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@Pras Great job dude and a lot of courage from you! Keep doing what you love, good luck

http://cbmeditates.com/blog-post/2017/1/23/tantra-vs-yoga-which-spiritual-path-is-right-for-you Hey, what do you think guys? What path did you choose for yourself? How do you know which one is right for you? I feel like being in the middle (like between let's say Leo Gura and Frank Yang path). I know it's not like generalization, that I should always follow first one and never the other. But any tips about that topic would be fucking great.

So - first of all - what do you guys think about all of this "twin flame" thing. I think I just found "my" twin flame and I will have some further questions about that. So, basically, I'm 28 now and I only had one girlfriend in my life. My dating life was basically fucked by my unhealthy relationship with my mother, check out : So the coach guy I was talking to told me, that if you met your Twin Flame every other relationship will just create negative karma, not fullfill you and you will just repeat the circle of wanting to get back to your flame again and again. I'm thinking if it is really that way, I was in just one relationship in my life and I would love to try something even before getting into this "final one" with my Twin Flame. I also would love to get better with girls and I'm just thinking - how to do this without "creating negative karma" that will pull her away from me.

Hey, let me share my story with you first, to then I'll go to the problem. When I was about 3-5 years old (I don't remember it at all), my mother ran away from my father, who was an alcoholic. I loved my mother a lot as a child and she always wanted the best for me, but after some years, when i got into maturation process i started to become more and more rebelious and arguing a lot with her. I always thought it's something normal (and it partly is), but this problem came back to me. I was having a conversation with a coach (an astrologer), who's story is really similar to mine. He read in my birt chart, that I have some serious emotional problems related to home and that this may be the problem (inner child-me doesn't want to forgive my mother that she left my dad). It really makes sense, and it's a thing that's in my head for some time now and I want to get rid of this problem forever. I was reading something about it in "Iron Jon" and even Carl Jung, who called it "Anima" part of a man, and battle for deliverance from the Mother, but I still didn't embody it. This astrologer guy told me to pray to Holy Mary/Mother and that it will bring some insights about what to do next. So I started doing about 10 minutes of "affirmation" everyday ("I let go of grudge towards my mother"), but I'm not sure if that's the right way to do it (I want to do the prayer pragmatically, scientifically, and I still didn't find "my way" to do it). I also started doing some exercises that open you up to emotions and traumas (they basically remove tension from belly and chest and change vibrations in this places). I also heard phrase - "the guy who loves his mother is loved by all the women" which really makes sense in my situation. I'm a handsome, smart dude but somehow I had only one girfriend in my life and it ended up really bad. There was a part in my life when I became really misogynistic and I fell like subconcioussly it's still there. So - if any of you had similar problem and would like to share how he overcame it - I would be more than grateful. Peace

So - about prayer - i just watched Russell Brand's video and he mentions that his everyday routine consists of meditation, exercise, cold exposure and prayer. What do you guys think about it and do you practice prayer? What kind of and how do you practice it and what does it give you/ how it changes your life? Like - i'm looking for some kind of rational, analitycal answer for a thing that is probably not rational at all, but still - i just want my mind to grasp it to make it more practical. How to do it? I wanted to find some YouTube video about it, but all of the videos are too woo-woo for me (XD). Thanks for answers, peace.

So.. right now I'm getting more and more prepared to run self-development channel with friend of mine (or without him, depends on him), and the next thing I need to get over is getting better with dating and girls in general, it's like a thing that I need to get good with to be reliable as an "online coach" i think. So basicaly I finished 90 days of Leo's life purpose course plan exercises and now I want to implement affirmations and visualisations for dating and relationships everyday. Affirmation that I'm using is "I love all women. I'm dating and having sex with beautiful women". "I love all women" is the idea i got from Zen Perrion - do not distinct which women are good or bad, it fucks your mind and you are making yourself less attractive because of that - you are fun, playful and better version of yourself just for women you want to fuck and they can sense that (that's what I understood). My question is - what kind of visualisations should I use? I'm using mainly the visualisations in which I'm banging with a hot girl (XD) and I'm not sure if that is not messing with my brain (like porn let's say) and I just don't know that much about visualisations (how they work fully), should I visualize cold approaching first, or go straight to the purpose I want to accomplish, or everything in between? I would love to have great, fun relationship with a girl - don't get me wrong - it's just that my brain is so into just fucking right now, it's really hard for me to get past that. Once I'll get someone to fuck with or some relationship, it will become much easier after - it will get a lot of weight from my shoulder.

So i got an idea - not sure if it's not ego based, that's why I made this topic. Not masturbating is increasing your sexual energy that you can store and use in other ways - and that's great. I'm using meditation, wim hof breathing, cold showers, martial arts and yoga and thinking about buying myself a kava to drink every morning. Why? Because still, after doing so much practices everyday sometimes I'm becoming angry and frustrated. Not sure if that's just not too much of this energy wanting to get out some way and that's why I started doing that (again - that's why I made this post). THE QUESTION IS - Do you guys think, you can use masturbation (without ejaculating) for karezza-like purpose (to make your sexual energy flow through your body and balance itself)? So basically - masturbating to get that energy balance itself out in my body and exercising my kegel in the same time (I would love to get to the point that I don't have to bust a nut while being with a chick too - that is just too valuable for me). So - what are your thougths on that? Would love to hear anyone who read something about that and has some direct experience. I tried that 2 times and both times I went too far and busted a nut, but that's just beggining and I think I can for sure improve (if that's worth doing and has any sense and purpose). Cheers

Had no better idea, so i thought I might as well write here. If anyone from Cracow wants to go out to practice pickup/cold approaches/night game/whatever type of activity to become better with women - pm me. Cheers

Hey, so basically I finally realised, that my mind is really into right-side thinking stuff, woo-woo, dreamy shit and I really need to become more disciplined (which I kinda already am), grounded and logical about everything I do. I need some stable technique that will make me more grounded like every-single-day (my mind is really smart when it comes to not working and not being pragmatic about stuff). I read about walking on a ground with bare feet (which I just can't do everyday, living in a big city), some grounding binaural beats (which I don't want really to be closed to, my chakras disbalances are really different like every day and I like to listen to different ones from day to day). I'm already meditating, taking cold showers, training martial arts 3 times a week, I'm doing nofap, but all of that is still not enough for me. (I also cleaned up my diet and want to train on a gym 2 times a week and do yoga 1 time a week too). I'm also really interested about sleeping on the floor - I wanted to do it for some other reasons (getting straight posture and getting more masculine energy thanks to that), do you think it can be grounding to you? (seems like it - duuh ). I'm really interested about your ideas guys - I will really appreciate your hints on that topic.

Hey, guys. So I came up with an idea about just "doing nothing" for one day, tommorow. I know the thing I should do is to try to focus on present moment and observe my thoughts more, while being disconnected from phone, internet etc and just sitting home (I'm not going to do it outdoors, weather is too shitty). Anything else you can suggest? Should I make notes of what I observe or that's too much of "doing"?

That title is just for lulz, but listen. Yesterday me and my mother met. I had issues with her for some years now. I hated that she always was telling me what should I do and how should I do it, she is very pedantic and I was always messy and that's like the only thing that she is good at, and I'm not (despite of being me better in a lot of other areas of life). Also i have some problem with women, which I had an epithany on lately (she was having sex with my stepfather on the same bed i was sleeping on, I woke up and it frightened the shit out of me, didn't know what to do, I was about 5-7 years old). We met yesterday and she told me (of course) that I'm a piece of shit, because my jacket is dirty, my apartment is dirty and I was getting more and more angry every moment. They were not dirty, they were only not "perfectly clean" as she wants everything around her to be. So after some time of taking it on me I went to take a cold shower to calm myself. I came back and she told me something more. That was it - I fucking ERUPTED, I was never that angry my whole life, i started screaming as loud as I never did, telling her everything I'm telling you now, that she never told me that she loves me, that she never told me that I did something good, and about nasty stuff I mentioned above too, I YELLED LOUD AS IF I WAS CRAZY. And about Dragon Ball shit - for some time now I was listening to binaural beats like "Heart chakra healing/opening". Also - subconsciously I was wearing green things a lot of times (green sweater that was like the only thing I could wear to work and green laces, because there were no purple laces in a shop). I'm practicing nofap and I use wim hof breathing to control all of that energy (and meditation too). That was the day I didn't do it (WHB) because she would tell me I'm a nutcase or some shit. And I couldn't control it and erupted, just like Broly couldn't control his anger. The funny thing is - after all of that I told her to get the fuck out of my house, she told me just "no" and started cleaning my apartment further (? XD) We went shopping and we had a great day after, like nothing happened Like she wanted me to "change my form" and do what I did. We got shopping for some clothes too and today when i was in a work, I looked at myself in a mirror, and guess what colors am I wearing mostly? https://vignette.wikia.nocookie.net/dragonball/images/7/7b/SSGSS_Goku_DBZ-_Resurrection_F.png/revision/latest?cb=20160312024740 That's just an interesting story, that I wanted to share I'm going to add "sun salutation" yogic exercise every morning to my routine and also hear to some other frequency everyday, but I'm not sure which one now If anyone knows, I would be really grateful Cheers boys and have fun with life, it's a great adventure, like wtf is GOING ON

I just had a strange realisation. What if Peter Ralston (who just looks like a charlatan and douchebag), Leo (who just probably wants to make money and fuck bitches xD) and Sadghuru (who does it all with good intentions I think) are just fool of shit with the "enlightenment" stuff? I mean - they are all just giving people false notion of purpose and something "valuable" in life to purse, where it's all just a fairy tale, told us to be driven and do something about ourselves, our lives, and just come to a point where we can do whatever the fuck we want to do and just have fun, because that's what life is about? Maybe that's what enlightenment is - the fact that there's no such thing as "enlightenment"?

So, as we all probably know, the most important thing in our lives is and should always be love and it's a key to everything in your life. I've got an idea, about buying some kind of poster, "motivational quote", that i'll see everyday, to attract more love in my life (not relationship-wise neccesarily). I don't want it to be too mellow or feminine, i'm not that kind of dude. some pragmatic, pumping more love in my life affirmative stuff. Any ideas boys? (One idea was EVERYTHING IS LOVE poster (The Carters))

So.. I'm meditating for like 2 years now I think, I've done about 5 to 7 psylocibin trips and I think shit is about to go wild For some time I feel strange feeling in my "third eye" area. First I was thinking - ok, it's just my prefrontal cortex developing, it's normal, it will soon disapear, no worries. But - it is still with me, like everyday, for like 10 days maybe? I've watched some videos on Youtube (f.e Infinite Waters - diving in), and he mentions that people are going vegan when it's happening to them (i just ordered vegeterian diet catering for 7 days, just to try it, without knowing why am I doing it, WEEEIRD coincidence). I had a huge realisation about quitting weed completely (when before it was like - I'm not really addicted (and I don't think I am), and i can do it like once a month, but now it's - let's try going cold turkey for 5 years and grind life hard as motherfucker). Also, I have some doubts about my life purpose and I "manifested" that I need some help with that, I want to be sure, just how I was sure about starting meditation habit when I discovered it. And, what is interesting, Infinite Waters is talking about third eye opening being connected to discovering your life purpose. One more thing - my friend told me that, for like last month I'm acting strange - when before it was like my feminine energy going up and my creativity etc. went up, now it's the other way around - my masculine energy is so high, that I'm really agressive, without empathy, not giving a fuck about anything. Just too many strange things happening.. I need some help guys, give me any hints, advices, whatever, what to expect and how to go about it.. please? P.S Also, what is maybe the most important, he told me about his last trip, when he realised that he needs to talk with me and work about his problem with accepting and confronting things - he is not always sure what choice is better sometimes. He was accepting too much shit and not confronting it, not fighting for himself, I'm the other way around - almost always confronting and arguing why what I'm saying is right. After that trip he told me that for a short time he knew what enlightenment is about, but it just vanished. Strangely - I had similar experience, I felt that I'm a god of my world and everything that I think of will manifest in reality and that I have to work on changing my beliefs to get things that I want. And that "feeling like a master of the world" (not arrogant way) is what I've read also connected to third eye chakra somehow.

ok so to keep things simple and not to talk too much, this post is a crying for help post to keep things simple, i finished leo's life purpose course and what i got from that is that the only thing that would make me happy and would let my ego go is to become modern day leonardo da vinci (for me it is to become enlightenment + being a figure like Childish Gambino, Tyler the Creator or Kanye West (virtuoso artist) and becoming "the best of both worlds"). i have vision board, i'm doing exercises everyday and trying to keep my everyday life in check, but i'm not even sure if these are not the things so far out there and if life purpose like that is not too much to ask for, where i'm 28 years old right now and i have no experience in photo editing, making music, video making, drawing, ANYTHING AT ALL, and yet - that's the only dream keeping me alive. i'm lost am i fooling myself thinking that this kind of dream is something that i can accomplish, or im fooling myself not trying to accomplish that i tried a lot of stuff, im praticing a lot of "good habits" and working on my life everyday and trying to improve it everyday and i can really say that i changed it and changed myself by a lot by last two years, but still, im never happy and i dont know if i wil ever be happy with my results, until i'll become this "woo woo fantasy character" because i simply put too much of expectations on myself i rarely ask for help, and i think i'm a smart human being, but i got to a point where it's all becoming too much for me i don't think i will ever be able to accomplish all of that wishy-washy dream and i really need someone to love that would be with me and be my partner and i would be there for him too, someone to keep me in check i'm sick of being alone with my head and dreams, i tried so hard and i'm just sick and tired of all of that, i really need someone to help me and i don't know what to do that post as i already said is crying for help post, any advice or insight will probably not help me, i looked everywhere and tried everything already, amount of knowledge and stuff that i tried is really out of this world, not to bragg i thought - fuck it - maybe that kind of testimony will help me somehow, i'm tired of being with all of that in my head alone and i don't want to go crazy or kill myself so yeah, i'm lost, sick and tired, please help me.. (and yeah, i'm aware of the tricks that my mind is trying to play on me here, but still - writing this post was the best idea i had)

So, according to Leo's videos, there are a lot of wrong with making your decisions according to logic, morality etc. But (i know there is no golden rule for that), what do you guys think about this topic in general? Like - when it is ok to make choices based on feelings (when understanding your feelings is like one of the hardest things as a human), when to trust your intuition (which we have no clue about too), etc, etc. You can never be sure about anything, until you life throught that, I get it, but what are golden rules for life, for just making our decisions these couple percents better? Your thoughts? Would love to hear something about that from you guys.

I finally found my life purpose and i feel fucking great. Motherfucking awesome. Thank you Leo fucking Gura dude. Everyday i get new ideas that I'm implementing and right now there's something I have to take care of - my life purpose will require from me to be really creative but that's not the same thing as being inventive. I mean - i need to come up with new, fresh, first-time-ever ideas. And yeah, I know, right now I'm doing exact the opposite, asking you a question about HOW TO BE MORE INVENTIVE, without thinking about and INVENT the solution by myself (ego is tricky fucking bastard). So let's say (I swear to god almighty who is nothingness), that last time I'm gonna look for help from the outside sources. Any books/ideas/concepts? Thank you boys in advance. Blesssss

Hey guys. So my situation right now is like this : I got interested about self-development about year ago and i managed to change a lot of things in my life. My anxiety is almost no existant, I'm meditating, running, exercising, doing basic kriya exercises, cleaned up my diet, read a lot etc. BUT.. I still work in a job that I'm not really passionate about, I have no girlfriend, I don't like the way I look. My question is : should i first get those things to satisfy my ego, or vice versa : get more conscious and more consciousness will help me to deal with those things as well? How does consciousness work really apply to Maslov's hierarchy of needs? It's tricky, because without consciousness I can just run after girls to "find the perfect one" my whole life and never satisfy my ego. On the other hand I can't just fool my nature and skip those steps. I'm asking all these questions because these are the things that i want to do in my future year : Morning : meditation, kriya, running, reading Work After work : Start training martial arts (for cognitive benefits) and learn to play violin (also for cognitive benefits) Not sure if I got it right, but since after doing Leo's life purpose course I still have no idea what I want to do with my life (I did it like half of year ago), I got an idea that I will do whatever I can to improve my intelligence (since it's the main factor for success in live and maybe it will help me to figure out my life purpose) + I will try to improve my consciousness to deal with all the ego backlashes better by the time I will finally find "IT". What do you guys think? Any advice would be golden.

I've done life purpose course with Leo and I'm really confused person right now. When i discovered self-development I was researching it like a maniac and watched like all of Leo's videos in 2 months, while reading books and listening to Tim Ferriss' podcast every-single-day. I think that might impact my course results, I thought I'm Leo myself, becasue i was obsessed about that topic then as they say "you become who you are spending your time with". After that i had 3 psylocybin mushrooms trips, to truly discover my inner self, I thought about truly EVERYTHING there was about me, that could be my "zone of genius" (something I can spend lots of hours on and not get sick and tired of it). And right now, I kinda got what I wanted from self-development for myself, I cleaned up my diet, I'm meditating and exercising every single day and right now I don't really feel so much passion to it like I did before. So - in summary, my all life, since i got my first computer when i was like 9 or 10, I was really passionate about computer games, and that's the thing I can spend like 20 hours a day and not get tired at all, I just lose contact with real world. I also consider myself as a smart and funny guy (one of my biggest strength is that I'm - like my friends say - a "brilliant guy"), which may be great if I would want to become a full-time streamer, I'm a likeble person. But - here's a thing - Leo's story was really similar to mine (i guess). He decided to become a game developer, then a programmer, and then he discovered that he wants to commit his life to self-development. I'm a programmer myself right now (i went to study IT just because I liked playing computer games - i know that was stupid), and right now I'm not sure if that's ego playing tricks on me or what is really going on. If I would decide to become a full time streamer, I also would want to fullfill my ambitions and become THE BEST in whatever game that will be popular then, streaming just for fun and money is great, but i really want to do something more ambitious while keeping stream entertaining. It doesn't mean that I want to abandon self-development just to play computer games all day, it will be part of my life to the end of my life for sure. I'm not really sure what to think about all of that, I just want some opinions of you guys, maybe it will help me some way, maybe not, worth a try. Dunno if meditation or yoga can ever show you your "true life purpose" or it's just a airy-fairy thing, that you have to decide one day and that's it. Making a decision that will impact the rest of your life is really hard, that's why I'm that confused about it. Thanks in advance for any personal advices you have. Love you all <3 PS. I forgot to say WHY I'm really confused - I'm not really that passionate about computers game right now either (maybe because I don't own a good, brand new PC, I have lots of adult stuff to do and i was busy with self-development stuff and the only game I'm playing atm is League of Legends). Sometimes I just think, that I'm a mediocre dude, not a "unique snowflake", and I don't really have any "talent" or "zone of genius".