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You can't afford to be around toxic people especially in intimate relationships in the hopes of improving them or saving them. Because toxic people are like a quagmire, a pit. You are with them, then you fall into that pit and dragged down with them. In a way they don't change at all, but end up destroying your potential as well. It's okay to be around them if they are not intimate with you, for example an office colleague so you spend less time with them. But in any case, a toxic person is always going to be a problem. The only solution for such people is institutional help and I have been thinking about this for the longest time. That's the word I came up with "institutional help".. Which means there should be specific institutions set up in society just to deal with them and help them change.

Some women want a lot of attention and sympathy. They will do anything for it Damsel in distress syndrome.

I had a dream last night and it was about movies. These were like franchise movies with titles like fish men lies 1,fish men lies 2 What the heck lol

Eventually the girl gets tired and gives up. I used to do that to one of my exes. Paying his bills. It gets old after a while. And trust me these guys aren't any good. They are not like grateful or nice in return. He used to make me feel guilty for making money and having a bigger house. He was extremely insecure. He wasn't feeling guilty that he depended on me. I was supposed to feel guilty for having more.. So it was upside down logic. Such men are awful. They have deep Insecurities. They prey on the woman, not just for money, but they are very exploitative... It would have been a different thing if he was my husband and cooperative and wonderful. I would have had absolutely no problem in supporting him financially. But I will break it down to you. This is how it works basically. He leeches on the girlfriend. At the same time he is not able to admit that he lives off her. Then he suffers internal guilt as a result of his own Insecurities. He doesn't take responsibility for his own insecurities. Instead he takes these insecurities to harass the girlfriend and make her the target of his problems by constantly attacking her success and putting her down every opportunity he gets. That's the profile of such men in general. Any girl who thinks that such a relationship will pan out successful will be in for a rude shock as the relationship moves forward. These are not the guys who are looking for Equality or appreciative of women doing better. They just need some women who they can be with so that they don't need to do a thing in the relationship and put all responsibilities on the other person meanwhile also abusing the other person. Women who don't work and have their husbands providing for them at least have a sense of respect towards their husbands. They are proud of them. I can compare the "dependent man" relationship to a nagging entitled woman in a marriage where the man makes the money meanwhile she always nags at him and puts him down and hounds him with her insecurities instead of being grateful. These men are usually like that. They are a complete no no. Theoretically I don't have a problem with who pays in relationship, it can be either of the two or both. But in reality things are very different. The guys who depend on the girl aren't the ones who you would think would be grateful and nice. They are opposite of your ideals and notions. These are horribly insecure men. They are miserable themselves and they try to make their partner lives miserable as well. So they are not simply financial leeches. They also leech on your inner peace and sanity. Like energy vampires. I finally got freedom from my leech ex and it was a terribly abusive relationship. In fact it was the most abusive relationship out of all of my relationships. An insecure man is the worst nightmare.

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Terms used Hevvembe deghe zinzinin pagussa viggibih viggibu

Eagle Mountain Spiritual Prayer Prayer God, give us your love I come to you in faith Bring me your light Help me walk on your path Provide us with your food Provide us with your love and joy With your wisdom and knowledge May we live by your laws By your truth May we live in your divinity This is my prayer I ask for your abundance For your protection May your intelligence guide me May your blessings be upon me May your compassion save me May I Rejoice in prosperousness I have deep faith in you May I live by your hope May I be filled with your wholesomeness May I be renewed by your forgiveness May your kindness and mercy be upon me May your strength empower me May your food strengthen me May your potion nourish me May your justice honor me May I Rejoice in fruitfulness May your healing restore me May your grace be upon me May I be welcome in your eternal embrace

The Patumba Ocean Meditator Art

The Patumba Ocean Meditator Art

The Patumba man/woman in meditation The Patumba Ocean Meditator

To care for them genuinely.

Divine rituals of the Patumba Making divine food The Patumba will make divine food in large round jars that will look like a fruit spread. It will be fermented fruit pulp with spices. The fruits chosen will be divine fruits, the unique magical fruits only found in Patumba Cove And the salt used will be divine salt found in certain parts of the cove near the shores. This dish will be called zinzinin Supplication Charity Evening divine Fest. This will be called Hevvembe Dancing around the bonfire with spiritual music. Spirit entertainment. Sprinkling spiritual water The spiritual water will be called deghe. Visualization Renunciation Prayers There is nothing like a separate family in Patumba. Everyone is one tribe. Children are raised by everyone. One family is not separate from another Once every few days the Patumba will gather in small groups where some family members will be present along with someone from other families. And they will discuss their issues and problems within the family. This can even take place within the family at dinner time or by specially appointing some members of the tribe and they will sit together for dinner or simply at a table and discuss their issues. All sorts of issues will be open for discussion and problem solving. They want to make sure that nobody feels left out or isolated or vulnerable. During this ceremony or occasion, all members will recite prayers for the persons who told their issues and problems and try to help and support the person or persons in whatever way possible. This kind of gathering will be called pagussa. Financial problems will never exist in Patumba because there will be no money, only barter system. The main focus of the Patumba will be on fulfillment and contentment and peace in life. Living a life in love and joy and in the service of God. Most people who will express their issues will probably have issues that are mental, emotional or psychological and or heath related or relationship struggles. The groups will continue to pray every few days for the "members with problems" and continue to check on their progress and welfare every few days.. So that they don't fall through the cracks and so that their problems are eventually resolved. Another most important spiritual practice of the Patumba will be about holding a distinct ceremony or ritual every morning and afternoon and many times or as many times as you wish throughout the day and at night before bedtime. It will be a way of opening and closing the day. This ritual will involve spells and casting spells, prayers, incantations and chanting, meditation and contemplation and visualization and humming and basically connecting with the inner spirit and connecting with the different Patumba Gods and connecting with the Universe.. This ritual will help in creating a proper, energized, productive flow throughout the day.. And it will be very peaceful at night. It will bring calmness and peace and joy and love to the person who engages in it. Mostly it will be a celebratory ritual, more about happiness but it can be improvised anyhow depending on the mental state of the person who is praying or engaging in this ritual. It can be sad or an expression of sadness during moments of sadness example during a mourning period. This spiritual prayer ritual will be called viggibih. Pronounced as "weeejeeebeee" A small bottle containing honey will be placed in the hand as a symbol to start viggibih These bottles will be called viggibu Terms used Hevvembe deghe zinzinin pagussa viggibih viggibu

Patumba people will use pottery that will look this

Eagle Mountain Spiritual Prayer Prayer God, give us your love I come to you in faith Bring me your light Help me walk on your path Provide us with your food Provide us with your love and joy With your wisdom and knowledge May we live by your laws By your truth May we live in your divinity This is my prayer I ask for your abundance For your protection May your intelligence guide me May your blessings be upon me May your compassion save me May I Rejoice in prosperousness I have deep faith in you May I live by your hope May I be filled with your wholesomeness May I be renewed by your forgiveness May your kindness and mercy be upon me May your strength empower me May your food strengthen me May your potion nourish me May your justice honor me May I Rejoice in fruitfulness May your healing restore me May your grace be upon me May I be welcome in your eternal embrace

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Part 1

This is the part 2 of my self exploration journal.

I have a bipolar mother and my ex was a bipolar. Certain characteristics that I noticed about them. Certain observations. They easily flip Their mood swings are not like common people

I should be in some deep dark hole of the world just bleeding to death and dying. Because the world never loved me and never accepted me. I was treated like a piece of shit since the day I was born. I'm just a workhorse for my mom. She doesn't give a fuck if I was tired or sick or crying or dead. Nobody gives one fuck about me. Everybody wants what they want. There is no hope for me. I pray to God that he take me away. I saw too much pain in my little life Maybe God should unite me with my dad who was the only who actually cared about me but is dead