Preety_India

One of the things that I have found difficult is the fear that has conditioned into me through childhood violence. She created deep fear in me. It's difficult because to this day, that same fear completely controls my every aspect of life. I hate it because yesterday I tried to hide something from her and lost that object today. It's frustrating because this is just not the person i want to be . I just was never the person who would lose anything.

Everytime I feel like I'm getting close to it, right in that moment I get thrown far away from actually achieving it.

Yea i get that point. But the society was even more judgemental before western influence.

It seems you're the one who cares a bit more than me. Maybe you need to take time off and focus on other things than ruminate on what others do with their time.

The masculine has rejected femininity because in most cultures masculine is considered superior to feminine.as a result the masculine has forgotten to become the container for the feminine. The masculine is the container and the feminine is the contained. Without the container the feminine feels deprived, starved, hungry and unfulfilled ,so there is no relationship. The feminine eventually starts rejecting the masculine to avoid getting hurt and continues on it's own journey as a single woman and seeks satisfaction within.

I'm getting some satanism lessons. Just noting down hurriedly.

Agree with this. I'm getting sick of the modern narrative .

One thing I promise myself is that I'll always stay real no matter what Although there is a price to pay, I'll still stay real. Because I have faith in something higher than me. I know deep down there is love inside of me. And love is not fake.

I'm still going through shit.

I was murmuring "true connection, deep connection" in sleep. I guess my spirit is starved and hungry for a deep connection

1st slab.

@kray women goddesses are namesake. In reality women are treated worse than animals. Practices like sati existed even before colonialism. It's the colonials who actually got rid of it.. Please don't fly it in my face that women in ancient India were treated so nice. No. Hinduism is deeply misogynistic towards women. There are temples where women are not allowed.

2nd slab

It's not a bad thing. It could be a survival strategy or a way to consciously separate themselves from from other groups so that they don't get mixed up or influenced. It can lead to Elitism but this is something to be expected if you genuinely believed you had superior ideas. Also, it has a sense of meaning and purpose to it because if everyone was chosen,then it wouldn't make sense to have this theory in the first place as to why they are rewarded for being aligned with God as opposed to those who aren't. Then why will they do something different if the outcome is going to be the same for all? Is it racist? Not exactly because it's not based on race and I wouldn't call it discriminatory as long as it doesn't hurt the survival of other groups. You have to look at the "meaning" aspect of it rather than the racist aspect of it.

So Joseph came in my dreams again and he was advising me on something. That was kinda weird

Security, rape, violence, stalking, fuckboys, incompatibility, needy guys, obsession, control issues, casual sex requests, (fear of being broken hearted after giving over trust to a man by being emotionally involved with him), having to deal with players. Insecurity of getting bonded and dumped. Abandonment, fear of being cheated on.

The 3rd slab The third slab is people who are negatively psychologically disordered. Now these are the most controversial people.

Let's study these categories in detail. The 4th slab Those who come on property to claim it. Those who show aggression. Those who weaken the system. Those who prey. These are destructive elements, spawn of Satan. Their God is immorality and decadence. They are the ones who put the Christ on the cross and laughed and mocked and spat on divine virtue. They are without mercy. They destroy anything and everything that is good and spread filth everywhere. They are anti-god, they are anti-roman, they are anti-divine. Another name for these is Diluvians. They spread like weed all over the garden. They come like a deluge and flood the place with monstrosity, decaying and degradation of morals. They take over and turn everything to pieces and ash. They feed on the misery of the feeble and the suffering, they are happy to see the good being destroyed. They love the misery of others. They come from the lake of poison and they are full of toxins. They toxify the system. Basically these are criminals, the lowest of the low, pure scum.

From this I come to the conclusion that good people cannot really thrive in this world, only Smarties can. Negatively psychologically disordered people Positively psychologically disordered people Criminals without conscience Smarties The thing is whenever we think of psychological disorders, we usually think of it in a negative context. And obviously because people with psychological disorders tend to cause others harm. They can be stalkers and psychos. Yet we never think of a positive psychological disorder. That's the key. People who are not of this world, they are psychic, HSP and Empathetic, those who are deep seekers and divers, those who are divine selves, deeper selves, those who have Divinity, those who are Roman, those who are organic, those who are spiritual, those are devoted to God and live in love, those who are genuine in the heart and operate from their heart, these people are not normal, at the same time this is not a bad thing that they are not normal, it's just that they are different from the crowds. They are authentic. They are not fake "sweet." They simply do not want to betray their conscience. These people are positively psychologically disordered. PPD = positively psychologically disordered Society is still going to treat them as misfits. They are not there to get at someone. If at all their energy is only loving and Empathetic. They won't harm like the negatively psychologically disordered. But they can't fit into the dishonest system and schema of the world. Hence they are sidelined, kicked and generally treated with disdain and discarded into the same bin as the negatively psychologically disordered. But these are people with pure hearts. But they can't impress the narcissists of the world. The 4th slab in the society hierarchy of the world are the Criminals, they are the lowest of the low. The third slab is those of negatively psychologically disordered. They cause harm and are generally considered unproductive or looked with contempt. Not all of them are harmful but some like psycho stalkers and violent individuals can be. They can commit crimes but not out of greed. They are not attuned to worldly selfishness so they squander their lives by their own madness and lack of wisdom and put themselves into trouble and suffer and die. In a way they are innocent because they are not like Smarties, they don't know that they are causing their own suffering since maybe they are selfless in their hearts but disordered in mind. These may or may not be bad people but they will never get a chance to improve since society will look at them with fear and derision. They will cause their own misery by eventually landing in jail or asylum. Are they innocent? May or may not be. The Second slab belongs to the good people The first slab is the Smarties. They are highly successful but cold and calculated. They rule the world.

You are a troll who makes multiple accounts and now you are trolling me in this account but you won't succeed at trolling me, I laugh at your lameness. I also know who you are. And you won't succeed. Try a bit harder with your devilry. You try hard to get my attention but you won't get it no matter what you do. I'm strong and courageous. One day your bad karma will come to you. You'll be exposed and you will suffer consequences of your actions.

From this I came to the conclusion that good people are somewhat eccentric. And they

So I came up with this theory, that people who are true and have a genuine heart can't be of this world. They have to have some Divinity in them. Also these people are worshippers of love and kindness. They can't fit into the selfish plan. They can't be like regular normal people These people have to be hippies, rebels, poets, spiritual seekers, freedom lovers, tree huggers, witches, worshippers, devotees and generally "considered unfit or misfit" kind of people. They would be somewhat mad, unable to create a perfect scheme in life, floating around like particles, they would have to be somewhat crazy, madd-ish, a bit out of touch with reality, illogical, a bit overly emotional, sentimental, naive, child like, innocent, pure hearted, sincere, affectionate, loving, kind, merciful, truth lovers, brave, peaceful, nomadic, introverted unusual, people with no sense of reality, people with no agenda.

Continuing in the same spirit. You can't be two people at once. You either do things selfishly or you do things by your heart. So if you do things selfishly, the more you do it, the more callous, cold hearted, psychopathic you become. The more you do by your heart the more innocent you become. A week ago I had decided to get rid of this place. And today is APRIL 1. The world is full of Smarties.

I want to have this cat girl avatar. A cat girl forever.

The fundamental truth is that you can't be two people at the same time. So if you operate from the heart, you have to give up the brain. You can't have a child like innocence and also a psychopathic brain. They don't go together. You can't be innocent, period.. You couldn't be. You can't carefully plan things to serve your purpose and also get to play innocent. Because you simply aren't.