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what helped me a lot was not mental masturbation of "looking at it and letting it go" or some shit the best way to let go of anger is to get fucking angry and let it out i put on my boxing gloves and punched the wall like 100 times best therapeutic session ever

@Shin Same here, what was your "medicine"? I'm already doing a lot of stuff, but still, my mind is tricky as hell.

Watch Undone from Amazon Prime, it's all about it. I personally have the abilities that you are mentioning here, not sure if that means being "shaman", or I just had third eye activation, fuck the name. It's like - I feel some kind of energy towards some objects and instantly in my head I know exactly what it means (or I'm googling the symbolism later). For example - I saw a woman in a bus, then another one in a shop, they were both pregnant and my "third eye energy" was pointing at them. And instantly I knew, that my female friend is pregnant. Another example - i came to a part of my journey, where this energy was pointing to different types of animals. After checking the symbolism I knew exactly on what part of a journey I'm currently at and what I gotta do next. Like - a duck means to work on your EQ, etc. I guess that's what being psychic means.

@King Merk It's like the most hardcore version of fasting you can do, the most drastic but also the most effective one. I heard it can hunger your parasites, so like, the parts of you that are "bad", that start your emotional, fucked up triggers. I'm moving to another city too, good luck mate!

What was the first one?

There is only one thing I can tell you : if you wish for a lot, get ready for a lot. It's impossible, how much happened to me just last year, after finishing Leo's course. But after all of that you are unbreakable, people will respect you as motherfucker and you will be fucking proud as a lion. Just one advice - be careful what you wish for.

What do you mean by that? Right now I feel exactly the same, like @King Merk describes, it's like being bipolar, but what do you mean by narcissism? Because everywhere around I realise that my "friends" are just narcissist pieces of shit, draining energy from me, because I'm an empath. Is it because they are all like "parts of me" and I'm clearing my narcissistic energy, by cutting them off? @King Merk I strongly recommend two things that I do, to go through it: first one is hoponopono meditation everyday. Second is dry fasting, 24 to 36 hours, as many times as you can handle. I also see myself cutting bad habits one after the other, day by day and that helps a lot too, it's just energy clearing process.

Psychological defense mechanisms.

@Raptorsin7 no, I wouldn't say that, enlightenement is when you become The Sims game instead of identifing with a single Sim, or at least that's how I understand that but I'm going through an spiritual awakening process right now and I'm aware of like all of my thougths and behaviours it's like - when you are a spider, you do not think about how to create a web or you do not identify with being a fucking dog, you are just natural you and you just feel what to do and when to do it, flow state

@Raptorsin7 basically, becoming your true Self, being that just observes, accepts and loves everything about yourself and others, without judgement there is no easy 3 steps formula for that, but meditation was the key for me

@Max_V thanks man, i will look him up if you want some more info about Vinci, I strongly recommend this book about him: https://www.amazon.com/How-Think-Like-Leonardo-Vinci/dp/0440508274

@Raptorsin7 i chose a different approach to that problem - i decided that i will be happy with whatever i already have and already am first if you'll start from ground zero, let's say - you are homeless, you have no money, you are ugly as hell and you are still happy with that and you love yourself no matter what, that's when life gets easy - because no matter what will happen and what life will bring you - you are still happy, because you were happy with having nothing and being nothing and you loved yourself despite all of that and when you love yourself fully you will simply know what you want and what you do not want for yourself and you will work on getting that / becoming that

@Max_V i'm so fucking inspired about da Vinci, because in my opinion he was the greatest genius at all times, 10/10 left and 10/10 right brain hemishpere and you know, what he did, to become that? everything - he created art, he was an inventor, thinker, writer, you name it the more one part of the brain becomes developed, the better the other one becomes, you can't just ignore one part of yourself and think that you, as a whole will operate on 100% of what you can be that's what holistic means and that's what integrating means - accepting and evolving every part of yourself - if it's your body, your iq, your eq, your creativity or your analitic thinking

@Raptorsin7 yeah, of course, that's why the smartest way to go about all of this is not trying to become Nicola Tesla, if you do not like math at all and you prefer to f.e create art and you are already good with that it's like - you are a Usain Bolt and you have a great genes to become a runner and you decide to become next Einstein - you can do that, if you start learning physics at like age 4, but when you are already let's say 30, it's just stupid, just continue with being a runner

genes genes genes ok, you're right, but it's like saying - i have 100 IQ and I cannot change it, work on myself, read books, take psychedelics, nootropics, change diet, because my genes decided, that i have 100 IQ imo - you can always evolve, learn, develop EQ, train your brain with games to increase IQ etc and with time you can increase your intelligence - because brain is also a muscle

trial and error dude, you cannot just wonder, to find out, what is the best solution for yourself, you have to actually take action, experiment and then choose what works for you and what's not good luck

you cannot control your thinking, the more you are trying to resist the thought, the stronger it gets what you have to do first is to allow it and observe it - meditation type beat then - like Ramana Maharshi said - if you are questioning the thought - you stop your sufferning you are not the thinker, because who would consciously decide to suffer so, practially speaking - obeserve your thougths (easier said then done, it requires a lot of meditation practice) and when a thought brings suffering then question it and change it with positive thought, that way you create new patterns and beliefs about yourself example: you have a thought: "i'm a fucking fat pig" - ok, i see you, let's change it but if you really are a fat pig, you cannot just say to yourself "i'm skinny calvin klein model", you cannot simply lie to yourself but you can change it with "im a little bit fat, but i still love myself like that, there's nothing wrong with it and i work everyday on losing fat, let's fucking go!"

when i had this problem i started with an eye contact training videos (it's cringy, but it's always something to start with), just having small talks or trying to tell something funny to cashier etc. after that i tried demonic confidence program - it's cringy shit too, but I think for a started it's something to try, you don't have to do all of this or follow it 100%, but it will for sure increase your confidence, because you'll see and experience, that there is nothing to be afraid of i tried speed dating, tinder dating, but for me it was all forced and after some time i just decided to focus 100% on myself and have hope that the one will eventually come into my life when i'm ready for it, but there's nothing wrong with it, you'll have to find your own niche something more that can help : try it for couple of days, it's basically changing your automatic thought pattern and you'll start to see things differently

i remember when i was feeling like this - for me it was an indicator that there is everything wrong with my life it's like - you are reaching a point when you hit bottom and you are your worst version of yourself don't want to scare you or something, but after some time you'll reach a point, where life will just shock you, something dramatic will happen that will show you how worthless and useless you are and you will gain tremendous amount of energy and drive to change everything in yourself to make your life better, in my case i was like - if I'm going to do anything at all with my life, I'll make it the best life possible - if I'm doing something, let's do it 100% so, actually, there is something great about this stage, basically - you will have to decide at one moment - do you want to die, or do you want to get everything that is the best in life, fight or flight

i did intermitted fasting for a long time - it's a practice of eating in an hour window and then not eating for a long time - at least 16 hours of not eating according to scientific data i was eating from 12-20 but and it gave me a lot of clarity in the morning to get my work done, but after some time and losing weight i figured out that eating in the morning is also very beneficial and gives you more chill to get job done, you are not so driven and focused - it's great, but it was too much for me, it created unnecessary tention water fasting is also great and if you feel like it helps you, keep doing that there is also hardcore level of fasting which is called dry fasting - you don't eat or drink anything for 24-36 hours (when i did it, i didn't even take a bath or shower to not get any water into my body) - it starves parasites in your body and helped me to balance my emotions and tentions inside my body

what do you mean by tips? if you feel you are green i think you should build a bussiness oriented around helping other people, connected to your values as much as possible

Let me share my story briefly: I was a "sufferer narcissist" my whole life - it was fucked up dynamic in my family, I'm an adult alcoholic child. So, I was surrounding myself with narcissists and absorbed their energy and became "all of them", just to understand them and purge this shit out. Now I'm finally free, I think I went through all of this "spiritual awakening" shit and don't know what to do with my life right now, I'm confused, I can get anything I want, I can do anything I want, I can have women, money, be happy, wtf - that's life, I can create my own dream, WTF?! It's fucked up, but that's how I feel - confused and guilty that I can chase my dreams and become fucking modern day da Vinci with money, swag and bitches. I want to believe that it's just a phase and after some time you become bored of doing nothing and being happy just by sitting lol. Right now, after cutting them off, I have so much energy, that I don't know what to do with it, so I have to masturbate like 5 times a day just to feel stable, I'm not used to not feeling drained all the time

i feel this strange thing right now i love myself, i don't need anything, i just feel bliss about everything and nothing really bothers me and at this moment i feel like i want to start getting money, meeting more women and starting my own purpose it's paradoxical and i don't get it, did anyone went through this kind of "phase"? i love myself and i don't need anything soooo let's fucking get everything i can, wtf????

@Patrick Lynam Separate yourself from people you don't feel like are bringing any value in your life. If you are a good person and you surround yourself with good people, that bring value into your life and vice versa, that's the most beautiful thing. If you feel drained and doubting yourself and feeling bad about yourself - leave these people, these are energy vampires. Loving yourself is a key - that way you develop better boundries and you simply do not let shitty people (basically narcissists) into your life, because who would want to get drained and suffer if he had a choice? That's insanity. But that's how this world looks like today and that's fucked up. We need more good, honest people like you man, good luck!

Exactly what I've said about learning that intimacy is not about sex, it's about caring and being invested in other person, check it out.