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@Wilhelm44 I talked about this earlier, being God in essence is different from being a living God. You have human limitations and if you repeat that you are God too much, you get a God complex, when you can't even pay your bills, can't make a pen float, don't even have a small level of intelligence compared to the infinite knowledge of God, because you can only see from your eyes, not from the eyes of some other human or some alien or whatever. So saying your God can easily lead to spiritual narcissism. Having less ego means also admitting you have an ego, body, mind and are limited by that till it dies, your not even close to being God, forget about what you are in essence, you are in this life very much limited, maybe maybe if your body dies can you say your God truely as you come truely back to yourself, but then there is no one to say it or speak it or to say "I am God" as that person/body/mind/ego whatever you want to call it is dead, not fake spiritual death, but REAL death, mahasamadhi.

@Wilhelm44 oh yeah I think I saw that documentary before. If you go too far into spirituality, you realise everything wrong about the spiritual community, like Bentinho aswell as spiritual narcissism everywhere, where people think they are better then God itself, you're not fucking God, your human... I might go all in on dismantling all the spiritual bs that is being taught. So it makes sense he went into exposing cults.

@Wilhelm44 director of what?

As artists we love to improvise, we feel its the purest form of art, in the moment expressing what you feel. The only problem with improvisation is that it is not gonna come off professional and will not be appreciated by the general public. This is something to be understood very clearly. If you want to be a great artist, performer, you must have a show that has been practiced a 1000 times. If it involves speaking you would have to know what you say before you say it, if its movements, dancing, juggling I don´t care what it is, you must have practiced the exact thing you perform atleast a 1000 times and even that is not good enough, because now you have only practiced it in front of a mirror, you should perform it in real life on open mics or different places. To be great, to be the best, you got to practice even when you think you got it, Michael Jackson could probably do a show without any practice yet he never stopped practicing, because he didn´t wanted to be good, he wanted to be the best. This is why most artists fail, they fail, because they are not professional, they improvise, they just do some random stuff, nothing is thought through deeply, nothing has been practiced for long enough and mastered. A great mentor of mine told me its better to have a short performance of 15 mins that is really great then an hour or half an hour of just good. You don´t want good, you want the best, you want excellence and that comes with practice. You might judge what I say here, but look at the movies you watch!? These are with the best actors who practiced their art, practiced the script, its all prepared, nothing is improvised and all you never watch any improvised movie. You don't pay to go to a concert, to watch someone improvise, Beyonce knows exactly what she has to do, she practiced and rehearsed it a 1000 times, aswell as the whole team of dancers who know and learned the chorography. They practiced for months before even going on stage. So this is for any artist, if you want to go to the next level, you got to do better, meaning you got to work on one performance, one piece of art, not 10 not 20, focus on one thing, do it really really well, master it. Look where it could be improved even in the slightest ways. This is how you will become great, with improvisation you will maybe feel more connected to your art, but you won't have mastered it. In my performance I have mastered it, and there are still levels higher for me to go, it never ends. But with this good of a show I am confident to promote, sell or market it. How can you be confident about something you have never done before? How can you be confident in your improvisation skills? The biggest people I know in any creative industry put in the hours, put in the work, to really master a few things instead of doing a bunch of stuff only with half effort. The greatest artists release an album only once in a couple of years, not to forget that the greatest artists have all the money, resources that you don't have, also they have much more time to work on it then you have, so if your a musician you would have to put in the double the work the people on the top put into it. And to end it on this note, I think what I would ask you is how serious are you about this? If you take your art serious, you should want to share it with the general public, but therefor also consider that they are not gonna resonate with improvised shows, music or any piece of art. People love professionals, professionals get paid and the aspiring artist will live broke, because they never adapt, they always remain idealistic, when I started persuing art I never wanted to be broke, so I adapted, I stopped believing that people just need to like whatever I do, because they don't. Everyone can make a youtube video with 1 view, how many can truely put in the work to make a successful video? Its not luck, its not talent, its work, practice, scripting and rehearsing, trying and failing. A few succeed, because only a few are willing to do what it takes. Blame yourself for how far you have made it, take responsibility and only then will you improve.

So I have been thinking about cycles a lot. Cycle being a momentum loop. For example, you talk to one person, then another, at the end of the day you talked to many people and are in a social flow. Or you focus on work, and you focus more and more and now your in a work flow and it increases every hour. So I wanted to look at the cycles that are running poverty. Poverty should be a cycle as well, complaining, not changing, trying too hard to get out of poverty, but it reaffirming that you are poor. So no matter what you do, everything leads to poverty in a poverty cycle, atleast that is what I believe, be free to give your opinion. Now meditation or healing and shadow work leads us to a 0 point. That is not an abundance cycle, but atleast it is not a poverty cycle. So meditation gets us to 0, just like sleeping, there is no thoughts or actions taken. Now what would an abundant cycle look like? Well first of all this cycle would confirm I am rich. So in that sense consequences, outcomes, goals or even fears about loss or something to be lost are out of the window. If you take action from there it is like a game, a game feels like there are no risks, you take action more and think less, you deal with the problems and solve them, you take responsibility, but from a playful standpoint. As if you got to solve a puzzle, like solving a Sudoku. Solving a sudoku doesn't bring you fear, but solving problems bring fear, because you have the idea that something is wrong with having problems, something is wrong with risks not working out. So abundance is bold, takes action, doesn't think, fearless, playful, non serious, because there is no holding on and it is not here to gain or preserve what is gained, it sees solutions in every problem, opportunities in every dead end, optimism in the face of negativity, there is endless energy, that equals endless action, bold/risky/fearless/playful action, that equals abundance. My thoughts are very fresh on this, but I think this is a very interesting thought and have been thinking about this for hours so wanted to share it on here and hear from you guys.

@Sugarcoat I don´t think I will see her again and also I hided her name or profile picture. Now if it was a very deep convo it would be a bit weird, but this is more like a surface level convo. So I am not sharing much of her, but I might delete it at some point tho... This is my first time sharing stuff like this online so I don´t know how its like meeting her after sharing texts online, can´t tell...

@Raze yes a few times that has worked for me, but not all the time

I have this thing happen from time to time. In the beginning I had it more then now, but still sometimes I have negative social momentum. Like a downward spiral of rejections and then I just know when it affects me and makes me get into a rejection cycle. Now I don´t really mind, because I know if I take a break or try another day, I will be able to activate positive social momentum. Positive or negative is not per say about getting rejected or not, but sometimes too many rejections can get me in a downward spiral and there is almost nothing I can do in that moment to get out of it. Now a few times I kept going and with laughter and taking it less serious, it kinda got better in the momement, but I wonder if this ever happens to you and how you deal with it when it occurs?

@Sugarcoat hahAHA

@Godhead yes, I think that was or is my pitfall, thanks

@PsychedelicEagle thank you, that makes a lot more sense

@PsychedelicEagle so you do 0 flirting just straight up `when are you free?` and setting the date?

@something_else thank you for explaining, maybe a balance is necessary between flirting and getting to the logistical part of setting the date?

@Butters You sound like a typical internet troll, you're just having opinions for the sake of reactions.

I am noticing in my work energy is so important so I have been taking a good look at what is actually wasting energy. Sometimes I sleep more, sometimes I relax intentionally and even if I have a bit more energy that way, it isn't the energy that makes me feel vital and alive. So what I am starting to really think about is the importance of balance, going from one state of an emotion like anger to more the opposite force, like peace or whatever the opposite of anger is. Also being in flow state for the sake of energy. For example, when your in flow there is no force therefor very energetically efficient, your basically present to the moment, but instead of being present in inaction (meditation) flow state feels like energy and allignment that is active, what in my opinion is more important then meditation. Also not being super restricted, like drinking a cup of coffee in a coffeeshop doesn't cost much, but I am so disciplined with my money that I restrict myself from experiencing simple stuff that is enjoyable and peaceful. Getting a coffee and reading a book in a coffeeshop makes me at peace and in allignment or going to a cool museum, but yet I never do it. So not restricting money too much, enjoying things in life feels important also with things that cost a little bit of money. And lastly I would say not being too disciplined or using force in general, being more in a flow state, initial force to get into a flow state is different than putting out effort throughout the whole day into everything you do. If you have any other ideas, let me know. I hope it helps someone.

@Sugarcoat now everything makes sense lol

@museumoftrees thanks

@LordFall makes sense, thank you

@Ulax hahaha I already know this forum will give less toxic advice then the other forums

@PsychedelicEagle appreciate it

What is your form of healing? What I do is kinda weird lol. I spend my time focusing on something that maybe makes me emotional, angry or hurt. Then I cry it all out with some loud music on or dance it all lose. At the end I get quiet and meditate, I feel for me this is my most natural way to release heavy emotions or heavy stuff I have been carrying. Doesn't mean I do this everyday, actually I am taking this time this week to specifically work on some stuff I need to process and doing some inner work and letting allot of tears flow, I know as men your not supposed to cry, but call me a bitch then. I don't want to walk with hurt and pain throughout my life. What do you do to heal from things that happened in your life or are happening in your life? Would love to hear from you. Thank you and also maybe this helps someone find a way to release (PS I also meditate before, so before and after listening to loud music and feeling the emotions and letting it all out)

@Hojo you mean she is not showing active interest?

@aurum yeah from a cold approach

@Leo Gura Evil is a bit of an exaggeration, but there is definitely some form of good vs bad in a world where things are seperate, unity is when your dead, aslong as your alive you will live with duality, just cause in essence your God, doesn´t mean you are so smart as the universe, we can´t even move a pen with our mind, we are retard monkeys, not Gods, we can´t even percieve life from another perspective, only be aware of this body and this mind, so we are actually infinitely stupid compared to the universe.

@Wilhelm44 I think we learn to never put anyone on a pedestal and think for ourselves, these apes are not to be trusted, thats why its called monkey mind lol.