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What video about solipsism do you mean? Leo's, Ralston's? I don't get this topic fully myself, can you elaborate on that somehow?

I just started doing Wim Hof's course, there is a stretching exercise, connected with breathing, it works something like that: 1. You take a deep breath 2. You hold it for some time 3. You let it go and at the same time you try to push your stretch Wim describes it that way: air is being stored in your veins and then you block it for a while. After a couple of seconds - boom, tsunami, it goes all the way forward, and it's synchronized with your stretch, so it makes it easier.

https://themindsjournal.com/intelligence-cant-find-happiness/ What do you guys think about it? Ignorance is bliss, etc. Also society brainwashing (f.e House M.D - "When I'm happy, I'm worse diagnostician"). I believed that. Now, after listening to Leo for a long time, I want to believe, that, the more intelligent you are, the happier you are. I wanted to be happy, so I dumbed myself down. I think I just realized that. I want to be smart, intelligent, brilliant, as I naturally am, but I don't want to sacrifice my happiness for that. Is it really one or another?

You know when someone likes you and when he doesn't. If you really, really like someone, you are like almost in love with them, you just sense it in one second, if someone really likes you or he is just fucking around. You are really focused on a person that you like and there is no way not to see that. You had to be really fucking stupid not to notice that. That other person might be really smart and manipulative, but still, if that is your friend, why do you like him and spend time with him, if he is that way? It's not someone you're in love with to lose your mind and stop using your thinking. It's pretty simple from my point of view.

Hey, so... I did Leo's life purpose course, I did a lot of work, my daily routine and disciplines are pretty much perfect, I also do YouTube videos for my channel in which I am helping people, describing self-development concepts. Everythings should be fucking great, but it's not, I feel like having some kind of existential crisis, like the guy from American Beauty, you get it. The easiest way to describe this feeling is that I feel like House M.D. I am helping people, being a "good guy", sharing my knowledge and all of that good stuff. Yet, there is something wrong with me, I feel like. After all of the things I did, I still feel empty, somehow sad, dunno. House's vibe is the best description I've got. I'm 29 and I feel like I skipped a chapter in my life. I wanted to become a rapper when I was a teenager. Yeah, "I feel like I skipped a chapter in my life" is the best description, with a House's vibe attached. Not a cool feeling. Don't get me wrong, creating videos (in which I can be creative and have fun and create comedy at the same time) is great, but I feel that something's still missing and I have no idea what the hell is this thing. This strange feeling is also: "I wish I could make more mistakes, when I was younger and now I'm too smart and too old to do these". I am really exhausted, confused, and frustrated at the same time. I feel like - "I trusted you, God, I followed fucking Tao for so long, did so much fucked up things and hard work, and this is it? That's what I was fighting for and struggling for so long?". Great joke, I'm laughing my ass off. The fuuuuuuck PS. Also this:

@flume That's just a feeling, I just go with the flow without forcing anything, things are slower, more natural and results are there. About the second question - I don't even know if that's what I meant writing that. I want more adventure, purposeful life for me right now became really mundane, disciplined, that's a more productive and smarter way, for sure, but fuck me, that's so boring.

I must say, I hoped for something more. It became mundane just after like a week. I feel like I chose the boring path and life will be boring until I die. But that's TAO, that's smarter, that's how life works, etc :>

I only asked, how do you think pursuing love and life purpose are being connected? Why people chose one career over the other? I know it depends on millions of factors, but in general, do you think there is like a rule to this?

@Preety_India Of course, we are complete beings, just as we are, we are enough, we don't need or lack anything. So why love is the purpose?

@TheUniverseIsLove Yeah, I expected an answer like that. Can you answer my question though?

How do you think these are connected? Are the things we chase, the same things that we feel we lack in ourselves? So we can feel more complete?

@Preety_India About the first part - I've been through all of that, in my 20's. About neediness - yes, I am working on becoming 100% independent, even right now, one guy that lent me some money is playing the mercy card on me. I would even flip the coin here. It's not that much about me being needy towards other people, it's more that other people are needy and looking to suck the energy from me. Fuck, I was aware of the fact the life and people can be fucked up, but EVERYONE is fucked up, I feel like Neo in a Matrix. nihilism kicks in

@Etherial Cat Ok

@Preety_India I am an Aquarius, but (I am not that good at astrology), I have really strong Lion in me (moon sign and I am also Lion ascendant, so, from what I understand, that's how people see me, or how I show myself to people). Aquarius is a part of me that is freaky, bright, looking into the future, outgoing, and brilliant. The lion is this proud, brave, warm, and bold part of me. I am really positive and outgoing person. Maybe this forum makes me look like I'm nihilistic etc, but it's just a stage of my life when I'm after dark night of the soul, a spiritual awakening experience, and also changing place of living. Also - I use this forum mainly to deal with my problems and to find solutions to them, that's why my posts are mostly, umm, negative. My Twin Flame (or false Twin Flame, I don't know) was a Mary Magdalene, I was taking part in some kind of Christ template where I was a Christ, my Twin Flame was a whore (literally) and my friend betrayed and blocked me, another narcissist, a Juda lol. Right now I am following one channel where this woman is talking about Soul Flames, I am more sceptic about it now, I'm just checking her YouTube social posts, but they align with me a lot (energy-wise, she could not just make this stuff out). I am not sure if that is true or not, I am aware, that it might be just a hard case of oneitis. That's why I try not to give too much attention to it, just working on myself and my purpose, so that this neediness could die in me. But that's like the hardest path I could take, but also a wise one I think. It makes me really strong and my personality is becoming really powerful thanks to that, but, as I said, it's not easy to walk this path.

@Preety_India You're probably an empath, I'm an empath too, I had no good boundaries, so I was attracting narcissists into my life, even my mother was a narcissist. 90% of feelings that I feel are not even mine, I'm a fucking sponge and it kills me. I am always looking for ways to improve myself because I think everything that is happening is somehow my fault aka extreme ownership. I really want to experience life to the fullest, but I spend almost every minute of my time alone, to not get influenced by these energies, and to be honest that is my only way to enjoy myself, people are full of toxicity all around.

@Preety_India That doesn't make sense - the more we develop ourselves the worse people we attract to us? Because good attracts evil?

@Preety_India I read what you wrote about how you were in an abusive relationship. Are you aware of the fact, that you were this narcissist yourself and he was just "part of you", that needed healing? That's how it works, you always attract yourself. Just saying that, so that you know, that if you still have this inside of you, this shadow, it will come back into your life over and over again. I think that's basically what @Amit was trying to tell you, it's victim mindset in a nutshell. "It's not me, it's them, who were abusive and fucked up and they treated me wrong". The catch is, that there is no other, you are your consciousness, you can't run from yourself, that's what extreme ownership of your life really means. Accept that it was all you, you wanted this suffering, you wanted to be abused and you chose it for yourself, it sounds harsh and I am not here do judge - that's just reality. It's not easy to unwire that shit, as it can be deep in your subconscious, but it's always your responsibility to get rid of any negativity and toxic people from your life. Feel free to PM me if you'll need any advice on that, I'm on a stage of my life, where I am struggling with a similar issue right now.

@Leo Gura How can I determine, if what my mind says about synchronicity is true or not? F.e: something happens, I notice that thing, and then my mind says "it's a sign of ABC". How can I be sure, if that's confirmation bias or real synchronicity?

What do you mean by inspiration in regards to dating? Something like: "Wow, this girl is really amazing", not "she's ok, we can maybe bang a couple of times"? Or does it go even deeper than that? Everything (including neediness) in life is, in my opinion, is choosing either inspiration or desperation, love or fear, power, or force.

The concept of this video is not about women, it's about money and material possessions. The stuff you own ends up owning you because it all takes a lot of maintenance, etc (I am sure, that you can minimize this shit out and have someone to take care of it for you), but whatever, that's not what I want to ask for here. Girls - they're looks are a burden too, right? Do you have a beautiful woman? You will get jealous and angry when other guys will look at her all day, everywhere. You can develop yourself to a point, where you do not give a fuck about it, but it will still happen. Just find a chubby, ugly but sweet and loving girl with great character and stay with her for the rest of your life. My superficiality gets triggered and I don't want to live anymore, lol. I was working my ass off, just to find out, that my goals and life, in general, are nonsense, lif is just about giving others and be happy with nothing. What is this shit, everyone's supposed to be a fucking Gandhi and then we'll all be happy? Come on, all this work for literally nothing? Before I started my self-development journey I wanted to kill myself. I would have the same result, just without all of that struggle. Don't get me wrong, I am aware of my own bitching out here and that I'm acting like a baby. You are Neo, everyone around is living in a Matrix, in their unconscious, comfortable lives and you are just standing there, looking at it, knowing that they are full of lies and unhappy. You want to help them and let them free, but they don't give a fuck and treat you like fucking shit. Being great is not that fucking great at all. Sorry for cursing, the emotional beta boy inside of me got triggered.

I'm laughing my ass off ? But yeah, I think you're right, and until I will fulfill my basic needs and satisfy my ego, spirituality will always be forced and out of duty. I would love to live in the USA, damn, I would sell my kidney for that. @LfcCharlie4 I've seen this video (Leo's, about young people). It strikes me more and more, that those things, that I should've lived through when I was 18-20 years old, I am doing just now. Too much trauma, ego, karma, and stuff.

@Preety_India Damn, thank you. I hope so, all the best for you too

I either look young or sound dumb

@Preety_India I'm 29 lol

The worst thing about it all is that I feel like I wasted my 20's. I wanted to be the wise one, to not do anything stupid, to not make mistakes, I have no idea what I was thinking. I wish I could just make millions of mistakes, become a rapper, date tons of girls, and don't think about consequences. Right now going into these disciplines and spirituality sounds so sad to me, like the end of life as an adventure that I never really had.