields audios During the first few weeks, I recommend you mainly listen to booster subs. Such that these affirmations get really welll ingrained. If the subs are sped up and layered, you should listen to the wav format, and not mp3. Listening on youtube is probably fine. In case you download then you should definitely download them in wav. The best way to listen to wav audios might be mp3 player + overear headphones. But listening on other devices works too, as far as I know. But you might wanna check whether your device and music player app can play the wav quality.  Don't listen to 100 different subs. Listen only to a few. Repetition of affirmations is key. always listen during the night. 8h exposure without effort. So definetly do it. If the subs are too distracting, either listen to more quiet ones (like those from APS and wabbajack) or ultrasonic at least 1 day break every 2 weeks Every now and then you might wanna take a break for several weeks (if you have the intuition to do so). Some people report great results doing that. drink more water than usual APS has stronger versions of some of his subs on patreon (for free) Some subs are available in ultrasonic (silent) as well. (some subs by Ataraxy and APS. On patreon). Don't listen the whole day. Your subconscious needs rest to process the affirmations. I wouldn't recommend listening while being exposed to something negative like watching a negative movie. But theoretically, it should be relativelly fine, because subs usually have extra affirmations that make sure only desired stuff manifests. Additionally you can listen to energetically programmed fields. This will hit stuff from yet another angel. Just listening to  this booster once a day could be enough. I also listen to this and sometimes this. I mainly listen to booster subs. If these affirmations are fully ingrained you might not even have to listen to any subs anymore. always start with suggestibility subs, then boosters, (then manifestation or ideal reality subs), then normal subs for a specific topic If you listen to subs less than 15 hours daily, consider listening to affirmation repeater subs. Like this from APS. read comments on youtube. APS and Solar Subs usually have comments with people sharing great results. If you are in a phase of doubting the effectivity of subs (or are generally sceptical of subs), read youtube comments of success stories (APS and solar subs have most success comments). read through reddit posts for further research enthusiasm can begood. During the first 3 weeks I was very enthusiastic about subs. I believe most changes happened then.  General manifestation advice like being detached from results  
    - 5.   More Tips:
    - Make listening more effective by increasing receptivity/ suggestibility:
    listen to suggestibility and receptivity subs exhaustion (running for 2-5 min ; working out ; ...) weed tired or sleep deprived when sick after eating a large meal after ejaculation enter trance improve your suggestibility long-term by practicing Self-Hypnosis.  
    - Make listening more effective by increasing personal power:
    Mainly through presence. But it can also be increased by meditation in general and concentration And this could possibly also increase power: masturbation (building up sexual energy), breathwork, breath hold, kriya supreme fire  
    - How to listen to several subs at once:
    bundle them into one sub, with an app like audacity listen in multiple youtube tabs at once listen on multiple devices at once listen in apps which can play music even when music plays in other apps as well. Like "Music Speed Changer" or " Rocket Player". (go into settings and choose the option that allows for simultaneous playing)  
     
    - 6.   Bundling
    Layering/bundling subs over each other sounds very good because you can be exposed to FAR more affirmations that way. For example, the extra strength version of APS's Concordia booster has around 1 million affirmations and they are repeated 1.8×e^4240 times per second.
    There is a huge debate whether layered and sped up subs still work. The mainstream understanding is that the subconscious can't process the affirmations anymore, and the subs therefore are useless. But there are many who are convinced that the subconscious does understand them and they therefore work.
    Here is an answer from the guy from APS (Absolute Power Subliminals) to someone asking him about that:
    " https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sensorium/201812/experiments-suggest-humans-can-directly-observe-the-quantum   [read that article!!]
     Experiments have shown that humans can possibly sense things on a quantum (super-small, generally pure vibrational or energetic) scale. If we can sense something, that means that it was processed by the subconscious mind meaning that the subconscious is capable of processing much more information than most people seem to realize. This would also contradict the commonly accepted belief that the subconscious is only capable of processing ~40 million pieces of information per second. Sound is formed by vibrations in the audible frequency range and vibrations are also energy. Energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed meaning that even with tons of layering and speeding the information carried by the sound isn't lost. The sound vibrations (and the information they carry) just get more and more compressed together. Subconscious reprogramming can also be called re-patterning. Re-patterning means that your subconscious patterns are being changed and this is done through repetition priming. The more you repeat the affirmations, the faster the subconscious patterns change which leads to changing your beliefs, thoughts, mindsets and everything else that makes you, you. This knowledge caused me to realize that affirmations can be sped up by a lot and still be effective, which is something I tested on myself for a while. I started feeling subliminals kick in faster the more times the affirmations were repeated. Subliminals don't normally kick in until the re-patterning is starting to happen which lead me to believe that the amount of repetitions per second directly correlates to the speed of re-patterning. Right now, I'm actually on a mission to figure out how many times the affirmations need to be repeated to make the subconscious fully re-pattern as quickly as possible. I've continued to speed and layer the Concordia booster after releasing it to the public and right now the version I'm using is at 4.4e3063 repetitions per second. It feels a lot stronger which means that I'm getting closer to figuring this out so I'm continuing to layer and speed further for as long as it takes to figure out exactly how many repetitions cause instant re-patterning. It won't be 100% accurate, of course, because the Concordia booster has over 1 million affirmations and subliminals with less affirmations probably won't need to be repeated as much but it will give me a general idea. I have a gut feeling that I'll only need to get the amount of repetitions to the X.Ye5000 range but the only way I'll know for sure is by testing that idea and it could take me a while to get there".
     
    Many people get results from sped up subliminals. Pretty much all the subs I listen to are sped up and layered, so all my results are from these subs. I doubt very much that it's purely placebo. 
    During the first weeks, I listened almost only to bundles (or at the same time through different means like apps). Usually 3-10 subs in one bundle. currently I listen around 50% solo and 50% bundles. Because i listen mainly to APS and I guess they are already layered enough lol (but he said most of them can be boundled further (those that don't contain codes)). And just to be safe, in case bundling them harms the quality in any way. Also, if you listen to only one sub, the affirmations are more focused.
    But I do recommend listening to bundles and layered subs, I believe it makes progress faster.
    - Beware when listening to subs at once:
    affirmations shouldn't clash/condradict each other. Like one sub for blue eyes and one sub for green eyes (yes, even stuff like eye color change is possible. But rather difficult. Yet there are people who manage it by using subs). In case they do clash, it just means that progress will be slowed down for these affirmations. The affirmations with more power will eventually succeed. don't bundle subs which have codes.  One sub with a code is fine, but not more. I believe APS always mentions codes in the description, if codes are used in the sub. If I remember right, for example Concordia has codes, while optimal reality, desired reality, multidimensional time booster and suggestibility have no codes. Some of Ataraxy's have codes too. Possibly all of them and it's just not mentioned, idk. If the subs are energetically programmed you might also consider not bundling them. For example Clockworkers recent subs. In the description it is made clear that they should not be bundled. As far as I know, APS subs are not energetically programmed, at least not in a way that prevents bundling them.  
     
    - 7.  Some good subs
    Imo, APS has the most poweful subliminals. Wabbajack and Ataraxy also have good subliminals. And Clockworker and Solar Subs also seem to have good ones. 
    There are basically two kind of subs. Booster subs and subs which address a specific goal/topic like for example lucid dreaming.
    The booster subs can be divided into theses categories:
    - Increase suggestability 
     
    - Booster
    The concordia booster could well be the most powerful sub on earth, haha. The stronger version of the Concordia booster: https://www.patreon.com/posts/extra-strength-41696554
     
    - Manifestation and ideal reality. 
     
    - subs for specific topics/goals
    Just search for the topic on youtube.
    I also listen to some of Ataraxy's subs that are only available on patreon. For example micro and the one that has the benefits of all the angel numbers.
     
     
    If you have any tips, experiences or questions, post them below!

  4. lucid dreaming incline bed
    Lucid dreaming on steroids!
    So I do a lot of layman health research and experimentation, I came across this thing called inclined bed therapy which is the idea that if one sleeps on an inclined surface it has all sorts of benefits for circulation, glymphatic system, back pain etc. This guy says there is archeological evidence that this is how all ancient egyptians slept and that they believed laying flat was synonymous with death.
    I slipped some books underneath the feet of the head of my bed and have been trying this for several months and noticed little if any health effects but what I did discover was that it reliably gave me unbelievably vivid, semi lucid dreams. every. single. night. I am lazy so Im not doing proper lucid dreaming protocol but if I was i'd be able to start a robust practice. dream recall after waking is very good with this.
    I think it has something to do with the position of the inner ear tricking the nervous system into thinking you're awake and walking around. I also suspect it could cause you to have less deep sleep which i worry about, although I am no less rested upon waking than if i werent inclined so who knows.
     
    the main point here is that I highly doubt any chemical or nootropic can illicit this reliable of response, it fundamentally changes your bodies relationship to gravity and therefore your nervous system. really interesting stuff, let me know what you guys think.

  5. kriya retreat
    Report from 7-Day Kriya Yoga Retreat at Home
    Hi there,
    TL;DR in bold.
    So I am just back from a solo meditation retreat. I wanted to go to Vipassana, but with all the surges in Covid cases in my country in the last weeks I had thought it might not be the brightest idea, so my room it is.
    It started out as a mixed Vipassana/Kriya retreat, but slowly evolved into Kriya-based one. Yes, I am no good at sticking to the plan. Typical INFP guy here.
    My Vipassana technique of choice was Shinzen Young's mindfulness with labeling, the "See, Hear, Feel" method. I like it more than the body scaning technique they teach at Goenka's Vipassana retreats. Shinzen Young is an inspiring person, too. It's thanks to him that I started to question if I am not undervaluing stuff like insight mediation and should give it more effort.
    My Kriya routine is (I have had almost a year of a gap in practicing it and I am just getting back on track since the 1st January, practicing daily):
    Preliminary Kriya Supreme Fire up to 20 minuntes Maha Mudra 3-12x SantataGamana's/Mukherjee's Kriya Pranayama with concentration at the Third-Eye 108-144x Self-Inquiry or concentration for 20-40 minutes at the end.  
    It takes up to 1 h 30 min to complete.
    For Kriya Supreme Fire I use Wim Hof-like technique of doing 30 short, sharp inhales and exhales to oxygenate the body, It's super easy to hit 1 min 30 s or 2 min that way. I remember that using this technique I was able to hold breath for 3 minutes in year 2019. So I think that I will switch to full Kriya Supreme Fire soon after the retreat.
    I had a problem with Vipassana. The problem was I had been constantly falling asleep and lucid dreaming or simply dreaming instead of actually meditating. So 2-hours meditation sit was effectively more like a 1-1.5 hour sit. I even had a dream of me meditating in one place and then after waking up I saw that I am in a completely different place. And I was like, "duh, why is it happening to me?"
    I know why, it's because I had constantly been laying on the floor with a straight back to give my legs and knees a rest, but it turns out I am godlike at falling asleep at completely flat, uncomfortable floors. But I had to, the knees got such a beating before I started this retreat (I went biking for the first time this year and kind of got carried away), that I didn't want to risk any injury.
    That's why I have switched to yoga only. You can't fall asleep doing yoga (probably, haha).
    Here is my schedule for the first 2 days:
    It's basically appropiated Goenka's Vipassana schedlue. I didn't know what I was doing when planning this up, just went with my mojo and put stuff in there. Too much physical exercise.
    I had set up timers on my phone to remind me of the schedule and put it into extra-battery saving mode.
    I then went to improve it for the next two days:
    This was better, but still not right. The lesson I have learned is that doing Kriya that close before sleep can make falling asleep more difficult, yet I haven't corrected it during this retreat.
    The schedule I sticked to the end of the retreat is such:
    Yup, that's 400-600 Kriya Pranayamas a day. But I think this was still ineffective use of time. If I had to start again, I would cut physical yoga asanas (Iyengar) to 1h maximum. Do more sessions of Kriya, aiming for 800-1000 a day, no psychedelics. I would also try to all the Pranayamas as early in the day as possible, to crowd them in the morning and early afternoon. That would be it for a Kriya-themed retreat.
    I will for sure experiment with other formats, like semi-retreat when I do yoga intensively in the morning and then go about the day as usual, work, etc., for a month. Or do 1-day intensives with 1728 pranyamas on Sundays, for example. 1728 x KP should take about ten hours, that's totally doable.
    If anything, I could have structured this retreat so that I had 1728 repetitions of pranayama per day, yet as I have said, I didn't really know what I was doing there, before this retreat I was doing only 72 x KP per day and didn't know if there's a limit. There is no limit, one can go on and on and practice. The biggest obstacle is finding an assana to sit/lay in for ten hours with a straight back. I have heard you can drink water during the practice, preferably with ghee, but that sounds like a hindu dogma to me, haha. I would try to do it in "one sitting" from 5AM to 4PM and then rest.
    What I am thankful to this retreat for is showing me the benefits of such a rigid time schedule. I think I will get serious about scheduling my normal days after this retreat in a similar manner. It's something I have never done really, but makes sitting down to do the practice super easy, because you are always well slept, nourished and at the right place when there's the time to practice.
    About the psychedelics, I have thought that with so much time on my hands it would be interesting to try different routes of administration for DPT. I don't recommend doing that on a retreat, it's just something I have been curious about and couldn't find a better time to do.
    So, vaping DPT freebase is easy, too easy. I have wasted like 200 mg because I didn't know how to vape. First, I have had problems with freebasing it, the stuff is a very sticky brownish oil and it's such a pain to manage. So after managing to put like 15 mg from the original 60 I have puffed it and felt threshold effects. After some time I tried to put a paste of DPT mixed with baking soda inside the vaporizer with a drop of water, it has worked, but the water was a problem, I had to carefully evaporate it at around 100C and don't know if that cooking hasn't destroyed some of the molecule. I don't know because when was about to take to take a puff from the vape, I forgot to empty my lungs. Before I have exhaled the air, the DPT has condensed on the glass and made everything dirty, I have only taken into lungs like 10% of the cloud and again felt light mood enchancement. That's when I gave up the method for now. Too much pain with freebasing it correctly and it leaves a smell in the room.
    So oral administration it is. I have taken 200 mg put into capsule and the other day 300 mg. It works, works like a charm. So far the best ROA for this compound IMO. I have bought my DPT at $8 a gram so I don't feel like it's too wasteful to eat that much of it for one and a half hour of tripping. 200 mg is an equivalent of 45 mg insufflated (+ intensity) and 300 mg is similar to 60 mg insufflated or 110 mg plugged (++ intensity, Shulgin's scale), but with no clogged sinuses, bad taste or bleeding from anus. At least with my metabolism. I was scared because of the reports of extra long trips, like 6-10 hours from this ROA on very high doses, but it seems to not be case, it's a standard for DPT 1.5 hour duration, although I can't be sure of what would happen at a higher dose. I don't know anything about tolerance, maybe my 300 mg trip had been weaker because of the tolerance, dunno. Takes about 40 minutes to load when taken in a capsule (might depend on the capsule you have got).
    What else I have been up to? Read SantataGamana's books, started Peter Ralston's The Book of Not-Knowing, indulged in the poetry of Ryokan and Rumi when had had a break from the meditation. Poetry totally recommended for a retreat, haha. Cooked some good food, worked on mindfulness in everyday activities, had a detox from the internet, video content, smartphone, messenger, etc.
    Results from the practice:
    Feeling of a stronger control over the mind and its urges. Slightly elevated baseline level of consciousness. It's not much, but noticable. Learned to do Kriya Yoga well better. Found comfortable sitting postures. Some calm, spontaneus kundalini activity throughout the day. Improved concetration skills. That's it, nothing fancy, no extraordinary experiences.
    Here are the sitting set-ups I recommend:

    1. For Maha Mudra and sitting with legs crossed/half-lotus. The tilt from the yoga block beneath is very useful and adds comfort by lowering the knees realatively to your hips.

    2. For additional comfort, put a blanket on top. It's good for cross-legged postion and sitting on your knees if you like to have knees close together and calfs apart.

    3. Put a zafu on the side to sit on your knees and have a support for you butt. This position is just as good as a zen sitting bench or maybe even better. You can put a stiff blanket on top to make it higher, but it has to be stiff, it can't be a soft one, because otherwise you will be sliding to the sides and forwards/backwards.
    That's all I have had to share, much love and peace.