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one of my professors told us that if you dont want hemmoroids ever to stand up and walk a minute or two every 20 minutes during work/studying periods Its quite likely that lot of them do have hemmoroids tho standing shoulld seem fine, but dont over do it. More than an hour can lead to joint and circulation problems

@loub i hate it too, especially the way he formatted it, the pale beige background and slim gray font makes my eyes strain so hard. I havent read the original and this one im not done with, but from what ive seen the updated one is twice its size (800pages vs 400 pages) and i think its more valuable to get the newer one, since he got more insights and seen mistakes that his earlier book didnt address

thank you!!

i would add phosphatidylcholine as one of the top ones. And remove caffiene. I know caffiene is a always a tricky subject but i do know people who are on autoimmune diet need to remove caffeine from their consumption to heal properly and thats enough said for me how it works. I feel too jittery after i take it too also keep in mind that always look for the source where to find the drug naturally than in supplements. It is proven over and over agin in studies that people get more of the supplement absorbed into the bloodstream by taking the food source rather than supplement. Supplement is always last resort. CoQ10 is ahMAZungg for the heart and funnily enough, the food source with the highest amount is... the heart!!. i eat chicken hearts, and try to do it weekly to get it in. Also amazing for doggies. Beef heart has the most, but im scared, beef organs taste...intense

meditation yesterday and today was riddled with thoughts wavering around but i did manage to get some points of high concentration. I dont want to admit this but everytime my boyfriend is upset about something, my concentration power goes with the wind. I need to learn to stop obsessing over the relationship adn instead just observe and be present. Breathe and notice what my reactions are. Today at the grocery store i was crouching into my usual sense of fear when i noticed people were looking at me longer than id like them to. I was on the verge of acting grumpy and angry but i caught myself and started taking slower, deeper breaths and just was. I just observed my reactions and the environment around me, mindfully, and i calmed down and felt much better. WHen im in the present moment, the whole perception changes vs my usual thought stories

Here are two done recently, the first is a sketch i did about how i felt during my very first meditation i ever did (5 and a half years ago) when i had a strange experience of my mind expanding. The second is an acrylic painting copy i did from a digital picture i found on devianart that really inspired me, based on the video game Journey Heres the link for the original: https://www.deviantart.com/immp/art/I-was-born-for-this-357732391

Why do spiritually advanced people still get cancer and sickness? How does one prove spiritual experiences is not just a phenomenon from mental illness like schizophrenia? If siddhis and ghosts (the paranormal) exist, why isnt there scientific proof of them?

@Leo Gura i think it would be interesting, not sure if its been asked before

@Freakyboo I looked online and you once one person recommended someone, you cant add the same name again, which is stupid because then you cant tell who people want to the most.@okulele ah didnt know that!

Meditation today INCREDIBLE concentration is getting stronger and more fluid, this is so ridiculous in a such good way. I cant believe it. After i finished i was in such a happy state. Im wary of saying bliss because i have a feeling thats a level above happiness. But for about an hour and a half after todays morning session (25 minutes), my energy levels were high, i was all smiles. I have to remember tho that TRUE happiness is independent of whats going on around you. True happiness is when you feel happy even though your stressed, sad, grumpy, or things dont go your way. I dont have experience on this yet so i wont dwell too much on it. I dont know if i mentioned that i bumped my sessions from 20 min to 25. Yesterday and today sessions seemed to go by soo quickly, which i geuss is a side product of improvement? I am started to enjoy meditation thoroughly and im sooo happy im sticking with it ahhhhh. I feel like i just tasted the very tip of benefits of meditation. If i achieved this at only a few weeks, i cant imagine what advanced meditators experience on the daily. And if according to some people here, advanced meditators only have a taste of what reality is, i cant even fathom how deep it goes. But baby steps.

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2 days later yesterday i had the most strange meditation experience, where i immediatley went into one of my strongest concentration flows, i actually was conscious how the sounds of crickets faded to a distance, as my mind put its attention on following the breath. It was like when you slowly turn down the volume on a stereo. As this continued, i felt as if time has slowed down a lot, and the thought of when this is over was not appealing to me. I felt like i could be in that state forever. But then, the fear came. It came super strongly as a giant wave that washed over me. I knew that i need to ignore all phenomena and just focus on the breath. It worked sometimes, but the fear usually won. I also started getting paranoia. I know that its feeligns of when my soul was hurt and instead of resisting and hiding away i need to embrace and let go. During the meditation i thoguht about "what if this happens to me during a psychedelic trip"? i know in meditation i could just stop when it gets too intense and walk away, but with psychdelics, your in it and theres no escape. I plan to try mushrooms soon <3 i got the most crazy signs around me to try them and so i wont ignore them. I think this is good that i had this experience, because i can now better be prepared for when i try them, and now know the value of learning how to surrender and let go. After my meditation, i felt scared and worried, but also more grateful for life. And felt a few inches taller. i watched a good video on why do fearful feelings and images manifest sometimes and ill post it here Todays session the concentration was ok, not like yesterday. The thing that interuppted me the most was my runny nose! and blowing in a tissue every few minutes didnt help either, so i should look into neti pot-ing.

I just had one that was filled with the feeling of fear looming all over me constantly, with thoughts of the worse that could occur. Strangely it occured during my deepest meditation session yet. Tried my best to ignore and put in my all into concentrating on the breath, which worked for a 10-15 second increments. After it ended i felt weird, as if i suddenty grew a few inches taller, and as if my perspective on the world around me slightly shifted

thanks guys <3 i feel calmer already @SunnyNewDay pretty ok, sometimes i can get anxious, especially socially, or paranoid for a few minutes. Just never had this intense feeling of fear, i felt my neck get heavy and then was scared that was some sort of sign that somethings going to happen, since meditation is metaphysical haha. Im doing lots of emotional work now, but started just a week ago @OctagonOctopus that is true, hard pill to swallow but true. I think i started getting lost in it, because i thought it something bad is going to happen, but detaching from associating them is really hard, well not detach in a sense to ignore and hope it goes away, but detach like not identify with them. I will try to be more present with the feeling

@herghly i know people have to fill out some form to recommend someone for BATGAP, but apparently hes already on the list

How do you guys balance pursuing ideals/having goals in spirituality and not getting caught up in them? Because when we pursue a goal, we see that we want an image that is not occurring in our current reality, and this leads us to getting in a state of feeling dissappointment which leads to suffering/emptiness. If i hold no goals, then i wont have expectation, and wont have dissappointment and less suffering. But i wont go anywhere, it will be super hard to progress, it would takes decades to move a few steps forward. If i hold goals, i can progress, but holding goals in spirituality isnt the same in something else like fitness or school.

@WelcometoReality exactly! gotta dive deep haha but what if when we uncover the true reason we go after enlightenment ( to felel better about ourselves etc) do we leave the goal?? to we find a new approach to fufill that need, try to devise another reason that isnt ego derived? @Serotoninluv thank you <3

DAY 20/21->finished I am now entering Stage 2 of the 10 stages of meditation and its harder for me than stage one, even tho the book says supposedly stage one is the hardest. Fully focusing onto the breath today proved to be difficult I am becoming more mindful throughout the day, and seeing just how much my fantasies and all of my programmed feelings and fears pop up and weave throughout my day. I am seeing how much i put myself down, even in the tiniest tinyiest ways. I make assumptions before even interacting with someone how they will react to me, whats their personality, what the overall "air" will be like. I think its because i had one or two bad interactions with a certain type of character and now i assume it will be the same for everyone else i meet that has that same characteristic. Im closing my experience into a tiny tiny window that i have become aware of just now. I was swimming in the sea and noticed how the ripples on the top make it so you cant see the reflection and remembered the pond analogy of enlightenment. The water will reflect perfectly the Truth only if the surface is utterly still, one movement and it becomes fuzzy. The more still it becomes, the more you can get a taste of the Truth. I then moved my heads underneath the surface and deep ripples in crazy patterns were created. What created these ripples that arent seen from the surface but lurk underwater, in the deep? I believe this could be seen as the assumptions and beliefs i have, and thoughts are the tiny ripples that happen when drops from the surface come down. I thought that thoughts were the main problem, thats all i could clearly see, but its the sneaky things that are from the deep that create the messiest waves. I was drinking coffee in my backyard and let go of all things i hold as "me". I let go of my self-image, of thoughts, judgements, whatever, and got a lovely feeling of warmth around the heart area. Maybe theres is something to this work. But doing this work is so exhausting. Its changing the way i live, nothing gets bigger than that I grab my phone and refresh pages day in day out, why? what does it mean? yes i follow conscious pages but in the end its depriving me of seeing now for now. I vow to listen to the presence, there is only wisdom that can be learned only in presence. I want to feeeeell every emotion deeply, and to not deny myself of myself. To deny sensations just because an invisible wall called society's rules was made up someone and adopted by everyone, based completely on imagination. The only people inhibiting us is us. I want to say more but my head hurts from trying to unravel as much as i can Im gonna go take a nap

the beauty of the Journey <3 Amen

@Enlightened Yogananda is probably the best example of being born with spiritual gifts its true definitley, but i dont think its a measure of how successful youll be in your spiritual path, take the two most welll-known enlightened as fuck people. Jesus and Buddha. Jesus was born with a spiritual talent from his very birth, Buddha was materialistic prince until he left the palace. But Buddha still got enlightened to crazy crazy levels of consciousness

Lost count of days, i think its DAY 19? but basically did it daily except for 2 days where it was *nearly* impossible to do. The days that i didnt do it i was so upset and really missed having my daily practice, its begun to center me for the day, especially when i do it first thing in the morning. I have finalllyyy begun to consistently in every session get into that mode of concentration that i believe leo calls "access concentration". Which made me realize how much i dont like that video now, because i think he teaches concentration in the wrong way. His intention was good probably, but leo insisted that you concentrate as hard as possible for a short time and only advance until you can 100% cleanly get through the 2 min, which for beginners is nearly impossible to do, and would take maybe even a year to get passed that stage, making most people give up and think their incompetent for meditation. Which i was on the verge of. Culadasa's method of gently easing into concentration, rather than forcing it, puts the pressure off of achieving something, and thus makes it easier to achieve it.

DAY 7: done, 1 week streak DAY 8: done at beach, horrible couldnt even once concentrate because people everywhere, my boyfriend was with me and so i feel for some reason some extra pressure that i give myself for no reason, and music from this club was blasted loudly (yes, at 9 in the morning) Day 9: done, pretty good. when im surronded in the right setting, i can remember pretty quickly to switch back to focus. I mean its only been 9 days, so i shouldnt expect any growth now, its just the beginning and expectations shouldnt be prioritized. Im getting lazy around the whole sleep early wake early but tonight ill retry again. No more adding habits until ive established a meditation practice and a good sleep cycle. Currently finishing up Ralstons book, probably should look into buying a journal to write out exercises in his book.

there is a documentary called "Call of the Forest" that is currently free until July 15th on the link below. Thought some of you might like it. The past few days ive been getting nonstop tree wisdom hints and i feel like im getting called by them. To think i walk pass them everyday, not aware that the single reason any of this exists is due to their presence. Imagine no trees...no forum, no internet, no cities, no houses, no humans. Sounds hippie-ish but thank a tree haha. The last few minutes of the documentary is mentioned that if every human being planted a NATIVE tree in a native space once a year for 6 years straight, climate change /global warming would not be an issue. https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2019/07/13/call-of-the-forest-documentary.aspx

@Natasha thanks for the video, loved it <3 @OctagonOctopus your very welcome @Serotoninluv ha! interesting, yesterday i was at the beach and found a tiny sea snail's shell that had the most beautiful Mother of Pearl lining inside, usually i take such things home with me, but something told me to leave it be. Children are amazing and we can learn so much from them. I used to hike up Kennesaw mountain and just observe the trees standing on the steep slopes, and id get some weird mix of energy and peacefulness

its like the analogy of the 5 blind men touching an elephant in different areas. Elephant represents truth. One is at the tusk, another at the ear, another at the tail, one at the belly, another at the leg(or trunk?). The one at the ear says the elephant (truth) is like a leaf. One at the tusk says its like a spear. One at the leg/trunk says its like a tree. One at the belly says its like a wall. One at the tail says its like a rope. The Elephant is all of them