Preety_India

This world is a place where true hearts bleed The demons will attach to your heart like vampires and parasites The Devil's hand will always be on it. But you are the princess Build the fortress A thousand doors will open.... To bright light. Rejoice Because in heaven you won't have demons. You will be free and happy. You won't suffer in the garden of reeds. And the roads to darkness will close.

@Roy I never suffered much because I never married and I never plan to.. I'm with a white man and so I'm safe.

Yea it's a huge problem. The women used to be forced to marry only for survival. Or as a holy grail. Men mostly had a choice in the women they wanted to marry but women generally didn't have a choice in deciding the groom. They had to marry the man who picked them. Most families would tell the girl that it's in her best interests to marry the man who has approached or be single for the rest of her life. Girls were usually coaxed and India has a strong history of evil against women. Too many social evils committed against women. But the generational curse is breaking. Women are moving towards empowerment which is real feminism. They don't want to be stuck in abusive marriages. They are making their own money and living their own life. This is one of the reasons why I didn't want to be a mother in my life and why I promised myself that I will never marry into an Indian family. Because then the cycle continues. I wanted to break that cycle. My dad was kinda ugly, he was a good guy but he didn't look attractive, he was attracted to my mom and she was very beautiful in her younger years and my dad approached her family for marriage and she wasn't willing to marry him. Yet her family forced her and gave her the option to either marry my dad or be single or suicide. My mother tried to attempt suicide and she was saved. But she wasn't given an option to get a job because nobody would help her get an education or any other assistance. She wanted to go to college and complete her education but her family didn't allow her and she reluctantly agreed to marry my dad. Also my mom was attracted to another man who was quite handsome and charming. But her family never allowed that guy to make any approaches. Her brother's wives were jealous that she would get a good groom so they hastily arranged her marriage to my father.. In India a girl child is considered a burden in the family.. The boy child is considered a prince or treasure. So if a boy is born, the whole family rejoices and if a girl is born, some fathers will mourn the birth of a daughter. So the solution to this problem in their minds was to marry the daughter to some man and get rid of this burden. She would be mistreated by the husband and the husband's family and this was her life, living like a burden on society. There was an inherent misogyny in Indian society, an inherent hate towards women. Even the Hindu scriptures demonized women and looked at women as the source of all evil. Probably that's where the misogyny comes from. The situation was so bad that my mom used to tell me that in an average Indian family, the boy would be fed milk but not the girl, she would be fed very little and the entire focus of the family would be on the son and not the daughter. The son would get all the love and attention from parents. The situation was so severe for so many decades that there was female infanticide, basically killing the girl child when she was born or aborting a female foetus once the gender of the foetus was detected as female. It was so bad that the Indian government had to step in and stop the gender identification of foetuses. This is where the generational trauma for women comes from. Then there was a problem of dowry. If a woman wanted to get married to feel less of a burden on her family, her family had to pay dowry to the husband in the marriage, before the wedding is fixed. Or sometimes after. The dowry was an insane amount of money the family had to pay. Sometimes the groom would demand a house or a car or very huge amount of cash as a dowry gift. Or else he would threaten to divorce their daughter. And a divorced woman would be considered like a curse or a taboo in our society, like she would need to hide herself and live in misery and anonymously. Then the husband would harass his wife and tell her to ask for more dowry from her parents. Girls were poorly educated and there was no concept as "women working" back in the 80s. So her only survival was her husband. She also had to live with the husband's family even if she didn't wish to live with them, and she was supposed to serve the husband, and his family and she was considered a good wife if she was a perfect slave to everyone. So you will see in old Indian movies, the woman is shown as touching the husband's feet and calling him a God and massaging the feet of her father in law and serving everyone and eating last. Her life was all about serving everyone's needs in the husband's family but her own. There was nothing like her dreams, her career, her life, she was just a possession of the husband. The dowry system was so bad that many women in the 70s, 80s and the 90s were literally set ablaze and burned alive by the families of the groom. This was done In order to let the guy remarry the woman of his choice in an effort to collect more dowry. My mom kept the old newspapers safe from the 90s decade and I used to read when I grew up and they will filled with news stories of horrible atrocities against wives /daughter in laws in the name of dowry. There was an ancient practice in India called Satee. Which meant that if a woman lost her husband to death, then during the funeral she had to jump into the funeral pyre of her husband and get herself killed as a sacrifice or tribute to her husband. She was then considered a good wife. This evil practice was then eradicated by the British. Indian men had the general belief that a woman should be a virgin or he will refuse to marry her or have a relationship with her. It was considered that a woman who was not a virgin was not pure and that she should be rejected. Even this day a lot of Indian men will directly ask the girl "are you a virgin?", but it doesn't matter if the guy is a virgin or not. If a woman became a widow in our culture, then she was never allowed to remarry. These days they do, but it's rare. Back in those days, like 60 years ago, if a woman was a widow, then she was forced to shave her head and wear white clothes so that she wouldn't attract any man My mom lost her husband(my dad) when I was very young and she never remarried. If she ever wore makeup, people used to snare at her. She wouldn't get invited to parties. So you can see how Indian women suffered generational trauma under an evil patriarchal system where marriage was her saving grace from death or suicide but marriage was also her misery pit. Today, the situation is kinda better, not that much because we haven't completely yanked the patriarchy out. The government made laws against dowry and female infanticide and all other evil practices against women. But this does not mean that they don't happen. In some places they still do, and dowry still gets exchanged undercover. Indian women are deeply ingrained by their parents and general Indian culture that their survival is impossible without a man or husband. They are not taught freedom. They are taught their destiny is in the hands of a man. Compared to women, men have it much better here, they are given a lot of freedom and privilege. They are treated like kings in the family as well as society. But today the women in my country want to change this mentality. I don't want to marry an Indian man for survival. I am educated and I can survive on my own. So the women are fighting hard against patriarchal beliefs and rules and traditions. We are getting there, not just yet. Hinduism as a religion has all the good principles but the "treatment of women" part of Hinduism is deeply marinated in misogyny. All the female goddess stuff is bullshit. The goddesses only exist in the temple, in reality no woman is treated like a goddess. And don't let an indian man fool you by making you believe that Indian women have it good if a woman became a prime minister in the country in the old decades. First of all, the only woman who became a prime minister and on top of that, she was assassinated. It's like saying racism stopped in America because Obama became president. Such things are a ploy to distract from real evil. All in all, women in my country had to suffer a lot of evil and I feel bad for the women before me, especially my mom because she had to live her whole life with a man she didn't love, with a man she didn't wish to marry, he was a good husband, but she didn't want him, so it was a source of tremendous frustration for her and she never wanted the same fate for me so she raised me to choose the man I want to, she never forced me to marry or be with someone that I didn't want to be with. It's sad that women had to suffer so much in my country and yet get so much hate. India definitely has the blood of many innocent women on its hands. If you really want to witness what misogyny looks like in a real form, come to India..

Congrats Arc!! You will be fine and perfect. My prayers with you.

@Arcangelo I have a huge list. It's already queued in my list. It will appear here when it's number comes up Thanks for adding Arc. You can add more tho. Right now I have a compilation of 200 supernatural phenomenon but no energy or patience to type. But I will eventually fill out

Maybe that's why Indian girls don't want to marry anymore.

People play silly games. So fed up. This world is bullshit. Yuck.

I'm thinking how it would feel like if I was a part of a divine community, full of angelic people I came up with a name for such a community - Aethereus Gaudium

@Amit yea I'm good.. Thanks for asking.

@Amit I hope that you know that I have nothing against you absolutely. I wish you well. And I'm glad that you realize that validation is bullshit. It doesn't matter who validates you or not. The only thing that matters is that you validate yourself. Only you matter in the end. Have a great day!

Certain concepts and ideas discussed so far in this journal and other journals combined. Only recent ideas. Quick Recap through concepts What is beauty? Part 1 What is beauty? Part 2,yet to be discussed The Necessity of Evil Self, Ecosystem and Process Pyramidal model of growth Natural Essence and Delusion and Deception. Difference between beautiful and pretty Why do we need a mirror? How words are powerful Power of supernatural forces Tantric sex Empower yourself, use the mirror, use positive affirmations Dissolving Mind Shafts. Red, green and blue mental shafts God is like a mirror Prayers Demonization of Stage Purple in Spiral Dynamics Vertical and Horizontal progress on Spiral Dynamics Integration of Stage Purple Beliefs Progress in Stage Purple Supernatural causes of problems and Supernatural solutions The creation of the full circle, Swan and Wolf complete the circle... "it comes full circle.." One door closes then another opens. Supernatural forces hold the key to the secret door Prayers and devotional life Cardinal virtues. Double Trinity. Masculine Trinity of Values. Feminine Trinity of Values. Final trinity of truth, beauty and courage God character set - Assyrian God, goddess and devil and angel. Four character set. How will paradise look like in my eyes? The idea and picture of paradise! general human culture. Why I hate general human culture or GHC

There were a few posts that were important to me. I need to dig through them.

What is beauty part 2 To be continued

Topics in progress What is beauty Delusion and Deception The idea of paradise Supernatural forces

What is beauty? Post in progress Beauty is complex “Of life’s two chief prizes, beauty and truth, I found the first in a loving heart and the second in a laborer’s hand.”– Khalil Gibran A person must be evaluated on the basis of what he speaks and what he does. Someone who devotes all his time and energy in the service of humanity is gifted with a beautiful heart and it goes without saying that a beautiful heart houses beautiful soul and virtuous spirit. The inner beauty expresses itself through one’s humble behaviour, modest actions and noble thoughts. A man possessing sublime thoughts, virtuous character and elevated ideas deserves to be called beautiful from both within and without. “EVERYTHING HAS BEAUTY, BUT NOT EVERYONE SEES IT.” ― CONFUCIUS “BEAUTY IS HOW YOU FEEL INSIDE, AND IT REFLECTS IN YOUR EYES. IT IS NOT SOMETHING PHYSICAL.” ― SOPHIA LOREN “WHEN VIRTUE AND MODESTY ENLIGHTEN HER CHARMS, THE LUSTER OF A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN IS BRIGHTER THAN THE STARS OF HEAVEN AND THE INFLUENCE OF HER POWER IT IS IN VAIN TO RESIST.” ― AKHENATON a happy-go-lucky and carefree person is blessed with a beautiful heart and such a man is always ready to help others. He is the one who has the beauty of body, soul and spirit. “BEAUTY IS NOT HOW GOOD YOU LOOK. IT IS HOW GENUINE YOU ARE AT HEART.” source unknown. A heart which can uplift others, give a helping hand, wipe the tears, make someone smile and hug a needy. Who does not hesitate in sharing the love or anything else what he/she has. A heart which is full of love for everyone. Having a heart which loves and cares is the first requirement to be beautiful. You are as beautiful as your heart not by looks but by the divinity inside you. Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself - Coco Chanel. “The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.”– Audrey Hepburn “Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.” – Ashley Smith Beauty is intricately tied to truth. There is something that is attractive about both truth and beauty. We find honest people endearing, and we shun those who lie. Beauty can be found in silence and spirituality If we consider that beauty emerges from a relationship that we may have with the world around us, then spirituality may be the place from which we forge this relationship. Whether you’re a firm believer in god or a strict materialist, you can still find beauty in the relationship you have to the grand and mysterious universe around you. “Beauty is the radiance of your soul.” Asad Meah “Beauty can be consoling, disturbing, sacred, profane; it can be exhilarating, appealing, inspiring, chilling. It can affect us in an unlimited variety of ways. Yet it is never viewed with indifference: beauty demands to be noticed; it speaks to us directly like the voice of an intimate friend. If there are people who are indifferent to beauty, then it is surely because they do not perceive it.”– Roger Scruton There is certainly no absolute standard of beauty. That precisely is what makes its pursuit so interesting. John Kenneth Galbraith People are like stained - glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross “No one can pull you down if you raise your awareness to your own inner strength and beauty.” Anonymous Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old. Franz Kafka. There is in true beauty, as in courage, something which narrow souls cannot dare to admire. Beauty is within, regardless of race, culture or skin you're in / You must first learn to love yourself first / Be grateful, kind and loving to know your worth / Others are not going to see you for who you are. Albertina Theresa Cameron Beauty has the power to change us, and in turn, our lives. Risa Mickenberg And isn't that the meaning of life? To find beauty in ourselves, in the world, and in others? Risa Mickenberg “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”– Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. Beauty is a an ecstacy; it is as simple as hunger. There is really nothing to be said about it. W.Somerset Maugham “Whenever you are creating beauty around you, you are restoring your own soul.” Alice Walker There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty. Steve Maraboli Beauty is a manifestation of secret natural laws, which otherwise would have been hidden from us forever. - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe A beautiful lady is an accident of nature. A beautiful old lady is a work of art. Louis Nizer “The beauty of a living thing is not the atoms that go into it, but the way those atoms are put together.”– Carl Sagan “Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete? Proving nature’s laws wrong, it learned to walk without having feet. Funny, it seems to by keeping its dreams; it learned to breathe fresh air. Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else even cared.”– Tupac Shakur “No matter how plain a woman may be, if truth and honesty are written across her face, she will be beautiful.”– Eleanor Roosevelt “She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn’t beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul. She is beautiful.”– F. Scott Fitzgerald All women are not Helen…but have Helen in their hearts. - -. William Carlos Williams

Ancient Indian art is so beautiful.

How will paradise look like in my eyes. (complete post) It will be full of art and color everywhere. Beauty. Swans and ducks in large ponds surrounded by large magnificent fountains. Children laughing and giggling Huge stages as dance floors with beautiful women dancing and laughing. Wearing jewelry and headresses. The utensils are made of precious porcelain and shining metal, decorated with great art and beautiful shapes. Beautiful pillars that adorn the stage with wings and Swan neck structures. Walls shine with gold, glitter and gems. Moon in the sky shines on the stage at night. Some peacocks quietly dancing around and some deer. Like it's shown in old Indian movies Everything should look splendid. This is how paradise should look like I get this inspiration from a classic 1960s Indian movie Parasmani. The set decor for the movie was inspired by ancient Indian art, artifacts and decoration.. Absolute delight to watch. This particular song from the movie that brings my idea of paradise to life. Shots taken from YouTube from the song. The movie name Parasmani, 1963. This is the song The beautiful print on the floor adds to the overall decor. Swan shaped structures on the stage with huge pearls embedded in them..where did they get these ideas? The dance sequences and Stage art take me to another time and place in Indian history Set decorations of the movie song. They probably put a lot of thought into this. The sun and the stars and moon and clouds in the background combined with beautiful shapely structures adorned with glitter. The movie because of its bad image quality of 1960s actually does not reflect the real beauty of the set but I can only imagine how it must have looked like in real. Terrific and splendid. Splendid colors used in every scene. Beautiful dance sequences Beautiful makeup and jewelry. The ultimate beautiful touch being the sun and the clouds and the moon at the back of the God statue creating a beautiful panoramic view

How will paradise look like in my eyes. It will be full of art and color everywhere. Beauty. Swans and ducks in large ponds surrounded by large magnificent fountains. Children laughing and giggling Huge stages as dance floors with beautiful women dancing and laughing. Wearing jewelry and headresses. The utensils are made of precious porcelain and shining metal, decorated with great art and beautiful shapes. Beautiful pillars that adorn the stage with wings and Swan neck structures. Walls shine with gold, glitter and gems. Moon in the sky shines on the stage at night. Some peacocks quietly dancing around and some deer. Like it's shown in old Indian movies Everything should look splendid. This is how paradise should look like I get this inspiration from a classic 1960s Indian movie Parasmani. The set decor for the movie was inspired by ancient Indian art, artifacts and decoration.. Absolute delight to watch. This particular song from the movie that brings my idea of paradise to life. The dance sequences and Stage art take me to another time and place in Indian history This dance pose is so beautiful. Shots taken from YouTube from the song. Set decorations of the movie song. They probably put a lot of thought into this. The sun and the stars and moon and clouds in the background combined with beautiful shapely structures adorned with glitter. The movie because of its bad image quality of 1960s actually does not reflect the real beauty of the set but I can only imagine how it must have looked like in real. Terrific and splendid.

A prayer from my heart Lord, I’m weary. My energy is sagging, and my motivation is lagging. And I am so in need of you. I need your strength and your fresh touch to get back on track again. Your Word says the joy of the Lord is my strength. If that's true, then I need your joy to replace all the bone-tired parts of my mind, body, and soul. The pressures of life sometimes push me into a corner, rendering me helpless to move forward. A hundred voices call my name, and I feel paralyzed at times to answer not knowing where to turn. Lord, help me not to quit to keep running the race faithfully, and to find strength in that safe, secret place of yours, under the shadow of the Almighty I need your strength to say no when I'm tempted to surrender to harmful things, or when selfishness clings to my clothes and won't let go. I need your strength to say yes, when cowardice and fear nudge me to deny the convictions of my heart. I need your strength to reach out in love to those both close to me and all around me. When don't I need your strength, God? You are my rock, and I run to you today, believing that you will lift up my heavy arms, that you will fuel me for the tasks you have given me, and that your joy will completely consume the weakness of my life and make me strong again. I don't want to stay grounded crippled by limitations and failed attempts. I'm tired of feeble efforts. Lord, I want to mount up with wings like an eagle and not just fly. I want to soar.

So my God character set is now complete with all the values as well as the archetypes. Of course, deities, values, archetypes, statues, representations had a huge value in ancient cultures.

But there is this thing In my opinion, love and compassion is also a truth. Manhood and righteousness is also a truth. Justice is also a part of truth. So I will collectively call it truth. So now I'm left with truth, courage and beauty. This is the final trinity.

So this is the model I developed of a double trinity since a single trinity wasn't sufficient to hold all the values

Made my own character set of gods, goddesses, devils and angels. God Goddess Angel Devil

I have created the term general human culture of GHC to define all human societies together. And I have begun to hate general human culture GHC. Because it pollutes, subverts, perverts, bastardizes, corrupts and demonizes everything that can be good in the world Looks at everything with a narrow crooked closed minded lens

I think I'm going to go for the ancient God Nimrod or Nimrud. This one resonates with me, the image.