28 cm unbuffed

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  1. Hi guys! I'm at the stage of my life when I'm working hard on my money issues, career so that these things will help me to boost my life purpose in the future. One of my routines is psilocybin microdosing (0.5g every 3 days). Psylocibin gives me great insights about my future (it's like feeling the energy telling me where should I go next and what to focus on), healing my traumas, and more holistic thinking. There is one problem though - it makes me ungrounded. I want to stick with it because I can see how it does wonders with my brain and it helps me to achieve my goals with lesser effort and I became a lot more long-term thinker thanks to them. But they make my brain really chaotic and there are a lot of things happening at once in my head. I can't really handle it while doing my everyday mundane stuff at the same time. I heard about walking on grass barefoot works, but I want something more practical, that I can do everywhere, anytime. Meditation helps a little but I was curious about some other methods or any advice in that manner. Thank you for your help in advance!
  2. @OctagonOctopus Yeah, you're probably right. It's tricky because I had a spiritual awakening like 2 years ago and these insights were all like in a perfect time and they were all synchronicities. Awakening was like getting false beliefs and layers of lies from me and it was all these micro trips were crucial for my development. Not sure if I want to quit it altogether, as I'm not sure if the process is done, I will get down to 0.4, maybe 0.3 g per day. Thank you for your advice. @Charlotte I think I should get back to meditating more, as it is a powerful meta-skill, but still - my consciousness is at the level right now where I am meditating like all the time, doing stuff, it's like life is controlling my body and observing my mind all the time.
  3. @mandyjw Yeah, that sounds like a good idea, but I'm already way too slim and I need to gain some weight and muscle, that's why I prefer the gym for now. @OctagonOctopus It's tricky to get the dosage right, it really depends - sometimes 0.5 is like a medium trip dose, sometimes it's like nothing. And it's only like once every 3 days, because of tolerance. What I want to say is that I don't know if 0.2 will do anything useful for me and my goals. It's not about the "feeling good" effect - it's about getting gradual insights, connecting the neurotransmitters in my brain to use its full potential, and achieving my goals faster, smarter. @EmptyVase I guess, getting into the "doing" state is a good answer, the thing is - I need to learn a lot right now, I do all of the necessary stuff in the meantime, and what I need the most is being grounded and focused so I can learn. @Recursoinominado I stopped smoking weed because I feel like they made me "dumb" in a sense. But yeah, they gave me tons of insights and showed me my negative beliefs so I acknowledge their usefulness. Not sure if I want to stop microdosing altogether - it really works wonders, shrooms are like a mentor (Golden Teacher kind huh. It's amazing how it works, I just need to balance it out.
  4. @asifarahim Yo, I think that's a stage, I've been through a similar shit too. It will last for some time. It's called dark night of the soul, you lose all of the interest in life, then there is a rebirth stage, then hustling again. It's like getting prepared for another level of consciousness. Also - watch Leo's episode about nihilism, I think that might help All of the best!
  5. I'm on a stage on my journey, where I want to go full stage orange stuff. Pickup, money, starting my own business and stuff. I want to build a website for my bussiness - where I will have a blog, where I'll post something everyday, including Spotify song link, mirroring my mood. I also want to get involved into aesthetics bodybuilding, photography, drawing and video making + create a forum, something like Actualized.org. My main interest is and always was self-development, I just want to do it da Vinci way - develop myself creating arts - as much creative output as possible. This website would be something like Leo's site let's say - so it has to include blog, forum, store (not sure yet, what I'm going to sell tbh), and it should be of course connected to my Youtube channel as well. My question is - what is the best option, to build a website like that from scratch nowadays? I checked Wix and Squarespace already, but I'm open for any other recommendations. Thanks in advance, love.
  6. @Onecirrus Move out from you parents. Find a better job / start your own bussiness.
  7. I saw a video of this guy trying this: But he seems to be a lil' bitch and he explains, in the end, with all of the excuses why it's not possible, after trying it for a short period of time. What you have to do (if you really desire it) is to try it out in the real world, there is no other answer really. Everyone is different and works in other ways than you are. You might want to check out your circadian rhythm, and then try to adjust it to your work hours, try out some variations and see what works and what's not. We can't really help with that you as we are not you (in a relative sense of course :P)
  8. I know it sounds dumb, but I just can't force myself into programming. It's something I was doing for 2 years, yet I left this job to take a break in life in general and rethink my motives and what do I want to do going further. I'm feeling lost. I know it's a lot smarter way to go about my purpose too - move to a big city, earn more money, with an easy, comfortable job, it all makes perfect sense, yet, I just cannot force myself to do it. I was like - ok, maybe this is a sign, that I shouldn't do it and find something else, but I lost too much time already. I feel like maybe there's some inner conflict, but I really cannot find any. Another thing I was thinking about was "being afraid of leaving survival mode" and start thriving and it's on a subconscious level. Or maybe I'm just procrastinating and deluding myself (don't think so, I'm a pretty productive person and I do a lot of stuff every day, but maybe..). It's like my 3rd or fourth attempt over this year to force myself into learning programming and finding a job again in this industry, but I just fucking can't. It's frustrating as fuck. And my current job is even more fucking frustrating. I'm lost, please help.
  9. @impulse9 K, got it, hustlin', thank you
  10. @impulse9 I think I can, I really enjoy getting into zone and "thinking without thinking" state, solving problems. It's just technical stuff, names, labels, etc., that bores me, but hey - there is no perfect job.
  11. @Nahm This is really great and you just showed me, there is still a lot of work to do on this behalf (even tho I thought I'm flowing through life pretty easily and effortlessly). I understand what you're saying and I'll just allow it all to unfold for me. Thank you!
  12. @Flowerfaeiry Thank you for your advice. It's not really injured or anything like that, it's like at one moment I felt a lot of anger and wanted to get rid of that emotion and "use" it on someone, and in the next moment, I stopped myself thinking about what the consequences of that action might be. I think that could create some kind of tension in my arm, that persists and is still in there. I will for sure try some kind of exercises, thank you for your kind answer
  13. Hey guys ? A year + ago I got confronted with a tough situation, basically, I got brainwashed and triggered to do something which finally I didn't do. And thank God I didn't do it. It was really tough on an emotional level, I really had to ground myself and balance my emotions and mature up as a man, to just fucking chill and to control myself and become disciplined about my emotions and triggers. Now, after all of this is over there is one problem, that remains. There is energy stuck in my fist/wrist, which causes multiple thought patterns in my mind of which I'm aware of. Yesterday I finished reading "Letting Go" by Dr. David Hawkins and I understand the energies that are getting me into my old reality and thinking paradigm and I want to let them go (lust and anger). But even after reading the whole book, I'm not sure what the method is lol ? From what I understood, it's seeing an emotion, becoming aware of it, and just let it be. Are there any other practical things that can help me to get rid of that energy from my body? It's killing me and I am sick and tired of that shit. Thank you ?
  14. Hey guys. First of all, I would like to share with you my background. I'm a single child, raised only by my mother, who is a narcissist. As you may realize, that caused a lot of damage to my psyche. I wasn't unaware of my true value and felt like shit for almost my whole life, until my spiritual awakening. but still - there are some unresolved issues and one of them is unworthiness. Not sure how to go about it, really. Whatever I did, whatever I achieved it is still there. 3 steps forward to then make 3 steps backward. And I'm not saying about life and self-development in general here. I am aware that's how it works. But here it's different - every time I make some kind of progress I get to this barrier, this invisible wall that I can't get through. Over and over again. I reached perfection in whatever area of my life I wanted to improve and yet - it persists, It just sucks me back in the black hole of feeling like shit, self-sabotage, you name it. I am aware, that it might be caused by some situation in my life, where I made an assumption about myself, some kind of trauma that made me think about myself that way. But I can't get to the root cause of it. I'm sick and tired of all of it - I feel like a hamster in a hamster wheel, repeating the same process over and over again without any result whatsoever.
  15. @Javfly33 Yeah, psychedelics is something I use for my growth and will for sure address that issue too using them. About thoughts - I'm not sure, maybe I'm not even aware of them, most of the times I find myself looking for some escape mechanisms, like smoking, shopping, binge eating, when there is something important to do. And it's not just out of procastrination, as I am really productive and disciplined person overall. It is usually connected to earthly things, like material stuff. It's weird, as these things should be my first and main concern.
  16. @JonasVE12 Thank you a lot mate, I will for sure read that book.
  17. @JonasVE12 Thank you a lot mate, I will for sure read that one.
  18. @JonasVE12 I heard about that book and Dawking's work in general. How would you go about this work in practice? What are the methods to reach DA FREEDOM? I'm doing a lot of habits every day and I wonder what would you as this emotional release practice. Thank you in advance.
  19. @JonasVE12 Hey man, thank you for your answer, you seem like a really great guy. That's a lot of information and effort for a stranger on a forum. Thank you. About my life purpose - I want to grow my YouTube channel, I am looking for a 9-5 high-paying job that will help me to make a transition towards my purpose. By getting into the flow and following higher guidance I got job positions that are more and more aligned to what I want to do, which I find fulfilling, and I already somehow managed to achieve what you are talking about in your post - to get as much as possible from the job I currently do, to use it later in my purpose - work ethics, excellence, discipline, etc. There is only one thing that is pulling me back over and over again and really cock blocks my progress, I made a topic about that just a second ago, maybe you can relate. A whole bunch of self-sabotages mechanisms come from that one only. Still didn't find a root cause and it took years of my life away already.
  20. @JonasVE12 Yo, what you're saying makes sense. It's a lot more difficult to focus on something that you don't like doing, as doing what you have to do is just unnatural. Yet, this life is what it is and we sometimes have to do things that we hate, just out of pure survival. What would you suggest to make yourself more focused and disciplined to actually do the necessary stuff, that you have to do (like work that you really hate, but will get you money, that you need to follow your purpose and promote your business)? I find myself really fucking frustrated and mad sometimes, it's hard to balance this stuff. PS. When it comes to diet, exercise, habits in general, etc. - I've done it all, yet that's not enough. Not sure what it is, maybe some kind of inner conflict, like I feel that I'm selling my soul and that drives me crazy.
  21. You might know something and even understand it conceptually but still, it's not full knowing in my opinion. Sometimes you have to experience something to really know know something. It's like a feeling, confidence in something, just-rightness, something like that. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kUK67HP8PvY It's like - you JUST KNOW when you know something. There is no doubt then.
  22. @habed345 Yup, that's what I've heard too. Don't get too cocky tho and start will small dosages in the beginning. Be patient and trust that results will unfold naturally.
  23. I would say it's good for reaching your goals as it rewires your brain and creates a lot of new neural connections which open your mind. This might be the way to reach higher states of consciousness too, as you become more open-minded, more empathic, and loving in the process, as you understand more and more about reality and yourself throughout the process. It's a wiser, step-by-step way to get to the higher states and that's something I use myself. Highly recommend that. I tried with big, heroic doses in past and they can ruin your life because they bring a lot of chaos that you cannot control at one point. 1% change every day is something that will get you to your results, counterintuitively even faster, as there are fewer ego backlashes in the process. If you are into spirituality read about the path of wisdom (masculine way) vs the path of love (feminine way) - they are both equally valid ways that can get you to higher and higher states. The feminine way is faster but also more traumatic. On the practical side - you have to really find your sweet spot, as it can really disrupt your reality in a negative way when used irresponsibly. Experiment as much as possible, try different dosages at different times, on empty stomach and after eating something, etc. I would say it's one of the best tools on your path, comparable to yoga and meditation. PM me, if you'll have any further questions. Good luck!
  24. Read 48 rules of power, there are some good points, fuck Machiavellism tho
  25. @ivankiss Yeah, ok, you're right. Hunger in Africa is fucked up too. What is the purpose of this topic again?